!$!$! Wow...so I had a really exciting crazy night last night and I didn't even end up getting home...so I'm glad I posted before I left! Any who... when I came home I realized that I was totally out of it when I wrote the last chapter, and I totally forgot what I wrote! So I reread it and found there was a lot of crazy spelling mistakes that hopefully I will fix if I'm not too lazy later on. Anyway, you all seemed to like the chapter still! And as for the complaint on them being to short...I'll try with all of my might to make them longer! And one in particular will be but I'm not sure exactly when in the future that will be, depending on the details that I add... anyway...I do actually have a plan for this story! For once! lol so...here I go!$!$!
-&- Chapter Five: Reconnecting -&-
After about an hour of small talk and reminisce on the past, Harry and Severus had managed to lay down together, preparing for sleep. "So tell me, Harry, what did you really think about the night of snogging you shared with Finnigan?" Snape asked, hoping it had meant nothing to Harry.
"Are you still on about that?" Harry joked and then said, seriously, "Severus, I was drunk. I was just having a little well earned fun. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but I'm not sorry that I did it. Getting drunk and making out really broke me out of my shell. Now I'm ready for you." he winked at the older man and took his hand in his own.
"I'm glad to hear that." Severus smiled and rolled over, ready to go to sleep. Harry discarded his glasses on the bed stand and wrapped an arm around Severus' body. Snape rolled around again to find himself nose to nose with Harry. "Did I ever tell you how sexy you look with out your glasses on?" he said shyly.
"No, it wasn't even in your journal. Should we make it eleven things you love about me then?" Harry responded looking into Severus' eyes, never blinking.
"Harry, I love so many things about you that if I started counting I'd be in hell before I could finish!" Snape said, staring back at Harry.
"What makes you think you're going to hell?" Harry asked sadly.
"Come on, Potter, I'm a fucking Death Eater." he said with a sigh.
"Severus, you're spying for the good side now! You're better than them! You're making up for your sins! You are a great person, never let anyone tell you other wise." Harry said, smiling. Severus smiled back, and felt his heart melt happily at Harry's words. As they continued to stare into each other's eyes, Snape looked away nervously and rolled back over, going to sleep.
"Severus', wake up!" Harry said hours later.
"Mmmph..." was the response he got.
"Sevy, get up!" Harry shoved him and pulled the blankets off of his potions master.
When Snape wouldn't budge Harry straddled himself on top of the man and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead. His eyes opened immediately, a smile on his face. "I thought that would get you up." Harry said and rolled off of him. After finishing putting on his shoes Harry left Severus to get ready for the day.
After potions class Snape called Harry behind. He checked to make sure everyone was gone before saying, "Harry, I have to leave for a few days right after we talk. I'll be back Sunday or Monday. Dumbledore needs to me do something for him. Take care of yourself while I'm gone, and sorry that I won't be able to help you with that essay like I promised, but hey...I'll be grading it I'll just let it slide and teach you when I get back." he smiled down at Harry.
"Be careful, Sevy." Harry said, worriedly, before hugging the man he was falling in love with and leaving the room quickly. Upon sitting down to lunch at the Gryffindor table Ron said, "Harry, I need to talk to you." Worrying about his friend Harry looked up and said, "I'm all ears!"
"I'm worried about you. You've been in the hospital wing, then you were missing for two nights, and you haven't scheduled anymore Quidditch practices. The first game, against Slytherin, is in two weeks!" Ron said nervously.
"Ron, I was in the hospital wing because I was drunk. I'm fine now. I wasn't missing, I was just...away. I'll be around tonight, I swear. As for Quidditch...I've just had other things on my mind. I'll tell the team we'll have practice both Saturday AND Sunday this weekend. Clam down about the game, we have plenty of time. Are you going to finish that?" Harry said, pointing at Ron's chicken wings.
Ron shook his head and gave them to Harry, with a smile on his face, glad he had his best friend back. "By the way, Seamus thinks you're avoiding him." Ron said, "He thinks he's the reason you haven't been around at night."
