A/N: Ok, a lot of people want things to get better. Here is where you find out if it does.Next chapter is the epilogue. TammyDevil666, i loved your review it was fab. So here is the chapter. 5 reviews gets u the epilogue.

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Chapter 14

Buffy folded her clothes and carefully packed them into her duffel bag. It was 9pm and they were getting everything ready to leave early in the morning.

"So are you glad we came here?" she asked Willow as she took a shirt from her and put it in the bag

"Yeah, mostly. I'm glad i found this place and Xander. But i hate the fact that coming here ended up hurting Tara so much"

"Yeah. So are you gonna come here after graduation?"

"Yeah, i mean Xander is here and i really like Sunnydale. I think i'd be happy here. so yeah, i am" she decided

"Cool. I still have no idea what i'm going to do. But i hope you'll be happy Wills"

"Thanks Buff" the redhead threw her arms around Buffy, hugging her tight.

They shared a smile and then got back to work. They packed for the next hour or so. Packing all of Buffy's things first and then going to Willow's room to pack her things. They kept working until a kock came at the door signalling the arrival of Xander. Willow ran to the door, she jumped into Xander's arms, kissing him.

"Hey you"

"Hey yourself" he replied planting a soft kiss on her forehead "You two almost done here?"

"Yep" Buffy answered zipping Willow's bag "all done"

"So, what are we doing tonight?"

Willow looked at Buffy and motioned towards the door with her head. Buffy took the hint

"I don't know about you two but i am going to have an early night. Leaving early tomorrow and all night"

She winked at Willow as she was leaving making her giggle. Even though Tara was one of her best friends, Buffy couldn't help but smile at the two of them as she went back to her room.

Spike sat in a diner that he just to go to regularly when he attended UCLA. He was nursing a cup of coffee, wishing it was something much stronger. He ahd called his father to let him know he had gone away, and he had listened to his father prattle on for 30 minutes about his mistreatment of Buffy; the things he had said about her and how he should have given her more of a chance. He had told his father however, in no uncertain terms, that he wasn't interested. He didn't care. Nothing was going to make him change hios opinion. He looked up when he caught a glimpse of someone standing next to his table

"William my boy, how are you?"

"Angel" Spike almost growled as he said the name. This was a man he truly hated. The man who had helped to destroy his life. Drusilla's 'one true love'.

"So, how did your final year of college go?" The other man taunted

"Piss off Angel"

"Oh that's right you didn't go" Spike refu to rise to the bait. He threw some money on the table for the coffee, stood up and walked out.

"What's the matter Will, not happy to see me?"

Spike whirled round to face Angel

"Sod off, Angel, go back to Dru and leave me the hell alone"

"I would but i don't know where Dru is. Don't want to either" Angel admitted

"What are you talking about?" Spike demanded

"Well, i stuck about for about a year. Came backjust over a month ago. All the money's gone now. I have no use for the whore" Angel smirked

"Yeah well, neither do i. Now go to hell. Oh and by that way, i want my money back. It may be gone, but you better find it from somewhere"

He walked towards his car, but stopped when he heard Angel's harsh laugh

"And why would i do that? You'll never get a cent from me"

Spike ran at him and grabbed him by the lapels of his coat "Listen here Angel, you and that bitch ruined my life. I want my money back, and you better get it" Spiek threatened

Angel pushed him away, but Spike puncehed him on the jaw. This made Angel really angry, he reached inside his jacket and pulled out a gun. Pointing it at Spike

"You know, i never did like you, so i'm gonna enjoy this" As he moved to pull the trigger Spike lunged at him. He grabbed Angel's arm and tried to get the gun from his grasp. They struggled for a few moments and then a shot rang out through the air.

Willow lay curled up at Xander's side, smiling softly. They spoke in whispers even though they were alone in the room

"So, you gonna come visit me in LA?"

"Try and stop me. I will be there every weekend" he declared

"Ok" she gigged slightly "I love you, Xander"

"I love you too Willow" he leaned down to kiss her softly.

Giles ran to answer the phone. He had been worried sick since the last time he spoke to Spike. His son had become reckless in the past year; he was constantly worried that he was going to get a phone call telling him something had happened

"Hello...yes, oh dear lord... i understand...of course, i'll be there as soon as i can" Giles' face had paled considerably. As soon as he put the phone down, he foun the car keys and made a run for the door.

Buffy heard a shrill ringing disturb her sleep. She grasped around on the bedside table to find her cell phone. She flipped it open and mumbled a hello without ever looking to see who the caller was. When she heard the voice on the other end she muttered

"Oh god"

Spike had been driving for hours. He had been lucky, Angel had gotten the upper hand over him, but he managed to get the gun pointed away from him. Nobody was shot but Angel was pretty shaken up. That was his falt tho. Spike got the gun away from him, emptieed it of bullets and the thrown it in a dumpster and left. He had driven around LA for another hour thinking. And his converstion with his father sprung to mind again. Once again, he told himself he didn't care. But he realised, if that was the case, then why did he keep thinking about it. Why did he have to keep repeating the words to himself. And then he knew. He took a cut off and was on his way to Sunnydale again.

