Chapter Seventeen
Amanda didn't know who to confront first, Jack or her mother, Jack would be able to tell her who her father was but her mother may be able to tell her who her father was and this truth that Jack was talking about in his letter. So she decided for her mother but if she didn't get answers from her then she was going to Jack and this time she wasn't going to take no for an answer.
Arriving home Amanda composed herself before entering her apartment, knowing that if she walked in there with signs of anguish she would never get the answers that she seeks.
Opening the door she was assaulted by the smell of different kinds of food cooking. She walked towards the kitchen and stopped in the doorway watching her mother cook a full and proper dinner for them both and maybe Louise who hopefully would be coming round later.
"Mum" Amanda said loud enough for her mother to hear but not loud enough to give her a fright.
"Oh, Amanda your home early I was cooking dinner as a surprise" Ruth said turning to face Amanda.
Seeing the look on Amanda's face Ruth stepped towards her and said "Amanda honey are you aright."
"No mum I'm not alright, I'm fed up with you lying to me and thinking that I'll never find out" Amanda said showing a little more bitterness then she really wanted to but it seemed to get the desired effect neither the less.
"Amanda what are you…" Ruth was quickly cut off when Amanda pushed envelope in front of Ruth's face. "What's this Amanda" Ruth said taking the envelope from Amanda.
"It's a letter from Colonel O'Neill to you, and at least I got some answers from that but I want the rest from you" Amanda said then gave her mother time to read the letter.
Once she finished reading the letter Ruth looked at Amanda seeing only sadness and anger behind her loving eyes.
"Oh, Amanda I'm sorry I should have told you about me and Jack but I was afraid" Ruth said moving closer to her daughter hoping to comfort her.
"No mother" Amanda said stepping back from her mother's embrace and then continued. "I need answers mum, first being were you and Colonel O'Neill together?"
"Yes, Jack and I were seeing each other for a little over 2 years but when he moved I assumed he'd left me so I refused to talk to him. I only found out the other day that he left because he had to and that he was going to ask me to move to the US with him and ask me to marry him but I refused to answer his calls so I never found out" Ruth said looking at her daughters face still showing the signs of anguish.
"OK, Colonel O'Neill said he knows my father is that true?" Amanda said wanting to know but deep down knowing that her mother would never tell her who her farther is.
"Yes Jack knows who your father it" Ruth kept her answer short not wanting to give too much away.
"What's this secret the Colonel was talking about in the letter", Amanda said looking stonily at her mothers face.
"I… I can't tell you that Amanda. I'll tell you anything other than that" Ruth said tears starting to form in her eyes.
"OK then, you'll tell me anything then tell me this one simple thing. Who's my father?" Amanda pressed knowing that she would never get an answer to the question, unaware that the answer to both questions was the same.
"I can't Amanda, and you know I can't" Ruth said as the tears flowed freely down her face and her eyes once again turned a dark shade of red from all the crying she'd done over the past few days.
"OK then, I'm going to pack an over night bag and I'm going to stay over at Jonas's but when I'm back tomorrow night I want you out mother. All I've asked from you is the truth and you're unwilling to give me that. I'm sorry but until I find out I don't want anything to do with you and I'll tell you this Colonel O'Neill was right in that letter I won't give up till I find out". Amanda said turning away from her mother and was about to leave the room when Ruth's voice stopped her.
"Please Amanda, just try and understand what it's like for me" Ruth pleaded with her daughter.
"And how do you think I feel mum" Amanda replied then quickly left the room before her mother could reply.
Jonas was turning off the television, which was turned prominently to the weather channel when there was a knock at the door. He made his way to the door answering it before looking out of the peephole and was surprised to see Amanda standing there with an overnight bag over her shoulder.
Noticing the light was shining off of tears still freely running down her face he quickly pulled her into a hug to try and soothe her then whispered "Amanda what's the matter."
Bringing them both further into the hallway Jonas closed the door then guided Amanda to the living room and then on to the sofa. Then leaving her there for a few moments Jonas went and put her overnight bag in his bedroom returning back to Amanda's side once he'd done that.
Sitting down at the side of Amanda, Jonas once again put his arms around her to comfort her and seeing that she had calmed down a bit he tried again. "Are you going to tell me what's wrong" Jonas pleaded with her.
Swallowing the contents of her mouth then wiping the tears off her face Amanda answered his question, "Mum and me had an argument over the letter that Jack sent her. She admitted that they did at one time love each other but as for the secret she wouldn't tell me. Then we got side tracked and I asked her whom my father is as she's always refused to tell me. So when she said that she'd answer any question other then what the secret was I had to ask and when she refused to tell me I told her I was coming over here and that I wanted her out of the apartment by tomorrow."
Amanda started to cry violently once again and Jonas started to rock her trying to get her to calm down once again then said "Come on Amanda she'll understand that you were upset and didn't mean what you said."
"But that's the thing Jonas I did mean it. I'm tired of not knowing the truth and I'm tired of mum always hiding it from me like she's trying to protect me from something. I'm going to find out the truth this time one way or another and the only way it looks like I'm going to get the truth is to go see the Colonel and confront him," Amanda said cuddling further into Jonas's chest.
