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Chapter10: oh those painful memories

The next day, Kagome was given permission to skip classes and spend the day on the field, with a water bottle, her bow and arrows and the painkillers as company. Every time she released an arrow, she would occasionally wince as a pain would occasionally shoot up her arm and she would pop a pill in her mouth. She was eating them like skittles, and they weren't working. (because she didn't give them time to work)

All of her arrows missed their target; some of them missed the canvas by miles, because her mind was so cluttered. Thoughts ranging from Koga's death to what ever happened to the gun, to the pain in her arm, zoomed in and out of her brain.

But one such thought that just stayed there was the thought of all the pain; mental, physical, and emotional. All the turmoil she was going through now was entirely her fault.

flash back in kagome's POV

"Kouga, answer my question!!!" I yelled franticly, but to no avail

I saw him raise the gun and point it at Sesshomaru, I had to stop him.

"Kouga!!!!' I yelled again, "stop this!!" then I realized how futile my attempts to stop this madness was, someone was going to get hurt but the question was...............who?

I ran hesitantly ran towards him, hoping that he would at least realize what he was doing, but my actions only seemed to frighten him more, and he pulled the trigger.

I felt a searing pain in my shoulder then all I saw was black...

A couple days later after I was out of the hospital, I asked Sess if we could go up to the roof, he was confused as to why I would want to go back up there, but I told him that I just felt that I needed to go up there, I wanted... I wasn't entirely sure what I wanted or why I had to go up there but it was something I couldn't ignore.

We walked up to the roof of the school I walked up and practically dragged Sess with me. I opened the door and what I saw immediately made me want to gag.

There, lying on the floor, was Kouga's pale lifeless body in a thick layer of blood covered with a slightly thin layer of snow (sickning aint it).

I shrieked the turned into Sesshomaru's chest, holding back the bile that burned my throat while trying to escape my mouth.

end flashback, normal POV

Kagome was deep in thought,

'its all my fault, I did it, I caused Kouga to die, I caused all of it!!' she yelled at herself

then out of frustration she knocked over the small table that held her water and her spare arrows and her pills. She sank to the ground crying into her palms. The image of Kouga's dead body plaguing her mind.

"its all my fault, I caused it........." she kept muttering.

Her coach ran up to her asking her if she was allright (of course she isn't, these ppl are so smart, the ask the most obvious questions sometimes), all he received were mumbles of 'I did it' and 'I caused it'. Confused at first, the coach finally came with the conclusion that Kagome had been through a lot so he helped her to the nurse.

Sesshomaru was in math class, and he and the rest of the gang were really worried, why wasn't Kagome at class, sure he and Inuyasha could have sniffed her out if she was in the vicinity but there were so many damn scents lingering around, he couldn't find her!, it was really getting irritating.

[Sesshomaru Takami, please report to the nurse's station, you are needed there, the matter is very urgent] was said over the intercom.

"Mr. Takami, you may go" the teacher said then went back to his lesson.

Sesshomaru didn't need to be told twice, he quickly got up and left.

He entered her room and found her lying face down, smothering herself in the pillow.

"Kagome—"he walked over to the bed and Kagome instinctively flung herself into his chest.

"Its all my fault!!" she wailed

"what's your fault?" he sat down and pulled her into his lap

"everything, my sob my injury, Ko— sobs harder Kouga's death, everything!!"

"Its not your fault!, it was never your fault, it was his own fault for acting so foolish" he whispered, trying to comfort her

"that image sniff its like its burned in my mind"

"what image?"

"His body" (the dead one for all you do do brains)

"Everything is gonna be ok" he kissed her forehead then looked out to see a certain area of the field carpeted with stray arrows.

"Were you trying to practice today?" he asked

"yeah sniff so?"

He sighed, "nothing"

tbc...