Chapter 4
He backed away. He took a good long look at me and leaned in to kiss me. I pulled away. He grabbed me with more force and put his rough unrelenting lips against mine.
He pulled back and let go of me. Then he walked out the door and left.
I made sure he was gone and dialed Elena.
"Yo, Ice. I know you love me an' all but..."
"Elena! H-he was here!"
"Who? Xander? Get yo' freak on girl!"
"No! HIM! You gotta come home. Now!"
"She gasped. Aiight...a-aiight. I'm on my way!"
10 minutes later I heard tires screech as Elena's car pulled in the driveway. She burst in the front door. I was in a corner with my eyes wide and red. She came over and examined me.
"Ay, mami...you okay baby? Did he touch you? Is he gone?" She looked around wide eyed.
"Yeah I'm okay. No, he just made me kiss him." At the thought I got up and ran to the bathroom and puked. I came out after I had rinsed my mouth with water and Listerine.
"How did he get this number?"
"I dunno...all he said was 'friends of friends of friends'."
"Impossible. No one has this number. ICE! Did you give ya digits to loverboy?"
"No! I gave him my cell number."
"Ok. Well, start packin'. We gettin outta this bitch."
After we packed we filled both our cars up. We hooked up both our cell phones to the car charger so they will always be working, and after everything was set I stood in our apartment. I was so pissed off for him making us move. All those adjustments we made to our rooms. My job! I loved my job! I loved the beach! I loved being so close to home. Son of a b---- betta rot in hell for this. Our names getting changed cost money, plus I loved my new name. I had gotten used to it like it was my real one. Plus, it had an edge. Who was ever gonna forget the name Ice? Suddenly, a thought popped in my head. Xander!
"Elena, I'm so fuckin' sick of movin'. I ain't going anywhere dammit. I like this life, I like our house, I like our friends, I ain't movin' just cuz he decides to show up. F--- him!"
She grabbed my shoulders and looked me sternly in the eyes. "We gotta bounce. Get it together. We can find other jobs, other houses, other cars. Those are just things. Our lives and the lives of everyone we interact are much more important."
"Well, can I just go see someone for the last time?" I looked at her hopefully. She was the only one who I truly cared about like family and she was the only one who ever saw me this vulnerable. The only person who's opinion I cared about. She was my sister. Anyone else and I would've done what I wanted to do. But putting my life at stake meant putting hers at stake and I wasn't going to let that happen.
"Aiight. You got five minutes. Let's roll."
We stopped at Xander's house after he gave me directions through the cell phone. He was standing outside when we got there.
I ran out. When I got up to him he had a worried look.
"What's with all the stuff? Where you goin'." He was glancing back and forth and following me with his eyebrows furrowed.
"Look, Xander we gotta talk."
"Aiight." We went to his backyard, which was the shore.
"Ok.I just came to tell you that I'm moving."
"What! Where?"
"I dunno."
"Whatcha mean you don't know?"
"Look there's a lot of things I can't tell you right now but, what I can tell you is that I had fun with you. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but for me it is. I don't know how you feel about me but..." He pulled me close and he kissed me interrupting me and my scrambled thoughts.
"Ok. That explains a lot. Well, I feel the same about you. I don't think it's love. I'm not ready for that, but I do feel affection. That's something worth telling you. At least for me. There's a lot about me you don't know. You probably never will and it's for your own good."
"What good? I ain't scared of nothing. If it's life threatening I don't care. Life threatening is what I live for."
"Not this kind of life threatening, you don't. It's dangerous for you to be around me."
"Listen, Ice while you're being so open with me, I gotta tell you about myself. I'm not who you think I am. Well, I am but..."
We were interrupted by Elena's car horn.
"I gotta go Xander. I kissed him on the cheek. I promise this ain't forever."
A tear rolled down my cheek for the first time in years as I walked towards my car.
Author: Ok. This is gettin' weirder and weirder. How did bleep get her number and how did he know where they lived. What's going to happen between Ice and Xander if they move? Oh and the same ol' question. What is Xander keeping from her? And who was he talking to? What is the truth about Xander? Where will they go?