Amanda didn't know who to confront first, Jack or her mother, Jack would be able to tell her who her father was but her mother may be able to tell her who her father was and this truth that Jack was talking about in his letter. So she decided for her mother but if she didn't get answers from her then she was going to Jack and this time she wasn't going to take no for an answer.
Arriving home Amanda composed herself before entering her apartment, knowing that if she walked in there with signs of anguish she would never get the answers that she seeks.
Opening the door she was assaulted by the smell of different kinds of food cooking. She walked towards the kitchen and stopped in the doorway watching her mother cook a full and proper dinner for them both and maybe Louise who hopefully would be coming round later.
"Mum" Amanda said loud enough for her mother to hear but not loud enough to give her a fright.
"Oh, Amanda your home early I was cooking dinner as a surprise" Ruth said turning to face Amanda.
Seeing the look on Amanda's face Ruth stepped towards her and said "Amanda honey are you aright."
"No mum I'm not alright, I'm fed up with you lying to me and thinking that I'll never find out" Amanda said showing a little more bitterness then she really wanted to but it seemed to get the desired effect neither the less.
"Amanda what are you…" Ruth was quickly cut off when Amanda pushed envelope in front of Ruth's face. "What's this Amanda" Ruth said taking the envelope from Amanda.
"It's a letter from Colonel O'Neill to you, and at least I got some answers from that but I want the rest from you" Amanda said then gave her mother time to read the letter.
Once she finished reading the letter Ruth looked at Amanda seeing only sadness and anger behind her loving eyes.
"Oh, Amanda I'm sorry I should have told you about me and Jack but I was afraid" Ruth said moving closer to her daughter hoping to comfort her.
"No mother" Amanda said stepping back from her mother's embrace and then continued. "I need answers mum, first being were you and Colonel O'Neill together?"
"Yes, Jack and I were seeing each other for a little over 2 years but when he moved I assumed he'd left me so I refused to talk to him. I only found out the other day that he left because he had to and that he was going to ask me to move to the US with him and ask me to marry him but I refused to answer his calls so I never found out" Ruth said looking at her daughters face still showing the signs of anguish.
"OK, Colonel O'Neill said he knows my father is that true?" Amanda said wanting to know but deep down knowing that her mother would never tell her who her farther is.
"Yes Jack knows who your father it" Ruth kept her answer short not wanting to give too much away.
"What's this secret the Colonel was talking about in the letter", Amanda said looking stonily at her mothers face.
"I… I can't tell you that Amanda. I'll tell you anything other than that" Ruth said tears starting to form in her eyes.
"OK then, you'll tell me anything then tell me this one simple thing. Who's my father?" Amanda pressed knowing that she would never get an answer to the question, unaware that the answer to both questions was the same.
"I can't Amanda, and you know I can't" Ruth said as the tears flowed freely down her face and her eyes once again turned a dark shade of red from all the crying she'd done over the past few days.
"OK then, I'm going to pack an over night bag and I'm going to stay over at Jonas's but when I'm back tomorrow night I want you out mother. All I've asked from you is the truth and you're unwilling to give me that. I'm sorry but until I find out I don't want anything to do with you and I'll tell you this Colonel O'Neill was right in that letter I won't give up till I find out". Amanda said turning away from her mother and was about to leave the room when Ruth's voice stopped her.
"Please Amanda, just try and understand what it's like for me" Ruth pleaded with her daughter.
"And how do you think I feel mum" Amanda replied then quickly left the room before her mother could reply.
Jonas was turning off the television, which was turned prominently to the weather channel when there was a knock at the door. He made his way to the door answering it before looking out of the peephole and was surprised to see Amanda standing there with an overnight bag over her shoulder.
Noticing the light was shining off of tears still freely running down her face he quickly pulled her into a hug to try and soothe her then whispered "Amanda what's the matter."
Bringing them both further into the hallway Jonas closed the door then guided Amanda to the living room and then on to the sofa. Then leaving her there for a few moments Jonas went and put her overnight bag in his bedroom returning back to Amanda's side once he'd done that.
Sitting down at the side of Amanda, Jonas once again put his arms around her to comfort her and seeing that she had calmed down a bit he tried again. "Are you going to tell me what's wrong" Jonas pleaded with her.
Swallowing the contents of her mouth then wiping the tears off her face Amanda answered his question, "Mum and me had an argument over the letter that Jack sent her. She admitted that they did at one time love each other but as for the secret she wouldn't tell me. Then we got side tracked and I asked her whom my father is as she's always refused to tell me. So when she said that she'd answer any question other then what the secret was I had to ask and when she refused to tell me I told her I was coming over here and that I wanted her out of the apartment by tomorrow."
Amanda started to cry violently once again and Jonas started to rock her trying to get her to calm down once again then said "Come on Amanda she'll understand that you were upset and didn't mean what you said."
"But that's the thing Jonas I did mean it. I'm tired of not knowing the truth and I'm tired of mum always hiding it from me like she's trying to protect me from something. I'm going to find out the truth this time one way or another and the only way it looks like I'm going to get the truth is to go see the Colonel and confront him," Amanda said cuddling further into Jonas's chest.