Hey guys! I'm so sorry for the long update. If you guys have been around since the begining you know this usaully isn't like me. I had a lot of issues I had to deal with this week, please forgive me for making you guys wait.^^
Chapter x
Sitting at the dinner table Yuna noticed the desanimate face of a man she had learned to call her husbund. Ever since last light she saw in him a great sadness. She couldn't help but feel bad for the poor man. It wasn't like he was at fault. She was the one who said yes, however out of her will that was it was still a promise. Yuna rose from the table Baralai's eyes peering up at her." Are you going to your bedroom?" Baralai was expecting Yuna to wander off leaving him alone as she usaully did. "No" was Yuna's tender reply. Baralai's eyes sparkled "oh?" " I was thinking," Yuna teased." I would take a stroll." Yuna arched her back and walked seductively, to the door. Trying to provoke Baralai to laugh a bit. He didn't laugh. He was smarter than that, Baralai whizzed behind her and slid his arm in hers.
"It's so beautiful at night" Yuna mentioned to Baralai as they strolled into the night. "Yes, Bevelle is always such a vibrant city." Baralai remembered he prefered the tranquility of Besaid much more, however the tender glow of the city seemed to excite Yuna. "Do you think Zanarkand was like this?" Yuna peered farther and farther ahead, her eyes steady with wonderment. Baralai hadn't pondered the question to deeply nor did he seem to think before he spoke but he said exactly what Yuna wanted to hear. " I'm sure Zanarkand was a wonderous place." Baralai had a gift for telling people what they wanted to hear. Yuna grasped on to a railing and let her head fall back. She closed her eyes and breathed in deeply.
" Baralai, tell me something." Yuna smiled with her eyes still tucked tightly together." have you ever been in love with someone." Yuna opened them gently and studdered " I mean when was the first time you knew."
Baralai though the question was a bit impartial coming from someone he was married to, however he was charmed by Yuna's honesty. "Well." Baralai comenced "When the high summoner visited a certain Preator one day, a bit underdressed I admitt, however the Preator realized that perhaps he was glad she hadn't wed the chairman's son." Baralai touched the sky grasping a firefly in his hand then letting it fly away.
" Baralai, please don't flatter me." Yuna smirked." Tell me honestly,not just because I'm here."
" I'm telling you the truth Yuna. I've known many charming woman yes, perhaps I've even liked a few. However til I met you I never realized I could want to spend my life with any one person."
"You can't tell me you don't have a past." Yuna looked guilty.
" Yes we all have a past, however the past is gone. No one person can expect to live their present in the past or we would keep tripping over ourselves." Baralai laughed, just then he thought about his visit with Paine the other night. How wrong his actions had been. Paine was the past, a past he let go of a long time ago. It was obvious that Yuna still hadn't let go of hers.
"You are... mistaken." Yuna wilted." If we didn't remember the past than surely we would continue to make the same mistakes."
"You're right." Baralai humored." It's good to remember, but it isn't good to relive something that hurts us constantly."
A long silence ensued. Yuna rubbed her eyes and thought about Baralai's words. She also thought about Rikku and the others. Tossing around the idea that she may never see Rikku agian. All she had now was Baralai. How could she bear it all? This loveless marriage, the burden of having to pretend everyday. Baralai lessened this cross a bit with his undying comprehension. Something told Yuna that Baralai no longer believed in Yuna's love so frevently, but he still loved her. Even knowing that she may not love him in return. However Yuna forever was waiting for the true reason to rear it's ugly little head. She was afriad that Baralai would hate her. She couldn't live then. She didn't know why she felt the way she did but she could bear seeing Baralai sad. Yuna had thought she had no feelings for him, that he was nothing to her but now she couldn't help it. She was touched by him. In a way she knew what he was going through she related to his burden. He had never enjoyed life to it's fullest. Baralai was always living in the shadow of New Yevon. Afraid to betray his people. Yuna felt this way once. She felt trapped, when people give you their faith you're pressured to attend to it.
Yuna looked at Baralai's rounded features, his stark white hair glistening against the deep blue curtain that was the night sky. She wondered what he was thinking. If maybe she was on his mind. Yuna was afriad that Baralai was taking an important place in her heart. She feared that day. She feared the day when she would forget Tidus. She never wanted that say to come. If it did than it meant that Tidus would dissapear for certain this time. Yuna never wanted to lose that hope. Ever.
