AUTHOR: higherbeingfriendsfan - Debz
EMAIL: debz11888@hotmail.com
CATEGORY: JC/AL
RATING: PG-13 just in case
SPOILERS: This chapter doesn't have any I don't think
DISCLAIMER: Carter and Abby don't belong to me. They belong to NBC, and Warner Brothers, and all of the other people who own the rights to ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is set in at the time of series 10, but none of series 9 happened! Also Benton and Greene are in, because I really like them! Also this is my first fan fiction so take that into account when you read this! Also I have no knowledge of medical procedures etc. so anything to do with that will more than likely be wrong.
Susan looked at Carter expecting a cold, hard, angry stare but instead he wore a soft comforting smile that made some of her guilty feelings leave. 'Maybe he doesn't hate me', but after a second Susan realised that this was ridiculous, 'of course he hates me look at what I've gotten him into'. Susan kept having conflicting thoughts, but when Carter started to speak these thoughts vanished, as she knew that the more she convinced herself that he didn't hate her the more she would fall when he said that he wished she had been knocked over and not him.
"Susan, stop", his voice broke her thought train. She gave him a confused look, so he continued, "stop feeling guilty, responsible or whatever."
"How?" she asked him, wondering how he knew what was going around in her head.
"I told you before that I've known you ages so not only can I tell when you're lying I know when you're feeling guilty. Like now", he smiled at her. "I don't want you to feel responsible for something that you didn't do and something which you had no control over."
"But..." he interrupted her saying "Susan I don't have amnesia I remember what happened. Whoever was driving that car is responsible not you."
This time she managed to say something, "but you pushed me away, if I'd been looking at the street I would have seen that car, you got run over because I was being careless, so now you fully remember what happened I bet you never want to see me again."
Carter chuckled, "hey, of course I want to see you again. And I always remember what happened and if I hadn't I would have been you in here, and I wouldn't have been able to live with that, especially if you had had worse injuries."
"You didn't have to though, and because you did I feel awful, I mean you didn't have to"
"Yeah I did I mean I could very well let one of my best friends die." For the next half an hour Carter and Susan talked over what they were feeling about the accident and Carter managed to convince Susan to feel less guilty and responsible.
Meanwhile
Abby and Jing-Mei took the elevator to the ER and walked to the desk where most of the ER staff were seated around, as again no patients were coming in, and the traumas and surgical consults had been sorted or admitted. Everybody looked up as they two women approached thankful for something to take their minds off the intense game of poker they had subjected themselves to! Elizabeth gave a small smile as Mark asked them why they downstairs.
"Well its John" Abby paused for affect and looked at her feet so nobody could see her smile, "he's awake". Everybody looked up as they had been preparing for the worse.
"When?", "How long ago?", "Is he OK?" the questions came flooding in.
"Well he woke up a few hours ago" Elizabeth told her colleagues. They looked at her shocked.
"You've been here for a few hours and you didn't tell us, why?" Mark asked his wife.
"I asked her not to" Abby told the staff, "I wanted Susan to be the first to know." She had also wanted Deb to be but by saying Susan it meant they didn't feel as angry because everybody knew what Susan was feeling.
"Is he alright?" Kerry asked. Abby smiled and nodded, "he's OK, he's breathing on his own, everything's fine."
(AN like I said I don't know medical procedures so if this is completely impossible because he had a collapsed lung or whatever I apologise :))
Everybody suddenly became more animated because of this news, smiles on everybody's' faces grew and everybody felt more relaxed. Abby looked at her colleagues and she felt happy because she knew that everybody in this room would help John's recovery and his addiction would be a thing in the past.
For the next thirty minutes the ER was full of excitement until Susan came into view, where they all stopped worried that something had happened until they saw the smile on her face and the guilt in her eyes had vanished.
"He fell asleep again, he's worn out, but he said that once he's awake he'll let us know and some people who are dying to see him" she looked pointedly at Abby "he'll send a message down, but he wants to be left alone while he rests."
Abby smiled with everyone else but something in the back of her mind made her worry and ask herself what John was hiding because there must be a reason for why he wanted no one in his room and especially that he didn't even want her. 'What's wrong with him?' she asked herself, not knowing the answer she vowed that when he did wake up she would find out.
Sorry this is short I'm pretty tired it's to early!
