Little things change so much Part 70:
To keep promises isn't always easy

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It was 9 in the morning and Prue went down the stairs to get the mail. She opened it and smiled as there were again some envelopes of colleges. She looked closer and noticed that there was also one of the Columbia. She starred a few seconds down at it. She tried to realize, that this envelop was really as fat as she though in the first few seconds.
"Oh my god"
She whispered lowly, her smile growing huge as she sped up and ran up the stairs and stormed into the kitchen.
"Columbia took me!!"
She announced, completely thrilled while she tried to get the envelop open. But no one else was thrilled. Her grandmother and sisters even reacted in the complete different way. They were shocked.
"We talked about this, Pruedence"
Penny told her in a stern kind of voice, grabbed her mug and brought it to the sink
"I can't believe you even applied there. We already cleared that the Columbia was no option for you."
"We cleared nothing. You just decided, that I couldn't go there, but, Grams, this is my chance! All famous photographers were at the Columbia."
"That doesn't mean you can't get a good photographer here in San Francisco"
"But it's already something like... a guarantee"
"Not for you"
"Why?"
"Pruedence. We're over this topic. We discussed this already a million of times and I won't discuss this again with you. You won't go to the Columbia. End of story and end of conversation"
Penny told her
"No it's not the end! You can't chant me to the manor. The time will come I'll move out!"
"The time is not now"
"Why not? Piper is already as good as 17! Phoebe is 14. They're no babies anymore! They slowly should be able to handle their lives without me!"
"Pruedence! No!!!"
"Why do I have to always care for them? They're old enough! I'm not their mother! Mom died. And I'm not their mother! I'm just not! I finally have to stop giving everything I want to do, up for them. I finally have to do something for myself!"
"Pruedence! There is NOTHING you can say or do, that will change my mind! Forget the Columbia!"
"That's not fair and you know that exactly!"
"That's what life is. It is not fair! Life's life. And life can be hard. And it's time for you to finally realize that."
Penny told her firmly, then went up to piper and phoebe and pecked their cheeks"
"I'm back home for dinner."
Penny told them and left the kitchen
"I can't believe it"
"Calm down Prue. It's not the end of the world. And Grams just wants the best for you and us"
"My best is to get a photographer. Get famous. Earn tons of money. And since she doesn't want me on the Columbia for all that to become true, she doesn't want my best!"
"You also can get that here"
Phoebe mixed in. she actually had helped Prue, but she didn't want Prue to leave them. Phoebe also believed, Prue finally should do something, that didn't involve them. Be free as well. But she wouldn't do such a big sacrifice, just so Prue could be free. She wouldn't give her sister away.
"I guess Grams just doesn't want you to be too far away. She just wants you close, so she can protect you."
Piper mixed in again
"Just imagine, the Jason thing happened when Grams wasn't somewhat close. What would have happened then everything?"
Piper asked. Prue automatically shrugged together by that name and looked down. She closed her eyes as she tried to block out the images of that night, which were again coming up. That repeated in her mind as if it was a movie.
"I... I'm... sorry. I... I didn't..."
Piper stuttered, noticing how much she hurt Prue with those few words
"It's... it's okay. You... you're right"
Prue said lowly, grabbed for a mug and filled it with coffee. Then wandered off to the solar. She starred for like eternity out of the window. While taking sip by sip of her coffee.
'I have no chance on the Columbia'
She thought
'Even if I tried alone. I wouldn't be able to pay for it. Grams won't pay a cent for the Columbia. How shall I pay for it without even a bit of help? I could ask Julia, but, no. it would hurt too much. I had to visit them from time to time. Andy.'
Prue thought and closed her eyes again, just to blink a tear away
'Piper is right. What if something like the thing with Jason happens again? Who would protect me then? Who would be there for me then? What if it happens to Piper 'or Phoebe. What if I'm not there when it happens to them?'
Prue asked and then starred for a few minutes again out of the window

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A young Prue is sitting on her mother's lap. Patty caresses her daughter's head gently.
"Prue, I want you to remember one thing. No matter what happens, always do what your heart tells you. Always do what you want to do. Don't do anything for others. It just gets you hurt"
Patty told her gently. It was the time Patty was pregnant with Paige.
"What do you mean, mommy?"
Prue asked looking at her mom. Patty smiled a little.
"You'll understand one day, but just keep in mind: whatever happens, never give up on your dreams. Never loose them. Try everything to realize them, and always follow your heart. You promise me that?"

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'Yeah, I promised you. I promised you to always do, what I want to do, mom. I'm sorry, but this time I can't. As much as I want to follow my heart. As much as I want to do, what I really want. As much as I want my dreams to come true. It's impossible. I 'Hope you forgive me, for not keeping my promise this time.
Prue thought and then looked down at the agreements of the colleges she got. Two were lying on top of all of them. The one of Columbia and the one of San Francisco. She looked a few more minutes down at them and then sighted. She closed her eyes, a tear leaving her eye, then sat up straight and signed the thing for San Francisco.
'I'm sorry'

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AN:
I actually have no idea, how that whole college thing is going. What you have to do after you got the agreeing and all. So I Hope you all are not too mad at me for might fooling right facts just a bit.