Chapter x
Sitting at the dinner table Yuna noticed the desanimate face of a man she had learned to call her husbund. Ever since last light she saw in him a great sadness. She couldn't help but feel bad for the poor man. It wasn't like he was at fault. She was the one who said yes, however out of her will that was it was still a promise. Yuna rose from the table Baralai's eyes peering up at her." Are you going to your bedroom?" Baralai was expecting Yuna to wander off leaving him alone as she usaully did. "No" was Yuna's tender reply. Baralai's eyes sparkled "oh?" " I was thinking," Yuna teased." I would take a stroll." Yuna arched her back and walked seductively, to the door. Trying to provoke Baralai to laugh a bit. He didn't laugh. He was smarter than that, Baralai whizzed behind her and slid his arm in hers.
"It's so beautiful at night" Yuna mentioned to Baralai as they strolled into the night. "Yes, Bevelle is always such a vibrant city." Baralai remembered he prefered the tranquility of Besaid much more, however the tender glow of the city seemed to excite Yuna. "Do you think Zanarkand was like this?" Yuna peered farther and farther ahead, her eyes steady with wonderment. Baralai hadn't pondered the question to deeply nor did he seem to think before he spoke but he said exactly what Yuna wanted to hear. " I'm sure Zanarkand was a wonderous place." Baralai had a gift for telling people what they wanted to hear. Yuna grasped on to a railing and let her head fall back. She closed her eyes and breathed in deeply.
" Baralai, tell me something." Yuna smiled with her eyes still tucked tightly together." have you ever been in love with someone." Yuna opened them gently and studdered " I mean when was the first time you knew."
Baralai though the question was a bit impartial coming from someone he was married to, however he was charmed by Yuna's honesty. "Well." Baralai comenced "When the high summoner visited a certain Preator one day, a bit underdressed I admitt, however the Preator realized that perhaps he was glad she hadn't wed the chairman's son." Baralai touched the sky grasping a firefly in his hand then letting it fly away.
" Baralai, please don't flatter me." Yuna smirked." Tell me honestly,not just because I'm here."
" I'm telling you the truth Yuna. I've known many charming woman yes, perhaps I've even liked a few. However til I met you I never realized I could want to spend my life with any one person."
"You can't tell me you don't have a past." Yuna looked guilty.
" Yes we all have a past, however the past is gone. No one person can expect to live their present in the past or we would keep tripping over ourselves." Baralai laughed, just then he thought about his visit with Paine the other night. How wrong his actions had been. Paine was the past, a past he let go of a long time ago. It was obvious that Yuna still hadn't let go of hers.
"You are... mistaken." Yuna wilted." If we didn't remember the past than surely we would continue to make the same mistakes."
"You're right." Baralai humored." It's good to remember, but it isn't good to relive something that hurts us constantly."
A long silence ensued. Yuna rubbed her eyes and thought about Baralai's words. She also thought about Rikku and the others. Tossing around the idea that she may never see Rikku agian. All she had now was Baralai. How could she bear it all? This loveless marriage, the burden of having to pretend everyday. Baralai lessened this cross a bit with his undying comprehension. Something told Yuna that Baralai no longer believed in Yuna's love so frevently, but he still loved her. Even knowing that she may not love him in return. However Yuna forever was waiting for the true reason to rear it's ugly little head. She was afriad that Baralai would hate her. She couldn't live then. She didn't know why she felt the way she did but she could bear seeing Baralai sad. Yuna had thought she had no feelings for him, that he was nothing to her but now she couldn't help it. She was touched by him. In a way she knew what he was going through she related to his burden. He had never enjoyed life to it's fullest. Baralai was always living in the shadow of New Yevon. Afraid to betray his people. Yuna felt this way once. She felt trapped, when people give you their faith you're pressured to attend to it.
Yuna looked at Baralai's rounded features, his stark white hair glistening against the deep blue curtain that was the night sky. She wondered what he was thinking. If maybe she was on his mind. Yuna was afriad that Baralai was taking an important place in her heart. She feared that day. She feared the day when she would forget Tidus. She never wanted that say to come. If it did than it meant that Tidus would dissapear for certain this time. Yuna never wanted to lose that hope. Ever.