Title: Triangle of Three
Rating: R
Authors Notes: Again here is chapter 9 earlier than it should have been posted up. I came home from holiday early due to the flooding we had in our campsite.
Reviewers:
corinnetkn24: Now if I told you that it would give it away read it go on it is getting more interesting if I do say so my self, but you will have to wait and see.
Mr. Happy Java Man: I agree this is my fav slash paring and there isn't enough of them around, I will get round to checking out your fic soon, I've only just come back from holiday so the house is in shambles.
rogue641: So is that a no for getting rid of the babies? Read to find out the decision is coming up.
Keran: Well here is your update read and enjoy.
Eric2: Thank you for the suggestion of what gender they could be if I decided to let him keep them.
Hakkai - Gojyo - Goku – Sanzoo: Here is an update and again is that a no to aborting the babies? Yeah I see your point about everything seems to happen to Harry, but hey he's just an easy character that anyone can make him do anything cant they?
Jemma Blackwell: Ahhh thank you for putting me on your author's alert list it means a lot to me. Do we know if he is going to keep them?? You never know this chapter may be a completely pointless and plot less chapter and you may not know till chapter 10?
Hake Balms: So that's another no on aborting the babies then? Well in the heat of the moment some people do forget that they aren't alone in the world and do have in fact relatives, husbands, and wives.
Thank you to all my wonderful reviewers and again I'm so sorry that this hasn't been updated in a while since chapter 7 to chapter 8. I am trying to keep on top of updating and hopefully I should start to update this fic at least twice every three weeks. Well here it is folks the chapter that all my reviewers have been waiting for. Will he keep them, will he get depressed and will Sirius and Remus be able to help him out?
Chapter 9-Decisions.
There was a deathly silence that hung over the living room after Harry's little outburst, the trouble was neither Sirius or Remus could talk to Harry as he had left the house five minutes ago.
"I can't believe he just said that," admitted Sirius.
"Why would he say that though?" asked Remus confused, "I mean he was happy yesterday what changed?"
"You mean apart from the fact that instead of it being one baby its two!" answered Sirius, "Maybe it is something that the Dursleys told him years ago?"
"Like what exactly?" queried Remus.
"Like they told him having twins was against nature or something like that," explained Sirius.
Sighing Remus countered, "That's a bit far fetched Sirius. I think the only person who can answer any questions we have is Harry but as he isn't here we'll just have to wait,"
"I don't like leaving Harry out there when he is in this mood," replied Sirius worriedly.
"I know you don't, I don't either," agreed Remus, "But until he has sorted out in his mind what he wants to do then we leave him alone and let him come home on his own."
Harry was sat on a swing in the local park watching the same mother as before now playing with her children, but this time she had her husband with her, he was also playing with them a smile apparent on his face.
I wonder if she felt like this when she was told about her twins. Thought Harry, I bet she was over the moon, a perfect family-no- a perfect normal family. She has probably got everything she'll ever want; a house, a husband and kids.
Harry didn't realize he had been staring at the family for that long and he was brought out of his thoughts by her soft voice.
"Excuse me sir is there a problem? Only you've been watching my family for the last fifteen minutes," asked the brunette woman.
Shaking away his thoughts Harry answered, "No but could I ask you something?"
"Yes sure you can, my name is Janet," introduced Janet.
"Harry," replied Harry, shaking Janet's hand.
"Well, Harry, what can I do for you?" queried Janet sitting next to him on the other swing.
"When you were told about carrying the twins what did you immediately think?" asked Harry bluntly.
"That's a tough one... um... I suppose I felt I couldn't possibly handle it I mean come on it's not anything to be taken lightly. You wouldn't just be responsible for one living-human- being but two," explained Janet.
"How did you know to keep them?" asked Harry.
"I didn't, I actually had an argument with Ian-my husband- and I adamantly stated that I couldn't handle two kids and I'm having an abortion," explained Janet, "I came out here to this exact spot and just sat and thought. It was eleven at night before I finally went home. I realized something though when I was sat here and that was no matter how much I tried to tell myself that I would be going through this alone I wouldn't be alone at all. I had my family and my partner with me and they would go through everything that I would be going through,"
"Thank you that helped a lot," thanked Harry.
