Disclaimer: I do not own Trigun or Linkin Park's 'Breaking The Habit'. Love the video though.
A/N: I know, when am I going to Update Wolfwood's Angel...I'm not sure. I started Chapter 8 but I hit a huge block. It's killing me! Plus, I am in high school now. Anyway, after listening to 'Breaking The Habit' so many times, I started to think of a way to put it into a songfic. Episode 23 came to mind after a while of thinking. Hope you like.
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
Wolfwood walked into the church. Blood poured from his body and his Cross Punisher, which usually felt so light to him, felt like it was crushing him. "I hope you don't mind me barging in like this."
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
He leaned against his cross. He couldn't believe it was going to end like this. Was everything he did right or wrong? He wanted to let God decide.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
He thought of everyone as he confessed. Vash, that stupid Needle Noggin. But he was a good person, not like his reputation. Meryl, always so uptight but she wasn't so bad. Her and Vash were too good together. There was one person who might not get a happy ending though...
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Milly. Sweet Milly. This was going to affect her the most. Wolfwood loved everything about her. Her smile, her eyes, how she didn't realize that she was smart. He would miss her. Maybe they could be in Paradise one day. A modern Eden.
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
Should he have really killed all those people? He knew it was for the children but does that mean it's right? He thought of Vash. "Thou shalt not kill, remember?! What kind of preacher man are you?!" Vash was right. What kind a preacher was he if he didn't go by God's words?
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
All Wolfwood wanted was to be forgiven. He broke all the rules and never really asked for forgiveness. It was going to be hard now.
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
"Please forgive me" ,he thought to himself. He wanted to take back everything. Everything wrong he had done. But it was too late.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Why did he let himself be corrupted by Chapel and the Gung Ho Guns?! He didn't deserve to be a preacher. He was no better than Chapel himself.
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
He thought of Milly, Vash and Meryl again. They were the only ones he ever considered friends. And Milly, much more. It couldn't end this way!
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
"It can't end like this! There's so much left to do!" Wolfwood felt everything give out then. This was his last breath...
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
As Wolfwood fell into darkness, he made a promise to himself. One he was sure to fulfill.
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
If he ever got to live again, if he ever saw Eden...
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
"Things will be different..."
Tonight