"I'll fix things with him. Trust me, I'm not in the least bit avoiding him. Anyway, I'm going to grab the rest of my books, care to come?" he asked Ron and Hermione who followed him out of the Great Hall.
"What did Snape want from you, mate?" Ron asked as they walked along the corridors.
"Just to tell me how stupidly I wrote my last essay." Harry lied.
"Figures," Hermione joined in, "He's always putting people down!"
"Yeah..." Harry said, arriving at the portrait hole, trying not to get angry. They didn't know the real Severus. He probably would have started in on complaining too if he hadn't have found that journal.
That night after dinner and homework, Harry, Ron, Seamus, Dean, and Neville walked up the stairs to their dormitory talking excitedly. Everyone was really glad to have Harry back, and Seamus was relieved to find out Harry didn't hate him
"So where've you been Harry?" Dean asked, popping a lemon drop in his mouth.
"Just... you know, around." Harry said.
"It's fine if you don't want to talk about it, but it really is bugging us." Seamus said.
"Yeah, it's very mysterious, Harry." Neville piped up.
"Guys... relax." Harry said with a smile and started playing a few matches of Wizards Chess with Ron. After loosing all but one of the games Harry laid down in bed, wishing he could have Severus' worth around him.
"It's good to have you back, mate." said Ron, acting as if Harry had been gone for years.
"It's good to be back." Harry said, secretly wanting to sneak down to Severus' room just to smell his scent and feel his presents.
The next day Dumbledore taught potions. This didn't really bother Harry, because for once he was treated good and Malfoy wasn't allowed to get away with anything. Of Course Draco was very pissed, having Dumbledore teach his favorite class.
That night things went pretty much the same, there was another party, but none of Harry's friends felt like going and making fools of themselves again. Harry would have refused to go anyway, he didn't want to betray Severus.
The boys played games, joked, and talked all night, catching Harry up on a lot that he had missed in two nights time. Later Ginny and Hermione came in, occupying Dean and Ron, so Neville, Harry, and Seamus teased the couples to death.
On Saturday, the next morning, the Gryffindor Quidditch team awoke bright and early. Harry gave the same instructions he had the time before, hoping Seamus and Colin's buldgers wouldn't hurt him now that he knew just how Snape felt for him. He was lucky, his mind was totally on the game again.
He wasn't as lucky on Sunday. He noticed that Severus wasn't back at breakfast, and it worried him. Although, in the back of his mind he knew that Snape had told him he might not be back until Monday. His concentration was messed up, so he gave different orders. He brought out flying dummies that he let Seamus and Colin practice hitting at while he watched the rest of the team practice and gave them tips.
When he went to class on Monday to find Dumbledore still teaching them, he nearly got into a panic, but calmed himself down by hoping Snape would be back later. He wasn't at lunch, he wasn't at dinner. He wasn't even at breakfast the next morning
Harry didn't have potions on Tuesday, and he knew Severus wasn't back yet, because he hadn't shown up for lunch or dinner that day. Starting to get really worried he barely talked anymore. Walking back to the Gryffindor tower with Ron and Hermione after dinner they turned a corner to see Snape walking towards them.
Ron let out a groan. He had been telling Harry he hoped Snape had died and was never coming back. Harry wanted to jump on Severus and hug him and never let him leave again, but he knew he couldn't. As the potions professor walked by the three friends the let a small secret smile cover his face.
"I think I left my astronomy book in Great Hall. I'll catch up with you guys later...no don't bother coming." Harry said as Ron opened his mouth to say something. He sped off down the hallway and caught up with Snape just as he was entering his bed chambers.
"Damn you walk fast!" Harry said, panting.
Severus laughed and invited Harry in.
"Don't you EVER do that to me again!" Harry said refraining from slapping Snape in the face.
"What?" he asked, looking down at Harry.
