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I do not own Harry Potter; I do not own any characters in this or any other fan fiction I have written. I'm doing this purely for the fun of it. Everything is owned by JKRowling.
Chapter 4
Waking up Harry felt something warm and heavy on his chest, looking down he saw a head with light brown and grey flecks in his hair, lying on top of his chest, looking at the head one word surfaced in his mind, shit!
Trying his best to stay calm he tried to remember what had happened the night before one image of himself coming whilst shouting out Remus' name filtered through.
Shit! Thought Harry, this is not good. Fuck, shit, fuck, shit! This is not what was supposed to happen I only wanted a kiss. What am I going to do? What's Remus going to do? Shit! What's Sirius going to say?
Letting out an audible sigh, which woke Remus up; Harry pulled himself up in to a sitting position.
"Harry what are you doing in my bed?" asked Remus, crap why can't I remember anything? Thought Remus in alarm.
Going red Harry answered, "Well... you see... Remus..." stuttered Harry.
"What!?" asked Remus urgently.
"Wesleptogether," rushed out Harry glowing a bright magnetic colour.
"Say it slower," replied Remus, but he was pretty sure he had heard correct the first time.
Taking a calming breath Harry answered slowly, "We slept together."
The bedroom was so quiet that you'd be able to hear a pin drop on the bed. Both men were looking at each other as images of their love making came to the surface of their minds.
Finally Remus broke the silence by saying, "I think you should go back to your own room."
Harry couldn't find his voice so he just nodded dumbly got up grabbed his boxers and trousers and took off out the room and sprinted into his own bedroom, locked the door.
Sliding down the door Harry began shaking as sobs racked his body, his mind was utter confusion. Great now Remus is going to tell Sirius then Sirius will hate me, thought Harry, openly crying now, but if Remus also going to be thrown out then maybe he and I will be together. NO! Why am I so confused? I just want someone that will love me.
Harry carried on crying for quiet some time before he couldn't cry any more, he felt mentally exhausted so crawling over to his own bed; he climbed in and fell asleep.
Over in the other room, Remus was also crying and his thoughts were just as jumbled up as Harry's were. That was not supposed to happen. Now Harry will probably go running to Sirius saying I molested him, can this get any worse? But if Harry tells the truth then maybe I will end up with him, thought Remus, still crying, NO! I shouldn't be thinking that just face it old man you are going to end up alone.
Remus cried himself to sleep after Harry had left the room, and neither one of them surfaced from their rooms that day and both slept the day and night away.
***
Harry woke the next morning feeling slightly miserable; he had woken up at three and slipped a note under Remus' door saying he wouldn't tell Sirius just as long as they could carry on being friends. He had waited a whole hour before the same piece of parchment came back under his door with two letters on it; O.K.
Glancing to his right the time was now 11:30, knowing that Sirius said he'd come back today Harry sighed and slipped on some casual robes.
Going down into the kitchen he was delighted to see Sirius and Remus talking as though nothing had happened, Harry stepped into the room and was immediately subjected to one of Sirius' cold glares.
Gulping slightly Harry asked, "Hi Sirius. Are you okay
"Are you okay?" mimicked Sirius, "No I'm bloody well not okay,"
"Sirius what did Harry do?" asked Remus cautiously.
Rolling his eyes Sirius replied, "Do the words, it hurts to know the past help?"
"What's that got to do with you?" asked Harry shortly.
"You obviously meant me in that little sentence," answered Sirius angrily standing up, "Harry if you hate me that much you should have just said so. So now you have this house rent free without me or Remus here to remind you of your past,"
Tears immediately sprang to his eyes as Harry shouted, "I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE. THE THINGS THAT ARE HARD TO KNOW IN MY PAST IS KNOWING I WASN'T LOVED BY THE DURSLEYS, LIVING IN A CUPBOARD FOR TEN YEARS OF MY LIFE, OR SEEING PEOPLE DIE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN WHEN I HAVE NIGHTMARES. THE BEST THING THAT I CAN THING OF THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED THAT I REMEMBER IN MY PAST WAS MEETING YOU!"
Then before Remus or Sirius could react Harry had bolted up to his bedroom. Sirius sat down shocked, Harry had never snapped like that before least of all at Sirius.
"Padfoot go up to him," instructed Remus.
"I can't he probably wont want to see me," replied Sirius, dolefully.
"I will not have you both moping around our house. So go to him," repeated Remus sternly.
