Chapter 11: you actually thought

Kagome went into her room as soon as she got home and lay on her bed. She did a slight yawn then scratched her head (how unlady like shrugs oh well) she found a little surprise. In her hand, she twirled a small light pink sakura.

'hmm, must have gotten stuck in my hair' she thought almost lazily then she began thinking about not too long ago under the falling sakuras where she and Sesshomaru kissed. She smiled then let sleep claim her, only to have her mind invaded with every single memory of Kouga she had, both good and bad (and some even sad(hey that rhymes!! Srry had to get that out) from the day he first spoke to her to the day of his funeral.

Dream state

she stood all alone in a white room (kinda reminds you of "the matrix revolutions' I wonder if shes gonna meet the architect? Sry I really need to stop this) she blinked and got her eyes used to her surroundings. She spun around to see a hallway of open doors.

She went up to the first door, she saw herself in her school uniform under a tree, she then saw a figure walk up to her then sit down. Kagome gasped at whom it was, Kouga, why would she be dreaming about him? Especially after she shared a kiss with Sesshomaru?

The figures in the vision (if that's what you wanna call it) began a tickle fight, then they froze and for some unknown reason they got up and left.

"It was Sesshomaru" Kagome said to no one in particular (well, um... no one else was there so shed be talking to on one in particular.. me and my stupidity) then to door slammed in her face. "This must be the place in my head where I locked away all my memory of Kouga" she thought out loud

Kagome walked to the opposite door and looked inside, there she was again walking down the hallway at school, holding hands with Kouga, they were laughing at a joke he just told or something, she couldn't really tell why they were laughing for there wasn't any sound.

Kagome watched as they stopped in the middle of the hallway, he with an exasperated/ annoyed look and she apologizing for something then running off.

"Track meeting, with the nurse's incident... with Sesshomaru" Kagome said again then stepped back as the door slammed again.

She continued down the hall looking into doors, realizing something about the vision then watching the door slam. All the visions had something to do with Sesshomaru. That kept up for a while then she got to one door in particular, what was so special about this room, it had sound.

Kagome peered into the room and saw herself in her track sweats, with a silver medal around her neck. She was smiling albeit sadly, yet smiling nonetheless as she ran down the halls apparently looking for someone, Kouga.

She ran up to him and was squealing about her medal, he was telling her how happy he was and how proud of her he was then her kissed her.

Kagome's hand unconsciously went to her lips as she continued to watch.

"Kouga what are you doing?" she heard herself say as she pushed him away (( hey that one rhymes too!! Sry)

"I'm sorry Kagome, I cant keep my feelings bottled up anymore, I love you Kagome" he said

Kagome gasped.

"Wha??" the vision-Kagome asked (this is getting confusing)

"don't you feel the same way?"

"No— I'm sorry Kouga, but I don't like you that way, I— I only want your friendship"

he looked at her dejected

a tear slid down Kagome's face (not the vision one— you see how confusing this is?)

"I'm sorry Kouga I didn't mean to hurt your feelings"

"no Kagome, I'm sorry for thinking that you'd feel the same way about me" he walked off.

"Whats all this supposed to mean?" the (real) Kagome asked

she then saw herself turn around and came face to face with Sesshomaru, she didn't hear the conversation after that but she saw when she hugged him.

"What is this supposed to mean?!! What is going on here!" Kagome yelled stepping backwards into the hallway tears streaming down her face. She tripped on her own feet and fell into a sitting position

"you left me all those times for him" came a voice from the shadows (I kno you must be askin "it's a fricking white room! What the hell are shadows doing in there!" or something along those lines, I wrote that in because it sounded more eerie)

"what?" Kagome looked up then saw someone walking towards her, "who are you?"

The guy smirked; at least she thought it was a guy, well from the voice anyway. "You actually thought you would forget about me?, you actually thought I'd LET you forget about me?"

"K...KO— Kouga?" she asked in disbelief

"in the flesh......... well not anymore"

"what's going on? What does this all mean?"

"You tried your hardest to forget me didn't you" he asked ignoring her question

"yes I tried to run away from my problems since then" she admitted guiltily

"are you happy with Sesshomaru?"

"Yes I am" another tear escaped her eye, not that she was trying to stop them. "I really miss you Kouga"

"yeah now that you think of it" he scoffed, folding his arms in front of him (starting to sound like inuyasha isn't he?) "Just remember Kagome, I'll never forget you and I'll do everything in my power to get you, even if it means to kill you or Sesshomaru, in the end you will be mine"

"what? What are you saying, are you coming back?"

"Could be" he kissed her. And with that every thing disappeared, she was left all alone in the white room.

end dream state

Kagome shot up in her bed, face tear stricken, and she was covered in a thin layer of sweat.

'What happened? That— that dream, was it real? Or is my mind playing tricks on me again???? No, but that kiss, I felt it' she touched her lips that were still tingling from the kiss

"Kouga" she whispered, before she broke down sobbing.

Kouga stood right in front of her smirking, yet feeling guilty for what he just told her and made her dream about, if you loved someone, you wouldn't plague their minds, he loved her yes, but he just doesn't want to be forgotten.

tbc...

I torture her a lot don't I?