"You had me so worried!" Harry said, realizing he sounded like Mrs. Weasley, he laughed and laid on Severus' bed. Snape sat down in the chair and smiled at Harry.
"I feel so loved." He said, placing a hand on his heart in joke.
"Well... you are..." Harry blushed.
Severus nearly choked and said, "Well, I'm sorry. The information Dumbledore needed took longer than expected to get. I couldn't just ask the Dark Lord, that would have been insane. He probably would have killed me. I needed to snoop around." he finished, looking at Harry's sad face. Harry had lost his whole family to Voldemort, he didn't want to hear about Severus possibly dieing too.
Snape sighed and smiled at Harry. "I'm fine, though, he didn't catch me. I won't have to do something like that again for a long time." he reassured Harry and sat on the bed next to the lying Harry, and started playing with the teens hair.
Harry grabbed Severus' arm and pulled him down on top of him. "I missed you so much!" he said, wrapping his arms around the man, holding their chests together. "I missed sleeping with you, holding you, even talking to you." Harry whispered.
They were so close that Severus could feel Harry's breathe hit him, it smelled like spearmint. He squirmed slightly, but Harry's strong grip kept him in tact.
"Why are you so nervous?" Harry asked, holding on tighter.
"I just thought...I might squish you." he said.
"Liar." Harry said softly, and rolled Snape to his side. Harry too rolled, to face Severus, but kept his arms wrapped tightly around his potions professor.
"I just... I mean... Harry, I've never really kissed anyone before. I mean there was this once that I got drunk in Spain, but that was with a female. I'm just not into that. I really love you Harry, and I don't want to mess anything up." he said, surprising himself. He had never said this out loud to anyone. He had never spoke the words 'I love you.' to anyone. Harry smiled at him.
"Well, Sevy, other than a quick kiss from Cho and that fling with Seamus, I too have never been kissed. Either of those matter to me." Harry ran his fingers through Snape's hair for the first time, and was surprised to find that it didn't feel greasy at all. It was soft, silky, shiny, and...wonderful.
"I'm falling in love with you Severus Snape, fast. Both of our lives are too risky to spend another second without kissing you." Harry exclaimed and pulled Snape's head into his own. Their lips met in heaven again and Harry pulled away to let Severus get some air, considering he was attacked unexpectedly, because kissing him again.
Harry let his hand continue to run through Snape's blissful hair as he licked up and down the man's lips. Snape opened his mouth and stuck his own tongue in Harry's mouth. If a simple kiss on the lips was heaven, what they felt now what unexplainable.
As their tongues swam around together like sweet candy, they lost track of time and breathe. What seemed like hours (really about ten minutes later) they broke apart, resting their foreheads together as they panted. "Harry..." Snape breathe, rubbing Harry's back.
Harry opened his eyes and looked into Severus'. "Yes?" he said quietly, returning the back rub.
"We can't do this..." Snape said, resting his hand on Harry's thigh.
"I don't see why not. I love you, you love me. There is no problem." Harry said, playing with Severus' hair. He kissed the man on the lips, but he pulled away.
"Harry, Dumbledore would flip if he found out. This is against school rules, I looked it up." Snape whispered. Harry could have swore there were tears forming in the professor's eyes.
"Sevy, I'm Dumbledore's favorite student. I'm the boy who lived for Merlin's sake!" Harry said, wiping a single tear off of Snape's cheek.
"He could fire me Harry. Even if he doesn't want to... if this leaks and the school governors find out, we're both toast. And then it'll seep into the news, and Voldemort will find out. I'll be murdered. Everyone will torture you, Harry." he said, sitting up and curling against the wall.
"We just won't tell anymore. We'll be careful. No one has to know." Harry said, moving closer to Snape and hugging him tightly. "I know you've wanted this for years now. I love you, Severus, you can't take this away from me now." he kissed Snape again and wiped the tears away from both of their eyes.
"I love you too Harry, but I just have a bad feeling about this, no matter how much I want to be with you." Snape said, but contrary to what he said he forced Harry down and started kissing him.