"That's okay. Now tell me, Harry, why were you so interested?" questioned Janet.
"My girlfriend," lied Harry quickly, "she just found out that she is carrying twins and I just wanted to know what she is going through,"
"Well I'm glad to see a boyfriend ready to try to understand what his partner is going through, I'm glad I could help. Maybe I'll see you again Harry to have another chat and good luck on your new arrivals," congratulated Janet.
Getting up the slim, brunette and tall woman got of the swing and headed back over to her family where her children began to get her to play with them on the slide. Her husband-Ian- just stood and watched all the time his face shone with pride as he admired his children.
Harry watched the children play for another few minutes until Janet took her family home and then he was left on his own, to his own thoughts again which- now he had talked to Janet- weren't as jumbled up or as confused as when he first came out here.
How can she say that? Thought Harry, how can she say I won't be alone? I'm going to be the one who is carrying them, I'm going to go through everything, and I'm going to be the one giving birth.
But who is going to support you all the way through it, no matter what happens? Piped up an annoyingly rational voice in the back of his mind, Sirius and Remus will, yes you will go through everything but they are going to help you no matter what.
Great now my mind has its own opinions, thought Harry irritable, I still have no idea what to do? If I do get rid of them it would not only crush Sirius and Remus but I don't think I could destroy them. But can I or would we be able to bring up two children?
I know that no matter what my decision they will stand by me, but they will both be hurt if I abort it, but I don't want to keep them just because it will make them happy.
But can I handle having my own children at such a young age? It was always something I wanted to have when I was younger; a mum, a dad, a brother or a sister. I don't want to bring my children into this world and have either Sirius or Remus leave me, but then I know deep down they would never do that anyway.
I think I know what to do, I just hope everyone will be happy with my decision and help me through it.
Sighing Harry shook off any of his lingering thoughts, only then did he notice how dark it had gotten. Glancing down at his illuminated watch it read 12:30am. He had been sitting in the park for well over four hours just thinking.
Deciding it would be a good idea to head home as he was positive that Sirius and Remus would be worrying about him. Standing up Harry dusted his bum off and left the park, it took him over ten minutes to get back home.
Reaching out towards the door he sensed it was locked and he whispered a few unlocking spells then gently eased the door open so it wouldn't make a sound.
Once he had opened the door to a sizable gap for him to fit through Harry stepped through the door and the sight that met him made him smile. Sirius was lying curled up on the sofa fast asleep, striding over Harry smiled and placed a blanket over him, then extinguished the lights and climbed the stairs silently.
But instead of going into his bedroom that he shared with Remus and Sirius he entered his old room and laying on top of the blankets- that were still on the bed- and he fell into a restful slumber, tomorrow would mean a lot of talking and a lot of talking normally tired him out.
The next time Harry opened his eyes the bedroom was bathed in the warm morning sun light; Harry let a contented smile play on his face. At the moment he was reluctant to move as he didn't feel sick, but the feeling was short lived as his stomach flipped over.
Sighing Harry got up out of bed and quickly and quietly made his way to the bathroom. Entering the bathroom he only just made his way to the toilet before he threw up.
After he had finished being sick Harry flushed the chain on the toilet and freshened himself up a bit. Opening the bathroom door Harry started towards the kitchen, making sure to pass the sofa with extra quietness so he didn't wake Sirius up.
Just before he entered the kitchen the sound of someone puttering about the kitchen met him. Smiling happily for the first time in over a week, Harry pushed the door open to see Remus standing at the counter making him self a drink.
"Morning," greeted Harry cheerfully.
Spinning round Remus saw a happy and smiling Harry standing just behind him.
"Harry?" questioned Remus cautiously.
"Trust me Moony it's really me," answered Harry, "And I have come to a decision,"
"About the twins?" queried Remus.
