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A/N – I'm baaaaack! 4 updates in 3 days... I'm on a roll huh? I just had an idea for this fic while walking home today, so see what you think.. yay! The angst is back! As well as the poetry! Yayness... ah... the good old days...
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Daddy didn't come home last night
But I guess that isn't all too unforeseen now
And I know that mom hurts
How she cries inside
But she'll make it through, she always does somehow.
These four walls are suffocating
So cold and callous, so grey
But I've got them
They've got me
I just wish there was some other way.
There's just no hiding in this trailer
No sanctuary in this place that we call home
I can hear my sister crying
These walls so paper-thin
I can hear every word and every sigh; it's too much for her to deal with alone.
I guess she never has been the brightest
And between us the weakest by far
But she's my sister
I still love her
She can't be perfect, none of us are.
The worst thing? She still trusts him
If only we could all be as naive as May
But I know
And Marie knows
May still thinks he'll change someday
Marie, Daddy never liked her
She's so strong and rebellious, no; he doesn't like that at all
But her pain is my pain
And it can be so hard
To sit back powerless, as he hits her and I have to watch her fall
But I've never heard her cry, not once
Instead she obsesses over Double D
But he's so timid
And she can't control her anger
I wonder if he'll ever see past how the violence has changed her, just like it has me
I guess I was always Daddy's favourite
He just likes how I pretend to be oblivious to his lies
Some would say I'm lucky
Fate has smiled on me
I wish that he hated me too, I can't abide the resentment in my sisters' eyes
Which is why I'll never be with Eddy
Because no matter how much I want it, I won't let love destroy me
So I'm cold, I'm callous
I won't allow him to get too close
Because I know first hand how much love hurts, by what it's done to my family
Yeah... I don't know if I like this or not... Hmmmm... Well, as always please tell me what you think, I've never really written the Kankers before, and there are not many (if any) fics out there for me to gain ideas from... ah well... Toodles for now –xx-