Torn Chapter 4: A Meeting with Fate, an inuyasha fanfic

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NOTICE: A very long AN at the end of the chapter. Please read I want your opinion!!

"Torn"

By Chiisana Anisa

"A Meeting with Fate"

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The rest of the day after the painful realization passed in a dulled manner, deleting any sane thoughts from her mind, time just fleeting her by and she was left surprised when she woke up, here again the very next day. Another morning she had to go through in this crazy situation in which she found herself by her mistake only.

The aforementioned test was canceled and rescheduled for the next week, everyone worried by her strange behavior. Kaede, the kid, specially pampered her, running around and desperately seeking to help in any way for the rest of the past evening.

Kagome sighed, the morning sun already warm on her skin and deciding she wasn't capable of being in this little forsaken hut anymore went out for a walk. Soon enough she found herself in the middle of a little secluded meadow, basked in the sun with the grass high enough to reach her knees, surrounded by the large and tall trees. Neatly folding the kimono she sat down on the grass on the top of the hill overlooking the village.

Her thoughts once again turned to Kikyou, herself and all this mess. Utter solitude washed over all of her other emotions and before she knew it her hand shoot up to the necklace with the Shikon no Tama. However her hand didn't find what it was looking for and Kagome was forced to remind her own mind that Shikon no Tama was still whole in this time.

Remembering that, another thing began bothering her already busy brain. Didn't she sense Inuyasha just yesterday? She could sworn she did, she knew all too well the feeling his aura gave to her body.

As if hearing her thoughts trees hummed in the quietness that surrounded her petite form till now. Kagome spun around looking pointedly at one place before one red figure appeared from the bushes. She got up and stood ready to give in and jump into his arms.

But she didn't. She merely kept standing there, transfixed by his appearance. Inuyasha looked so differently. Not even like the first time she met him - then he was full of anger and a bitter man. Now he looked hopelessly lost and above all sad, as far she could tell.

There wasn't that familiar sparkle of fire in his eyes, instead they looked dull and lifeless. His clothes clung to him more than usual and his silver mane didn't shine whatsoever. The biggest give away he wasn't himself were his ears, which were slumped down, barely moving to catch the sounds around them.

Kagome felt intense pain clutch at her heart for seeing him so, tears at the verge of her eyes. She took one step forward, little fists clenching beside her slim body but as soon as she heard him growl at her she stopped. Why in the heaven's name came over him? It was her, she thought. Then she realized - no, it wasn't her anymore, she is Kikyou now. And this would be only the beginning, for this was Inuyasha she didn't know at all.

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Inuyasha was still standing at the same place, a breath away from the bushes that hid him moments ago, ready to flee if needed, rigid. He was perplexed by the miko's posture, but he kept his mind on the main thing.

"Woman..." he spoke growling, "Give me the Shikon no Tama. Now!", he spit out, angered. In the past few seconds of his observation of her he noticed little changes in her that didn't walk with him at all. He could sworn he saw a sign of tears in her eyes. What was that? For whom? Him?

The thought alone nerved him because he didn't like anyone's pity, less then that needed it. He was fine like he is, alone. Maybe disappointed in the world altogether, but fine. And he will get what he came for.

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Kagome didn't believe her ears, she thought she must have miss-heard him. But she should've known, he wanted the Shikon no Tama, he was after it from the very beginning. Although the thought made her head spin, she opened her mouth to speak and experienced a terrible sensation running through her entire being. Blinking once, she wished for it to go away, no matter how short it was, it left a bitter, metallic taste in her mouth.

It didn't. Now when she blinked and reopened her eyes it seemed she was looking at Inyuasha through the eyes of another and this time when she did speak the voice wasn't hers.

"Why should I hand it over to a filthy half-breed?" The words disgusted her, for she didn't think of Inuyasha as such. It wasn't long before she figured it out that Kikoyu was speaking on her own accord, but was left wondering how that was possible. The question rose in her and she kept asking if it would be like this everytime she saw him or just now?

"Either you give it to me willingly or I'll take it by force, Miko." Inuyasha demanded.

"As if you could." She replied and out of nowhere a bow and a set of arrows appeared in her hands and she stretched the bow after placing the arrow, ready to shoot.

