Thanks for the reviews!^^ hehe! Yay I finally got tons of inspiration last night! In case you don't know I was struggling with a bought of writers block yesterday. It was all that homework from school. I started this chapter using a different technique. This is also a two-parter chapter since...well you'll find out. Enjoy ^^
Chapter VI
Baralai glazed at the night sky over Besaid. He had never remembered being on a beach in his life. He stood in the water letting the waves slash over him. It was a comforting feeling, refreshing. The stars in the night sky where plastered there like a photograph from a thousand years ago. They twinkled brightly illuminating the darkness. Baralai pondered if Shuyin had ever looked apon these stars. As much as Baralai tried to fight this feeling it still lingered even after two years. Baralai was just an observer in Shuyin and Lenne's story yet even the external gazers can be affected by what they witness. Baralai had a darkness imprinted in him now. He had keeped it under control for such a long time he was afraid it would one day emerge. Baralai spent his whole life fearing the worst.
"Am I so vunerable, so weak?" Baralai confronted himself thinking about the days dissapointments. His surprise visit to Besaid rather than drive Yuna and him closer together. Only created a gap. Baralai curled himself as he sat in the shallow water. The aroma was so different here. It smelled salty, clean. The only thing Baralai couldn't stand was the rough sand that clumped together in soft lumps on his bare feet. He thought deeply about Yuna. What he thought would be a joyus reunion only managed to hurt Yuna. he couldn't have felt more remorseful for even trying to surprise her. He didn't understand why she never told him. Why she was never honest about him. To think that just last night they...it was so hard to understand Yuna. Perhaps it was difficult for Yuna to understand Baralai. Maybe that was it. Baralai knew there were many things he hadn't revealed to Yuna yet he expected her to be honest with him?
Baralai was for the first time heartbroken by the way Yuna had treated him. He couldn't have been more distrought. "What if she stays mad?" Baralai wanted so badly to just cry. To stop holding everything all in. Baralai wanted to pretend that he and Yuna actually did have the fairy tale marriage that he so had hoped for. That all of Spira made it out to be. The High Summoner married to the Preator of New Yevon. There couldn't have been a more perfect union. That dream was starting to unravel before Baralai's very eyes and he was losing control.
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Walking stridently towards the upper deck, Baralai could hardly breathe anticipating Yuna's reaction when she saw that they were heading to besaid! Yuna would surley be happy, after all she revealed that she was so happy there as a child. Baralai couldn't wait to meet Wakka and Lulu and ask them about Yuna. He wanted to learn so much about her. More than her husbund he wanted to be her best friend.
Baralai was the type of person who wasn't satisfied by just having Yuna's love. He wanted her to adore him. He knew it was a lot to ask but it was just the way he was in love. Surely Yuna would share her happiness with him. Baralai was trying to hard to up hold his promise that he may have forgotten to think about how Yuna would feel. She had grown up in Besaid but it had also been at least two years since she had returned. This time however she would be married. Positive that Wakka and Lulu had received the news he didn't give it a secound thought. Yuna knew she was getting married she had plenty of time to inform them. If they didn't come to the wedding it was most likely due to some impediments. Baralai tried to reassure himself that he was over-analyzing the situation. When you are preator of New Yevon that becomes habitual.
Baralai felt the morning sun beat against the suede of his coat making him sweat bullets. As uncomfortable as it may have been Baralai really didn't like to reveal too much of anything on his body. It was just his character to be modest about those sorts of things. The only person he enjoyed un dressing in front of was of course Yuna. She made him feel comfortable doing so. Feeling comfortable in your own skin was something he learned with Yuna. She had let go of so much when she joined the Gullwings, being overly modest was one of them. She never really tried to change Baralai but he didn't feel she judged him like everyone else on Spira did. Perhaps that was the reason why he loved her so. She understood his position, how important it was to uphold it.
Baralai wanted this to be Yuna's best day ever. From begining to finsh! He had to think of a way to wake Yuna. He wanted it to be romantic and original. Unfortunatley he didn't really have a role model to give him any good romantic advice. So he did the next best thing. Find someone on the ship who had been married for a long time. Again unfortunately there was no one who had been married long enough to get Baralai any really good romance tips. He did recieve some "give her some flowers, women love that stuff" but Baralai was smart enough to know that there was nowhere in the middle of the sea where you could stop and pick flowers.
