AUTHOR: higherbeingfriendsfan - Debz
EMAIL: debz11888@hotmail.com
CATEGORY: JC/AL
RATING: PG-13 just in case
SPOILERS: This chapter will have things from episodes, mainly things from episodes in series 7 and series 8.
DISCLAIMER: Carter and Abby don't belong to me. They belong to NBC, and Warner Brothers, and all of the other people who own the rights to ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is set in at the time of series 10, but none of series 9 happened! Also Benton and Greene are in, because I really like them! Also this is my first fan fiction so take that into account when you read this! Also I have no knowledge of medical procedures etc. so anything to do with that will more than likely be wrong.
Ok all you need to know when reading this is that Abby and Carter have been together for a year, but kept it a secret from everyone. Please review and let me know what you think :)
Thank you to everyone who reviewed this fic so far they were all so sweet :)
Abby, Susan and Jing-Mei went into Romano's office. Susan guided Abby to a chair at the side of the room, which Abby collapsed into. As soon as she sat down she started to cry. Susan went and knelt down next to Abby and put her arm around Abby's shoulder. Jing-Mei did the same on the other side of Abby. Soon all three were crying together thinking about Carter, and their friendship with him.
Abby kept thinking about when John came to Oklahoma with her, she was remembering this because that was the first time when she realised she loved him. She also thought about when Carter told her about his feelings. She thought to herself that she should have said that she liked him to. If she had they would have had more time together if John dies. 'No!' she told herself, 'you can't think like that, he'll be fine'.
Susan was thinking about after she came back to Chicago. Although she was friends with Carter before she left, it wasn't until she returned that she became close to him. She remembered when he told her of his addiction. She was remembering this because she knew how hard it was to tell her, in case she judged him and was disappointed in him, she was proud of him, proud that he overcame this to become a darn good doctor.
Jing-Mei was remembering two moments in particular, the first when he was there when she gave birth. This moment was important to her, because he didn't complain one bit, even though she had woken him up. When she was pregnant she remembered that she didn't want anyone to help her with her pregnancy, as she was ashamed at what they would say to her, as she wasn't even with the father of Michael. When she was giving birth she didn't want to speak with anybody, except the midwives, nurses and the adoptive parents. During the first couple of contractions she knew she needed help, and the only person who came into her head, that would help was John. The other thing she was remembering was when she quit County. This was because he had made an effort to talk to her when he was off work. They had occasionally had lunch, dinner or breakfast together, and some days they would go out for the whole day. She was thinking about this because he was the only person who she really spoke to, until she returned to County. 'I'll have to thank him for these moments, when he wakes up, and maybe we can go out together occasionally, we haven't done that in a while', she thought to herself. There was a knock on the door, which interrupted the girls' thoughts. Peter walked in looking worn out.
"How's he doing?" Abby asked.
"Well he's in post-op and he's stable. A broken rib damaged his lung, so we had in re-inflate that, we had to remove his spleen also. There was some internal bleeding, which we managed to stop," Peter told them.
"Thank you," Abby said, "I know John will be glad you did his surgery." She paused, "again." Peter smiled.
"You can go and see him in a couple of minutes, when the nurses have finished," Peter told the girls.
"Thank you Dr. Benton," Abby told the surgeon again. She walked up to him and gave him a hug.
"I don't need any thanks I just did my job, but what I do need is for Carter to wake up," he told Abby quietly. She pulled back and smiled. Just then a nurse knocked on the door and came in.
"Dr. Benton we've finished with Dr. Carter," the young nurse told the older surgeon.
"OK, Abby go and see him now," Peter told her, then left the office, as his pager beeped. "Excuse me I'm needed in ICU."
Abby turned around and faced her two friends. She walked over to both and hugged them both.
"Will you wait here for a bit, I want to see him by myself first?" Abby asked
"Of course, sweetie, we'll come to his room in ten minutes, OK?" Jing-Mei replied.
"Yeah, thanks," Abby said, then walked out of the room, and to John's room.
She gasped when she saw John, he had tubes all over him, and the heart monitor was beeping loudly. Abby walked over to his bed, leant down and kissed his forehead. Then she moved some of his hair out of his face. Sitting down on the chair next to his bed, she took his hand. She kissed his wedding ring, and then leant her head on his chest, so she could feel his heartbeat. The tears, which were falling down her cheeks, landed on John. She sat up, and wiped them away.
"John, baby, please wake up now, I need to know you're OK, come on, please," she wiped more tears which were falling down her cheeks. She longed for John to wipe them away, while he looked into her eyes with his gorgeous chocolate, brown eyes. She smiled at this thought, but only for a second, when she remembered that until he woke up, whenever that was, he wouldn't be able to wipe away her tears. She once again leant over onto his chest and listened to the steady beat of his heart.
