Disclaimer: Ownership of the WWE superstars in this story is purely fictional. I am using them to make the story that much better. I own Summer Ryan Hardy and Amanda from my other story and that is it. Everyone else as I said is perfectly fictional and they own themselves. It is for the greater good. But hell, if any of the superstars would like me to own them, well come on down!
A/N: I had this song in my head from a long time ago and then when I lost my need to write anything, it sort of faded away. Then the other day I heard it as a remake with a female singer put into it, and well it hit me the same as it did the first time I heard it. What I am getting at is this will be a song chapter with story wrapped around it, and I think it might be the best way to convey the feelings of Summer and Jeff when the shit hit's the fan. You can let me know what you think when you review and for those of you that review that are Canadians, I want to say Happy Canada Day to you, and to the Americans, Happy 4th of July to you all, and I hope you all party hard with your loved ones.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
As Jeff drove in the car on the way to the house, he heard the song streaming out of his speakers and he just wanted to die. Of all the people in the world that had to make a move on his wife, it had to be Shane. Now that he knew where he stood he felt the need to smash something.
He remembered back to when Summer had walked in on Matt and Amy having sex and the reaction that she had from it. He felt the same way now, except that he hadn't caught them together. He faded back in time, back to when he was trying to make her love him as much as he loved her.
"Oh my god Jeff! Look at that outfit, now that would totally freak Jim out if I wore that to ringside!"
Jeff grinned at her. She was always trying to come up with new ways to freak people in the WWE out. She usually succeeded in her efforts. Like the time she had him dye her hair purple a few months beforehand. Jim had lost his mind on that one. She wasn't miss Plain Jane anymore.
"You should buy it. It goes with your hair."
"You're going to have to do it again Jeff, I think its losing that extreme quality that made it exciting and different."
"Anytime babe. I've still got the dye at home."
"So are you hungry man? You've gone since like eight Am without food, and I know what you get like when you don't eat for that long."
"Nah, don't worry about me this time Summer. I'm having too much fun with you to be hungry. Come over here and check out these sunglasses. I want a pair like Jay does."
"Those yellow things? Are you crazy or just insane? On second though man, don't answer that." Summer said bursting out laughing as Jeff tried on the glasses.
Summer grabbed a pair of glasses with glitter all around them and slipped them on Jeff's eyes. Jeff's body tingled when she touched him. Even for that quick second, he could feel the electricity between them. He shook it off and looked at her.
"Nah, those don't suit you rainbow, you need something a little more.. Drastic?"
"How much more drastic can I be Summer? I've got you here with me. I think I've met my drastic amount for today."
Summer gently smacked him on the arm. He was crazy silly but she was glad he'd brought her out to the mall today. They were always able to have fun, even when one of them was upset at the world.
"Yeah but you need a drastic wardrobe to match it. I won't be seen with just anyone you know?"
She grabbed his hand and dragged him away from the sunglasses, causing him to drop the ones he was holding onto the counter. Smiling at the clerk he allowed himself to be dragged to the next store. The lingerie shop was apparently next on her list.
"You sure I need to shop here to be extreme Summer?" Jeff said trying not to laugh.
Summer cracked a smile and punched him on the arm again. She needed some new things from the store, but didn't want to drive Jeff crazy.
"Come back in ten minutes then. I'll be outside waiting for you."
"No! I'm going to help you choose. I mean we usually end up bunking together on the road anyways, and I want to see what you sleep in when we don't."
"Then help me choose. Just don't choose anything pink and frilly."
"Gotcha boss! Also don't pick anything too sexy. I don't think my heart could handle it right now." Jeff laughed as Summer started sorting through the racks. This was going to be a long trip.
Why did this have to happen to him? He was so in love with this woman that he found it hard to breathe when he was around her. Now she could be possibly carrying his child and his world should be at rest with happiness. He remembered her smile that day, the way it just seemed to lift her entire face and make her the most angelic thing on earth. What was he going to do without her now?
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
When he pulled the car into the driveway he could see her standing inside, looking out the window. He could have sworn from where he sat in the car that he saw what looked like tears running down her cheeks. This might single handily be the hardest thing he had ever had to do in his life. He undid the belt and slid out of the car, turning the alarm on which he seldom did. He felt like a stranger in his own driveway now. He felt like he didn't belong anywhere. Walking to the house, as he reached for the knob to turn it and let himself in to face her, she opened it for him.
"We need to talk." he managed to choke out before letting himself inside and walking past her. He watched her shut the door and then when she turned around he stood silently taking her in. He couldn't help but go back again to the past, when they were happy and relive the feelings.
Jeff saw her start to laugh and felt himself break down and start laughing too. He kissed Summer on her nose and looked deeply into her eyes. He knew it before, but it was so much more apparent now. He was so absolutely in love with this woman. She wasn't afraid to say how she really felt, especially where he was concerned, and he adored it.
