Chapter 7: Moving on…. Or are you?? :: raises eyebrow::
AN: Yeah! I FINALLY update! Well thanks for the reviews! I really to tell you the truth thought this story would never be so big! Lol, but the sad thing is when you find out why Helga is mad at Arnold you'll probably stop reading this story… oh well! Your MINE till then! Lol
Disclaimer: I don't own Hey Arnold! Never will BUT, but I do own the poem which I written weeks before based on my own feelings for someone, shhhhhh, don't tell anyone. They'll actually think I can feel and we wouldn't want that know would we? Lol ^_^
Should I except?? What about Helga? Arnold thought desperately.
(What ABOUT Helga?),
Well you know I do like her…
(She obviously doesn't like you back or you guys would be going out)
Shut up!
(Except the offer)
But,
(Except)
But…
(Except it god damnit!!)
Geez… alright I will…::sighs::
I need to stop having conversations with my self Arnold thought with a sigh.
"Sure Lila I would love to go to Homecoming with you" Arnold said through slightly gritted teeth.
"You will!?!? Thanks! I can't wait! Oh! What time will you be picking me up?" Lila asked as she tilted her to the side causing some loose auburn locks to fall over her eyes.
"Um… how about 7:30?" Arnold asked as he flashed a fake smiled,
"Well see ya around!" Lila called cheerfully as he walked away.
"Sure see ya around…" he muttered as he walked down the sidewalk towards the park.
He loved the park, it was a place where he could walk around and sort through his mixed up and confused thoughts. He especially liked it during the sunset, while he sat under his favorite willow tree.
Arnold stuffed his hands into his pockets and walked towards his tree, he stopped dead in his tracks as he noticed Helga sitting under the tree, Melissa besides her in her carrier fast asleep, Helga's nose deep in a book.
Arnold slowly approached them, smiling slightly.
"Do you mind if I sit next to you?" Arnold asked softly.
Helga's blue eyes glanced up quickly then returned to the book,
"Sure I don't care" Helga mumbled as she scooted over.
Arnold sat down and leaned back on his elbows he sighed contently as he looked up at the sky, as he sorted out his thoughts.
"I saw you talking to Lila when I was walking to the park, I didn't know you guys were still friends" Helga said as she glanced at Arnold.
Arnold softly chuckled, so she did still care... He thought, "Yeah we were, we've never really stopped being friends" Arnold answered.
"Oh" Helga whispered as she returned to her book.
"Yeah, she asked me to homecoming" Arnold rambled, he wanted to see Helga's reaction.
"Really?" She asked raising an eyebrow (AN: did I ever mention she has two eyebrows now?).
"Yeah," Arnold said as he tried not to smile.
"So are you guys going?" Helga said slowly and casually as if to hold herself back.
"Yeah I we are," Arnold answered.
"Oh… well…. Have fun!" Helga said and tried to smile even though her eyes told differently.
"Yeah thanks I will, maybe I'll see you there" Arnold said softly.
"Yeah maybe" Helga said as she stood up.
"Helga?" Arnold asked, Helga turned around and you could see her eyes begin to water.
"Yeah I gotta be going now I have to feel Melissa" Helga mumbled as she picked up Melissa and walked quickly away.
Arnold watched her walk away, he felt horrible. I shouldn't have said anything, Arnold thought, even though she DID bring it up.
Arnold glanced over and saw Helga's book on the ground, he picked it up and leafed through the pages until something caught his eye, it was a poem,
Our history together is what you call a fairytale right?
Wrong,
It's no where close,
I've obsessed over you,
And you brake my heart my leaving me,
So I learned to live without you,
But then you return,
And so do my past feelings,
Which I can't seem to ignore,
I've tried to avoid the subject of you,
I've tried to avoid seeing you,
I even tried to deny my feelings,
Which hurts me even more,
I'm so confused,
So lost,
Do you love me too?
Do you feel the same?
Or do you just want to be friends?
Do you think of me the way I think of you?
Do you watch me the way I watch you?
Or just don't know if you even consider me that way,
And it hurts,
So I'm going to myself,
And cope with the pain,
Cry in the inside,
But smile to the world,
I'll lie to myself,
The world,
And you,
I just wish I knew how you felt.
Arnold looked up from the book and wiped the tears from his eyes, I've caused her this pain, he thought miserably.
"I've got to do something" Arnold whispered, and he had just the thing….
AN: Ohhh what is he going to do? Even I don't know so we'll both find out together, me before you though ;P Lol Well review!