Little did that know this whole time that someone over heard just about everything they were saying.
!$!$! Omgosh! I love you Ray! Okay thanks to my friend Ray I think I have the whole story figured out now instead of just little pieces that I was trying to tape together with an imaginary twist that I hadn't made up yet! lol well....until next time...review!
-&- Chapter Five: Reconnecting -&-
After about an hour of small talk and reminisce on the past, Harry and Severus had managed to lay down together, preparing for sleep. "So tell me, Harry, what did you really think about the night of snogging you shared with Finnigan?" Snape asked, hoping it had meant nothing to Harry.
"Are you still on about that?" Harry joked and then said, seriously, "Severus, I was drunk. I was just having a little well earned fun. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but I'm not sorry that I did it. Getting drunk and making out really broke me out of my shell. Now I'm ready for you." he winked at the older man and took his hand in his own.
"I'm glad to hear that." Severus smiled and rolled over, ready to go to sleep. Harry discarded his glasses on the bed stand and wrapped an arm around Severus' body. Snape rolled around again to find himself nose to nose with Harry. "Did I ever tell you how sexy you look with out your glasses on?" he said shyly.
"No, it wasn't even in your journal. Should we make it eleven things you love about me then?" Harry responded looking into Severus' eyes, never blinking.
"Harry, I love so many things about you that if I started counting I'd be in hell before I could finish!" Snape said, staring back at Harry.
"What makes you think you're going to hell?" Harry asked sadly.
"Come on, Potter, I'm a fucking Death Eater." he said with a sigh.
"Severus, you're spying for the good side now! You're better than them! You're making up for your sins! You are a great person, never let anyone tell you other wise." Harry said, smiling. Severus smiled back, and felt his heart melt happily at Harry's words. As they continued to stare into each other's eyes, Snape looked away nervously and rolled back over, going to sleep.
"Severus', wake up!" Harry said hours later.
"Mmmph..." was the response he got.
"Sevy, get up!" Harry shoved him and pulled the blankets off of his potions master.
When Snape wouldn't budge Harry straddled himself on top of the man and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead. His eyes opened immediately, a smile on his face. "I thought that would get you up." Harry said and rolled off of him. After finishing putting on his shoes Harry left Severus to get ready for the day.
After potions class Snape called Harry behind. He checked to make sure everyone was gone before saying, "Harry, I have to leave for a few days right after we talk. I'll be back Sunday or Monday. Dumbledore needs to me do something for him. Take care of yourself while I'm gone, and sorry that I won't be able to help you with that essay like I promised, but hey...I'll be grading it I'll just let it slide and teach you when I get back." he smiled down at Harry.
"Be careful, Sevy." Harry said, worriedly, before hugging the man he was falling in love with and leaving the room quickly. Upon sitting down to lunch at the Gryffindor table Ron said, "Harry, I need to talk to you." Worrying about his friend Harry looked up and said, "I'm all ears!"
"I'm worried about you. You've been in the hospital wing, then you were missing for two nights, and you haven't scheduled anymore Quidditch practices. The first game, against Slytherin, is in two weeks!" Ron said nervously.
"Ron, I was in the hospital wing because I was drunk. I'm fine now. I wasn't missing, I was just...away. I'll be around tonight, I swear. As for Quidditch...I've just had other things on my mind. I'll tell the team we'll have practice both Saturday AND Sunday this weekend. Clam down about the game, we have plenty of time. Are you going to finish that?" Harry said, pointing at Ron's chicken wings.
Ron shook his head and gave them to Harry, with a smile on his face, glad he had his best friend back. "By the way, Seamus thinks you're avoiding him." Ron said, "He thinks he's the reason you haven't been around at night."
"I'll fix things with him. Trust me, I'm not in the least bit avoiding him. Anyway, I'm going to grab the rest of my books, care to come?" he asked Ron and Hermione who followed him out of the Great Hall.
"What did Snape want from you, mate?" Ron asked as they walked along the corridors.