Nodding Harry responded, "Yes and I hope you'll both agree to it,"
"Of course, Harry," acknowledged Remus before changing the subject, "So do you want anything for breakfast?"
"Hmmm... could I have just some plain toast," answered Harry.
Remus moved from the kettle over to the other side where the toaster sat and started to make the toast, Harry sat at the table and watched his partner.
A couple of minutes later a plate of dry toast was placed in front of Harry and Remus sat besides him with tea in one hand and a smile on his face. The two of them were sitting in silence just enjoying the peace and quiet, but the silence was broken as Sirius entered the room.
"Morn..." his sentence died on his lips as he spotted Harry.
In two quick steps Sirius had pulled Harry up from his seat and into a hug and he wasn't about to let him go anytime soon.
"Uh... put me down," protested Harry laughing.
"Not until you promise never to walk off like that again," instructed Sirius.
"I promise. Now put me down," agreed Harry still laughing.
Sirius let Harry go and placed a chaste kiss on him before saying 'morning' to Remus who had watched the whole display with a smile on his face, he was happy to see Harry happy again.
Sitting back down Harry said, "I need to explain what happened yesterday,"
"Harry if aborting the pregnancy is what you want then we shall support your decision," interrupted Remus.
Sighing Harry explained, "When I was told I was carrying twins I was-am- scared I didn't think it would happen to me. So I immediately thought I wouldn't be able to handle it. I thought that I would be alone in all of it, so I thought that by aborting it, it would be over. I sat in the park when a mother of twins started talking to me telling me that no matter what I decide I wont be alone in my choice,"
"So what is your decision?" asked Sirius apprehensively.
"In eight months time you best both be prepared," answered Harry smugly.
"You mean you're keeping them?" questioned Remus.
"Yep," answered Harry.
Again Harry had been pulled up from his seat by Sirius and pulled into a searing kiss and another hug. Then before he had a chance to catch his breath Remus had pulled him down onto his lap and gave him another adoring kiss.
Breaking the kiss for air Harry asked, "But you're both going to help me aren't you? And you wont leave me will you?"
"Yes of course we will help you, and we wouldn't even consider leaving you," answered Sirius honourably.
"Did you even need to ask that?" questioned Remus curiously.
Sighing Harry rested his head on Remus' shoulder and it was a couple of minutes before he spoke again.
"When I was in the park, I kept thinking that you'd both leave me once I'd made my decision,"
"Harry we love you so much that it can't be put into words and no matter what your choice was going to be we would have stood by you," stated Sirius sincerely.
Chuckling Harry replied, "Never thought you'd be such a romantic,"
"Why you little..." laughed Sirius.
Sirius began tickling Harry and pulled him off Remus. Harry fell to the floor on his back laughing hysterically while Sirius just continued tickling him.
"Please... stop..." gasped Harry between laughs.
"You give in then?" asked Remus, as Sirius continued his torture.
Nodding Harry panted, "Yes... please... stop...please!"
Sirius immediately stopped his tickling torture and sat back on his haunches and just laughed at the dishevelled look of Harry. Harry pushed himself up into a sitting position and leaned against the cupboard catching his breath.
It was then that Harry remembered he hadn't told his friends anything, they didn't even know that he was pregnant or that he had actually considered aborting it.
"Anything wrong?" asked Remus noticing Harry's sudden mood change.
"Just remembered I hadn't let my friends know," answered Harry getting up and sitting back on the chair, "We'll have to tell them,"
"How are you going to tell them?" inquired Sirius.
"I'll go see them," answered Harry, "Then hopefully it will be okay with them,"
"It will be they've stood by you before," added Remus.
"I know," replied Harry.
They spent the rest of the day going over things that would need to be done before the twins arrived. They all agreed that Harry's old bedroom would be turned into a nursery, and then when they were older they would just add an extension onto the house so they could have their own rooms. Harry also sent a letter off to Poppy explaining that he was keeping them and he would see her soon. Then he sent another letter off to his friends saying he would meet them at 'The Burrow' in two weeks time, as he had something important to tell them.