A/N: Inspired by the movie Spider-Man 2 and the song Vindicated. Let's just assume that the guy is Peter and the girl is MJ. Yeah, I know the word vindicated and it's definition can't be seen in context to what I've wrote, but, what the '(vindicated can also mean apologetic...you'll find out what it's connection to this fic if you'll read it...) There seems to be a few lines that are incomplete...I intended it that way...I want to let the song speaks for itself. I hope you find this a worthwhile read.
Disclaimer: Vindicated is the property of Dashboard Confessional. Spider-Man and anything related to it belongs to Marvel. The movie Spider-Man 2 belongs to Marvel and Sony Pictures.
Vindicated
I intended to sleep all day. Lock myself in my room, accompanied by my own misery.
But then, the phone rang.
And your voice came through the answering machine.
"Hi...it's me. Maybe we could meet up by the coffee shop? The way we used to...same time. You know the routine."
I wistfully stared at the ceiling as I listened to your voice.
Barely a whisper, fading...
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing
The late morning sunlight creeped through the blinded windows of my room, lighting up the whole place a little bit.
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am...
I stood up, contemplated on what to say to you as I started to fix myself up.
Contemplated on whether to go or not.
I might as well give it a try...
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
I went to the usual place, at the usual time, ordered the usual thing and sat at our usual spot...
By the window. Overlooking everything and everyone.
I looked at the empty seat in front of me, then gazed outside.
It all seemed unusual now.
Without you.
But then, I saw your reflection through the glass.
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
I always tend to forget that you're engaged now.
For how many months exactly...I don't want to recall.
I don't want to think about it. Nor think about you.
How you'll never be mine.
I longed to say a lot of things to you.
But I never can.
I don't know why.
Maybe I'm just afraid to.
Now all I can do is just stare at you.
Bury the longing I have inside my heart.
Bury the memories I have of you.
But I can't.
They're so vivid, so sharp, as if everything happened just yesterday.
And rendered me so
Isolated
So motivated
I am
Certain now that I am...
I silently watched as you stared at me.
Hoping that I would say something that I'll probably never will.
I silently watched as you looked down and smiled bitterly.
As you stood up and left.
I want to tell you now.
I need to tell you now.
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
I ran after you when you left the shop.
Took your hand, forced you to face me.
You once said you loved me because of my imperfections.
And that you loved me simply for being me.
That even with all my flaws, I still manage to be the perfect friend.
To be the perfect man that I seem to be.
But there was something that I couldn't do nor say...
Despite the fact that I seem capable of doing things that no one else can.
And it cost me you.
Will you love me now...?
Now that I finally have the courage to say what I really feel...
"I love you."
I raised my hand and reached for your face.
The face I longed to touch...
To feel.
Slowly, I trailed my hands down your cheeks...
I want to feel you...
Even just once.
So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my fingertips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current
And we kissed.
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
You once told me that I'm imperfect.
That even if I try to hide my flaws, they'll always show.
They'll always be a part of me.
The same way I tried to hide my feelings for you.
But they will always be there
Hidden somewhere deep within my heart.
I know I've hurt you,
Like I've hurt myself.
Another chance.
That's all I'm asking for.
For this time, I know that I am...
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
I looked at you.
Tears were falling down your face, as you stepped back and looked down.
And uttered the words I was afraid to hear.
"It's too late."
And then you walked away, still in tears.
Left me to look at you one last time.
If I was perfect,
If I told you what I really felt,
And pushed away my fears
Maybe...
You would have been mine.
My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption