Dear Diary,
I've gone through so much since I last wrote. I've decided to give Hojo a shot. I mean, he loves me. I should as least give him a chance, right? Hojo.. he doesn't treat me bad or anything. In fact, I don't think I deserve him! He offers me everything a girl could possibly want, but I don't.. want any of that. I mean, any girl would be lucky to have him. But.. he's not the one that I truly love..... Inuyasha.. He's still so cold to me. I know I should tell him what I feel, but what if he doesn't love me? That's really gonna kill me. But what's worse, telling someone you love them and getting rejected, or not telling them anything at all and wishing you did?
So we've finally graduated high school and we're going to be moving on to college... That means I'll have less time to jump between eras. What'll happen with the Shikon Jewel? All I know is that He will still go around fighting demons, and looking for pieces of it. And Miroku, Sango, and Shippou will follow him, that's for sure. But what about me? Will they just forget about me and move on?
Who knows... Maybe one day, I'll become famous, I'll have the attention of all the guys. Maybe even.. Him.. ::sigh:: It's too good to be true.. What's wrong with me? Why can't I get his attention? I know I'm not the most beautiful girl ever, and I'm not the smartest one or the most athletic one. But what can get him to just notice me? Why does he act like he hates me? ::sigh:: I have way too many questions. --
Well, on a brighter note, there's this guy that I just met. His name is Ginta and he is a major hottie. His family just moved here from Kyoto and he lives a couple of blocks from here. He's 5"10', with silky chestnut brown hair that I'd just love to run my hands through. His hazel eyes are so deep and full of meaning. He's pretty well-built, too. I hear that he plays tennis every Saturday afternoon, rain or shine. Every single girl in town has just taken up tennis. What a surprise.. Wow, sounds like every girl's dream, doesn't it? Well, its every girl, but mine's dream. I am so totally in love with Inuyasha that I can't even think of loving this new guy. But I hear that the one he likes is.. me.. oO
I've been so positive and upbeat lately. It's hard to believe that I was ever down. Everything just seems to be going my way, except for love. But.. love can wait. If we were meant to be, He'll wait for me. If we weren't, then, I guess that's that, isn't it. I'll always love him, no matter what. I'll wait for him... no matter what. And as long as I have such great friends by my side, I know that I can make it.
Oh yea, Shippou wrote me the cutest poem the other day.
'Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I think you're amazing.
Really, I do!'
Isn't he the sweetest little thing? I'm really gonna miss hanging out with him, taking care of him, and being like a mother to him. He's a great little demon.
Also, Sango is finally starting to give Miroku a chance. She's realizing that he really DOES love her, and he was willing to change for her.
Well, I have a date with Hojo. We're going to see '50 First Dates' and then go to dinner after at that new Italian restaurant. He's so sweet, but he still can't compare to Inu-chan. Ok, I'm gotta go pick out an outfit.
-Kagome Higurashi