Inner Turmoil
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Fred entered the backroom slowly, making sure his breathing was normal and paced. His heart skipped when his brain dimly registered that Shin was packing a box with supplies.
Swallowing a lump that had formed in his throat, she walked towards her slowly. She did not turn, though he could not fathom why; his foot steps thundered loudly in his ear, each one echoing upon each other a thousand times and a thousand times again before the next one.
Finally he stood right behind her, and he realise that time seemed to have slowed down... it was much, much too slow. But even as his mind eventually thought up of words to say, and his hand raised to tap her shoulder, all his other senses heightened.
He could see each strand of hair that had been pulled up into an impossibly elaborate mass of knots and curls on her head. He could smell the faint scent of rain and waterlilies coming from her being. He could hear each heartfelt note of a song she hummed silently under her breath. And there, just at the very edges of his mind, he reasoned that maybe, just -maybe-, if that rubbish about people having auras was true, he could feel her's... warm and bright against his skin.
Before he had a chance to speak though, someone else had broke him free of his momentary hypnosis.
"Oh, so it's a habit for you to make fun of those less fortunate then you?" A voice sounding very much like Ginny's stated, rather then asked, from the other room "Or to tease someone because of their appearance?"
"Cheery couple, aren't they?" Shin said happily. Fred glared slightly at the back of her head, and moved to lean against the table beside her.
"It's not like I -wanted- to act that way!" Draco's voice pierced into the room as well.
"Absolutely splendid," Fred said sarcastically. He continued to glare at her. "You realise I hate your guts, right?"
"If you did not -want- to act like that, then you wouldn't of acted like that!" Ginny's voice yelled, raised considerably.
"You don't hate my guts," Shin said, bells ringing under her voice.
"What makes you so sure of that?" Fred said snidely, his glare intensifying, ten-fold.
"You have no fucking clue what sort of hell I've had to go through!" Draco's voice hollared. "Do -not- try and tell me how I should and shouldn't of acted if I never hated you! You have -no-. -Fucking-. -Clue-!"
"Because..." Shin said, moving away slightly as a door slammed shut in the other room. She looked up into Fred's eyes; his glare slipping, he couldn't help but admire how they shown in the light... "Eyes are the window to the soul you know... and yours just don't have hatred in them... at least, they don't when you look at me. Now... I have to go and find the thing you truly dispise, and bring him back."
Giving him a pleasant smile, her eye's softer then usual, she turned and left the backroom.
Fred hardly cared.
For a reason beyond his knowledge, he felt he could of died happily right then.
-
Showing the greatest of calm and poise, Shin left the shop and moved down the streets. Thankfully, George had seen the general direction Draco had gone, or else Shin would of been searching for hours...
Needless to say, she found him, at the end of the ally, muttering under his breathe curses and counter-curses, jinxes, hexes, and many other types of spells. But before she found him, she had quite the unusual company.
"I'm going with you," Ginny said, catching up with her as she walked away from the door.
"Are you sure you want to?" Shin asked, raising an eyebrow at her. Ginny only nodded; it was obvious her temper was boiling. Shin nodded back, and led her alond the streets.
"How can you put up with that jerk?" Ginny asked quietly, breaking several minutes of silence. Shin cast her a wary glance before answering smoothly.
"One, it's my job, so I get paid," Shin stated. "Two, it is not Draco babysitting me, but more as me babysitting Draco. And three, he's really nice when you get to know him."
"Yeah right..." Ginny muttered darkly.
"It's true," Shin smiled against her better judgements, clicking her tongue. Ginny found no reply.
Continuing for several minutes in silence, it was Shin's turn to become curious. Here was this girl, obviously raging with hatred towards Draco, and yet she came with her... and unless she was mistaken, she didn't want to throttle him. Or her, for that matter.
"Why did you come?" Shin found herself asking.
"What?" Ginny blinked a few times.
"I asked, why did you come?" Shin repeated. "You did not have to accompany me to find Draco. You seem to dislike him just as much as Fred does, so what is the point in coming?"
"I told my brother that I would keep you out of the shop," Ginny stated easily. "More so, I promised him. I don't plan on breaking that promise anytime soon, so alls I havta do after this is make sure you don-"
"You can't keep me away from the store," Shin interrupted her, making her go silent again. "I have knitted so many spells in and around that store while those boy's weren't looking, that I could find it, blind folded, in a busy street. Surely you must of felt it when you came into the shop?"
"It felt... different," Ginny admitted, after another short silence. "Sort of like... Ollivander's. Do you know Ollivander's?"