"Just to tell me how stupidly I wrote my last essay." Harry lied.
"Figures," Hermione joined in, "He's always putting people down!"
"Yeah..." Harry said, arriving at the portrait hole, trying not to get angry. They didn't know the real Severus. He probably would have started in on complaining too if he hadn't have found that journal.
That night after dinner and homework, Harry, Ron, Seamus, Dean, and Neville walked up the stairs to their dormitory talking excitedly. Everyone was really glad to have Harry back, and Seamus was relieved to find out Harry didn't hate him
"So where've you been Harry?" Dean asked, popping a lemon drop in his mouth.
"Just... you know, around." Harry said.
"It's fine if you don't want to talk about it, but it really is bugging us." Seamus said.
"Yeah, it's very mysterious, Harry." Neville piped up.
"Guys... relax." Harry said with a smile and started playing a few matches of Wizards Chess with Ron. After loosing all but one of the games Harry laid down in bed, wishing he could have Severus' worth around him.
"It's good to have you back, mate." said Ron, acting as if Harry had been gone for years.
"It's good to be back." Harry said, secretly wanting to sneak down to Severus' room just to smell his scent and feel his presents.
The next day Dumbledore taught potions. This didn't really bother Harry, because for once he was treated good and Malfoy wasn't allowed to get away with anything. Of Course Draco was very pissed, having Dumbledore teach his favorite class.
That night things went pretty much the same, there was another party, but none of Harry's friends felt like going and making fools of themselves again. Harry would have refused to go anyway, he didn't want to betray Severus.
The boys played games, joked, and talked all night, catching Harry up on a lot that he had missed in two nights time. Later Ginny and Hermione came in, occupying Dean and Ron, so Neville, Harry, and Seamus teased the couples to death.
On Saturday, the next morning, the Gryffindor Quidditch team awoke bright and early. Harry gave the same instructions he had the time before, hoping Seamus and Colin's buldgers wouldn't hurt him now that he knew just how Snape felt for him. He was lucky, his mind was totally on the game again.
He wasn't as lucky on Sunday. He noticed that Severus wasn't back at breakfast, and it worried him. Although, in the back of his mind he knew that Snape had told him he might not be back until Monday. His concentration was messed up, so he gave different orders. He brought out flying dummies that he let Seamus and Colin practice hitting at while he watched the rest of the team practice and gave them tips.
When he went to class on Monday to find Dumbledore still teaching them, he nearly got into a panic, but calmed himself down by hoping Snape would be back later. He wasn't at lunch, he wasn't at dinner. He wasn't even at breakfast the next morning
Harry didn't have potions on Tuesday, and he knew Severus wasn't back yet, because he hadn't shown up for lunch or dinner that day. Starting to get really worried he barely talked anymore. Walking back to the Gryffindor tower with Ron and Hermione after dinner they turned a corner to see Snape walking towards them.
Ron let out a groan. He had been telling Harry he hoped Snape had died and was never coming back. Harry wanted to jump on Severus and hug him and never let him leave again, but he knew he couldn't. As the potions professor walked by the three friends the let a small secret smile cover his face.
"I think I left my astronomy book in Great Hall. I'll catch up with you guys later...no don't bother coming." Harry said as Ron opened his mouth to say something. He sped off down the hallway and caught up with Snape just as he was entering his bed chambers.
"Damn you walk fast!" Harry said, panting.
Severus laughed and invited Harry in.
"Don't you EVER do that to me again!" Harry said refraining from slapping Snape in the face.
"What?" he asked, looking down at Harry.
"You had me so worried!" Harry said, realizing he sounded like Mrs. Weasley, he laughed and laid on Severus' bed. Snape sat down in the chair and smiled at Harry.
"I feel so loved." He said, placing a hand on his heart in joke.
"Well... you are..." Harry blushed.
