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Chapter 10

Buffy walked straight into Willow and Tara's room at 11:30 on Wednesday morning, expecting them to be ready to go. They had agreed to spend some of the day together before she met Spike. However, the sight which greeted her, was not that which she expected

"Willow" she yelped when she opened the door, her hand covering her mouth in shock. Willow jumped and looked at her sheepishly

"I can explain" she started, but Buffy was pacing the room "Oh my god, oh my god, oh my"

Willow grabbed hold of her arm, holding a sheet around herself with the other hand

"Buffy calm dwn"

"Calm down, Willow i just found you in bed with someone other than your gorlfriend. Not just someone els e a guy, a guy who is Xander" she exclaimed. Willow looked guilty now

"I know, i'm sorry, Buffy but-"

"Where is Tara?" Buffy asked, wondering why excatly the other girl wasn't in her room

"She and Anya had a girl's night out last night. She with Anya"

"Yeah, but i have a feeling Anya will still be wondering where Xander is" Buffy couldn't bring hersef to talk to him directly yet, she was too weirded out

"Look Buffy, can we explain?" Willow asked

"I suppose" Buffy answered taking a seat on the room's small couch, waiting for them to explain their actions

"Buffy, things have been strange this week. Tara and i just haven't had the same ideas about this place. I've been thinking i wanna move here after graduation and take that year out. I brought it up with Tara but before i got into any detail she said she'd love to live here but not until way in the future. She wants her career first. But Buffy i like it here, i feel drawn to this place"

"And what, you were drawn to Xander's penis too?" she asked sarcastically "Willow you are in a relationship, more importantly, you're GAY" Buffy made sure to put the emphasis on the last word

"Look Buffy, i just know Xander and i got on well, i like him and i'm attracted to him. So i like men and women, big dea, i'm not the first person. I don't know what i'm going to do, but please don't tell Tara" Willow begged. Buffy felt annoyed that she was being dragged into this and being asked to keep the secret from one of her best friends. And now that Willow had explained her actionsm, it was Xander's turn. She looked at him.

"What about you?"

"Buff, i don't know what to tell you except similar to Willow about just liking being with her and being attracted to her. I love Anya i do, but i don't know if that's enough any more. I don't know if i'm still in love with her" he sighed.

Buffy looked them over, cringing a little at the act they were both still naked

"I don't know what i'm going to do. I won't promise not to tell her because i just don't know if i could keep that promise. But i can't deal with this at the moment. I have to go"

Buffy left, leaving Willow and Xander looking at each other guiltily.

Spike was disturbed from his sleep with a knocking at his door. He tried to ignore it but it didn't go away. He dragged himself out of bed and pulled on a pair of jeans, and went to answer the door. He threw it open and saw Buffy standing there. He looked at her, they weren't supposed to meet until later that afternoon

"What you doin' here?" he mumbled

"Well, i had a change of plans, so i thought we could do something" it wasn't exactly a lie. It just wasn't the whole truth.

Spike couldn't say he was particularly happy at being woken because Buffy was having a cahnge of plans. The way he saw it, he was meeting her, that was what she wanted, didn't give her the right to just turn up on his doorstep. But, he held back the annoyed comment because she looked a little upset.

"Ok i guess, come in" he stood aside and let her enter, he closed the door and led her to the living room. He told her to sit down and then went to put some clothes on.

Buffy sat patiently on the couch. She couln't explain why she had come to Spike's. Actually that was a lie, she knew exactly why she had ended up there. It was because she was beginning to develop feelings for him. She was not going to tell him that of course; he was making certain to keep himself closed off even when he was telling her very personal things. So she would keep spending time with him, but keep her feelings to herself. Spike came back about 20minutes later, obviously having been in a shower because his hair was wet. And he was dressed in his usual attire, black jeans and black t-shirt. He took a seat on the other chair

"So what we gonna do today then, pet?" he asked, and then cursed himself for the slip of the tongue. He didn't use that phrase anymore. He wasn't that person now

"It's up to you" Buffy honestly didn't care, she just wanted to be around him today. Spike smirked a little, and decided he had divulged enough of his deep dark secret to her for the moment

"Time for you to tell me something about you, i think" he decided "i have told you all about Drusilla, so it's your turn to tell me something" He sat back ion his seat and waited. He wasn't going to be the only one revealing secrets. Only fair that she should too.