"Aye," Shin nodded, and finally, she spotted Draco. He was across the street from a small icecream parlor, half-hidden from site. Instead of walking over to him, she sat down at a table, keeping an eye, and Ginny sat down beside her. "I know Ollivander's... got my wand there, and Ollivander even taught me a few spells and the such. His shop is buzzing with magic, but his magic is raw, unkept, untainted magic, bekoning to the call of anyone, and igniting when theres a certain 'spark' with a wand... makes it perfect for wand choosing."
Before Ginny cound think of a respond, a waiter came to take their orders. Ginny with a chocolate fudge and brownie sundae, and Shin with a strawberry banana split with extra whipped cream. Humming, Shin scooped come strawberries in her mouth, and glanced to where Draco was.
"So..." Ginny said, taking a bite of her sundae. Shin looked at her, as it seemed like the subject had been dropped when she had lasped into silence a few minutes before. "If I waved my wand around Fred and George's shop... it would make a bunch of sparks?"
"No," Shin shook her head, taking another bite. "Unlike Ollivander's, the spells and charms in the store have definite shape and purpose. You can be aware that they are there, but they shall not bekon to the call of anyone, but really, only to mine, and if I did it right, Mad-eye's."
"Moody?" Shin asked curiously. "What has Moody got to do with all of this?"
"More then you know," Shin said mysteriously. "And more then I'm worth... oh! Thank you!" The waitor had just dropped off another sundae, this one blueberry and peanuts with whipped cream.
"No problem miss," the waitor smilled at her. "Me boss seemed to think you would need it... no extra charge!"
"Thank him for me, would you?" Shin said pleasantly; the waitor nodded, and left their table. Shin pulled out her long, thin wand, quite unusual compared to normal wands, and with the faintest whisper of a spell, sent the blueberry sundae floating up above everyone's head, and across the street. Ginny watched it for a few moments, but didn't see where it went.
"That's a waste of good sundae," she pointed out, content with hers. "After all... your supposed to -eat- them, not practice magic on them..."
"No, no I suppose your not," Shin said absently. "Well, I'm glad that I had a good reason to send it over there..."
"Oh?" Ginny raised a brow at her curiously. "And what would that be?"
"Draco," Shin answered easily. She concentraited on eating her banana split while Ginny looked around in surprise. She could just barely see the back of his head as he slowly ate his sundae.
"What's -he- doing here?" Ginny hissed, turning back to Shin.
"Looks like he's eating," Shin muttered absently. "Not a crime to eat, is it?" Ginny didn't answer, just went back to eating her sundae.
-
Draco jumped slightly when the sundae placed itself beside him. Looking at it, confused, he couldn't help but wonder where it came from... then he looked up and saw Shin sitting at the icecream parlor, and understood. There was someone else there with her, but he couldn't see who that someone was.
He concentraited on eating the sundae in front of him... him and Shin had gone out for icecream on the first day that they had met, she said it was an 'icebreaker' of sorts. It was the same icecream parlor that she had the person with her sat at now as they had aten together three weeks ago now. It was ironic to him in some strange, bitter sort of way... but he didn't dwell on that.
'Your supposed to be making -friends- with them...' he told his mind. What wouldn't he do for a calming charm right now? Hell, a cheering charm would work as well. 'Not pushing them away... seriously! You just... exploded back there! How will you -ever- make friends with them, if you do that?'
'Don't...' A voice in the back of his mind whispered. He shuddered. 'Don't make friends with them... push them away... kill-'
"No!" Draco whispered furiously to himself. "I am in control... you will -not- control me!"
Taking deep, slow breathes, he looked around him. Glad that he had not attratcked too much attention, he finished his sundae, then went to the table that Shin sat at... he was slightly surprised to see Ginny there.
"Look," he started, not looking at Shin as he sat down. "Really I'm sorry for everything I've done in the past... I just... wasn't myself. I accept it if you don't forgive me."
Ginny just started at him with a mixture of disbelief and confusion on her face.
"Good," Shin smiled. "Now that -that- mess is settled... where shall we go first? Drake, I believe you need some more potion supplies, new robes, and you have all of your books... oh, parchment and quills as well... what about you Ginny?"
"I..." she cast a wary look at Draco, and looked to Shin. "I need to get my books, and I've scrounged up money for a birthday presant and new robes... but, we haven't gotten our book lists yet, so we won't be getting our books."
"Ah yes, I keep forgetting about that..." Shin smiled brightly at her. "Silly me... shall we get going? Maybe Draco and I can help you with that presant..."
With a smile, Draco realised something... no matter how much people hated him, a day would never be boring or spent in depression if Shin was there to stick up for him.
