He Thought He Knew Me
By Aaliyah-Faith
Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill or any of the characters no matter how much I wish I did.
A/N: Keep with me this will eventually be a Lucas/Haley pairing so hang in there. Oh yeah feedback is essential because this is my first fanfic and I'm not sure if I should continue. Criticism and pointers are more then welcome. Just please don't be cruel. To all those who have reviewed thanks a mil you guys rock!
"Haley" he whispers...
I look deep into his eyes and watch as his face turns from shock to confusion.
I start to panic. Oh God what am I going to do. I can't tell him, he'll never forgive me for keeping this a secret for so long. He just won't understand.
I look pleadingly at him begging him to leave it alone but deep down I know he wants answers and there is nothing I can do to stop him. This time he won't believe my lies.
"Lucas I..." I stop to try and think of a way to explain to my best friend, how, ever since I was a child I've been beaten and terrorized without him ever knowing. All these years I've neglected to tell him or ask him for help, I know there's no way I can explain this to him without hurting him. How do you tell someone you love that you've lied to them since the first time they met you.
I slowly deeply inhale and look at him hoping to find the strength and courage I need to tell him the truth.
Instead I see his face contorted in rage and his eyes show a pain that bears deep into my soul.
"Haley" he starts "who did this to you, was it Nathan because if he ever lay a finger on you I swear I'll kill him"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing and before I can register what I'm saying, harsh words come thumbling out of my mouth.
"God Lucas wake up, the whole world does not revolve around the Scott brothers. Maybe if you came down off your high horse and, instead of trying to impress Peyton all the time, you joined us in the real world, you'd notice that people have their own lives and problems separate from yours. Perhaps if you didn't spend so much time hating Nathan you'd see that he has actually been a better friend to me over the last couple of weeks then you have been in months. Lucas wake up and smell the coffee, how many years have you seen me covered in cuts and bruises because "I fell" didn't you ever wonder why? You know I'm not that clumsy. Are you that blind or are you just too in love with Peyton to notice that, while your life is blossoming mine is falling apart. Open your eyes and look around you. I'm slowly being ripped apart physically and emotionally and you, my best friend, haven't even noticed. Don't pretend like you care now. Why don't you go back to poor lonely Peyton and leave me, pathetic little Haley to pick up the pieces like I always do"
My hand shoots up to my mouth and I try to avoid his eyes. I can't bear to see the hurt in them that I know I've caused. I gulp in huge breaths of air trying to stop the sobs that continue to plague my body, causing me to tremble like a leaf.
Oh God what have I done, how could I say that, he is the one person who I trust and love with all my heart. He has stuck by me through the good and bad and now when I need him the most I push him away and say horrible things to him.
Giant tears are rolling down my cheeks blurring my vision. I can't bring myself to wipe them away and look at him.
"Haley, please I'm sorry just please tell me what happened" he pleads.
I can't face him right now, like this. A flood of emotions hit me full force and I begin to feel overwhelmed. It seems like the walls are closing in on me and I feel like I'm suffocating.
I just can't handle trying to explain the torture and torment that is my life, at the moment its too much. So, I do the only thing I can think of, I push past him and I run.............
TBC
Ok so there you go. What do you think I should do keep going or just give up? Please give me some feedback so I can know if it's good or just plain awful.
By Aaliyah-Faith
Disclaimer: I don't own One Tree Hill or any of the characters no matter how much I wish I did.
A/N: Keep with me this will eventually be a Lucas/Haley pairing so hang in there. Oh yeah feedback is essential because this is my first fanfic and I'm not sure if I should continue. Criticism and pointers are more then welcome. Just please don't be cruel. To all those who have reviewed thanks a mil you guys rock!
"Haley" he whispers...
I look deep into his eyes and watch as his face turns from shock to confusion.
I start to panic. Oh God what am I going to do. I can't tell him, he'll never forgive me for keeping this a secret for so long. He just won't understand.
I look pleadingly at him begging him to leave it alone but deep down I know he wants answers and there is nothing I can do to stop him. This time he won't believe my lies.
"Lucas I..." I stop to try and think of a way to explain to my best friend, how, ever since I was a child I've been beaten and terrorized without him ever knowing. All these years I've neglected to tell him or ask him for help, I know there's no way I can explain this to him without hurting him. How do you tell someone you love that you've lied to them since the first time they met you.
I slowly deeply inhale and look at him hoping to find the strength and courage I need to tell him the truth.
Instead I see his face contorted in rage and his eyes show a pain that bears deep into my soul.
"Haley" he starts "who did this to you, was it Nathan because if he ever lay a finger on you I swear I'll kill him"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing and before I can register what I'm saying, harsh words come thumbling out of my mouth.
"God Lucas wake up, the whole world does not revolve around the Scott brothers. Maybe if you came down off your high horse and, instead of trying to impress Peyton all the time, you joined us in the real world, you'd notice that people have their own lives and problems separate from yours. Perhaps if you didn't spend so much time hating Nathan you'd see that he has actually been a better friend to me over the last couple of weeks then you have been in months. Lucas wake up and smell the coffee, how many years have you seen me covered in cuts and bruises because "I fell" didn't you ever wonder why? You know I'm not that clumsy. Are you that blind or are you just too in love with Peyton to notice that, while your life is blossoming mine is falling apart. Open your eyes and look around you. I'm slowly being ripped apart physically and emotionally and you, my best friend, haven't even noticed. Don't pretend like you care now. Why don't you go back to poor lonely Peyton and leave me, pathetic little Haley to pick up the pieces like I always do"
My hand shoots up to my mouth and I try to avoid his eyes. I can't bear to see the hurt in them that I know I've caused. I gulp in huge breaths of air trying to stop the sobs that continue to plague my body, causing me to tremble like a leaf.
Oh God what have I done, how could I say that, he is the one person who I trust and love with all my heart. He has stuck by me through the good and bad and now when I need him the most I push him away and say horrible things to him.
Giant tears are rolling down my cheeks blurring my vision. I can't bring myself to wipe them away and look at him.
"Haley, please I'm sorry just please tell me what happened" he pleads.
I can't face him right now, like this. A flood of emotions hit me full force and I begin to feel overwhelmed. It seems like the walls are closing in on me and I feel like I'm suffocating.
I just can't handle trying to explain the torture and torment that is my life, at the moment its too much. So, I do the only thing I can think of, I push past him and I run.............
TBC
Ok so there you go. What do you think I should do keep going or just give up? Please give me some feedback so I can know if it's good or just plain awful.