"Ay, young Preator."
Baralai listened intently to the crusty sailor, Flint was his name. While he was a bit seniel and he simply reeked of fish and sea salt . Baralai assumed a man who had been married for Thirty-eight years must have something that made his marriage work.
"Woman love a burly man, ay." Flint starting scrathing his beard, must likely the ticks where pinching the skin on his chin. Baralai was too polite to say anything however.
"Okay burly." Baralai took a mental note.
"They like for men to be rough with them, argh. Just go in thar and say woman your coming with me." Flint cocked his head and lit his cigar.
" Are you sure?" Baralai inquired, a bit disturbed by this advice.
"Ay." Flint chuckled.
" Thank you so much." Baralai was a bit supicious but he thanked the kindly sailor for the advice.
"Ay." Which Baralai now knew translated to a yes.
" Burly. Think pirate Baralai, ARGH." Baralai keep saying to himself as he prepared his surprise "attack" on Yuna. He hoped she would be delighted. Baralai opened the door carefuly, he didn't want it to creak and ruin the surprise. Yuna was curled on her side caressing the pillow he had slept on. Baralai appoached Yuna's bed touching the crinkled sheets they had slept on. "Okay." Baralai whispered to himself. " ARGH!" Baralai yelled as loud as he could! Yuna jumped. " Baralai!" Yuna looked more perplexed rather than surprised. Baralai remembering that he was told to be rough tried to grab Yuna up off the bed. Drawing his wooden sword Baralai gave a rather weak battle cry and hopped a top the bed. Yuna laughed almost cruely. She wasn't trying to be mean but it was just too hilarious. Baralai a pirate? Baralai felt a bit heart broken. But he didn't give up. He wanted to stand erect on top of the bed forgeting that he was tall and the ceilings were low. A rather dangerous combination. THUD. Yuna was laughing so hard her whole face reddened like a bright red cheery. Baralai was red but not because he was laughing but from the embarrassment. Yuna hushed her uncontrollable laughter quickly after she saw the hurt on Baralai's face. " You're very cute Baralai." Yuna complimented. While rather dishardened by his failure Baralai smiled, happy that he made her laugh.
Baralai left Yuna to get dressed. As he walked down the hall he heard loud snickering from both the crew and his bodyguards. Baralai ran up to the deck yet agian. He breathed in deeply hoping his embarrassment would just go away. He felt two soft hands on his shoulders. It was Yuna looking rather giddy. Baralai was glad. At least she had something to smile about in case anything got her down. She'd just remember her pitiful pirate and laugh. It was a bit embarrising but he didn't mind it as long as Yuna would get a good chuckle out of it, it made all the difference in the world.
" Yuna." Baralai cuffed his hands around hers." We should be there soon."
" Kilika?" Yuna smiled wondering why Baralai was so excited.
" Well." Baralai smirked." You tell me."
"huh?"
A small island started to blur in the distance. It was wavy like a mirage but Yuna knew imediately what it was.
"Besaid!" Yuna choked."It's Besaid."
Yuna didn't look as giddy as Baralai had imagined she would. She merely looked down and sighed. He didn't quite understand. It was her home town. The place she grew up. Why wouldn't she want to visit?
"Yuna?" Baralai now was concerned as he felt his heart brake a bit more.
" Thank you. It was very kind of you to surprise me like this." Yuna kissed Baralai on the forehead. Baralai was half expecting her the jump up and down , hugging and kissing him all over. When she didn't his heart sunk. Yuna looked so sad. He didn't understand.
They docked in Besaid. Quite a crowd had formed. "Smile Yuna." Baralai reminded her. It was partially for his sake. Yuna seemed a bit depressed stepping off on to shore. The crowd awaiting their beloved ex-summoner and her new husbund. Baralai felt a bit swormed but it warmed his heart to see such an outpouring of love. Baralai feel in love with Besaid. It was so tranquil. It was so much like the Spira from four years ago.
While the rest of the world was being swept in the tides of change. Besaid was still as tranquil and unchangeing as Yuna had remembered. This place was Yuna's rock. Yuna was a bit relieved that Wakka and Lulu weren't in the crowd of spectators. It means the time she had to think of how to explain all this to them was prolonged even if it was for just a short time.
