A/N This chapter is all Rianna's POV from her thoughts and feelings
Will the past ever stay in the past? I question this everyday. AS sson as one thing seems to be going great the next day it seems like it goes astray. Severus wants me to go to through Occlumency lessons with him. There are plent' reason why I don' wan' too. If he feels that it will keep me safer from Voldemort then maybe I should. I think maybe the whole ideal is riddiculus but he wants to protect his child. The Christmas holiday is going to be a great deal of us spending the most time together before the end of the school year. Lucius really never set us up the only thing he did was persude him to go after me during school but I was already in love with him anyways. He drives us completely nut and he still swears that it is my fault he quit being a death eater and turned his back on Voldemort. I turned my back first but he also understood I could not handle being like that for the rest of my life. Narcissa can she is more like him in many ways.
This is so much like Severus to give me these damn lessons over the holiday break. Fuck I want to sleep in the baby is totally draining me of all my energy. Professor Dumbledore is having my classes taken over in the last few weeks of school. Hopefully the baby will late in June anyways. As for Harry he is goingt o be finding out after holiday break he is off with the Weasleys for the Holidays. Thankfully Albus agreed to wait longer to tell him. I better think of more ways to tell him instead of being blunt to him. Lily and James both knew of my involvement with Voldemort why they made me godmother I will never understand. We were close in school but after that we lost contact right before Harry was born.
Severus really took to me being a Death Eater just too well. I flew off the handle when I found out he was one. Really think he is bottling it up inside because of the bay. Albus is trying to get him to express his feelings a bit better. He was one of those who got picked on in school but I am the one also that was friends with him secretly in a way. Even Lily tried to defend him against James Sirius and Remus.
On to other things my dreams are seeming so real life now. It seems like Voldemort is tring to reach out to whoever he can. He let me go my own way because he was falling in love with me. If only that was so true he would not of let me kill the people I did for him. So much I wanted to tell him that I onced loved him maybe he would of been a different person. I really don't know what the hell he wants from me except for me to go after Potter. I lost too many people close to me because of him I do not want any involvement with him. The Order tried their hardest last year to rid him but he will return soon.
Now I got to get my exams ready for OWL'S and NEWT"S that seem like they are just around the corner now. Oh so much memories taking them years ago.