Meanwhile
Jing-Mei and Susan left Romano's office as soon as Abby did. They had decided to go back down to the ER and let them know what was happening.
They got to the stairs when Susan asked Jing-Mei,
"Do you think she blames me?"
"No, I think she blames herself, and on some levels I think she blames John," Jing-Mei told her truthfully.
"What?" Susan asked, confused.
"I think she blames herself for not telling us all that they were together, because if she did tell us, you wouldn't have gone for coffee and I think she blames John for caring about other people too much, as he made sure you were OK, rather than looking after himself," she explained to Susan.
"Do you blame me?" Susan asked afraid for her answer in case she did.
"No, not at all, I blame the driver, because he was speeding, and than drove off, and seeing as he could drive off, I suspect he left with out a scrape, and that isn't fair, I mean John could die because of somebody else's actions," Jing-Mei stopped, frightened that if she spoke anymore she would cry again.
The two doctors got to ADMIT. The rest of the staff were sitting around, looking as miserable as Jing-Mei felt. They walked up to desk and everybody saw them and looked up.
"He's out of surgery," Susan started.
"He is stable at the moment," Jing-Mei finished. The ER staff let out the breath they had been holding.
"Can we go back up?" Susan asked Jing-Mei, she was desperate to see Carter, because although she had been told he was stable, she needed to make sure for herself. Jing-Mei nodded. They walked back up the stairs to surgery, and up to Carter's room, just as they were about to go in, they noticed Abby asleep on his chest, without speaking they went to the chairs, so they could give Abby some more time with him.
Ten minutes later the chairs were crowded with ER staff. They had all come upstairs to see their colleague and friend. Kerry was worried at first that the ER would be deserted, but the temp receptionist that had come in, in replace for Frank, who was sick, had said she would stay downstairs, and would page Kerry if anybody came in.
Just as Susan and Jing-Mei were about to go and see Carter, Abby walked out.
"I can't stay in there anymore, I know that I should wait until he wakes up, but I cant," Abby told Susan. Susan nodded and led her to where everyone in the ER was waiting. She sat down, with Susan and Jing-Mei either side if her.
"What were you all talking about?" Abby asked.
"Carter," they all answered, Abby smiled.
"I was telling them about the time when Susan and I put a cast on Carter, then pretended there was a trauma, he fell right out the door, because of it", Mark said.
"I still cant believe you did that," Abby said, she had heard this story before.
"He didn't take it the wrong way though, which was good," Susan said. There was a pause as everybody remembered moments in their lives, which Carter was a part of, for most people there was a lot of good moments, which out- weighed the bad moments.
"It started at about the time Susan went to New York," Abby said, this sentence confused her friends. She laughed a little. "When Carter and I got together. We'd had an argument, during which I hurt him, pretty bad. I knew I would hurt him when I said it, but I told him anyway, not because I wanted to upset him, because that's the last thing I would ever want, but because I couldn't have him near me. I couldn't have him near me because I knew if he was I would tell him what I was feeling."
"Abby, sweetie, you're confusing us." Susan said.
Again Abby laughed, "Sorry."
"What do you mean you couldn't tell him what you were feeling?" Susan asked.
"Because if I did one of us would get hurt." Abby told them, "OK, we've got off track, anyway as I was saying, he left the apartment. The next day we were both working the same shift. It was busy all day, so I never really saw John to apologise. My last patient of the day needed to be seen by Psyche, but they were packed up too, so I had to wait with him for a while. The patient was getting restless and wound-up and after a while he attacked me. I ran out and as it was the end of my shift anyway I went straight up to the roof. John was already there, he turned around when he heard me walk onto the roof, by this time I was in tears, and without question he walked over to me and hugged me." Abby paused.
"That sounds like Carter," Susan said. Everyone around nodded.
"Yeah. Once I stopped crying I knew I had to tell him the truth about what I was feeling, so I did. I told him that I wanted to be with him, and I kissed him. He pulled back and said that he couldn't do anything when I was upset. Instead we went out for dinner that night, went to his apartment and talked all night about nothing. The last thing we talked about was our relationship, again I told him how I felt about him, and I kissed him again." She blushed slightly, "and that's pretty much how it started." Abby finished.
"You kissed him first?" Susan asked, Abby nodded. "Damn," Susan muttered. She pulled two $10 bills out of her pocket and handed them to Jing-Mei, who was grinning.
Abby laughed at her best friends, it felt good to laugh and it relaxed her. Just then a loud beeping noise was heard from John's room, several nurses ran into the room, followed by Elizabeth. The ER staff went quiet as they heard John's heart monitor flat line.
