After doing something wrong I often have a feeling of guilt which burdens over me for a long period of time, Now I'm just trying to learn that making mistakes is a normal part of life, And not just to let those mistakes be made again, but to learn from my mistakes and not let them happen again. You only live life once. And there will be mistakes in it, However it is up to you to what you do with your mistakes.
I made a mistake, a big one. A mistake I regret. I haven't told anyone, not even the one who needs to know the most. Pan Son, The one I care for the most. She is the moonlight, the air that I breathe, the light at the end of the tunnel. She doesn't deserve what I did to her. I don't even know why I did it. But I have to tell her, I have to. But I can't.
The love that we once had will never be again. One small mistake can lead to something much more, I know. She deserves to know, our love cannot be a lie. When I walk up to tell her I will know I'm doing the right thing. But I also know after I tell her I'll wonder if I did indeed do the right thing. My thoughts buzz around in my head like a swarm of bees stinging at the truth.
I have to tell her.