Sirius looked up into Remus' eyes and they told him not argue but to just do as he had said. Smiling wanly Sirius got up and headed for Harry's bedroom.
Standing outside the door he could hear muttering the odd one or two comments, things like, 'Sirius hates me', 'he doesn't love me' that one line broke Sirius heart. I do love you Harry more than you'll ever know, thought Sirius.
Summoning up his Gryffindor courage he knocked and asked, "Can I come in?"
When Harry didn't answer he sighed pulled out his wand pointed it at the door and muttered "Alohomora," then opened the door and walked in closing it behind himself. The site that met him was heart wrenching Harry was sat cross legged tears streaking down his face looking at the pictures of his mum and dad wedding.
"Harry?" asked Sirius tentatively.
Looking up Harry answered, "Go away,"
"No you're upset, I made you upset so I've come to straighten things out," replied Sirius sitting next to Harry on his bed.
"If you don't love, like whatever me then get lost," responded Harry coldly, although his tears told Sirius that he'd be in so much pain if he left.
"Harry I do love you," whispered Sirius before pulling Harry into a hug.
Harry finally excepted Sirius' words as the truth and was now trying to calm himself down, still in Sirius' embrace. Finally calm Harry pulled away and put a small smile on his face to show he was better and everything Sirius had said was forgiven.
"Harry if you ever need to talk just say so," commented Sirius.
The smile vanished as Harry asked, "If I was to tell you I slept with someone but that someone was with someone else what would you do?"
"I think if it was a mistake first thing I'd do was apologize," answered Sirius, "and hope the guys partner wouldn't find out. But hey if you really wanted this guy or guys then you could always have a three way relationship," suggested Sirius lightly.
Is he saying what I think he's saying? Thought Harry, as his eyes widened at the thought of being with both Remus and Sirius.
"Harry you okay?" asked Sirius noticing Harry's shocked face.
Shaking his head Harry answered, "Sirius I did sleep with someone but he's with someone else. But I also like his partner I'm just as confused as to what to do?"
"If you know for a fact," explained Sirius, "that this person you slept with likes you back and his partner does just tell them."
Would it be too much trouble to ask for you to say you're in love me? Thought Sirius hopefully but he knew it was to far fetched to believe.
Well I'm going to show them just how much I do love them, thought Harry trembling, I wasn't put into Gryffindor for nothing. Okay here goes just look him in the eye then kiss him.
Harry looked up to see Sirius watching him, waiting for him to answer. Slowly Harry brought his head forward, Sirius eyes widened in shock for a split second before getting caught up in the moment.
Their lips met and the kiss was slow and new to both of them, Sirius rubbed his tongue tentatively against Harry's lips hoping to gain entry To Harry's mouth. Harry obliged and opened his mouth the kiss quickly turned from a new soft experience to a passion filled kiss.
A voice in the back of Sirius mind all of a sudden started screaming in protest, Sirius Black get your tongue out of your godson's mouth, abruptly Sirius pulled away. Harry sat gasping for breath his cheeks flushed.
"Harry... i... sorry..." stuttered Sirius standing up.
"Sirius I shouldn't have kissed you," apologized Harry quickly his mind regressing what he'd just done, "Shit Sirius I honestly didn't mean to kiss you," yeah right, commented a nasty little v voice in the back of his head.
Sirius regained his composer, "Merlin Harry I'm with Remus. I mean I know what I said about-" his words died as it dawned on him who Harry was on about, "You didn't?" asked Sirius.
Eyes widening Harry blurted out, "We were drunk it all happened so fast. Sorry we didn't mean to hurt you," apologized Harry.
Sirius turned from Harry and strode out of Harry's bedroom to the top of the stairs and bellowed, "REMUS JOHN LUPIN GET UP HERE NOW!" turning back he re-entered Harry's room.
Not five second later and Remus were standing in Harry's bedroom, being subject to Sirius' cold glare.
"Remus say you didn't?" asked Sirius a slight catch to his voice.
Looking down at his feet Remus answered quietly, "I can't, we're extremely sorry,"
"Shit," cursed Sirius, "Harry go to the Burrow I need time to sort things out."
Harry didn't need telling twice, grabbing his wand a bag of Floo powder he ran down stairs. Opening the bag up he took some Floo powder threw it into fire stepping into the green flames he called 'The Burrow' leaving Remus and Sirius to sort things out.
(A/N: Thank you to all my reviewers I will update sometime at the end of this week if not sooner, Chapter 5 has just been completed so look out for it. And don't forget to Review.)