Severus nearly choked and said, "Well, I'm sorry. The information Dumbledore needed took longer than expected to get. I couldn't just ask the Dark Lord, that would have been insane. He probably would have killed me. I needed to snoop around." he finished, looking at Harry's sad face. Harry had lost his whole family to Voldemort, he didn't want to hear about Severus possibly dieing too.
Snape sighed and smiled at Harry. "I'm fine, though, he didn't catch me. I won't have to do something like that again for a long time." he reassured Harry and sat on the bed next to the lying Harry, and started playing with the teens hair.
Harry grabbed Severus' arm and pulled him down on top of him. "I missed you so much!" he said, wrapping his arms around the man, holding their chests together. "I missed sleeping with you, holding you, even talking to you." Harry whispered.
They were so close that Severus could feel Harry's breathe hit him, it smelled like spearmint. He squirmed slightly, but Harry's strong grip kept him in tact.
"Why are you so nervous?" Harry asked, holding on tighter.
"I just thought...I might squish you." he said.
"Liar." Harry said softly, and rolled Snape to his side. Harry too rolled, to face Severus, but kept his arms wrapped tightly around his potions professor.
"I just... I mean... Harry, I've never really kissed anyone before. I mean there was this once that I got drunk in Spain, but that was with a female. I'm just not into that. I really love you Harry, and I don't want to mess anything up." he said, surprising himself. He had never said this out loud to anyone. He had never spoke the words 'I love you.' to anyone. Harry smiled at him.
"Well, Sevy, other than a quick kiss from Cho and that fling with Seamus, I too have never been kissed. Either of those matter to me." Harry ran his fingers through Snape's hair for the first time, and was surprised to find that it didn't feel greasy at all. It was soft, silky, shiny, and...wonderful.
"I'm falling in love with you Severus Snape, fast. Both of our lives are too risky to spend another second without kissing you." Harry exclaimed and pulled Snape's head into his own. Their lips met in heaven again and Harry pulled away to let Severus get some air, considering he was attacked unexpectedly, because kissing him again.
Harry let his hand continue to run through Snape's blissful hair as he licked up and down the man's lips. Snape opened his mouth and stuck his own tongue in Harry's mouth. If a simple kiss on the lips was heaven, what they felt now what unexplainable.
As their tongues swam around together like sweet candy, they lost track of time and breathe. What seemed like hours (really about ten minutes later) they broke apart, resting their foreheads together as they panted. "Harry..." Snape breathe, rubbing Harry's back.
Harry opened his eyes and looked into Severus'. "Yes?" he said quietly, returning the back rub.
"We can't do this..." Snape said, resting his hand on Harry's thigh.
"I don't see why not. I love you, you love me. There is no problem." Harry said, playing with Severus' hair. He kissed the man on the lips, but he pulled away.
"Harry, Dumbledore would flip if he found out. This is against school rules, I looked it up." Snape whispered. Harry could have swore there were tears forming in the professor's eyes.
"Sevy, I'm Dumbledore's favorite student. I'm the boy who lived for Merlin's sake!" Harry said, wiping a single tear off of Snape's cheek.
"He could fire me Harry. Even if he doesn't want to... if this leaks and the school governors find out, we're both toast. And then it'll seep into the news, and Voldemort will find out. I'll be murdered. Everyone will torture you, Harry." he said, sitting up and curling against the wall.
"We just won't tell anymore. We'll be careful. No one has to know." Harry said, moving closer to Snape and hugging him tightly. "I know you've wanted this for years now. I love you, Severus, you can't take this away from me now." he kissed Snape again and wiped the tears away from both of their eyes.
"I love you too Harry, but I just have a bad feeling about this, no matter how much I want to be with you." Snape said, but contrary to what he said he forced Harry down and started kissing him.
Little did that know this whole time that someone over heard just about everything they were saying.
!$!$! Omgosh! I love you Ray! Okay thanks to my friend Ray I think I have the whole story figured out now instead of just little pieces that I was trying to tape together with an imaginary twist that I hadn't made up yet! lol well....until next time...review!