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Bleeding Heart

Normal P.O.V.

When the lords, Pride, (being held by Intaisho) Love and Happiness, and Hatred and Anger (being held by Love and Happiness) entered through the door they were transported to a dark, damp, prison cell.

A black mold like substance covered the wet walls, it reeked of dead bodies, and chains were attached to the cell walls.

And inside the cell across from them was Umbri's heart and the lords winced at the sight.

Umbri's heart was covered in wounds from head to toe, some old, some new and bleeding freely. A black mist was surrounding her.

"Kuso, the darkness has already taken the heart, if we let the heart absorb the emotions now Umbri will turn into Brion," muttered Love and Happiness.

"If we get her out of this cell and into her chamber, then convince her to take the emotions Umbri should be able to wake up." she continued.

Catch me as I fall
say you're here and it's all over now

The cells door that they were in broke down easily enough, none of the cells or chains were kept in good condition, probably because the heart was soon hurt that she wouldn't be able to do anything even if she wanted to.

They got to the heart easily enough and when they were close enough to see her eyes well Intaisho, Maseru, and Haru were surprised to see that she was blind.

"Here someone take this." Love and Happiness said as she threw Hatred and Anger in the direction of the lords, luckily Haru caught her.

"Heart, it's me, we're going to get you out of here." Love and Happiness said as she approached the Heart and broke the chains.

The heart merely turned her head toward the noise, and spoke softly.

"I don't care."

Love and Happiness sighed and picked her up, as they all walked out of the cell their surroundings changed.

Now they were in a field of dark purple, violet flowers, surrounding the field was a rather unfriendly looking forest. From the coloring of the sky it appeared to be around dusk.

"Is this the heart's chamber?" questioned Haru.

"Hai." answered Umbri's Heart, her voice still a whisper.

"Heart we brought you the strongest of Umbri's emotions, please absorb them." said Love and Happiness.

"Doshite?" answered Umbri's Heart.

For the first time Love and Happiness looked confused.

"If you don't Umbri will die."

Speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and I fall into myself

"Umbri already is dead, to much pain and no happiness, it's not worth living. Besides the second Umbri wakes up and realizes what's happened again her emotions will scatter again, Tsuki and you will be too tired to help you that time and Pride is in no position to do anything for awhile. It's simply not worth it for someone who has no wish to live."

"..."

"Besides we're tired of all the males who remind us of everything we can't have."

"What do you mean?" interrupted Intaisho.

"The males want us to give them a heir, but the only one we would willingly give a heir to is Rico who is not with us any more, and even if he was we still wouldn't be able to give him a heir."

All was quiet, until it finally clicked in the lords' heads.

"Do you mean Umbri is..."

"Iie, she's not. But she's very close to it. It happens to all skumoni females, we're lucky that there's still a possibility of having a child, ninety percent of our females are barren. The other ten percent it's extremely hard for them to get pregnant and if they somehow manage it almost anything that stresses them out can result in a miscarriage, then if there isn't a miscarriage the child is born incredibly weak and the birthing weakens the mother of nearly all her energy, most of the time the pup, mother, or both die within twenty four hours and if the mother dies then the pup will automatically die to for they will only take their own mothers milk. There's never been a successful birthing, all who have tried it died."

"Demo, why is it like this for all the females?" asked Maseru.

"A side effect from the blood fusions, 'He' never knew about it, no one did until after 'His' death, there was no side effect for the males so it was assumed there was no side effect for the females... they were wrong. Not only do most lesser youkai males try to rape Umbri but they keep reminding her of something she most likely couldn't have in the first place, and now will never have because the only male she was willing to mate with was taken from her by death."

All was silent for a few moments.

"But if Umbri told the youkai that she couldn't give them a heir wouldn't most of them leave her alone?" asked Haru.

"Like they would believe her? Iie they would think she's lying."

"But if Umbri could live with me the males wouldn't bother her, then would you accept the emotions?" said Intaisho.

No's here and I fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away

"Iie, not enough happiness. I can hardly remember the last time we felt anything close to happiness. It's just not worth it, even if we did promise Rico. I'm sure he wouldn't mind if we broke our promise if he could see how terrible our life had become."

The black cloud that they saw hovering over her before in the prison came back and once again surrounded her.

"Hai, he would! And you know it! Is that what you tell yourself to justify what you're doing? Well if you can't remember any of the happy times then maybe I can remind you!" snapped Love and Happiness.

And with that, the memories began.