~To Be Continued~
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Well that's it for now! This is a pretty important part so I had to take up two chapters. hehe. ^^
Chapter VI
Baralai glazed at the night sky over Besaid. He had never remembered being on a beach in his life. He stood in the water letting the waves slash over him. It was a comforting feeling, refreshing. The stars in the night sky where plastered there like a photograph from a thousand years ago. They twinkled brightly illuminating the darkness. Baralai pondered if Shuyin had ever looked apon these stars. As much as Baralai tried to fight this feeling it still lingered even after two years. Baralai was just an observer in Shuyin and Lenne's story yet even the external gazers can be affected by what they witness. Baralai had a darkness imprinted in him now. He had keeped it under control for such a long time he was afraid it would one day emerge. Baralai spent his whole life fearing the worst.
"Am I so vunerable, so weak?" Baralai confronted himself thinking about the days dissapointments. His surprise visit to Besaid rather than drive Yuna and him closer together. Only created a gap. Baralai curled himself as he sat in the shallow water. The aroma was so different here. It smelled salty, clean. The only thing Baralai couldn't stand was the rough sand that clumped together in soft lumps on his bare feet. He thought deeply about Yuna. What he thought would be a joyus reunion only managed to hurt Yuna. he couldn't have felt more remorseful for even trying to surprise her. He didn't understand why she never told him. Why she was never honest about him. To think that just last night they...it was so hard to understand Yuna. Perhaps it was difficult for Yuna to understand Baralai. Maybe that was it. Baralai knew there were many things he hadn't revealed to Yuna yet he expected her to be honest with him?
Baralai was for the first time heartbroken by the way Yuna had treated him. He couldn't have been more distrought. "What if she stays mad?" Baralai wanted so badly to just cry. To stop holding everything all in. Baralai wanted to pretend that he and Yuna actually did have the fairy tale marriage that he so had hoped for. That all of Spira made it out to be. The High Summoner married to the Preator of New Yevon. There couldn't have been a more perfect union. That dream was starting to unravel before Baralai's very eyes and he was losing control.
_____________________FlashBack___________________________________________
Walking stridently towards the upper deck, Baralai could hardly breathe anticipating Yuna's reaction when she saw that they were heading to besaid! Yuna would surley be happy, after all she revealed that she was so happy there as a child. Baralai couldn't wait to meet Wakka and Lulu and ask them about Yuna. He wanted to learn so much about her. More than her husbund he wanted to be her best friend.
Baralai was the type of person who wasn't satisfied by just having Yuna's love. He wanted her to adore him. He knew it was a lot to ask but it was just the way he was in love. Surely Yuna would share her happiness with him. Baralai was trying to hard to up hold his promise that he may have forgotten to think about how Yuna would feel. She had grown up in Besaid but it had also been at least two years since she had returned. This time however she would be married. Positive that Wakka and Lulu had received the news he didn't give it a secound thought. Yuna knew she was getting married she had plenty of time to inform them. If they didn't come to the wedding it was most likely due to some impediments. Baralai tried to reassure himself that he was over-analyzing the situation. When you are preator of New Yevon that becomes habitual.
Baralai felt the morning sun beat against the suede of his coat making him sweat bullets. As uncomfortable as it may have been Baralai really didn't like to reveal too much of anything on his body. It was just his character to be modest about those sorts of things. The only person he enjoyed un dressing in front of was of course Yuna. She made him feel comfortable doing so. Feeling comfortable in your own skin was something he learned with Yuna. She had let go of so much when she joined the Gullwings, being overly modest was one of them. She never really tried to change Baralai but he didn't feel she judged him like everyone else on Spira did. Perhaps that was the reason why he loved her so. She understood his position, how important it was to uphold it.
Baralai wanted this to be Yuna's best day ever. From begining to finsh! He had to think of a way to wake Yuna. He wanted it to be romantic and original. Unfortunatley he didn't really have a role model to give him any good romantic advice. So he did the next best thing. Find someone on the ship who had been married for a long time. Again unfortunately there was no one who had been married long enough to get Baralai any really good romance tips. He did recieve some "give her some flowers, women love that stuff" but Baralai was smart enough to know that there was nowhere in the middle of the sea where you could stop and pick flowers.
"Ay, young Preator."
