Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate Sg-1 or any of these characters.
Onboard
the ship, the members of the Natu expedition sat with eyes averted from each
other. Sam was leaning against her father, but she didn't dare look at
him for fear of resurgent memories popping out. She kept remembering the
horrible days that had followed her mother's death and the accusations she had
thrown at her father, blaming him. She also turned her eyes from Martouf
and Jack as recalled Jolinar's love for the former and her own feelings of
having betrayed the latter because of the dead Tok'ra's feelings that felt like
her own.
Jack wouldn't face anyone, even though he
hadn't seen any of them in his manipulated memories. Charlie's face
haunted him, however, and he still didn't like sharing his feelings with anyone
more than the barest minimum, which this was not. Though his head knew
that technically his son's death was not his fault, he could not absolve
himself for having kept a gun in the house. Daniel was the only one present
who knew fully the depth of his feelings, but his glimpse of the archeologist's
face told him that now was definitely not the time for such a discussion.
Daniel certainly had no plans of speaking
with Jack anytime in the near future. Having seen Jack during Apophis's
memory control, he wasn't sure what to think anymore. He knew that the
colonel was his best friend, despite their rocky beginning, but everything had
seemed so real. How could he hold a normal conversation now that Jack had
asked him to betray Sha're's son and destroy their world and all their allies
by doing so? No, not Jack, he reminded himself. A Goa'uld, a
projection of lies. So what did Jack see? But he could not bring
himself to ask or even look for signs in Jack's expression or lack thereof.
Martouf was dealing with ghosts of the
past in the form of Sam. Apophis had used a Tok'ra device against all of
them. And in his case, he had brought in Sam and superimposed a memory of
Jolinar. Though he had not betrayed his people, he still saw the look on
Sam/Jolinar's face when he had named a planet. She had felt betrayed
because of his seeming surrender when she hadn't known the truth. She had
sincerely thought he would turn over his people to spare her pain, and she had
not been pleased. Sam was a soldier who would rather be tortured or die
than reveal a secret that could hurt her people.
Teal'c, Jacob, and Aldwin had problems of
their own. Jacob felt guilty that his daughter and the others had been
captured and tortured coming to free him. Teal'c had to deal with having
had to abandon his friends to Apophis and then the very close call to rescue
them which had had to be done very precisely or they would have all died.
Aldwin was contemplating friendship which caused these people he was dealing
with to get in horrible situations and their trust in each other for rescue,
which he had almost prevented.
To everyone's surprise, it was Jack who
broke the silence first with a quickly suppressed sob. He jerked his face
away when everyone looked up, but could not hide the lone tear running down his
cheek. And Daniel knew. As the one Jack had confided in, he knew
that the only thing that could bring him to tears was a memory of Charlie, who
had accidentally shot himself with his father's gun. In that moment,
Daniel completely forgot about Jack/Apophis asking him where the Harcisis
was. His friend was hurting and it was up to him to fix it.
All of these thoughts flashed through his
head in an instant and then he was moving, shielding Jack from the others with
his body and wrapping him in as strong an embrace as his aching body could
bear.
"Shh, Jack, remember the good times,
remember Christmas, remember fishing at the lake and camping out." Daniel
patted his friend's back and searched for more words. Before anymore
could come, he heard Jack's hoarse whisper.
"He wanted me to play catch.
But I scolded him for playing with a toy gun." He broke off and
tried again, "No, I wanted him to play catch but he was mad at me for
being late and then I told him not to play with the toy gun. But he said
he'd play catch with me if I told him how to contact the Asgaard or what planet
had the device to download the knowledge of the Ancients. But I didn't, I
wouldn't. Oh, Charlie!"
He broke down completely then, as Daniel
pieced together what Jack was talking about. He was near tears himself,
seeing his usually stoic friend collapse into tears so completely and
publicly. He understood though. "I saw you and you asked where
Sha're's child had been sent saying you'd forgotten. You seemed so normal
but I couldn't tell you and then I was so mad at you for asking, for being the
one who asked." Daniel found himself crying too.
The strain of the past hours and Jack's
tale and his own weighed heavily on him all at once and the two friends leaned
against each other, needing the support. Sam looked on, struggling to
control herself long enough to speak, to purge the hurt.
"I saw you, Dad. Early on when
we were trying to figure out how Jolinar escaped I saw the day Mom died and
then later on Natu it morphed into you saying you were dying and needed to know
Earth's gatecode." She leaned into her father's embrace and broke
down, her tears mingling with his. Then she felt more arms around her as
Jack and Daniel surrounded her, their cheeks still tearstained. "I-I
also saw and felt Jolinar's memories. She was tortured so badly and I
could feel it and, and..." She couldn't say anymore but she didn't need
to either. They understood; it was enough. Teal'c joined them long
enough to lay a comforting hand on her head before returning to driving the
ship.
Then they turned as one to the last
members of the group. One of the Tok'ra they did not know, and he ducked
his head as they eyed him, and mumbled something indiscernible. They
ignored him, though, in favor of Martouf, who sighed and then said, "He
had Samantha dragged before me but made me see Jolinar. Then he
threatened her while asking me where the Tok'ra resistance was located.
She begged me not to tell and I lied but she thought I told the truth, as did
he. Watching her threatened with Jolinar's face was bad enough but the
look in her eyes cut much deeper."
Sam reached a hand out of the pile of
family that surrounded her, and Martouf took it. Grasping it tightly like
a lifeline, she dragged him into the group hug, which opened to welcome
him. Her eyes invited the other as well but he hung back with an ashamed
expression.
Taking up his old tone of voice, Jack
asked, "What's the problem with you?"
With a sigh, Aldwin capitulated.
"Teal'c went back to find help for you. I was sent back with a bomb,
which I sent to Natu without letting him warn you. Then I tried to get
him to leave and give up on you. He refused and shut me up in here while
he evaded enemy fire and then got into position to pick you up."
"Yeah, I got that. But what
has you so riled? I'll tell you straight, I would do just about anything
to save SG-1--except betray earth. I'll also have you know that I get
pretty upset when they do the same for me. But that's how families
operate. Maybe we aren't related by blood, but our blood has mingled
often enough to make us closer than biology. So I understand your orders
and priorities and Teal'c's and I figure there's no real point in griping at
either of you for following your natures. So get over here before the
mush-fest ends." He smiled as he said it and the other man finally smiled
back and joined the group hug.
Jacob spoke up at last.
"Family? I can see that you've been a better one for Sam than I've
been. But do you think there's room for a biological member in this
heart-joined group?"
Jack gave a rare smile. "I
think we can make an exception."
