Kat: another day, another chapter. I was gunnah update yesterday but I got tired and took a nap....I really only wanted to sleep for two or three hours, but I ended sleeping through the whole night. and thanks to everyone for reviewing any of my chapters.
Bakura: because you're a dumb ass and don't bother with going to sleep at a normal time.
Ryou: look who's talking...you don't either so I'd shut it if I were you.
Bakura: yeah, but at least I sleep when I'm tired. She doesn't.
Kat: I do too!
Ryou: Sighs shut up, both of you...just get on with the story.....
Kat: yeah, yeah.... Bold before and after the story are actions, but bold is Bakura to Ryou and (bold) is Ryou to Bakura. Italics are emphasis before, during, and after the story. And (blah blah blah) blah blah blah (blah blah blah) is the dream sequence, or flashback, if stated. These are a bit harsher when emphasizing. They emphasize a bit more angry tone. Buuuut....these words are very very harsh, and are used by Bakura when he's VERY pissed. Oh, and when Bakura's thinking, or Ryou even, CAPITAL WORDS are the little voices that like to contradict everything you say.
---Chapter 4: I don't understand....---
---Ryou and Bakura had walked home in total silence, Ryou not wanting to piss Bakura off, and Bakura not wanting to talk about his dream very much, as he was afraid of telling Ryou that he was afraid of its possible hidden meaning.
---Ryou knew Bakura didn't like to admit to many things, and he certainly wasn't someone to pressure into telling secrets. He hardly talked about his past, but when he did, be prepared for a horror and/or tragic story. Bakura always told about the bad things that happened to him or the sad things that would make Ryou cry and feel sympathetic towards the tomb robber.
---Ryou didn't understand. Bakura beat him, abused him physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And yet....he still loved the heartless bastard. Why? 'Because he's the only person who even acknowledges, though it tends to be in a bad way, my existence. That, and I know, deep inside that empty heart of his, that he has some innocence, some happiness, some goodness in there, and I'll be damned if I die without finding and unleashing it.'
---The duo, now sitting in the living room of the Bakura residence (A/N: Ryou's last name, fyi, for those of you who might be confused.), Ryou sitting in the recliner, and Bakura, still pondering over the dream, sitting on the couch. "Bakura? May I ask you something?" Ryou asked. 'why does he act all polite? May I.... Please.... You're welcome... Would you like....It's always the same with him....' Bakura thought.
---"what is it?" the spirit asked. Ryou's head lowered. "do you think, if I didn't take you to the school, that you would still have had that dream no matter what?" he asked. A silver tear rolled down his cheek. "what's wrong with you now?" Bakura snapped.
---Ryou quickly brushed away the tear and shook his head. "nothing...." Bakura growled. "there's something, now tell me..." Ryou lowered his head more. "it's nothing....honest..." he said quietly, trying to hide the tears that had formed. Bakura growled again and got up, walking to Ryou and positioning himself to where he was towering over the boy. "tell me....NOW!" Bakura roared, causing Ryou to break down crying.
---"I'm sorry! Don't hurt me, onegai! I just....it's just that....I'm afraid of what'll happen to you if you have that dream or something worse! You were practically dead before I got you to wake up! I was so scared!" Ryou said, pulling his legs to his chest and burying his face into his arms. "I was so scared....that you might not....wake up...who knows what would happen.....if I wasn't there...? I was so scared...." The boy whispered in a very soft tone that Bakura had to strain to hear.
---'he was afraid because of me? he was afraid for me? for my safety...?' the words didn't sink in, and the British teen's words puzzled him to no end. Bakura blinked and backed up a step. "I....I don't understand..." he said quietly. Ryou looked up, his face wet with tears, eyes red from crying.
---"I didn't expect you to...I knew you wouldn't understand....it's okay, though. You don't need to." He said quietly, letting his legs drop so that his feet where on the floor. The Hikari stood up and started to head for the stairs, when a hand took his wrist. "tell me...I....want to understand..." the spirit said quietly.
---'WHAT AM I DOING?! ARRRRG! I CANNOT GO SOFT ON HIM NOW!' Bakura's mind screamed. Ryou'd eyes widened and he turned his head to look at the puzzled yami. "what I said....I meant that I didn't want to lose you, despite the fact that you'd probably rather die than be here, with me or not. I was afraid that you would die if I weren't there or if I didn't wake you up in time...if you died, I couldn't bare being alone...I couldn't do it. I would surely be lost without you...."
---A tear rolled down Ryou's cheek again. 'Am I falling in love with him? My Hikari? Is that why I wanted to find him in my dream? To understand his words? Is that why I want to embrace him, to hold him close, to whisper words of comfort? To protect him and tell him everything's okay?' Bakura thought, listening to Ryou's words. HE'S ONLY DOING IT TO MAKE YOU WEAK...DO NOT LISTEN TO HIM... 'but, he means it...I...I cant....' Bakura tried to argue, but he couldn't.
---Ryou looked at Bakura. "Bakura? Are you okay?" he asked, prepared to be slapped. "I'm fine....but tell me this....why would you be lost without me?" Bakura asked, looking down at Ryou. Ryou turned his head away. "I-I guess...I guess that.....I-I don't know...Bakura, there's something I've been meaning to tell you...but I'm afraid of what'll happen if I DO tell you..." he said, more tears flowing, tracing the still moist trails of the previous ones.
---Bakura sighed and let go of his hikari's wrist. 'I knew this was coming...' he thought. He had known all along. He always knew, just by looking at Ryou. And now, it was confirmed by Ryou's words and by his tears.
---Bakura sighed and lowered his head. "don't. Just don't. I know. I've know all along. Don't put me through this. Don't make me weak. Don't say it." he said. Ryou looked up at him. "I see...if that's the way it has to be, then I wont say it...I'm sorry." He whispered and ran up to his room. Bakura sighed when he heard the door slam and sat down on the recliner.
((Ryou's Room))
---Ryou curled up in a ball on his bed, not even bothering to turn on a light. There he stayed, for about 15 minutes, crying those deep chocolate orbs out. Then, he got an idea. If he can't say anything, then Bakura will simply have to read what he feels. 'He'll have a nice surprise when he wakes up tomorrow though...' Ryou thought and sighed. He walked over to his desk, pulled out a notebook from a drawer, grabbed a pen, and started writing.
Owari (For now, of course)
Kat: I wrote a poem for the next chapter! Yay!
Ryou: she's hyper now....anyway, R&R, onegai!
Kat: hai! And next chapter I'm starting on right after this! so, I better get to work! Ja ne! oh, and PLEASE (unless you REALLY dont want to) EMAIL ME YOUR REVIEW! I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REPLY TO YOU PERSONALLY, OKAY?? YOU DONT HAVE TO, BUT I CANT REALLY GIVE OUT A PERSONAL REPLY ON HERE, AND I'LL FEEL BAD FOR NOT REPLYING TO YOUR REVIEW!