~ I'll wait for you ~
A/N: It's late, and I don't know what else to write. My first story anyway, so criticize all you want. I might only have Vol. 2 of Gravitation, but that doesn't mean I can't let my fantasy go, now does it? Read and Review, pretty please with a cherry and whatever else you want on top.
Disclaimer: Que? No Comprendo. Sure, so to avoid lawsuits, if my name isn't at the bottom, that should tell you I'm not the creator. And if I'm mentioned in the Copyright, then there is some good left in the world. For the politically correct: Me no owning 'Gravitation', nor 'Audioslave'. Go figure.
And I don' t know what the rating should be, because my friends and advisories wanted more graphic stuff, but this is just the beginning if to be continued at all. Another reason for reviews. ~+~
~Alone~
~+~
Suichi stood on the stage, all eyes set on him, full of anticipation. Hiro was behind him for support, this was to be his first song by himself.
Though he could feel the crowd, he was singing for one person in particular. The one who had captured his heart, and dropped it too many times to accept. Suichi had ended it, yet here they stood in the same place, but on separate grounds.
'This is it', he thought to himself. Taking a deep breath he made his final choice. If Yuki wouldn't talk to him in private, he would hear this song thanks to all of the speakers in this Stadium. Shuichi gritted his teeth, slowly finding his courage, and gave Hiro the signal to start with the rest of the group.
Tapping it out mentally, one last glance at the expecting pale blue eyes under the blonde hair, staring at him with a dull shimmer of something. Regret?
Too late to turn back now.
Three-two-one-
~ On a cobweb afternoon
In a room of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages ~
Suichi risked looking up once, holding his breath, feeling colder inside than on the outside. Yuki kept a steady gaze on him, very much hearing each of his words, his meaning. His fears of each love held dear being spoken.
'Why couldn't you have just listened to me?' Suichi thought sadly, but the audience only took it for part of how he sang. In secret he still adored Yuki, wanted to hold him.
~ Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
And if we're good we'll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go ~
Yuki faltered for a moment, Suichi saw it out of the corner of his eyes. He was ready to go and tell him he was sorry, not caring if anyone else saw how he fell into hysterics. But Yuki's gaze gave him the clear warning ::Don't you dare:: Suichi just shivered and continued on. At least Suichi knew he remembered when he had seen him in the park that day.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
Suichi began shivering even more, the night wind bringing back painful memories as he continued on. But even when Yuki teased him, when he yelled at him, it was still part of something special they had shared. That night, when Yuki had changed his whole life, his being.
~ On my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven ~
Something shattered in his mind. Suichi had often left traces of blood in Yuki's house, but he could never explain it to him. Out of fear of rejection, being denied, unwanted, unloved, maybe even hated. He could never have told Yuki. This was a silent plea only he could answer.
~ To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The win was bled
And there you led me on ~
It had probably been a month since Suichi had last been at Yuki's house, but he didn't want to feel that loathsome gaze upon him anymore. He wanted a tenderness, a gentle touch which Yuki couldn't give. He was rough, fast, and took what he could. And though he tried to deny it, Suichi's heart knew it and couldn't continue on like that anymore. The kisses, the touches, it was too much to return to. Temptation called, and temptation is what brought the world down.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
Yuki had to rub his eyes, though not making it very obvious. But something in his gestures told Suichi he wanted him back. He wanted to hold him again, wanted to caress him and give him little affectionate touches tastes. Suichi had that guitar moment to pause, to think, to find something deep inside him. A truth they had to answer each other before their gazes separated.
But exactly like that first day Suichi met him, Yuki's eyes captured him in that entrancing look that had made him forget all so many times before. That same way when it had scared him after having become his lover. It scared him once again, but awoke a hope inside him. He gave himself a mental slap, his other part of the mind notifying him he'd about missed his entrance.
~ And on I read
Until the day was gone
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I'd done ~
Maybe even the song in itself had been the apology he had been looking for. He didn't want to leave Yuki, but he couldn't stay with him any longer. Yet now, their separate grounds seemed to slowly merge on a plain only they could see, excluding the rest of the world.
~ For all that I've blessed
For all that I've wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wonder on ~
This would be the last thing he would ever do if it came to making a decision for himself. He couldn't let himself go on like this, knowing he needed to make the choice of going of staying. He had always been welcomed in Yuki's house, but there had also been a warning inside him. That warning died that day he had laid in pain on Yuki's mattress, still crying in pain, but with the promise in his heart.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
It ended. The song, the concert, but the crowd still clapped and cheered on, as if this would always go on. Suichi knew in himself that all things would end one day, it just depended on how soon.
Yuki came up to him after the concert and Hiro had left, riding home after being reassured Suichi would be fine alone.
"Well?" he asked, gazing down in that same hypnotizing manner that had captivated Suichi so many times before.
He inhaled, leaning against the wall for extra support. His mind was slowly beginning to wander, his violet gaze slowly clouding over.
Yuki's caress against hischeek brought him back to earth, that same touch that made him feel owned. He wasn't free anymore, like a bird with clipped wings, he sat in a cage.
Suichi hung his head, tears welling in his eyes, not knowing exactly how to answer him anymore. But he remembered his decision, the choice he had made on stage. He breathed it out low, the sound almost impossible to hear.
But Yuki understood, nodded, and held him fast, giving him the kiss that left Suichi scattered.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone
~+~
A/N: I had planned on letting this be a one-shot fic, but after asking some friends for suggestions and opinions, they said it should be continued. There is a reason I didn't write down the answer, and it's because you're supposed to tell me whether Suichi said 'Yes I'm coming back', or 'No, I'm leaving you'. At least ten reviews please to give me an idea of how I should write this and if I should even continue it. Thank you very much!
