Little
things change so much Part 38:
The
letter
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Dear Prue,
Last
week I had to realize something. I realized that in the last month we
didn't have anything which held us together. We didn't do
anything anymore, just for us. All we did was cry and lay around your
bed. We didn't even kiss. We just had sex. Emotionless sex. The
only connection was our loss. Was Meghan. The only thing that kept us
together was her. But she's gone. And while I want to finally move
on, you don't. I thought I could help you. I thought you'd come
over it with my help. But you didn't and I slowly doubt you'll
ever. This is no base for a relationship. Especially cause you don't
talk to me. Cause you don't let me kiss you anymore. Because you
don't let me show you how much I love you anymore. It simply has no
use anymore. It's the best, believe me.
You know all the
colleges, I applied to and I got a few agreements. My parents don't
want to loose their little boy. As stupid as it may sounds, but it's
like that. So my dad applied for jobs in every town I applied. He has
an attractive job offering in Portland. And I have an agreement for
the college there as well. My parents asked me about moving there
after he got the offer. But they didn't want to go without me
agreeing. I refused, till now. I thought you needed me. But I was
wrong. You don't need me. You don't need anyone.
Before I wrote
this, I thought about our whole relationship. I thought about what
you told me once. How you had imagined our future. You said we'd
have an apartment and in a few years you'd be pregnant. I had loved
to have that future with you. But I guess after we lost Meghan, this
got more and more impossible. For you probably already a while. And
now I realized it as well.
Don't try to come over. When you read
this, I'm already gone. Don't call. Don't try to contact me on
college. Think about it more, and you'll realize it really has no
use. I guess those childhood relationships never work out.
I will
always love you even thought you might don't. You'll stay the love
of my life till the end of times.
Forever
yours
Andy