Disclaimer: (Same as before) If I did own it, I probably wouldn't be posting stories on this site, hence the word(s) "FAN Fiction". o.o......oooooooo......

Once again, ther is a little bit of retelling the story, but, it's mostly my own, it just follows it more then anything. ANYWAYS,......

Home sick.....sniffagain. Only this time it's spring break! Crap,sniff of all the times to be sick, why does it have to be now?sniff You would think that with all of my time being spent at home that I would be cranking out the chapters. But alas, homework/makeup work and I swearsniff I have some sort of Writers Block Syndrome or something.sniff Anyway, I know I haven't worked on this story for a long time, but hey at least I was working on one of my stories. sniff And just to let you "Your Mom!" readers know, I probably won't be updating that story for a while, seeing that there are stories that I haven't updated for about a month or so. sniff And, I'm in the process of painting my room, buying furniture for it sniff and getting all moved into it, and finishing "late" homework, so bare with my slowness please. sniff On with the story.sniff

-Oh wait, about the whole original ending of DBZ thing, I......oh, forget it, I'll tell you later...sniff enjoy...

AC My End

Chapter 4

Feelings That Can't Be Hidden

"......And, that's the whole story Mom......" Gohan told his Mother, and Grandfather, while trying to prevent his own mixed emotions from being reveled.

He took in a deep breath and held it for a moment before releasing it. 'Okay Gohan......' He thought. 'You did it......it's okay, chill out, everything's going to be fine, just calm down......'

The room was silent, very silent, not even the usual sound of chirping birds from outside could be heard. It was as if time itself had stopped in the environment around them. And with Gohan being the barer of bad news, it made him feel all the more uncomfortable.

'Dang......' Gohan thought. 'You could drop a pin miles away from here and even my Grandpa would be able to hear it.'

Gohan was standing a little separated from the others near a rather large potted plant, while the others were seated on the floor close to a table on the other side of the room.

All eyes in the small living room were on Gohan. The eyes belonged to the only other three bodies in the room, Baba the fortune teller and Gohans Mother and Grandfather. All three were staring speechless at the eleven year old and it made him feel even more uneasy, especially the way his Mother was looking at him.

Her lips were slightly parted and her dark eyes were covered in a clear watery glaze. Almost her entire face was tinted pink from holding back tears and sobs for her husband.

The silence was becoming almost unbearable for Gohan, and his Mother's teary gaze and red face were not helping.

Seeing his Mother cry would only make Gohan feel worse and would make him cry as well.

'Please......Please Mommy, don't......Don't......' He mentally begged his Mother, though he knew she could not here him.

A single tear trickled down Chi Chi's cheek before she let out a slight gasp. She immediately put her hands to her face, hunched over and lowered herself to the floor in a big heap of emotion. She bawled and gasped for air as more tears came. Her Father was at a lose as to what to do, but Gohan new what to do by instinct.

'Oh Mom......' Gohan thought.

He was quickly kneeling beside his Mother and hugging her in the awkward position she was in. The way Gohan was hunched over his Mother made it appear as if he was trying to protect her from something. He rested his head on his weeping Mother's shoulder and tried with all his might not to cry like his Mother was.

He felt his cheeks tingle with the desire to release held back tears. His face became hot and he felt his lower lip quiver. 'No, no Gohan, you can't......' He mentally scolded himself. 'If you start crying it will only make Mom cry more!' It was a hard battle for him, but he succeeded in keeping his tears at bay.

Ox King watched in pain as his daughter and grandson mourned over the loss of their Father and Husband. He too was misty eyed, but not nearly as broken up about it as Chi Chi and Gohan.

Chi Chi was still crying loudly and Gohan was trying to make her feel better by whispering things to her.

"It's okay Mom," He said. "......Pleas Mom, this is the way he wanted it, really......"

Chi Chi quieted her sobs enough to let out a simple response.

"What?......" She began to slowly sit up, still crying but not as bad as she had been a few moments before. Her face was tear stained and she was breathing heavily and gasping. Gohan feeling his Mother slowly rising from the ground back away to help make it easier for her to sit up right.

"......What, do you mean?" She asked in between gasps.

Gohan spread a fake smile on his face, for Chi Chi's sake

"Yeah, he said so himself, besides Mom, I can feel him, he's there......"

Chi Chi looked at her son with a very confused and helpless look.

"......You mean......" She started. "He, didn't want to come back home to us?"

Gohan opened his mouth, hopping to produce words that could explain, but none came out.

"A, ah......" Was all he could say.

Chi Chi looked as though she was going to start crying again.

"A, No!......I mean, Mom, he did it for a reason......" Gohan tried to explain.

Chi Chi looked at him quizzically.

"What do you mean?"

Gohan hesitated for a moment.

"Um, he said, that......It always seems, or seemed, that trouble always follows Daddy every where. And, he said to think about it, au, Freiza, Cell, au the Androids, even Vegeta and Raditz and Nappa and other people too. He said that, he thought that it would be best for the Earth if he didn't come back this time......" Gohan finished.

Chi Chi sat mouth a gape.

"Wow," Ox King said. "What an incredible man......Doesn't that sound just like him?" He looked over at Baba who simply nodded in agreement.

"He didn't want to come back to us, he wanted to stay." Chi Chi shook her head.

"No, no, nooo......" She whined before crying once again.

Gohan embraced his Mother once again, and this time Gohan's Grandpa even joined in. While Gohan was hugging his Mom, Ox King was hugging both of them.