Baralai listened intently to the crusty sailor, Flint was his name. While he was a bit seniel and he simply reeked of fish and sea salt . Baralai assumed a man who had been married for Thirty-eight years must have something that made his marriage work.
"Woman love a burly man, ay." Flint starting scrathing his beard, must likely the ticks where pinching the skin on his chin. Baralai was too polite to say anything however.
"Okay burly." Baralai took a mental note.
"They like for men to be rough with them, argh. Just go in thar and say woman your coming with me." Flint cocked his head and lit his cigar.
" Are you sure?" Baralai inquired, a bit disturbed by this advice.
"Ay." Flint chuckled.
" Thank you so much." Baralai was a bit supicious but he thanked the kindly sailor for the advice.
"Ay." Which Baralai now knew translated to a yes.
" Burly. Think pirate Baralai, ARGH." Baralai keep saying to himself as he prepared his surprise "attack" on Yuna. He hoped she would be delighted. Baralai opened the door carefuly, he didn't want it to creak and ruin the surprise. Yuna was curled on her side caressing the pillow he had slept on. Baralai appoached Yuna's bed touching the crinkled sheets they had slept on. "Okay." Baralai whispered to himself. " ARGH!" Baralai yelled as loud as he could! Yuna jumped. " Baralai!" Yuna looked more perplexed rather than surprised. Baralai remembering that he was told to be rough tried to grab Yuna up off the bed. Drawing his wooden sword Baralai gave a rather weak battle cry and hopped a top the bed. Yuna laughed almost cruely. She wasn't trying to be mean but it was just too hilarious. Baralai a pirate? Baralai felt a bit heart broken. But he didn't give up. He wanted to stand erect on top of the bed forgeting that he was tall and the ceilings were low. A rather dangerous combination. THUD. Yuna was laughing so hard her whole face reddened like a bright red cheery. Baralai was red but not because he was laughing but from the embarrassment. Yuna hushed her uncontrollable laughter quickly after she saw the hurt on Baralai's face. " You're very cute Baralai." Yuna complimented. While rather dishardened by his failure Baralai smiled, happy that he made her laugh.
Baralai left Yuna to get dressed. As he walked down the hall he heard loud snickering from both the crew and his bodyguards. Baralai ran up to the deck yet agian. He breathed in deeply hoping his embarrassment would just go away. He felt two soft hands on his shoulders. It was Yuna looking rather giddy. Baralai was glad. At least she had something to smile about in case anything got her down. She'd just remember her pitiful pirate and laugh. It was a bit embarrising but he didn't mind it as long as Yuna would get a good chuckle out of it, it made all the difference in the world.
" Yuna." Baralai cuffed his hands around hers." We should be there soon."
" Kilika?" Yuna smiled wondering why Baralai was so excited.
" Well." Baralai smirked." You tell me."
"huh?"
A small island started to blur in the distance. It was wavy like a mirage but Yuna knew imediately what it was.
"Besaid!" Yuna choked."It's Besaid."
Yuna didn't look as giddy as Baralai had imagined she would. She merely looked down and sighed. He didn't quite understand. It was her home town. The place she grew up. Why wouldn't she want to visit?
"Yuna?" Baralai now was concerned as he felt his heart brake a bit more.
" Thank you. It was very kind of you to surprise me like this." Yuna kissed Baralai on the forehead. Baralai was half expecting her the jump up and down , hugging and kissing him all over. When she didn't his heart sunk. Yuna looked so sad. He didn't understand.
They docked in Besaid. Quite a crowd had formed. "Smile Yuna." Baralai reminded her. It was partially for his sake. Yuna seemed a bit depressed stepping off on to shore. The crowd awaiting their beloved ex-summoner and her new husbund. Baralai felt a bit swormed but it warmed his heart to see such an outpouring of love. Baralai feel in love with Besaid. It was so tranquil. It was so much like the Spira from four years ago.
While the rest of the world was being swept in the tides of change. Besaid was still as tranquil and unchangeing as Yuna had remembered. This place was Yuna's rock. Yuna was a bit relieved that Wakka and Lulu weren't in the crowd of spectators. It means the time she had to think of how to explain all this to them was prolonged even if it was for just a short time.
~To Be Continued~
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Well that's it for now! This is a pretty important part so I had to take up two chapters. hehe. ^^