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In a few days I was up and about again. Madame Pomfrey let me take the baby with me. I kept it in a little baby basket near my bed. The very first night, though, the baby started wailing in its sleep. Of course, that woke up everyone including myself, and I had to quickly grab her and take her outside to calm her down. She wouldn't shut up for ten minutes so I went downstairs to the common room with her in my arms. Eventually we both fell asleep in front of the glowing embers that were what was left of the fire.
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"Had some trouble last night, Mione?" was what I woke up to. I opened an eye to see Ginny standing above me, a small grin upon her face. "It even woke me up".
"Oh, God," I replied, keeping my eyes closed. I was exhausted.
"Look, I'll take care of her while you get yourself ready," Ginny said, picking up Ginevra and helping me out of the chair.
I smiled in thanks and slowly made my way to the girls' dormitories.
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I luckily made it through breakfast and my first few classes without any interruptions from Ginevra, but halfway through History of Magic, my lucky streak ended. Ginevra started to cry hysterically. I resented the fact that I had to bring her to every one of my classes.
"Ssshh!" I hissed at her.
Professor Binns barely even noticed as I grabbed the baby and rushed out of the classroom. I re-entered it a few minutes later, receiving stares and pitiful expressions from my fellow classmates. I wasn't surprised.
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I spent that evening in my dormitory with Ginevra, staying with her while she slept to make sure she didn't wake up and start screaming again. The rest of the Gryffindor students hung out having a semi-party in the common room. I tried to block their laughter out of my ears. I envied them and their normal life.
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The next day was similar; I had to leave another one of my classes- this time it was Potions, which was extremely scary - because of Ginevra, and I was exhausted by the end of the day. Even so, I was thrilled and grateful when Ginny offered to take care of the baby so I could relax and have fun with my friends in the common room.
"Oh, Ginny, thank you so much!" I cried, throwing my arms around her neck. "You don't know how much this means to me!"
Ginny smiled. "No problem. Hey, what are friends for?".
"You're more than a friend. You're an angel".
I went downstairs to the common room and sat down in a chair next to Ron and Harry.
"Hi," I said happily.
"What's gotten you so happy?" Harry asked.
"Ginny agreed to take care of Ginevra for the evening so I could spend time with some friends I haven't really hung out with in a while," I explained, trying to make eye contact with Ron, as much as it hurt.
"That was nice of her," Harry said with a smile. "Oh, it looks like Neville is having trouble with his Potions homework. I'll go see if I can help him out".
So Ron and I were alone. What a surprise. I didn't know what to say, so I kept my mouth shut and stared at my bitten down fingernails. But finally he spoke, breaking the awkward silence that was engulfing us, despite the fact that people were laughing and talking loudly all around us.
"I'm sorry, Hermione," he said, almost whispering.
I looked up. He was staring at his hands, which were clasped together tightly, knuckles white.
"Sorry for what?" I asked.
"Yelling at you and not being friendly with you and just the way that I've been treating you for the past few months," Ron said, still staring at his hands.
"You have nothing to apologize about, Ron," I said. "I should be apologizing. I'm so, so sorry for everything I've done. I know I've said this, and I know there's nothing I can do or say to make you feel any better inside, but I just want you to know that I feel terribly, and if you want to ignore me for the rest of your life, you're allowed to. I'll understand".
Ron smiled. It was a small smile, but it still was a smile. "So you had sex with Malfoy, big deal," Ron said. "I'm going to have to be a big boy about it and just face the facts. Life's a bitch sometimes, but I'm going to have to get through it. I know it will take a lot of willpower and time, but I'm going to make myself do it. I still cant get over the fact that you had sex with Malfoy, but," he shrugged, "it was a mistake, and I'll accept your apology".
"Thanks," I said, my voice barely a whisper, but my smile huge. I wanted to give him a hug to sort of seal the deal, and restart what would hopefully be a friendship, but then I thought maybe it would make Ron uncomfortable. Suddenly he reached across his chair and pulled me into a hug. It was the best one I'd had in a while.
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The next day I entered Transfiguration tired from a loud night before. I noticed M- Draco eyeing Ginevra and then quickly looking away. I took my seat and shortly into the lesson, the baby burst into tears. I sighed and reluctantly took her out of her little baby carrier basket and left the room, catching a pitiful look from McGonagall as I did so.
"Please be quiet!" I moaned, shaking her lightly. My voice echoed through the empty hallway, intertwined with her screams and wails. Suddenly the door to the classroom opened and Malfoy emerged.
"McGonagall said I should help you with the- er, Ginevra, seeing as that I am the father," he explained.
"Take her," I breathed, thrusting the baby into his arms. He looked startled.
"What do I do?" he asked.
I shrugged and leaned against the cold, marble wall, my eyes closed. I breathed deeply. Ginevra quieted down a bit.
"It must be hard," Draco said quietly, almost as though he didn't even want me to hear him say it.
I nodded. "It is".
"Well, don't think I don't have to deal with it, either," Draco said, obviously trying to sound consoling. I raised an eyebrow. "Well, I don't have to deal with it as badly as you do, but people still think of me differently, now that I've... had a baby with a mudblood".
I sighed and stood up straight. "Is that still all that you think of me as?" I asked.
"No," he replied, "That's what they think of you as. I think of you as Hermione, the girl I hate to admit my feelings about, but I can't really help the fact that I like her as more than just someone I have to spend time with because we... share offspring".
A smile crept up my face. "You like me?" I responded doubtfully.
"Well, why do you think I slept with you in the first place?" he asked.
I grinned and even giggled a bit. Then I leaned in to hug him. It was awkward, with Ginevra in the middle, but it still had the same meaning. I looked up at him and he leaned in to kiss me. I felt his lips brush against mine but then I turned away. I had to admit that I had feelings for him, but I still wasn't ready to kiss him. I still had feelings for Ron, feelings besides just sadness and guilt.
"Sorry," Draco said, leaning back.
I took Ginevra back and re-entered the classroom.
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A/N: Did you like that chapter? I'm not sure if I'm happy with the ending but I'm kind of in a hurry to go to bed... it's midnight And also I sort of felt like I should end it like that, with a slight air of mystery ;) Anyway, review, PLEASE :D and tell me what you think of everything that went on in this chapter...