Brion and Rico looked about twelve. Tsume looked about four. She was sitting on top of a hill; below her were a five-year-old Tsume and a twelve-year-old Rico. They were sitting next to a fire. Umbri was in her Brion mode but her eyes didn't look so hard. Tsume got up and started to walk toward her.

They felt annoyance and anger.

don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide

"What do you want? You should be sleeping, your training starts at dawn, you know that." Brion said impatiently.

"I just asked Wico when was his biwthday and he said that he didn't know, then I asked him when youw biwthday was and he didn't know that eithew. So do you know when your guys' biwthdays' awe?" Tsume asked, either not knowing or not caring that he couldn't pronounce his R's.

They felt her curiosity.

Though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light

"Birthday?"

"You mean you don't know what a biwthday is? I thought evewybody knew what they wewe." Tsume asked obviously amazed at the idea.

"Not me."

"Oh, well a biwthday is a pawty celebrating the day you wewe bown. Thewe's food and pwesents and games and... and... food and pwesents!" Tsume said getting excited at the very idea.

"I don't know the day I was born, or the day Rico was. We've never had a birthday before, and neither have you."

"Yes I have! Don't you wemember the one-day a yeaw Wico takes me into a village? That's on my biwthday and that's my pwesent from you and Wico! So when did you say youw biwthday was?" Tsume asked again.

Brion sighed but answered.

They felt her annoyance.

Never sleep never die

"I don't know when our birthdays are, we've never had one."

"What!? That's so sad why?" Tusme's eyes were pretty much popping out by this time.

"The youkai that trained me probably thought it was a waste of time."

"Hmmm, well I don't think it is. So I'm going to make youw biwhday tomowwow! Wico's can be the next day!" and with that Tsume bounced off to Rico and the fire, too sleep.

The next day Brion was presented with a small package.

"What's this?"

They felt her puzzlement.

I'm frightened by what I see
but somehow I know that there's much more to come

"It's youw biwthday today silly! It's youw pwesent."

"I don-"

"Oh just opened it. We worked hard to get it!" Rico snapped at her.

"Fine."

Inside the package was a small white gold ring with small sapphires imbedded into it. It was very beautiful, however the ring was so small that it wouldn't even fit on Brion's pinky finger.

"Oh no! It's too small for youw fingews. Now you won't be able to weaw it." Tsume was nearly in tears.

"Just a second I can fix it." Rico broke in before Tsume could break down.

Rico took the silver chain around his neck off, and then he took the ring from Brion. He put one end of the chain through the hole in the ring; he then fastened the ring around Brion's neck.

"Oooooo... look its so pwetty awound Bwion's neck." squealed Tsume once again happy.

Brion merely shook her head at his reaction.

"Hai, it does."

Brion's head whipped over to Rico. She had not expected him to say that.

They felt her confusion.

Immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away

"Why would you do this for me?"

"Because we care about you Bwion! You'we my Nee-chan!" replied Tsume happily.

"Brion you think everyone hates you, so in return you hate everyone. But you're wrong not everybody hates you. Tsume doesn't and neither do I. We both care for you a great deal. And I'm sorry I didn't realize what kind of person you were when we were with... 'Him' so I ask for your forgiveness, and your friendship."

Brion looked at them for a long time and her eyes kept switching between a dark blue and black, before turning back, and staying on, their bottomless pit black.

"How do I know you won't hurt me like the others?"

"You don't, all I can do is ask for you to trust me... Umbri." Rico answered calmly.

Brion's eyes flicked back to the dark blue, then turned black again, and another long moment of silence passed before Brion answered.

"Ok. I can forgive you..."

"Thank you."

"I can also be your friend, but only if you promise to never leave me."

"Ok. I promise I won't ever leave you."

Brion stuck out her hand for Rico to shake.

"Friends?" asked Brion.

"Friends."

When their hands met a white light came around Brion.

Her black hair turned back to a dark brown with white blond highlights, the black flame on her forehead turned a light blue, her pitch black tail got silver highlights, the black leather dragon wings on her back erupted in a cloud of black and silver feathers, the crimson red stripes on each cheek turned navy blue, and her eyes turned a dark blue, they had a twinkle.

"Welcome back." Said Rico after he got over his astonishment.

"It's good to be back... arigato Rico, for bringing my heart back into the light."

"Your welcome."

Rico felt a tug at his sleeve and looked down to Tsume.

"Who's that?" Tsume asked, pointing a finger at the newly formed figure in front of them.

"The good side of Brion." Rico answered.

"Oh, so she's a nicew Bwion?"

"Iie, she's not Brion. She's better then Brion."

"Then who is she?"

"My name is Umbri, and I think I'd like to be your sister Tsume."