Giles rushed into the hospital

"I'm here regarding Anya Jenkins" he told the nurse on reception. She had no family of her own, so Giles as he employer was listed as next of kin. She hadn't gotten around to changing it to Xander. The nurse told him that she would get the doctor. He took a seat and waited. The doctor arrived ten minutes later looking solemn

"Doctor"

The doctor looked at Giles sadly

"I'm sorry sir, i'm afraid Anya passed away a few minutes ago" the doctor informed him

"How?" Giles asked

Keeping it strictly business the doctor told him what happened

"She was in a car accident. She was just coming into Sunnydale, and another driver lost control of their car. They hit Miss Jenkins' car. She skidded off the road and into a tree. She was still alive, but our efforts to keep it that way didn't succeed and we lost her. I'm very sorry" the doctor passed his condolensces on to Giles and then excused himself. Giles sat down again, weeping over the loss of such a young and caring woman. A few minutes a nurse came, asking him to formally identify the body. He followed silently behind her, into the room where her body was. He watched as the nurse pulled back the sheet that covered her. His tears kept falling as he looked at her bruised and bloody face. But he thought she looked at peace. To most it would simply look like she was deep in slumber. He went over and placed a kiss on her head and said softly

"Sleep well, dear Anya, sleep well" he stepped back and told the nurse that it was indeed Anya and let her pull the sheet back up. He then left the room. He had a phone call he had to make.

"Spike what do you want?" Buffy snapped

"You" he said simply

"Yeah well you can't have me. You ruined your chances" she told him, trying to stay calm, but her voice dripping with anger

"No i haven't, i want you Buffy"

"Why should i listen to anything you have to say?" she asked

"Because i say so. Look Buffy, i know i treated you bad, i was a right bastard i know. But i was scared after what happened with Dru. I know that was no excuse but it's the only one i have"

Buffy looked at the clock

"Spike it is 3AM!" she exclaimed "and i know you have been hurt but you know that i'm not Drusilla"

"I know and i realised that tonight" it was raining, well, a thunderstorm actually and Spike was soaked through. But he refused to give up

"And you realised this how" she wasn't trying to hide her ager any more "Spike you hurt and humiliated me. I cared for you and you treated me like some cheap hooker"

"I did" he admitted "and i'm sorry. But i met Dru's ex tonight. And he said some things and i realised that they weren't worth ruining my life over. They are pathetic and not worth my pain. But Buffy you are. I am so sorry"

"Why should i believe you?"

Spike wiped the rain from his gface, pushing the hair back from his face.

Xander answered his phone and was surprised to hear Giles on the other end

"Hey G man, what's up?.. what?... no, no please no...oh god no" Xander sunk to his knees dropping the phone by his side. Willow ran to his side and saw tears falling down his face

"What's wrong?" she asked alarmed

"She's gone. Anya's dead"

"Oh my god, how?" Willow asked as she too began to cry

"Car accident. Giles had to identify the body. He said she looked peaceful" He pulled Willow into his arms. Clinging to her, as he mourned the death of a lost love.

There was silence on the other side of the phone but Buffy could hear the rain

"I asked why i should believe you, why should i give you another chance?"

"I don't care what you say Buffy, i'm going to get you back"

Buffy snorted sarcastically but didn't miss his final staement

"Because i love you"

Buffy almost dropped the phone

"What?" she gasped

"I love you" he smirked a little at what he suspected was stunned silence

"Where are you?"

"Outside"

"Outside" Buffy repeated, she jumped out of bed and ran for the door, slipping her shoes on as she went. She threw open the door and saw him standing right outside in thee pouring rain. Soaked to the skin, holding his cell phone and smiling. She ran from the room and straight into his arm. She kissed him, it was passionate, and he deepened it straight away. Both of them were soaking now. But neither of them seemed to notice. Thunder and lightening sounded and lit up the sky all around them. But they were oblivious, lost in each other. When spike broke the kiss he spoke instantly

"I wasn't finished my speech"

Buffy nodded at him, letting him know he could go on

"When Dru did what she did, she broke me. It made me go a little crazy. And i was terrified i would crack up again. I didn't wanna be hurt again, because my heart couldn't take it. So i hurt you first. You had become like a friend. I trusted you and i want that back. Only i don't wanna be just friends because... i love you. And do not ask me how that happened. I think i always knew. But i didn't want to love you. I didn't want to take a chance on getting hurt. But as much as i said i didn't care, i still kept thinking about you, what i said, what dad said. And the more i denied it, the more afraid i became. Because, the more you deny that you have feelings for someone, the less believable it becomes. I knew that the only reason i would think about it so much is if i cared about you. But i didn't want to, i guess i hoped that if i said i didn't care, that you were nothing then maybe i'd start to believe it. But i never truly did. I fell in love with you." Buffy kissed him again, it was a much shorter kiss and the rain was still falling

"I love you too. But it's still 3am, i'm tired. And i love you" Spike picked her up and swung her round. Lowering his mouth to hers to capture her ina kiss again. They stayed like thta. Letting the rain fall on them, not noticing the thunder that made the sky shine brighter, or the banging of the thunder. hey were lost in their own world, a world of love and kisses.

(Chapter based on Busted- 3am)

I don't give a damn about you
No nothing can change my mind
No way
I'm happy just to let you walk away

Don't think about you at night
I'm happy to be alone
It's ok
But that was yesterday and now I'm

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean shit
Ooooooh!

[Chorus:]

I'm calling you at 3am and I,
I'm standing here right outside your door
But I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
And I don't think that my heart can take more

I don't give a damn what you do
I'm gonna get with you
Again
And that's the way this night is gonna end
You said you need some time
How long does it take to see
That we are more than meant to be
And now you're driving in your car
But you won't get far
Cos' your car is shit
Ooooooh!

[Chorus:]

I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cos' I don't think that my heart can take much more

Can take much more (echoes)
Can take much more (echoes)
Can take much more (echoes)

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean shit
Ooooooh!

[Chorus:]

I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cos' I don't think that my heart can take much more