~C.S.
A/N: It's late, and I don't know what else to write. My first story anyway, so criticize all you want. I might only have Vol. 2 of Gravitation, but that doesn't mean I can't let my fantasy go, now does it? Read and Review, pretty please with a cherry and whatever else you want on top.
Disclaimer: Que? No Comprendo. Sure, so to avoid lawsuits, if my name isn't at the bottom, that should tell you I'm not the creator. And if I'm mentioned in the Copyright, then there is some good left in the world. For the politically correct: Me no owning 'Gravitation', nor 'Audioslave'. Go figure.
And I don' t know what the rating should be, because my friends and advisories wanted more graphic stuff, but this is just the beginning if to be continued at all. Another reason for reviews. ~+~
~Alone~
~+~
Suichi stood on the stage, all eyes set on him, full of anticipation. Hiro was behind him for support, this was to be his first song by himself.
Though he could feel the crowd, he was singing for one person in particular. The one who had captured his heart, and dropped it too many times to accept. Suichi had ended it, yet here they stood in the same place, but on separate grounds.
'This is it', he thought to himself. Taking a deep breath he made his final choice. If Yuki wouldn't talk to him in private, he would hear this song thanks to all of the speakers in this Stadium. Shuichi gritted his teeth, slowly finding his courage, and gave Hiro the signal to start with the rest of the group.
Tapping it out mentally, one last glance at the expecting pale blue eyes under the blonde hair, staring at him with a dull shimmer of something. Regret?
Too late to turn back now.
Three-two-one-
~ On a cobweb afternoon
In a room of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages ~
Suichi risked looking up once, holding his breath, feeling colder inside than on the outside. Yuki kept a steady gaze on him, very much hearing each of his words, his meaning. His fears of each love held dear being spoken.
'Why couldn't you have just listened to me?' Suichi thought sadly, but the audience only took it for part of how he sang. In secret he still adored Yuki, wanted to hold him.
~ Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
And if we're good we'll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go ~
Yuki faltered for a moment, Suichi saw it out of the corner of his eyes. He was ready to go and tell him he was sorry, not caring if anyone else saw how he fell into hysterics. But Yuki's gaze gave him the clear warning ::Don't you dare:: Suichi just shivered and continued on. At least Suichi knew he remembered when he had seen him in the park that day.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
Suichi began shivering even more, the night wind bringing back painful memories as he continued on. But even when Yuki teased him, when he yelled at him, it was still part of something special they had shared. That night, when Yuki had changed his whole life, his being.
~ On my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven ~
Something shattered in his mind. Suichi had often left traces of blood in Yuki's house, but he could never explain it to him. Out of fear of rejection, being denied, unwanted, unloved, maybe even hated. He could never have told Yuki. This was a silent plea only he could answer.
~ To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The win was bled
And there you led me on ~
It had probably been a month since Suichi had last been at Yuki's house, but he didn't want to feel that loathsome gaze upon him anymore. He wanted a tenderness, a gentle touch which Yuki couldn't give. He was rough, fast, and took what he could. And though he tried to deny it, Suichi's heart knew it and couldn't continue on like that anymore. The kisses, the touches, it was too much to return to. Temptation called, and temptation is what brought the world down.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
Yuki had to rub his eyes, though not making it very obvious. But something in his gestures told Suichi he wanted him back. He wanted to hold him again, wanted to caress him and give him little affectionate touches tastes. Suichi had that guitar moment to pause, to think, to find something deep inside him. A truth they had to answer each other before their gazes separated.
But exactly like that first day Suichi met him, Yuki's eyes captured him in that entrancing look that had made him forget all so many times before. That same way when it had scared him after having become his lover. It scared him once again, but awoke a hope inside him. He gave himself a mental slap, his other part of the mind notifying him he'd about missed his entrance.
~ And on I read
Until the day was gone
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I'd done ~
Maybe even the song in itself had been the apology he had been looking for. He didn't want to leave Yuki, but he couldn't stay with him any longer. Yet now, their separate grounds seemed to slowly merge on a plain only they could see, excluding the rest of the world.
~ For all that I've blessed
For all that I've wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wonder on ~
This would be the last thing he would ever do if it came to making a decision for himself. He couldn't let himself go on like this, knowing he needed to make the choice of going of staying. He had always been welcomed in Yuki's house, but there had also been a warning inside him. That warning died that day he had laid in pain on Yuki's mattress, still crying in pain, but with the promise in his heart.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone ~
It ended. The song, the concert, but the crowd still clapped and cheered on, as if this would always go on. Suichi knew in himself that all things would end one day, it just depended on how soon.
Yuki came up to him after the concert and Hiro had left, riding home after being reassured Suichi would be fine alone.
"Well?" he asked, gazing down in that same hypnotizing manner that had captivated Suichi so many times before.
He inhaled, leaning against the wall for extra support. His mind was slowly beginning to wander, his violet gaze slowly clouding over.
Yuki's caress against hischeek brought him back to earth, that same touch that made him feel owned. He wasn't free anymore, like a bird with clipped wings, he sat in a cage.
Suichi hung his head, tears welling in his eyes, not knowing exactly how to answer him anymore. But he remembered his decision, the choice he had made on stage. He breathed it out low, the sound almost impossible to hear.
But Yuki understood, nodded, and held him fast, giving him the kiss that left Suichi scattered.
~ In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone
~+~
A/N: I had planned on letting this be a one-shot fic, but after asking some friends for suggestions and opinions, they said it should be continued. There is a reason I didn't write down the answer, and it's because you're supposed to tell me whether Suichi said 'Yes I'm coming back', or 'No, I'm leaving you'. At least ten reviews please to give me an idea of how I should write this and if I should even continue it. Thank you very much!
~C.S.