DarkGhost42: I own neither YYH nor 'In The End'. That belongs to Linkin' Park and YYH, belongs to someone else. (can't remember all names)

In The End

In the end...it all seems pointless right? Isn't that how life is supposed to feel when everything turns into darkness, or is there something more to it? All I've learned is that if you trust the one person you thought would never leave you; everything will plummet into the shadows. It all happens...in the end.

It starts with one...

One thing,

I don't know why,

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme,

To explain in do time,

All I know,

Time is a valuably thing,

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings,

Watch it count down to the end of the day,

The clock ticks life away

I'll tell you a story about a time when, everything seemed so perfect. It was a paradise, but then, it all seemed to turn sour, and my life took a twist and sent me plummeting in the other direction. I thought my life would turn out like I had always wished, but then again...that never happens, does it? No one receives as many hugs they want. No body receives how much power they want, and no one can own the person they love. Nothing is real anymore.

It's so unreal,

You didn't look out below,

Watch the time go right out the window,

Trying to hold on,

Didn't even know, I wasted it all

Just to watch you go

I kept everything inside,

And even know I tried,

It all fell apart,

What it meant to be,

Will eventually be,

A memory of a time when...

I remember that time perfectly. He was all I had dreamed of, and I could watch him for hours without averting my gaze. His smile welcomed me everytime I would appear before him. I would flush whenever he graced me with his presence, but I didn't want him to notice my feelings. I could only admire him from afar. My dreams were the only time I could truly live...and see the smile only meant for me.

I tried so hard,

And got so far,

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter,

I had to fall

To lose it all,

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter

Yes...I would dream and feel what I had always wished. I was all he needed. Those words...he would speak them to me every time, but I knew it wasn't real. None of it could ever be real. I knew he'd someday be taken from me. He would forget...and I would become nothing to him. I decided I already was nothing. The walls became thicker and my heart glazed over with ice. I couldn't look at him anymore. I couldn't speak to him...for if I did, I feared I would reveal secrets meant to be hidden...forever.

One thing,

I don't know why,

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind,

I designed this rhyme,

To remind myself,

How I tried so hard...

In spite of the way you were mocking me,

Acting like I was part of your property,

Remembering all the times you fought with me,

I'm surprised it got so far,

I became nothing more than a mere shadow from that point on, until one day. He called me to talk to him. I couldn't refuse his presence, but I kept my distance. He would glance at me and then at the ground. I would feel my heart pound and my mind would scream at me thoughts that had haunted me for years without me taking notice. He reached out his hand and touched me. I would only recoil and shrink farther into darkness. I wouldn't let him give himself up to me. I was worthless to anyone and he deserved better. But he spoke, and those words caused my reaction to turn not into fury, but passion. And then...

Things aren't the way the were before,

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore,

Not that you knew me back then,

But it all comes back to me,

In the end...

You kept everything inside,

And even though I tried,

It all fell apart,

What it meant to me, will,

Eventually be a memory of a time when...

He was gone. That kiss we shared that night. Those words we exchanged. The air we both breathed. It was all the first and last time. He loosened from my grip and fell. He couldn't fight the darkness. He couldn't see the light calling. He became consumed and was stolen from my heart and left me with a scar that would never heal. How could he leave me like this? Why did he hurt me? The one I loved and trusted most, gave me the largest wound of my life.

I tried so hard,

And got so far,

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter

As I watched his grave in despair, the thoughts of agony raced through my conscious mind beckoning me to them. I tried to shove them away, but the more I fought, the harder the task became. I decided to grip what fate had given me. I had my memories, but how long they would keep me alive, I had no idea.

I've put my trust in you,

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this,

There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you,

Pushed as far as I can go,

For all this,

There's only one thing you should know

The engravings on his tombstone were made in calligraphy. The writing beautiful, a perfect tribute to my beloved. I traced the writing with my index finger and felt the tears sting my eyes. Why did this happen? What went wrong? The rain beat down hard, but I ignored the pain of the droplets trickling into my eyes. They were watered enough already. I picked up the rose lying on the top of the soil. I'll tell you a story, about how everything seemed like my very own dream. But in the end...it really doesn't matter anymore.

I tried so hard,

And got so far,

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end,

It doesn't even matter

And so...my story begins.

A/N: Hey guys! This will be my first OFFICIAL angst, and if you don't like it, yo can tell me, and I'll change it. But...I want criticism, not flames, kay? I don't like flames. And, sorry to you Kurama fans who hate it when Kurama is killed, injured, maimed, and anything else like that. (gulps and looks at Cheysuli) Well...remember to review!! Mushi mushi minna san!