OK what do you think? Debzxxx
EMAIL: debz11888@hotmail.com
CATEGORY: JC/AL
RATING: PG-13 just in case
SPOILERS: This chapter will have things from episodes, mainly things from episodes in series 7 and series 8.
DISCLAIMER: Carter and Abby don't belong to me. They belong to NBC, and Warner Brothers, and all of the other people who own the rights to ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is set in at the time of series 10, but none of series 9 happened! Also Benton and Greene are in, because I really like them! Also this is my first fan fiction so take that into account when you read this! Also I have no knowledge of medical procedures etc. so anything to do with that will more than likely be wrong.
Ok all you need to know when reading this is that Abby and Carter have been together for a year, but kept it a secret from everyone. Please review and let me know what you think :)
Thank you to everyone who reviewed this fic so far they were all so sweet :)
Abby, Susan and Jing-Mei went into Romano's office. Susan guided Abby to a chair at the side of the room, which Abby collapsed into. As soon as she sat down she started to cry. Susan went and knelt down next to Abby and put her arm around Abby's shoulder. Jing-Mei did the same on the other side of Abby. Soon all three were crying together thinking about Carter, and their friendship with him.
Abby kept thinking about when John came to Oklahoma with her, she was remembering this because that was the first time when she realised she loved him. She also thought about when Carter told her about his feelings. She thought to herself that she should have said that she liked him to. If she had they would have had more time together if John dies. 'No!' she told herself, 'you can't think like that, he'll be fine'.
Susan was thinking about after she came back to Chicago. Although she was friends with Carter before she left, it wasn't until she returned that she became close to him. She remembered when he told her of his addiction. She was remembering this because she knew how hard it was to tell her, in case she judged him and was disappointed in him, she was proud of him, proud that he overcame this to become a darn good doctor.
Jing-Mei was remembering two moments in particular, the first when he was there when she gave birth. This moment was important to her, because he didn't complain one bit, even though she had woken him up. When she was pregnant she remembered that she didn't want anyone to help her with her pregnancy, as she was ashamed at what they would say to her, as she wasn't even with the father of Michael. When she was giving birth she didn't want to speak with anybody, except the midwives, nurses and the adoptive parents. During the first couple of contractions she knew she needed help, and the only person who came into her head, that would help was John. The other thing she was remembering was when she quit County. This was because he had made an effort to talk to her when he was off work. They had occasionally had lunch, dinner or breakfast together, and some days they would go out for the whole day. She was thinking about this because he was the only person who she really spoke to, until she returned to County. 'I'll have to thank him for these moments, when he wakes up, and maybe we can go out together occasionally, we haven't done that in a while', she thought to herself. There was a knock on the door, which interrupted the girls' thoughts. Peter walked in looking worn out.
"How's he doing?" Abby asked.
"Well he's in post-op and he's stable. A broken rib damaged his lung, so we had in re-inflate that, we had to remove his spleen also. There was some internal bleeding, which we managed to stop," Peter told them.
"Thank you," Abby said, "I know John will be glad you did his surgery." She paused, "again." Peter smiled.
"You can go and see him in a couple of minutes, when the nurses have finished," Peter told the girls.
"Thank you Dr. Benton," Abby told the surgeon again. She walked up to him and gave him a hug.
"I don't need any thanks I just did my job, but what I do need is for Carter to wake up," he told Abby quietly. She pulled back and smiled. Just then a nurse knocked on the door and came in.
"Dr. Benton we've finished with Dr. Carter," the young nurse told the older surgeon.
"OK, Abby go and see him now," Peter told her, then left the office, as his pager beeped. "Excuse me I'm needed in ICU."
Abby turned around and faced her two friends. She walked over to both and hugged them both.
"Will you wait here for a bit, I want to see him by myself first?" Abby asked
"Of course, sweetie, we'll come to his room in ten minutes, OK?" Jing-Mei replied.
"Yeah, thanks," Abby said, then walked out of the room, and to John's room.
She gasped when she saw John, he had tubes all over him, and the heart monitor was beeping loudly. Abby walked over to his bed, leant down and kissed his forehead. Then she moved some of his hair out of his face. Sitting down on the chair next to his bed, she took his hand. She kissed his wedding ring, and then leant her head on his chest, so she could feel his heartbeat. The tears, which were falling down her cheeks, landed on John. She sat up, and wiped them away.
"John, baby, please wake up now, I need to know you're OK, come on, please," she wiped more tears which were falling down her cheeks. She longed for John to wipe them away, while he looked into her eyes with his gorgeous chocolate, brown eyes. She smiled at this thought, but only for a second, when she remembered that until he woke up, whenever that was, he wouldn't be able to wipe away her tears. She once again leant over onto his chest and listened to the steady beat of his heart.
