I'll Remember You
Disclaimer: I don't own Hamtaro.
Oy, I can't believe this. Well this chapter's a bit late because the worst thing that could happen to an author happened. It got eraaaaaased!!! And it was almost 5 pages long!! (okay, not much to some of you, but if 4 is a lot to me then 5 is like…wow) So I'm sort of stressed, and have a bit of writer's block. But it was my fault, lol, I wrote chapter 6 (which actually came out a bit short, funny, chap. 5 is very long and chapter 6 is very short, lol) and when I saved it, I probably, without realizing it, saved it over chapter 5, so, yeah. Well, if this chapter's somewhat corny, and not as emotional as it probably should be, then, I'm sorry!!!
--Chapter 5--
Maxwell looked at Sandy. The silence was loud. It pounded in Sandy's head. Her headache got worse. But of course, nothing was worse then that guilty feeling and all that shame in her empty heart. She didn't know what to say. She wanted to apologize, but she didn't see how that would help her or anyone else at all. And she felt awful, apologizing to Maxwell, when really she was much more worse to her own brother, lying to him, biting his arm when he tried to help. It was just, selfish. But, it seemed that Maxwell knew so he very well deserved an apology too, and much more.
The tall hamster moved closer to her, their eyes meeting. He knew the truth. Sandy knew that he knew, it was like her sixth sense. There was no use in running. "Maxwell, I-"
"Sh," Maxwell placed a finger over her lips. "I know. It's alright, don't worry about it." Sandy nodded. Then she couldn't help it, it just came out. She threw her arms around him, hugging him tight, her head against his chest, crying. It was the one thing she hadn't done in a very long time, and it felt good to finally let it out. "There there, Sandy. Just let it out, let it all out," Maxwell rubbed her back. It crushed him seeing her like this, knowing that all this time she was concealing all her pain.
"Oh Maxwell, I'm soooo sorry! I didn't mean to keep it all a secret like that, and to lie to you, I just didn't want to hurt you!" She let it out, all that she could, of course it felt good, but awful at the same time, just knowing that for so long she had so much pain and never once went to him. He was always there for her, and she knew that and she trusted him. So why she never went to him is a mystery to her.
They sat there and about an hour went by with Sandy pouring everything out to Maxwell. The conversation Hillary had with Noel, the anger of not wanting Hamster Bites, Hillary cutting her finger, her biting Stan's arm, all of it. When she was done, she looked down thinking that Maxwell might not really want to ever talk to her again, since she was a lying, selfish, arm-biting hamster. Instead, he hugged her close. "Why didn't you tell me before Sandy?"
"Because I was afraid of hurting you, you know, like, I don't know how you'd handle me like, leaving…" Sandy said. "And I didn't tell anyone else because I was afraid of them telling you. And…I just didn't want to hurt you or anyone else."
"Oh, no Sandy. You wouldn't hurt me by telling me about your leaving to America, what did hurt me, was you keeping it a secret and lying about it, that's what hurts. But, not you leaving. It makes me sad, yes, but doesn't hurt me." He held her close. Sandy sighed, relieved a bit. She rested her head against his chest. She should've told Maxwell before. Of course he would understand. He cared for her, and she cared for him. That's just the way it was. And hopefully that's the way it'll stay.
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"Yes…yes mom. Okay, yeah. I know. Oh really?…Well give him my blessings. No mom, I don't have a boyfriend-oh…okay. Yeah but-…but-…mom-Oh alright, love you too. See you in a few days. Bye," Hillary hung up the phone and took a seat across from Noel. She had gone over to his house to use his phone, since she had been a bimbo and already packed up her phone, not knowing what box it was in.
"So…how'd it go?" Noel asked. He played with the handle of his cup. Hillary shook her head. Slowly and without really meaning to Noel reached over and placed his hand over hers, just for comfort. He half expected for it to be slapped away and for Hillary to leave, but he was shocked to see her give him a small smile and slowly move her hand away. She stood up and stretched a bit.
"I wish my mom would listen. Ever since I moved here, she's always thought I'd end up poor, and not being able to making a living of myself, with no husband…no kids. But I'm not even ready for that. I just came here to experience a whole new place." Hillary sighed. "and now I have to go back and do it all over again…my mom says I should go down to Florida with her," Noel looked a bit confused. Hillary laughed a bit to herself, "I wanted to go to New York, with my brother, but my mom thinks that I probably wouldn't be able to handle it, since there's a lot of theft, fights, and all." Noel nodded. "But it doesn't really matter, none of the schools in New York accepted me. The only one that did was Valencia. Which is in Florida."
"Well…it can't be so bad. I hear that they call Florida the sunshine state."
Stan had been taking a nap in his cage and was awaken a bit, "Ah…sunshine state…so many babes…so little time…" he fell back asleep though.
"Really? So it's the sunniest state?" Noel nodded. "Wow…well okay, I guess it wont be so bad." She smiled at him. It was nice to have someone to talk to about all this, to have a friend that understands.
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Sandy sat on her window sill with Maxwell, her head resting on his should and their paws holding each other. "Maxwell…there's one thing I wanted to ask you…um…what's a like, waiting list?"
"A waiting list? Hm, I think that's when someone applies for something, and they are accepted, but what they're applying for already has enough people apply to it, so they're put on a waiting list, and if what they applied for loses some people then they can take their place." Sandy blinked. How'd Maxwell know so much?
"Oh…then why's Hillary moving? She's not sure yet if she got accepted into that school…" Sandy was so confused.
"Maybe there was another school that accepted her, or maybe the school she wanted finally allowed her in…who knows, there are many possibilities."
"Yeah…" Sandy lay her head back on his shoulder. Another hour had gone by and it was starting to get dark out. Hillary still wasn't home. Sandy and Maxwell had gone back into Sandy's cage.
They laid next to each other watching the sky. It was beautiful. Purple, pink, blue…so many colors were mixed together. Sandy watched Maxwell. She knew that he knew that she was watching him, it was like her sixth sense. "Maxy…" He turned to her. "I love you." This was a first for Sandy. She'd never said that she loved him. She always thought it more as a very strong liking for him. But now she felt that it was definitely more.
Maxwell smiled and sat up, Sandy sitting up too, "I love you too." Sandy blushed, her heart racing. It felt good hearing him return her love. So she did the next thing that felt like the right thing to do. She leaned her head in and closed her eyes. Really she couldn't see anything, but only did what she thought was right. Maxwell held both her paws, playing with her fingers. She felt his soft warm lips against hers and thought that she could fly. It felt so right…so perfect. It just ended too quickly. Maxwell moved his head back a little and looked her in the eyes. She blushed a little. It was her first kiss, and only Maxwell could make her feel like she was a natural at it. It was so sweet and caring. Nothing felt better at the moment. Sandy hugged him tightly. Perfect.
I will tell you right now that I am WAY ticked off! Half this chapter got erased! It was bad enough that my first chapter 5 got erased when it was SO good, and then halfway toward my second attempt at it gets erased again! So it SUCKS! Oh goodness, I'm so angry. I know it's corny and it's not the way ti should've come out. But I just got so tired of doing chapter 5! It was gonna be MUCH more dramatic and MUCH more romantic, and it MUCH longer. And I apologize, but I've got one of the worst computers in the world, so please forgive me for this sucky chapter. Xx Chpater 6 is pretty good though, and it's up already, so I hope you like that one. : )