Tsume looked over to Umbri. And slowly nodded his head.

"I think I'd like that."

They felt love and happiness.

don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide

Umbri and Rico looked about thirteen. Tsume looked three, Umbri, Rico, and Tsume were sitting and watching a sunset, and Tsume fell asleep before it was over. Rico picked him up and placed him in his sleeping area, he then returned to talk with Umbri.

They watched this happen everyday; it was Umbri's, Rico's, and Tsume's tradition.

However when Umbri looked about fourteen Tsume stopped showing up in the memories.

They felt love and happiness.

Though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them

Umbri looked about three. She was with the various families 'He' left her with. They were just normal family things. Playing catch with her "siblings", hearing stories from "Grandpa" and "Grandma", being tucked in by "Mom", "Dad" sneaking her and her "siblings" treats.

They felt love and Happiness.

Don't turn out the light
never sleep never die

Umbri changed ages anywhere from twelve to fifteen. She was with her and Rico's friends, before they had been killed. They were just hanging out, joking, getting into trouble, pulling pranks, and just doing what friends do.

They felt love and happiness.

fallen angels at my feet

Whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me I fear

They saw Umbri and Rico at various ages, anywhere from twelve to fifteen, and Tsume anywhere from one to eighteen. They were just hanging out. Playing pranks on each other, birthday parties, other celebrations, playing games, training, using their wings to fly while Tsume rode on one of their backs, just having fun.

After Tsume turned eighteen he stop appearing in the memories.

They felt love and happiness.

She beckons me shall I give in
upon my end shall I begin
forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end

Umbri looked anywhere between twelve and fifteen. She was with Rico. He was throwing things at her so she could slice them in half with Tsuki.

"Good job Umbri, you've nearly perfected it!" Rico said happily.

The lords were confused; nothing was hard about hitting targets. What made it difficult for Umbri?

"I don't know. It's so much harder to do things."

They felt discouraged.

"You'll get used to it, then it will be simple. I know it seems hard now, but it won't in a few weeks. Remember you get to practice every time you walk around. You're doing great! And if you ever need help I'll be right there!"

"Ok, you're right."

With that Rico put his arm around her and they walked off together.

They felt love and happiness.

Umbri looked thirteen; Tsume looked about eight Umbri was with Tsume, they were star gazing.

"What are those things Kitty? Tsume asked. Now able to sat his R's.

Umbri sighed at the nickname. 'Why does every young child call me that? I look nothing like a cat.' But she answered anyways, well used to the nickname.

"I'll tell you something that was once told to me. Every star you see in the sky in a soul being prepared to be reincarnated. Every star is a different color; ningen can't see this because of their poor eyesight. All the ningen's see is white. The stars are the same color as the person's soul it stands for. I guess it makes sense because people say you can see into someone's soul by looking into their eyes. When the persons soul is reincarnated the star disappears until that person dies once again."

"Oh. That's really cool! Where'd you hear that?"

Umbri smiled at his reaction.

"A friend."

"Cool!"

With that Tsume yawned and got up.

"I'm tired. I'll see you in the morning, Kitty-Nee-chan."

"Goodnight Tsume."

They felt love and happiness.

The lords were suddenly brought back to the Heart's chamber.

"See, you do have good memories! You just have to try and hold onto them. You know as well as I do Rico and Tsume wouldn't want us to die like this. Rico made us promise that for a reason, and the reason was because he loved us! And we love him, we promised him we wouldn't give up on life, it was one of the last things we promised him! We can't break it!" Love and Happiness was nearly begging.

"I didn't give up on life. Life gave up on me! You think I want it to be this way? Of coarse I would like to live, but what's the point if all I feel is pain?" the heart was nearly in tears.

"They all left me! They promised to stay with me. Why can't I break my promises?" she continued.

The dark cloud nearly engulfed her.

"There're other things in life besides pain! We've felt them before and we can feel them again. I know it's hard. And I know sometimes it seems easier to just give up. But then again... when have we ever taken the easier way?" smirked Love and Happiness.

"Never." the Heart nearly smirked back.

"I guess you're right. Well said Love and Happiness. But there still isn't a point. Umbri's still to messed up, her emotions will just scatter again." The heart said sadly.

"Then we're done for. But at least we tried."

"Yeah, at least we tried."

That was the last thing said between them, for Love and Happiness and Anger and Hatred turned into a mist one was pink, and other black. They mixed and turned into a dark pink, and then were absorbed into the Heart.

A bright white light surrounded them all.

When the Lords came to they were in a white room, there were no doors or windows.