"You are my dream too Summer. You have been for awhile now..."
"So I guess the question now is, do you still want to be with my even though I no longer have a job?"
"Of course I do! I think I might want you even more now, after your confession. What you did for me, and even for yourself, well it speaks volumes on how much you care. I love you Summer Ryan."
"Jeff, you know I love you too."
"I know." She whispered, not trusting her own voice to deal with this. After all the hard times they had gone through over the past few years, deaths, hearts broken and mended, she never thought it would come down to this.
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
"Why would you do it? I thought that what we had was more then that by now. I mean you came back to me and you promised that it was what you wanted. How could it all change in an instant and end with you kissing my best friend?"
"Jeff I don't know what to tell you. When things were really bad between us, they were even worse for Shane and I knew it. We ended up bonding more then we ever had before and we got caught up in something that we shouldn't have. I love you, I will always love you but I don't know what to tell you to make you feel better about all of this."
"Summer I don't know what to do about this. I loved you and I still love you, more then I have loved anyone in my entire life. I want to just forget about all of this and move on but I can't. I think it's best if I move out for awhile."
"No. I'll go. I can always fly to Toronto and give you the time you need to deal with everything. I know what I've done here, and what bond I have broken. I think it would be best if I left."
"That seems fine." he murmured, not sure of anything that he had left to say to her. He was front row centre to see his marriage dissolve and he didn't know if he wanted to be around it for much longer.
"I know the timing for this is really bad, but I wanted to let you know. I went to the doctor today, and they did all the tests and it came back that I am having your baby. I know right now you might think it is Shane's, but from the bottom of my heart, for what its worth to you, it's yours. I didn't let things go that far with Shane."
As she said the words, words he had been wanting to hear forever, he couldn't help but want to pull her back and take her in his arms. The need to do that almost outweighed the anger he felt towards being hurt. She was having a baby that was his and she wanted him to know before she walked out of his life forever. It couldn't have been more tragic if he had planned and written it all himself.
He sat down on the couch and put his head in his hands, and felt the tears start to come. He didn't want this for his child, but he had no idea what he was supposed to feel and do here. He loved her and he wanted to work this out, but he didn't think he had it in him.
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
As Summer walked towards the door, she remembered what she had gone through when she caught Matt cheating on her, and all of the things Jeff had done to make that pain go away, and she was swept away to a time she wished she could completely forget about.
Summer poured herself a glass of vodka and sat back down on the couch. Why did this have to hurt so damn much? She took a drink and heard a light tap on her door. She thought about not answering it, but she knew she had to face whatever was behind it head on.
Opening the door she expected to see Matt standing there. Instead she came face to face with Jeff.
"Let me guess, he told you to come here and check on me because I ripped the phone out of the wall right?" she asked wiping tears from her eyes.
"Summer I'm not here for Matt. He screwed up and dropped the ball. I'm here for my girl. How are you dealing? That better be water you're drinking."
"I'm sitting here in a dark house, drinking vodka. How do you think I'm dealing Jeff? I finally realize that wrestler's have their own rules for dating. It doesn't include being faithful."
"Hey! Do not group us all together based on Matt's mistake. He screwed up, not the rest of us. I'm just sorry that it had to happen with you."
"So am I, but it really opened my eyes. I see things in a new light now."
"Come here Summer. Don't ask me why, just come here to me, so I can hold you."
Summer walked over to him and looked into his eyes. She could never lie to him. She held his hand and broke down in tears. Jeff pulled her close to him and looked at the ceiling. Matt had a lot of explaining to do if he ever wanted to make this whole thing right. He could barely stand to look at her, because every time he did, he could feel her pain.
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore
She came back to the present and took one last look at Jeff as she made her way to the door. She had so much she wanted to say but none of it would come out the way she wanted too. She wanted to let him know that she loved him and cared about him and hadn't done any of this to hurt him the way she had been hurt in the past, but none of it would matter. As she began to walk out the door she called back to him, one last time to end things off.
"I love you Jeffrey Nero Hardy and I always will. If there is ever a time when you think maybe we can work this out, please do find me. My life wouldn't be the same without you in it. Neither of our lives would. Goodbye."
Walking out the door, Jeff turned around to watch her go. This could really be the end of the greatest love he had ever had and he didn't have any way of stopping it. It was then that he realized what she had meant when she said 'Neither of our lives would.' She had meant the baby, and with that thought he bent his head down into his hands and cried. She was gone away.
A/N2: For those of you that see the parts where the break off into the past, they are actually parts from the first story that I wrote about Summer and Jeff. Some of you might find it familiar, others this will be new. This had to be one of the longest chapters I have ever written, but I think this story needed it. I hope you all like it as much as I did writing it.