Hello again!! For those who never read my story(s) before, I wrote the fic "30 Minutes". It's about Shadow's life on the ARK. Some stuff in that is important, so if I were you I would read it, stuff in this fic would make alot more sense, AND REVIEW IT TOO, lol. This fic should really be Drama/Action/Adventure/Tragedy/Humor. Humor is a little later, funny things are said.
Legal crap: I don't own any sega characters, or place, items, etc. I OWN ROXANNE!!! THAT IS SOMETHING YOU CANNOT STEAL, OR I SHALL SUE!!!!
This fic contains
Drug use: Nothing really to bad, just pot.
(Mentions of) Suicide: I put it in purenthises so you won't know if there is or isn't suicide :)
Cutting: I thought I should make that clear.
Strong Language: Yes, the kind of language I use in everyday life is now on the computer :D
Remember: Song Lyrics Memories
When in 3rd person POV: Thoughts
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My Immortal
Chapter 1, My Immortal Part I
(Shadow's POV)
7:30pm, Febuary 3.
Today is Febuary 3rd, yep, good ol' 3rd of Febuary. Today is Maria's birthday, I still remeber all the birthday's I've celebrated for Maria with my dad. My dad, heh, he wasn't even my father. I have no father, I have a creator. If only was behind her, I would have died instead of her. As soon as I saw her hit the ground from that bullet, my life was over. I am spiritually dead right now, I wish someone would come along and kill me, save me from my depression.
I'm so tired of being here,
I don't even know where I am, I know I'm in Station Square, but where in it? I look across the street and see and some, as they call, 'gangsta' people. I said aloud, "hmph.." I must me in the ghetto of SS. I look above me and I see something people call and 'Eel', I think thats what they call it, an elivated train something. Oh well, its not important, like me....
Someone taps me on the shoulder and there is an old lady, as soon as I turn around, I am stumbling back. I say, "What the fuck was that for!?" She hit me with her purse. She hits me sgain with it, "The first time was for trying to destroy the Earth, now that was for saying bad language around a lady!" I turned to walk away, I shout back, "Too bad theres no ladies around, just hags and hoes!!" I knew I was in trouble from saying that, all the woman turned around, and some shouted crap to me like, "Wha cho talkin' bout?! I ain't no ho!!" Funny, she says she isn't a ho, but she wearing a tube top and short shorts that say 'bootyliscous' on her ass.
People began to swarm around me, so I knew I better get out of there. I kicked up my air shoes and flew out of there, on my way out someone tried shooting at me, I guess someone had a gun.
Suppressed by all my childish fears,
A gun. The thing that killed Maria.
10:00pm, December 2, 19#9
Maria fell to the ground, she rolled over and I saw the wound, he shot her right above the heart. She was bleeding and she tried to stand up. As soon as I saw her hit the ground, my whole word came shattering down. My best friend was just broken by a one inch silver bullet.
And if you have to leave,
But Maria is gone now, and she will never come back. I just wish I could have said good-bye. I know she was dying, but why could couldn't she still come down to Earth?
I wish that you would just leave,
I begin to cry silent tears. I wish since she is gone, I could just let go. I am stuck with the memory of her being shot and those last words she said.
Because your presence still lingers here,
Everytime I'm alone, which is almost all the time, I think I hear her talking to me. I can feel she presence right next to me.
And it won't leave me alone.
I just want this feeling to go away.... I feel its my fault. Only if I was shot instead.... Maria always wanted to go to Earth, and now she can't even do that. I begin to really cry. Godammit, I'm such a baby.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
I am out of the ghetto and land on the ground. Hmmm, I must me in St. Evan's Park. I look around me and across the streets from the park are nice looking suburban house. I would be nice to live somewhere. I sit on a bench which is coincidentally right behnd me. My feet hurt from walking around with no where to live, I take off my shoes and get ready to go to sleep. Damn shoes took my socks off too! Why can't anything go right?! I get the socks from the inside of my shoes, and I see the gun shot wound.
The wound that will never heal, along with my emotionally wounds.
This pain is just too real,
The pain Maria felt when was shot cannot compare to the pain I felt. If I said it felt like 1000 stabbing knives, that are 500 degrees, all stabbing me in my heart, while I am being boiled in oil in the fiery pits of hell, that would be one hell of a under statement!
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
He is probably already dead, but if I ever see the heartless demon that killed Maria again, I would kill him slowly and painfully. Make him suffer the physical pain that I feel emotionally.
Even if he says he is sorry and will go to hell for me and everyone I love, that still would be too good for him.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When Maria would cry, I would be there to comfort her. When she would cry, I would always be there for her,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
On the ARK before she was killed, I would try to protect her in any way possible,
And I've held your hand through all of these years,
I was with her for 16 years and was always there for her, and always with her,
But you still have all of me.
And I still am.
You used to captivate me
When my father, Gerald, or anyone would fight with me she would always try her best to get me out of trouble,
By your resonating light,
Even if it meant her taking the blame.
But Now I'm bound by the life you left behind,
She was such a good person, she shouldn't have been killed, she should be alive, here, with me right now. But no, I am living both of our lives.
I use my shoes as a pillow and try to fall asleep in the coldness of winter.
Your face haunts my once pleasant dreams,
Of course I have a dream about her. Her telling me 'she would rather worry, and have have friend like me.' Then t goes to her getting killed. I have this dream every time I sleep since that day.
You voice it chased away all the sanity in me.
I opened my eyes and could feel her hug me. I think I am going insane.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
I cannot deal with the pain any longer.
This pain is just too real,
I look up and I see a little echidna girl with, I think, it is, her echidna father. She is holding a little echidna doll with a diaper. It looks like Maria's...
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
She drops the doll and starts crying, but her father is holding her hand and keeps pulling her. I feel bad for the girl and I don't want anyone or anything be taken away from someone, if it can be stopped. I get off the bench and pick up the doll. I tug on the man's red sports jersy, he turns around and I hand the girl her doll, "I think you dropped this." The man looks at me like I am a piece of dog shit under his shoe, picks up his daugther and walks away quickly.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
I didn't really want to destroy the world, I love Earth, I just wanted to fulfill a promise to Maria.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
In the end I found what she really wanted; me to save the world.
And I've held your hand through all of these years,
I see some girls walk by, mabe about 5 or 6 of them, some human, some animals, but people nowadays call them furries, dunno why, some don't even have fur.
But you still have all of me.
I here them talk about me, I heard my name, but I don't care I hear that all the time. As they walk away, I go back to my bench and close my eyes.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that your gone,
I know as soon as I got to sleep, I will dream the same nightmare. So I get up and walk around.
But though your still with me,
I feel that she is with me. I look about 20 ft. away and see the busiest street, there were so many accidents. Since I no longer want to live, I decide to end my life.
I've been alone all along.
I stood on the curb, thinking before I kill myself, would Maria want this?
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
I doesn't matter, I will be with her.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
I see all the cars zoom by and think of myself being flung by them, getting killed. At least my pain will go away...
And I've held your hand through all of these years,
I close my eyes and take a step....
But you still have,
...in the opposite direction of the street. I will give the pain one more day to break me down. I can say good-bye to my 'friends'.
All of me.
I will be with you soon enough Maria....
Wow, that was emotional! Well next chap will be up today or tomorrow! PLEASE REVIEW!!!