"Try not to worry that much about it Sweetie," He said in a loving voice. "He said so himself that he wanted to stay there, he's happy, and that makes me feel better just knowing that, and you should feel the same way."

Chi Chi sniffed and was shedding so many tears that if she didn't quit soon she would eventually find herself in a puddle of her own tears.

"But he's gone, sniff he's gone I'll never see him again. I'll never be able to touch him and, and......" She started to cry harder and Gohan embraced her even more so.

Gohan didn't know how much longer he would be able to stand watching his Mother in such a state.

"Mommy, Daddy may not be......au......have, been, the brightest person ever, but when it comes to things like this, he knows what's best for us. And, Mom, Dad would never want to stay in......where ever he is now, because he doesn't want to see or be with us any more, he did it because he loves us, and he wants to protect us, even if it means not being able to be with us......"

Ox King was touched by his Grandson's words and thought it very mature for his age. Then again, he always had been a little more mature then most kids his age, at least when it came to certain things.

"Gohan's right Dear, Goku's always known what's been best for us always....."

Chi Chi quieted down a bit and looked at the remainders of her family. She wiped a tear from her eye and tried very hard not to cry anymore but the thought of never being able to see him again was unbearable.

"......I know......" She began to sob again.

"I never got to say good bye......" She gasped as she once again hunched over. Gohan couldn't take it anymore, he slowly backed away from his Mother, leaving her to his Grandfather. He began to feel the urge to cry again and bit his lower lip. He began to breath heavily and was about to start crying himself until he felt a close presence. He looked over his shoulder and saw Baba floating on her crystal ball looking right at him, almost as if she had been expecting him to turn around. She had no real expression on her face, she was just looking at him. Gohan gasped and ran around Baba and up the stairs to his room and shut the door.

Baba looked in the general direction of Gohan until she heard the slamming of his door. She then looked over at Chi Chi and Ox King and shook her head while quietly making her exit out of the dramatic house hold. Once outside, she stayed in the front yard for a few minutes, thinking to herself.

'Goku, a brave and noble sacrifice, but I'm afraid that it will deeply effect the life of your family. Well, I think I know what to do that might help them, but you're gonna have to take part in it.' She thought to herself.

"Okay Goku, I'm coming to pay you a little visit." She said aloud before floating up into the clouds.

Meanwhile In Gohan's Room

Gohan laid on his bed letting go all the held back tears and emotions. He wanted to scream out but knew that it would be a bad idea. He hugged a pillow and sobbed into it leaving tear stains, some spit and even some snot. Gohan felt like kicking himself in the ass so hard as he did a replay in his mind of the day.

"Damitt Gohan!" He scolded himself. "You're such a Fricken retard! I let all that power go to my head!" He stopped to catch his breath. "And then Cell had to make himself all blown up like a Fricken Balloon and make Dad save us all because I was too weak and a Fricken looser and emotional wreak and Stupid and thick Headed and scared and, and......Just a Fucking Dumb Ass!" He began to sob more and harder, but kept it enough under control to make sure that no one else could hear him.

"Why, Why?!......Why am I incapable of doing anything right in my life! The only thing I'm good for is homework!" He said aloud.

'I could role over and die and nothing would be any different......Except then Mom wouldn't just have Dad to cry over, she'd have me too. And that's the last thing she needs........' He thought. 'I have to be hear for Mom. She needs me, I'll get over this......Oh, Gosh, no I don't know......'

"I don't know anything!" He half yelled. "I'm just a "Fucking Dumb Ass......" He quoted himself before crying again.

It was early evening when Gohan had gotten home and it was early evening when he went to his room, where he stayed in a swirling torrent of tears and emotions until he eventually cried himself to sleep, hours later......

(Wiggle-Chicken Note:)

What did u think. As usual, I was planning on adding more, but it's about 10 P.M. on a school night, and I've been getting an average number of about 3 hours of sleep every night for the past week. O-0 I have to get some sleep. Anyway, au, I know it's still going a bit slow, but the next chapter is when things finally start to pick up! Yayness for me!

Oh, well, I guess I better start explaining the whole "Original ending" thing to you guys huh? Okay, well, ya see, "originally" Gohan was suppose to take over as main character after the Cells Games, and things were supposed to be a lot different. Goku was supposed to stay dead and "never" come back, ever, and there wasn't going to be Buu. There was of course going to be some kind of evil villain, but just not Buu. And the whole over all story after Cell was supposed to take a turn more on the dramatic side of the road. Of course it would still have it's funny little blips here and there but, yeah. And there wasn't going to be a GT, infact, that isn't even part of Akira Toryamies idea, it's not his story it's his animation studio's story that they developed just because DBZ and DB were big hits they thought they could make lots of money off of making another series. Well, personally, they thought wrong . But oh well that's not my problem, anyway, Oh I know there's something else but I can't remember it, hum, maybe that was all of it? o.0 Hum......Well, anyway, like I've said so many times before, I'm going to mix my own personal ending with Akiras own ending. Oh and the reason this "better" version never came to be was because the people of Japan didn't like the idea of Goku being gone forever, and in a way I understand it, but at the same time I find it totally stupid. But, oh well. Tootles!

(This information about the "original" ending I got from different kinds of sources. On-line, Akira's Bio thingy and I read it in a/some book(s)/magazine(s). I don't know if it's all true or what, but it's the only other ending to DBZ that I've read about in more then one place.)

P.S: I still feel sick, I was just too lazy to write in the "sniff (s).