When Love and Death Embrace

Duo/Hilde/Wu-Fei Arc

This is the first of three separate Arcs involving various couples in Gundam wing. In this Arc there will be a Shuouen Ai relationship and Suicide. I this stuff bothers you then don't read the story. Keep in mind that I'm a little new with the whole Yaoi thing, so if it sucks, I'm sorry. (Also I should note that every song that I use is going to be from the band HIM Cause quiet frankly, they rock.)

Warnings: Shuouen Ai, Adult Situations, Language, Mild Angst,

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, HIM, or their song Heartache every moment

Note: The text in bold italics is the song lyrics also this fic will change from 1st person to 3rd person periodically, sorry if it causes confusion.

Heartache Every Moment


From lashes to ashes
from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us

"Wu-Fei… can you give me some time to think this through… Ok, bye."

Duo hung up the phone, his head spinning with questions. He sat down on his couch and ran his hands through his hair. As he slowly pieced together what had happened, He began to think to himself.

Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so worn

Wu-Fei… I remember seeing you earlier today; you looked very nervous and worried. I tried to talk to you, but you ran away from me. I was so confused, I went home to give you a call, but then you called me.

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you

Ilistened as you poured your heart out to me. You told me that he'd been in love with me for years. You also told me you wanted me to break things off with Hilde. I really didn't know what to say, I told you I'd call you back, But I don't know now.

Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you

Wu-Fei, you've been a real good friend to me, but that's all I've ever thought of you. I've been married to Hilde for 2 years now and things couldn't be better. I love her so much. But then there's you Wu-Fei…


And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

Now that I look back on it, I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. You're always trying to be around with me as much as possible. And it's no secret that you don't like Hilde. You've made sure I know that.

'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god

But what do I do now, do I just ignore your feelings for me, and continue being your friend. But how would you react to that, would our friendship ever be the same again? Or would it dissolve completely?

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you

It's not that I don't care for you, throughout my life you've always been there. I do love you, but as a friend not a lover… or do I? Oh man this is just so confusing… why did it have to be me?

Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you

Duo walked up to the window and placed a hand on the glass. As he closed his eye, images of both Hilde and Wu-Fei came flooding back to him. He though of how happy he was when he was with Hilde. They way she made him laugh and smile, she made him whole.


From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust

Suddenly a new thought entered his mind; he began to imagine a life with Wu-Fei. He could see them lying on the couch holding each other. He imagined placing soft kisses on Wu-Fei's forehead while he nuzzled against his neck. As Duo thought to himself, he could feel himself becoming warm.

In your sweetest torment
I am lost

What is this feeling, it feels so familiar. It feels like, when I first fell in love with Hilde. Can it be... can I be falling in love with you Wu-Fei? Somehow it feels right, but still, can I just give up Hilde?

And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

I need to know for sure I need to see you. I need to know for myself who I truly love. Hilde's working late tonight, so I'll have plenty of time to talk with you alone. Hopefully when this is all over, things came be normal again.


Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right

Duo picked up the phone and called Wu-Fei, it ringed for a bit then Wu-Fei picked it up.

"Duo is that you?"

Duo took a deep breath "Wu-Fei I've given a lot of though about this. I still don't know what I want to do, but I need to see you. I need to talk to you."

"I understand, come on over."

"Okay bye."

He hung up the phone, grabbed his keys, and went out to the car. He started it up and drove off to Wu-Fei's as fast as he could.

Hilde pulled up to the house when he saw Duo speeding away into the distance.

"What's wrong with Duo?"

She started the car back up and followed him.

End