He backed away. He took a good long look at me and leaned in to kiss me. I pulled away. He grabbed me with more force and put his rough unrelenting lips against mine.
He pulled back and let go of me. Then he walked out the door and left.
I made sure he was gone and dialed Elena.
"Yo, Ice. I know you love me an' all but..."
"Elena! H-he was here!"
"Who? Xander? Get yo' freak on girl!"
"No! HIM! You gotta come home. Now!"
"She gasped. Aiight...a-aiight. I'm on my way!"
10 minutes later I heard tires screech as Elena's car pulled in the driveway. She burst in the front door. I was in a corner with my eyes wide and red. She came over and examined me.
"Ay, mami...you okay baby? Did he touch you? Is he gone?" She looked around wide eyed.
"Yeah I'm okay. No, he just made me kiss him." At the thought I got up and ran to the bathroom and puked. I came out after I had rinsed my mouth with water and Listerine.
"How did he get this number?"
"I dunno...all he said was 'friends of friends of friends'."
"Impossible. No one has this number. ICE! Did you give ya digits to loverboy?"
"No! I gave him my cell number."
"Ok. Well, start packin'. We gettin outta this bitch."
After we packed we filled both our cars up. We hooked up both our cell phones to the car charger so they will always be working, and after everything was set I stood in our apartment. I was so pissed off for him making us move. All those adjustments we made to our rooms. My job! I loved my job! I loved the beach! I loved being so close to home. Son of a b---- betta rot in hell for this. Our names getting changed cost money, plus I loved my new name. I had gotten used to it like it was my real one. Plus, it had an edge. Who was ever gonna forget the name Ice? Suddenly, a thought popped in my head. Xander!
"Elena, I'm so fuckin' sick of movin'. I ain't going anywhere dammit. I like this life, I like our house, I like our friends, I ain't movin' just cuz he decides to show up. F--- him!"
She grabbed my shoulders and looked me sternly in the eyes. "We gotta bounce. Get it together. We can find other jobs, other houses, other cars. Those are just things. Our lives and the lives of everyone we interact are much more important."
"Well, can I just go see someone for the last time?" I looked at her hopefully. She was the only one who I truly cared about like family and she was the only one who ever saw me this vulnerable. The only person who's opinion I cared about. She was my sister. Anyone else and I would've done what I wanted to do. But putting my life at stake meant putting hers at stake and I wasn't going to let that happen.
"Aiight. You got five minutes. Let's roll."
We stopped at Xander's house after he gave me directions through the cell phone. He was standing outside when we got there.
I ran out. When I got up to him he had a worried look.
"What's with all the stuff? Where you goin'." He was glancing back and forth and following me with his eyebrows furrowed.
"Look, Xander we gotta talk."
"Aiight." We went to his backyard, which was the shore.
"Ok.I just came to tell you that I'm moving."
"What! Where?"
"I dunno."
"Whatcha mean you don't know?"
"Look there's a lot of things I can't tell you right now but, what I can tell you is that I had fun with you. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but for me it is. I don't know how you feel about me but..." He pulled me close and he kissed me interrupting me and my scrambled thoughts.
"Ok. That explains a lot. Well, I feel the same about you. I don't think it's love. I'm not ready for that, but I do feel affection. That's something worth telling you. At least for me. There's a lot about me you don't know. You probably never will and it's for your own good."
"What good? I ain't scared of nothing. If it's life threatening I don't care. Life threatening is what I live for."
"Not this kind of life threatening, you don't. It's dangerous for you to be around me."
"Listen, Ice while you're being so open with me, I gotta tell you about myself. I'm not who you think I am. Well, I am but..."
We were interrupted by Elena's car horn.
"I gotta go Xander. I kissed him on the cheek. I promise this ain't forever."
A tear rolled down my cheek for the first time in years as I walked towards my car.
Author: Ok. This is gettin' weirder and weirder. How did bleep get her number and how did he know where they lived. What's going to happen between Ice and Xander if they move? Oh and the same ol' question. What is Xander keeping from her? And who was he talking to? What is the truth about Xander? Where will they go?