-
Fred entered the backroom slowly, making sure his breathing was normal and paced. His heart skipped when his brain dimly registered that Shin was packing a box with supplies.
Swallowing a lump that had formed in his throat, she walked towards her slowly. She did not turn, though he could not fathom why; his foot steps thundered loudly in his ear, each one echoing upon each other a thousand times and a thousand times again before the next one.
Finally he stood right behind her, and he realise that time seemed to have slowed down... it was much, much too slow. But even as his mind eventually thought up of words to say, and his hand raised to tap her shoulder, all his other senses heightened.
He could see each strand of hair that had been pulled up into an impossibly elaborate mass of knots and curls on her head. He could smell the faint scent of rain and waterlilies coming from her being. He could hear each heartfelt note of a song she hummed silently under her breath. And there, just at the very edges of his mind, he reasoned that maybe, just -maybe-, if that rubbish about people having auras was true, he could feel her's... warm and bright against his skin.
Before he had a chance to speak though, someone else had broke him free of his momentary hypnosis.
"Oh, so it's a habit for you to make fun of those less fortunate then you?" A voice sounding very much like Ginny's stated, rather then asked, from the other room "Or to tease someone because of their appearance?"
"Cheery couple, aren't they?" Shin said happily. Fred glared slightly at the back of her head, and moved to lean against the table beside her.
"It's not like I -wanted- to act that way!" Draco's voice pierced into the room as well.
"Absolutely splendid," Fred said sarcastically. He continued to glare at her. "You realise I hate your guts, right?"
"If you did not -want- to act like that, then you wouldn't of acted like that!" Ginny's voice yelled, raised considerably.
"You don't hate my guts," Shin said, bells ringing under her voice.
"What makes you so sure of that?" Fred said snidely, his glare intensifying, ten-fold.
"You have no fucking clue what sort of hell I've had to go through!" Draco's voice hollared. "Do -not- try and tell me how I should and shouldn't of acted if I never hated you! You have -no-. -Fucking-. -Clue-!"
"Because..." Shin said, moving away slightly as a door slammed shut in the other room. She looked up into Fred's eyes; his glare slipping, he couldn't help but admire how they shown in the light... "Eyes are the window to the soul you know... and yours just don't have hatred in them... at least, they don't when you look at me. Now... I have to go and find the thing you truly dispise, and bring him back."
Giving him a pleasant smile, her eye's softer then usual, she turned and left the backroom.
Fred hardly cared.
For a reason beyond his knowledge, he felt he could of died happily right then.
-
Showing the greatest of calm and poise, Shin left the shop and moved down the streets. Thankfully, George had seen the general direction Draco had gone, or else Shin would of been searching for hours...
Needless to say, she found him, at the end of the ally, muttering under his breathe curses and counter-curses, jinxes, hexes, and many other types of spells. But before she found him, she had quite the unusual company.
"I'm going with you," Ginny said, catching up with her as she walked away from the door.
"Are you sure you want to?" Shin asked, raising an eyebrow at her. Ginny only nodded; it was obvious her temper was boiling. Shin nodded back, and led her alond the streets.
"How can you put up with that jerk?" Ginny asked quietly, breaking several minutes of silence. Shin cast her a wary glance before answering smoothly.
"One, it's my job, so I get paid," Shin stated. "Two, it is not Draco babysitting me, but more as me babysitting Draco. And three, he's really nice when you get to know him."
"Yeah right..." Ginny muttered darkly.
"It's true," Shin smiled against her better judgements, clicking her tongue. Ginny found no reply.
Continuing for several minutes in silence, it was Shin's turn to become curious. Here was this girl, obviously raging with hatred towards Draco, and yet she came with her... and unless she was mistaken, she didn't want to throttle him. Or her, for that matter.
"Why did you come?" Shin found herself asking.
"What?" Ginny blinked a few times.
"I asked, why did you come?" Shin repeated. "You did not have to accompany me to find Draco. You seem to dislike him just as much as Fred does, so what is the point in coming?"
"I told my brother that I would keep you out of the shop," Ginny stated easily. "More so, I promised him. I don't plan on breaking that promise anytime soon, so alls I havta do after this is make sure you don-"
"You can't keep me away from the store," Shin interrupted her, making her go silent again. "I have knitted so many spells in and around that store while those boy's weren't looking, that I could find it, blind folded, in a busy street. Surely you must of felt it when you came into the shop?"
"It felt... different," Ginny admitted, after another short silence. "Sort of like... Ollivander's. Do you know Ollivander's?"