I do not own Harry Potter; I do not own any characters in this or any other fan fiction I have written. I'm doing this purely for the fun of it. Everything is owned by JKRowling.
Chapter 4
Waking up Harry felt something warm and heavy on his chest, looking down he saw a head with light brown and grey flecks in his hair, lying on top of his chest, looking at the head one word surfaced in his mind, shit!
Trying his best to stay calm he tried to remember what had happened the night before one image of himself coming whilst shouting out Remus' name filtered through.
Shit! Thought Harry, this is not good. Fuck, shit, fuck, shit! This is not what was supposed to happen I only wanted a kiss. What am I going to do? What's Remus going to do? Shit! What's Sirius going to say?
Letting out an audible sigh, which woke Remus up; Harry pulled himself up in to a sitting position.
"Harry what are you doing in my bed?" asked Remus, crap why can't I remember anything? Thought Remus in alarm.
Going red Harry answered, "Well... you see... Remus..." stuttered Harry.
"What!?" asked Remus urgently.
"Wesleptogether," rushed out Harry glowing a bright magnetic colour.
"Say it slower," replied Remus, but he was pretty sure he had heard correct the first time.
Taking a calming breath Harry answered slowly, "We slept together."
The bedroom was so quiet that you'd be able to hear a pin drop on the bed. Both men were looking at each other as images of their love making came to the surface of their minds.
Finally Remus broke the silence by saying, "I think you should go back to your own room."
Harry couldn't find his voice so he just nodded dumbly got up grabbed his boxers and trousers and took off out the room and sprinted into his own bedroom, locked the door.
Sliding down the door Harry began shaking as sobs racked his body, his mind was utter confusion. Great now Remus is going to tell Sirius then Sirius will hate me, thought Harry, openly crying now, but if Remus also going to be thrown out then maybe he and I will be together. NO! Why am I so confused? I just want someone that will love me.
Harry carried on crying for quiet some time before he couldn't cry any more, he felt mentally exhausted so crawling over to his own bed; he climbed in and fell asleep.
Over in the other room, Remus was also crying and his thoughts were just as jumbled up as Harry's were. That was not supposed to happen. Now Harry will probably go running to Sirius saying I molested him, can this get any worse? But if Harry tells the truth then maybe I will end up with him, thought Remus, still crying, NO! I shouldn't be thinking that just face it old man you are going to end up alone.
Remus cried himself to sleep after Harry had left the room, and neither one of them surfaced from their rooms that day and both slept the day and night away.
***
Harry woke the next morning feeling slightly miserable; he had woken up at three and slipped a note under Remus' door saying he wouldn't tell Sirius just as long as they could carry on being friends. He had waited a whole hour before the same piece of parchment came back under his door with two letters on it; O.K.
Glancing to his right the time was now 11:30, knowing that Sirius said he'd come back today Harry sighed and slipped on some casual robes.
Going down into the kitchen he was delighted to see Sirius and Remus talking as though nothing had happened, Harry stepped into the room and was immediately subjected to one of Sirius' cold glares.
Gulping slightly Harry asked, "Hi Sirius. Are you okay
"Are you okay?" mimicked Sirius, "No I'm bloody well not okay,"
"Sirius what did Harry do?" asked Remus cautiously.
Rolling his eyes Sirius replied, "Do the words, it hurts to know the past help?"
"What's that got to do with you?" asked Harry shortly.
"You obviously meant me in that little sentence," answered Sirius angrily standing up, "Harry if you hate me that much you should have just said so. So now you have this house rent free without me or Remus here to remind you of your past,"
Tears immediately sprang to his eyes as Harry shouted, "I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE. THE THINGS THAT ARE HARD TO KNOW IN MY PAST IS KNOWING I WASN'T LOVED BY THE DURSLEYS, LIVING IN A CUPBOARD FOR TEN YEARS OF MY LIFE, OR SEEING PEOPLE DIE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN WHEN I HAVE NIGHTMARES. THE BEST THING THAT I CAN THING OF THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED THAT I REMEMBER IN MY PAST WAS MEETING YOU!"
Then before Remus or Sirius could react Harry had bolted up to his bedroom. Sirius sat down shocked, Harry had never snapped like that before least of all at Sirius.
"Padfoot go up to him," instructed Remus.
"I can't he probably wont want to see me," replied Sirius, dolefully.
"I will not have you both moping around our house. So go to him," repeated Remus sternly.