What do you guys think? Should I continue? Let me know and I promise I'll update quicker with the next chapter than I did with this one :)
Debzxxx
EMAIL: debz11888@hotmail.com
CATEGORY: JC/AL
RATING: PG-13 just in case
SPOILERS: This chapter doesn't have any I don't think
DISCLAIMER: Carter and Abby don't belong to me. They belong to NBC, and Warner Brothers, and all of the other people who own the rights to ER.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is set in at the time of series 10, but none of series 9 happened! Also Benton and Greene are in, because I really like them! Also this is my first fan fiction so take that into account when you read this! Also I have no knowledge of medical procedures etc. so anything to do with that will more than likely be wrong.
Susan looked at Carter expecting a cold, hard, angry stare but instead he wore a soft comforting smile that made some of her guilty feelings leave. 'Maybe he doesn't hate me', but after a second Susan realised that this was ridiculous, 'of course he hates me look at what I've gotten him into'. Susan kept having conflicting thoughts, but when Carter started to speak these thoughts vanished, as she knew that the more she convinced herself that he didn't hate her the more she would fall when he said that he wished she had been knocked over and not him.
"Susan, stop", his voice broke her thought train. She gave him a confused look, so he continued, "stop feeling guilty, responsible or whatever."
"How?" she asked him, wondering how he knew what was going around in her head.
"I told you before that I've known you ages so not only can I tell when you're lying I know when you're feeling guilty. Like now", he smiled at her. "I don't want you to feel responsible for something that you didn't do and something which you had no control over."
"But..." he interrupted her saying "Susan I don't have amnesia I remember what happened. Whoever was driving that car is responsible not you."
This time she managed to say something, "but you pushed me away, if I'd been looking at the street I would have seen that car, you got run over because I was being careless, so now you fully remember what happened I bet you never want to see me again."
Carter chuckled, "hey, of course I want to see you again. And I always remember what happened and if I hadn't I would have been you in here, and I wouldn't have been able to live with that, especially if you had had worse injuries."
"You didn't have to though, and because you did I feel awful, I mean you didn't have to"
"Yeah I did I mean I could very well let one of my best friends die." For the next half an hour Carter and Susan talked over what they were feeling about the accident and Carter managed to convince Susan to feel less guilty and responsible.
Meanwhile
Abby and Jing-Mei took the elevator to the ER and walked to the desk where most of the ER staff were seated around, as again no patients were coming in, and the traumas and surgical consults had been sorted or admitted. Everybody looked up as they two women approached thankful for something to take their minds off the intense game of poker they had subjected themselves to! Elizabeth gave a small smile as Mark asked them why they downstairs.
"Well its John" Abby paused for affect and looked at her feet so nobody could see her smile, "he's awake". Everybody looked up as they had been preparing for the worse.
"When?", "How long ago?", "Is he OK?" the questions came flooding in.
"Well he woke up a few hours ago" Elizabeth told her colleagues. They looked at her shocked.
"You've been here for a few hours and you didn't tell us, why?" Mark asked his wife.
"I asked her not to" Abby told the staff, "I wanted Susan to be the first to know." She had also wanted Deb to be but by saying Susan it meant they didn't feel as angry because everybody knew what Susan was feeling.
"Is he alright?" Kerry asked. Abby smiled and nodded, "he's OK, he's breathing on his own, everything's fine."
(AN like I said I don't know medical procedures so if this is completely impossible because he had a collapsed lung or whatever I apologise :))
Everybody suddenly became more animated because of this news, smiles on everybody's' faces grew and everybody felt more relaxed. Abby looked at her colleagues and she felt happy because she knew that everybody in this room would help John's recovery and his addiction would be a thing in the past.
For the next thirty minutes the ER was full of excitement until Susan came into view, where they all stopped worried that something had happened until they saw the smile on her face and the guilt in her eyes had vanished.
"He fell asleep again, he's worn out, but he said that once he's awake he'll let us know and some people who are dying to see him" she looked pointedly at Abby "he'll send a message down, but he wants to be left alone while he rests."
Abby smiled with everyone else but something in the back of her mind made her worry and ask herself what John was hiding because there must be a reason for why he wanted no one in his room and especially that he didn't even want her. 'What's wrong with him?' she asked herself, not knowing the answer she vowed that when he did wake up she would find out.
Sorry this is short I'm pretty tired it's to early!
What do you guys think? Should I continue? Let me know and I promise I'll update quicker with the next chapter than I did with this one :)
Debzxxx