Inuyasha smirked at her evilly. "We should see about that wench." And he lunged to attack but it never followed through. Instead he just continued his jump in the air on the nearest tree, his red figure disappearing among all of its thick branches.

The minute he was gone, Kagome felt that unknown felling fleeting from her body, vanishing like smoke into thin air, and she felt like herself again, as much as that was possible. Two men from the village soon reached her standing place.

She figured they were probably the reason for such hasty retreat of Inuyasha, while one of them spoke to her.

"Everything all right, Kikyou-sama?"

Kagome nodded slowly, almost answering no to the man, and lowered her bow. "I sensed a demon near by, but it left the other way. No need to worry." She lied through her teeth, hoping they bought it.

The other man, the older one, smiled radiantly. "As if we could with you around." They bought it all right, and left.

The moment they were out of her sight, she closed her eyes tight enough to feel the slightest tremor of pain, the bow falling out of her hands unused in the tall grass that acted as a blanket for the cold ground she stood on. She took one deep, deep breath, seeking calmness but the motion did no good to her nerves for she could sense two solitary tears making their way down her face, escaping through the curtain of her thick black lashes.

As before, thoughts of desperation and utter loneliness assaulted her heavily, attacked to numb her senses completely and she raised her hands to cover her face stricken by tears in hope that would accomplish something. She felt unbelievably weak and ready to faint.

Out of nowhere, fresh traces of Inuyasha's aura reappeared and the fear of him discovering her in such state overtook her mind. She didn't want Inuyasha to suspect anything, from fear that even the smallest act could change the past future.

Gingerly with great effort she collected her thoughts and picked up the weapon of her defense, taking back the path to the village, questions of what to do pressing hard on her mind.

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If Kagome had only known that she was right about Inuyasha she would've maybe acted differently. Not so far from their meeting place he hid in a tree, on it's highest branch to observe her actions. He saw clearly how she easily dropped the bow, not something the priestess usually, actually ever did.

Further more, his nose told him something that stunned his senses for it picked up the scent of salt and as he didn't smell food near, it could only mean one. The great guardian of the Shikon no Tama, the cold Kikyou was crying.

Intrigued about what made the cold miko cry he stayed even longer, and after her departure he remained hidden in the tree, left alone to ponder. Kikyou was well known by her icy demeanor and the fact she openly hated youkai's because of her duty.

What brought this unusual change in her behavior was something worth finding out if he could use it to his own advantage. Any possible thoughts of abandoning his cause left on a breeze while his eyes heatedly observed the small village that was hiding the one thing he needed more than anything else.

And Kami's help him - the Shikon no Tama will be his. No matter what the price.

No matter at all.

You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for

But I don't know him anymore

AN: I know I'm writing about Kagome taking Kikyou's place, thus herself being Kikyou, but let me tell, or ask you this:

Am I the only one who notices the over-used plots like this - Kagome and Inuyasha have a fight, she runs; he runs into Kikyou and they sort of pledge their love to each other. Kagome hears them, runs away again, and while she's doing that Inuyasha out of the blue realizes that he loves Kagome and leaves Kikyou in search for Kagome to tell her how he really feels.

I don't know for you guys, but only the mention of Kikyou's name makes me bang my head against the wall. BUT this plot - God help me if I ever get some weapon in my hands because I'll shoot myself at first given opportunity to read that kind of a plot again!!! And I'm not kidding, either.

And NO, I'm not suicidal either. But this kind of a thing is really too much put on the pages of Call me an idiot, Kikyou as I'm sure gets on the nerves of one hell of lot people. Such as mine. Pardon the pun, when writing this story.

And I won't even start on someone's sick idea of Kagome and Shippou being together as a pair. Who ever started that seriously needs to get his head examined.

Ok, enough. Sorry for the crazy talk but I had to tell someone and you guys and girls are the only ones who would understand. I hope.

A thank you note from the heart for all of you who reviewed to this point. It means a lot me knowing at least somebody reads this.

Anyway, I hope you liked this chapter although it came out more than due of what I said. The next one will be updated faster. And sorry of those silly markings. This crazy site gives me no other possibility to divide my paragrahs.

Review please!

Chiisana Anisa