In front of them, still unconscious, was the completed Umbri. And behind her Tsuki and Intaisho's mate Sakura.

"Well done, you were seconds from dying along with Umbri. Now I supposed you want some answers." Tsuki said before any of them could talk.

"First of all you don't have to worry about Umbri's emotions splitting, whether or not it stays that way is up to you Intaisho and of course Sakura who I decided to bring here because this is a decision you two need to make together. I've showed her all of Umbri's memories while we were waiting so she should understand. But before we go there, why don't I tell you how I was created? I think that is a good place to start."

The Lords and Lady nodded their heads in agreement, still to amazed or confused to care.

"Ok. When Umbri was with... 'Him' sh-"

"Ok hold it right there! Who is 'He' we never got to see his face. Umbri hid it from us." snapped Intaisho.

"It's not my place to say, you'll have to asked Umbri. Anyways,"Tsuki sent a look to Haru who was opening his mouth to speak, but closed it at the look he received.

"When Umbri was with 'Him' she needed a trainer. That was me. My name was Tsuki back then as it is now. I taught Umbri almost everything she knows. I also knew about how 'He' was treating her, but I couldn't get enough courage to do anything about him. But I helped Umbri as much as I could after 'He' was done with her. Like healing her wounds and sneaking her food. You could say I was her only friend and the only one who cared for her while she was with 'Him'. Finally one day I finally had enough of how Umbri was being treated. I convinced her to run away with me. But it didn't go as planned. We were caught and I was executed. You saw what happened to Umbri. After that to honor me, since they wouldn't let her burry me properly Umbri made this weapon, and named it after me. After it was made I was aloud a choice I could either go to the afterlife or go into the weapon and help Umbri. I chose to help her. So when Umbri's life is threatened or she's to tired to fight I can come out and either control her body to keep it moving or my spirit can come out and control the weapon." finished Tsuki.

The Lords and Lady took a moment to take it all in before speaking again.

"So you've been protecting her as best as you could from the other side. Doshite?" asked Intaisho.

"I was too much of a coward to take Umbri away when I had opportune chances. I let 'Him' do all those things to her, and when I finally got the courage to take her away I failed. What else could I do?"

"Nothing." concluded Haru.

"So what will happen to Umbri now? Are her emotions really just going to scatter again, isn't there anything we could do to stop it?" Maseru questioned.

"You can't do anything, but Intaisho and Sakura can."

"What can we do?" asked Intaisho and Sakura at the same time.

"I can make Umbri forget until she turns eighteen, in ningen years, what has happened to her. You need to give her all the good memories you can, take care of her as if she was your own. After all you have been trying and failing to have a pup haven't you? If you can't then she could be you're heir. You wouldn't have to train her how to fight because she'll gain the skills as she grows; at the same rate she learned them the first time. But I have to tell you that I'm going to have to let her keep some memories Umbri has responsibilities that she can't ignore. She'll also gain some memories before the eighteen years are up, so it doesn't scatter her emotions again."

"What do you mean 'You wouldn't have to train her how to fight because she'll gain the skills as she grows; at the same rate she learned them the first time.' And how do you know about our trying to have a pup?" said Intaisho.

"Umbri will be different if you accept the responsibility, you'll see. And if you're in my mind that means your minds open to me. Doors open both ways," answered Tsuki.

Intaisho and Sakura looked at each other and nodded.

"Hai, we'll do it," they said together.

"Good, oh, and if Umbri ever needs a memory like if it's a life or death situation she'll be able to get them. You should also know that because Umbri's a skumoni she has three forms, her human, true form, and a much smaller version of her true form, she'll be in her small true form when you awaken. Don't tell Umbri about her past, she mustn't know until she's eighteen or else her emotions will scatter do to the shock. And now that you accepted know that if you betray her I'll slice off you're manhood and shove it down your throat so you choke on it, and then my friend, it'll get ugly."

The lords and lady exchanged looks.

"You won't have to worry about any of us betraying her. We're not like the low life youkai." said Intaisho.

"Very well. I thank you all for what you're doing, you won't regret it. Now I wish you luck, you're going to need it."

And with that Tsuki disappeared, a white light surrounded them, and all of them blacked out.

'Oh, my head hurts!' was Intaisho's first thought as he woke up. The second thought was 'What is this weight on my chest?' so with a great deal of difficulty he opened his eyes, and what he saw nearly made them pop out of their sockets.

There in her smaller true form, curled up in a ball and sleeping was Umbri. There was just one small difference; Umbri was no longer fifteen (in human years) but a newborn pup, barely larger then the runt kitten.

End Chapter

Next Chapter: Trust and Love

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