Buffy was mortified; she had no clue what to tell him. Should it be a bout a past relationship, school. She decided with what he had told her the past few days, it should be a relationship thing. Now all she had to do was pick one of her many disasters to tell him about

"Ok, i was seeing this guy, Ben. He was really cool. He was a doctor, nice upstanding citizen. We dated for a few months. The sex was nothing fantastic, but it was ok. We had fun together and he was a great guy, at least he seemed to be. Anyway, we are on date one night and we were having fun. But all of a sudden he said he had to go home. I was worried. After a hour or so, when he left, i decided to go talk to him because i didn't know if he just wanted to stop seeing me and just didn't have the guts to tell me. Anyway, there was no answer at the door but it was open so i went in. I go into the living room and there's Ben. In a red silk dress and high heels." She was going to say more, but the sound of Spike's laughing cut her off. "Hey" she exclaimed indignantly, insulted that he found the situation so funny.

Spike was hunched over in his seat clutching his sides and laughing hard. It wasn't that it was a funny situation for her to have been in, he just couldn't help himself, he could just see her expression when she saw it and it made him laugh. When he heard her yell at him, he made an effort to stop

"Sorry" he said, a little breathless fronm laughing

"It's not funny" she pouted

"No, it's not" he agreed, shaking his head, but still failing to completely with-hold his laughter. This got to Buffy

"Look maybe you find it funny, but it hurt me ok. I cared about the guy and he hurt me. Maybe you don't think it's as hutful as what your precious Drusilla did, but that still hurt me"

That sobered him up. He was both sorry and angry. He realized that he had upset her; but he was angry that she had said what she did about Drusilla

"Look you don't know what happened with Drusilla" he yelled

"Because you won't tell me. I told you my whole story so why don't you finish yours" she screamed back.

Fine" he ground out through clenched teeth

"Good get talking" Buffy ordered sitting back down, pike doing the same a moment later. Taking a minute to gather his thoughts. He moved over to sit by her on the couch, making it easier to talk to her. Not having to say the words too loudly, he took a few deep breaths before beginning the final part of his story.

"This part isn't that long" he warned. She shrugged, she just wanted to know "Ok, i told you that she told me we were over and then she was gone. Well she did leave me a going away gift. Well not so much as left me a gift as left me wih nothing. Drusilla had disappeared, i still don't know where to. But wherever she is i know how she got there. She had been gone a week and school was about to start. I hadn't been staying with dad since she left, i stayed in my car, because i needed to be alone. Anyway it was time for school, and i was supposed to take my final tuition payment. I had my money for books and all that stuff. I went to the bank to get it from the cash machine. I brought my balance up after it told me twice that i didn't have enough to cover the withdrawl. I knew that was wrong because i never touched that money. Anyway, i brought up my balance and i almost collapsed when i saw the total on the screen. I had a balance of $150. About $15,000 less than there should have been. I took a staement and it appeared money had been taken out steadily for about three months. Since two weeks after i started seeing Dru. She knew i had that money in the bank. It was money that had actually been my mother's inheritance from her parents and grandparents. And she left it to me, because she was using it as my college fund. And hopefully having some left over so that i could travel a bit, go back to England one day maybe. But it was all gone.

I didn't know how she had found out my pin number to get the money. I went back to dad's and i searched my room. I found a note under my pillow

Thank you sweet William, i shall have a wonderful time with the money. But don't worry i left you some spending Money. Love Dru. She took it all. She also had a p.s telling me that she had found an old bank statement which had the number on it. So i told dad. He couldn't afford to put me through the year. He had just invested everything in the Magic Box, and it was too late for student loans. So i couldn't finish college. She wiped me out" he wanted to cry by the time he finished, but he held the tears back, refusing to cry in front of Buffy.

Buffy on the other hand didn't try to hide the emotions she was feeling, anger and disgust coursed thriugh her

"That bitch" she yelled "how could anyone be so evil? She seriously needs her ass kicked"

"It doesn't matter now" Spike insisted

"Spike, it does matter. She ruined your life. She took something from you. And it's not just the money, she took your education from youm, she took the thing that your mother wanted you to have away. Because you loved her and she used that love against you"

Spike looked at her; he couldn't figure out why she cared. But for some reason she did, and he wasn't used to it. But he liked the feeling. Without really stopping to think what he was doing he reached out and grabbed the back of her neck, plling her to him, and smashing her mouth to his.