Sirius looked up into Remus' eyes and they told him not argue but to just do as he had said. Smiling wanly Sirius got up and headed for Harry's bedroom.
Standing outside the door he could hear muttering the odd one or two comments, things like, 'Sirius hates me', 'he doesn't love me' that one line broke Sirius heart. I do love you Harry more than you'll ever know, thought Sirius.
Summoning up his Gryffindor courage he knocked and asked, "Can I come in?"
When Harry didn't answer he sighed pulled out his wand pointed it at the door and muttered "Alohomora," then opened the door and walked in closing it behind himself. The site that met him was heart wrenching Harry was sat cross legged tears streaking down his face looking at the pictures of his mum and dad wedding.
"Harry?" asked Sirius tentatively.
Looking up Harry answered, "Go away,"
"No you're upset, I made you upset so I've come to straighten things out," replied Sirius sitting next to Harry on his bed.
"If you don't love, like whatever me then get lost," responded Harry coldly, although his tears told Sirius that he'd be in so much pain if he left.
"Harry I do love you," whispered Sirius before pulling Harry into a hug.
Harry finally excepted Sirius' words as the truth and was now trying to calm himself down, still in Sirius' embrace. Finally calm Harry pulled away and put a small smile on his face to show he was better and everything Sirius had said was forgiven.
"Harry if you ever need to talk just say so," commented Sirius.
The smile vanished as Harry asked, "If I was to tell you I slept with someone but that someone was with someone else what would you do?"
"I think if it was a mistake first thing I'd do was apologize," answered Sirius, "and hope the guys partner wouldn't find out. But hey if you really wanted this guy or guys then you could always have a three way relationship," suggested Sirius lightly.
Is he saying what I think he's saying? Thought Harry, as his eyes widened at the thought of being with both Remus and Sirius.
"Harry you okay?" asked Sirius noticing Harry's shocked face.
Shaking his head Harry answered, "Sirius I did sleep with someone but he's with someone else. But I also like his partner I'm just as confused as to what to do?"
"If you know for a fact," explained Sirius, "that this person you slept with likes you back and his partner does just tell them."
Would it be too much trouble to ask for you to say you're in love me? Thought Sirius hopefully but he knew it was to far fetched to believe.
Well I'm going to show them just how much I do love them, thought Harry trembling, I wasn't put into Gryffindor for nothing. Okay here goes just look him in the eye then kiss him.
Harry looked up to see Sirius watching him, waiting for him to answer. Slowly Harry brought his head forward, Sirius eyes widened in shock for a split second before getting caught up in the moment.
Their lips met and the kiss was slow and new to both of them, Sirius rubbed his tongue tentatively against Harry's lips hoping to gain entry To Harry's mouth. Harry obliged and opened his mouth the kiss quickly turned from a new soft experience to a passion filled kiss.
A voice in the back of Sirius mind all of a sudden started screaming in protest, Sirius Black get your tongue out of your godson's mouth, abruptly Sirius pulled away. Harry sat gasping for breath his cheeks flushed.
"Harry... i... sorry..." stuttered Sirius standing up.
"Sirius I shouldn't have kissed you," apologized Harry quickly his mind regressing what he'd just done, "Shit Sirius I honestly didn't mean to kiss you," yeah right, commented a nasty little v voice in the back of his head.
Sirius regained his composer, "Merlin Harry I'm with Remus. I mean I know what I said about-" his words died as it dawned on him who Harry was on about, "You didn't?" asked Sirius.
Eyes widening Harry blurted out, "We were drunk it all happened so fast. Sorry we didn't mean to hurt you," apologized Harry.
Sirius turned from Harry and strode out of Harry's bedroom to the top of the stairs and bellowed, "REMUS JOHN LUPIN GET UP HERE NOW!" turning back he re-entered Harry's room.
Not five second later and Remus were standing in Harry's bedroom, being subject to Sirius' cold glare.
"Remus say you didn't?" asked Sirius a slight catch to his voice.
Looking down at his feet Remus answered quietly, "I can't, we're extremely sorry,"
"Shit," cursed Sirius, "Harry go to the Burrow I need time to sort things out."
Harry didn't need telling twice, grabbing his wand a bag of Floo powder he ran down stairs. Opening the bag up he took some Floo powder threw it into fire stepping into the green flames he called 'The Burrow' leaving Remus and Sirius to sort things out.
(A/N: Thank you to all my reviewers I will update sometime at the end of this week if not sooner, Chapter 5 has just been completed so look out for it. And don't forget to Review.)