Meanwhile
Jing-Mei and Susan left Romano's office as soon as Abby did. They had decided to go back down to the ER and let them know what was happening.
They got to the stairs when Susan asked Jing-Mei,
"Do you think she blames me?"
"No, I think she blames herself, and on some levels I think she blames John," Jing-Mei told her truthfully.
"What?" Susan asked, confused.
"I think she blames herself for not telling us all that they were together, because if she did tell us, you wouldn't have gone for coffee and I think she blames John for caring about other people too much, as he made sure you were OK, rather than looking after himself," she explained to Susan.
"Do you blame me?" Susan asked afraid for her answer in case she did.
"No, not at all, I blame the driver, because he was speeding, and than drove off, and seeing as he could drive off, I suspect he left with out a scrape, and that isn't fair, I mean John could die because of somebody else's actions," Jing-Mei stopped, frightened that if she spoke anymore she would cry again.
The two doctors got to ADMIT. The rest of the staff were sitting around, looking as miserable as Jing-Mei felt. They walked up to desk and everybody saw them and looked up.
"He's out of surgery," Susan started.
"He is stable at the moment," Jing-Mei finished. The ER staff let out the breath they had been holding.
"Can we go back up?" Susan asked Jing-Mei, she was desperate to see Carter, because although she had been told he was stable, she needed to make sure for herself. Jing-Mei nodded. They walked back up the stairs to surgery, and up to Carter's room, just as they were about to go in, they noticed Abby asleep on his chest, without speaking they went to the chairs, so they could give Abby some more time with him.
Ten minutes later the chairs were crowded with ER staff. They had all come upstairs to see their colleague and friend. Kerry was worried at first that the ER would be deserted, but the temp receptionist that had come in, in replace for Frank, who was sick, had said she would stay downstairs, and would page Kerry if anybody came in.
Just as Susan and Jing-Mei were about to go and see Carter, Abby walked out.
"I can't stay in there anymore, I know that I should wait until he wakes up, but I cant," Abby told Susan. Susan nodded and led her to where everyone in the ER was waiting. She sat down, with Susan and Jing-Mei either side if her.
"What were you all talking about?" Abby asked.
"Carter," they all answered, Abby smiled.
"I was telling them about the time when Susan and I put a cast on Carter, then pretended there was a trauma, he fell right out the door, because of it", Mark said.
"I still cant believe you did that," Abby said, she had heard this story before.
"He didn't take it the wrong way though, which was good," Susan said. There was a pause as everybody remembered moments in their lives, which Carter was a part of, for most people there was a lot of good moments, which out- weighed the bad moments.
"It started at about the time Susan went to New York," Abby said, this sentence confused her friends. She laughed a little. "When Carter and I got together. We'd had an argument, during which I hurt him, pretty bad. I knew I would hurt him when I said it, but I told him anyway, not because I wanted to upset him, because that's the last thing I would ever want, but because I couldn't have him near me. I couldn't have him near me because I knew if he was I would tell him what I was feeling."
"Abby, sweetie, you're confusing us." Susan said.
Again Abby laughed, "Sorry."
"What do you mean you couldn't tell him what you were feeling?" Susan asked.
"Because if I did one of us would get hurt." Abby told them, "OK, we've got off track, anyway as I was saying, he left the apartment. The next day we were both working the same shift. It was busy all day, so I never really saw John to apologise. My last patient of the day needed to be seen by Psyche, but they were packed up too, so I had to wait with him for a while. The patient was getting restless and wound-up and after a while he attacked me. I ran out and as it was the end of my shift anyway I went straight up to the roof. John was already there, he turned around when he heard me walk onto the roof, by this time I was in tears, and without question he walked over to me and hugged me." Abby paused.
"That sounds like Carter," Susan said. Everyone around nodded.
"Yeah. Once I stopped crying I knew I had to tell him the truth about what I was feeling, so I did. I told him that I wanted to be with him, and I kissed him. He pulled back and said that he couldn't do anything when I was upset. Instead we went out for dinner that night, went to his apartment and talked all night about nothing. The last thing we talked about was our relationship, again I told him how I felt about him, and I kissed him again." She blushed slightly, "and that's pretty much how it started." Abby finished.
"You kissed him first?" Susan asked, Abby nodded. "Damn," Susan muttered. She pulled two $10 bills out of her pocket and handed them to Jing-Mei, who was grinning.
Abby laughed at her best friends, it felt good to laugh and it relaxed her. Just then a loud beeping noise was heard from John's room, several nurses ran into the room, followed by Elizabeth. The ER staff went quiet as they heard John's heart monitor flat line.
OK what do you think? Debzxxx