"Aye," Shin nodded, and finally, she spotted Draco. He was across the street from a small icecream parlor, half-hidden from site. Instead of walking over to him, she sat down at a table, keeping an eye, and Ginny sat down beside her. "I know Ollivander's... got my wand there, and Ollivander even taught me a few spells and the such. His shop is buzzing with magic, but his magic is raw, unkept, untainted magic, bekoning to the call of anyone, and igniting when theres a certain 'spark' with a wand... makes it perfect for wand choosing."
Before Ginny cound think of a respond, a waiter came to take their orders. Ginny with a chocolate fudge and brownie sundae, and Shin with a strawberry banana split with extra whipped cream. Humming, Shin scooped come strawberries in her mouth, and glanced to where Draco was.
"So..." Ginny said, taking a bite of her sundae. Shin looked at her, as it seemed like the subject had been dropped when she had lasped into silence a few minutes before. "If I waved my wand around Fred and George's shop... it would make a bunch of sparks?"
"No," Shin shook her head, taking another bite. "Unlike Ollivander's, the spells and charms in the store have definite shape and purpose. You can be aware that they are there, but they shall not bekon to the call of anyone, but really, only to mine, and if I did it right, Mad-eye's."
"Moody?" Shin asked curiously. "What has Moody got to do with all of this?"
"More then you know," Shin said mysteriously. "And more then I'm worth... oh! Thank you!" The waitor had just dropped off another sundae, this one blueberry and peanuts with whipped cream.
"No problem miss," the waitor smilled at her. "Me boss seemed to think you would need it... no extra charge!"
"Thank him for me, would you?" Shin said pleasantly; the waitor nodded, and left their table. Shin pulled out her long, thin wand, quite unusual compared to normal wands, and with the faintest whisper of a spell, sent the blueberry sundae floating up above everyone's head, and across the street. Ginny watched it for a few moments, but didn't see where it went.
"That's a waste of good sundae," she pointed out, content with hers. "After all... your supposed to -eat- them, not practice magic on them..."
"No, no I suppose your not," Shin said absently. "Well, I'm glad that I had a good reason to send it over there..."
"Oh?" Ginny raised a brow at her curiously. "And what would that be?"
"Draco," Shin answered easily. She concentraited on eating her banana split while Ginny looked around in surprise. She could just barely see the back of his head as he slowly ate his sundae.
"What's -he- doing here?" Ginny hissed, turning back to Shin.
"Looks like he's eating," Shin muttered absently. "Not a crime to eat, is it?" Ginny didn't answer, just went back to eating her sundae.
-
Draco jumped slightly when the sundae placed itself beside him. Looking at it, confused, he couldn't help but wonder where it came from... then he looked up and saw Shin sitting at the icecream parlor, and understood. There was someone else there with her, but he couldn't see who that someone was.
He concentraited on eating the sundae in front of him... him and Shin had gone out for icecream on the first day that they had met, she said it was an 'icebreaker' of sorts. It was the same icecream parlor that she had the person with her sat at now as they had aten together three weeks ago now. It was ironic to him in some strange, bitter sort of way... but he didn't dwell on that.
'Your supposed to be making -friends- with them...' he told his mind. What wouldn't he do for a calming charm right now? Hell, a cheering charm would work as well. 'Not pushing them away... seriously! You just... exploded back there! How will you -ever- make friends with them, if you do that?'
'Don't...' A voice in the back of his mind whispered. He shuddered. 'Don't make friends with them... push them away... kill-'
"No!" Draco whispered furiously to himself. "I am in control... you will -not- control me!"
Taking deep, slow breathes, he looked around him. Glad that he had not attratcked too much attention, he finished his sundae, then went to the table that Shin sat at... he was slightly surprised to see Ginny there.
"Look," he started, not looking at Shin as he sat down. "Really I'm sorry for everything I've done in the past... I just... wasn't myself. I accept it if you don't forgive me."
Ginny just started at him with a mixture of disbelief and confusion on her face.
"Good," Shin smiled. "Now that -that- mess is settled... where shall we go first? Drake, I believe you need some more potion supplies, new robes, and you have all of your books... oh, parchment and quills as well... what about you Ginny?"
"I..." she cast a wary look at Draco, and looked to Shin. "I need to get my books, and I've scrounged up money for a birthday presant and new robes... but, we haven't gotten our book lists yet, so we won't be getting our books."
"Ah yes, I keep forgetting about that..." Shin smiled brightly at her. "Silly me... shall we get going? Maybe Draco and I can help you with that presant..."
With a smile, Draco realised something... no matter how much people hated him, a day would never be boring or spent in depression if Shin was there to stick up for him.