Togona: you people need to start reviewing more. SONGFIC I decided to make
this a songfic to Easier to Run by Linkin Park
Anyway... I don't own Inuyasha.
"..." = speech
'...' = thoughts
//...// = song lyrics
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I can't explain what happened last night. She started to cry and I just embraced her. I acted out of sympathy and yet it felt right. I saw all of her memories, all of them were sad and depressing, and it was just horrible. I never realized how hard it would be to be an assassin. Now I know why Sesshoumaru never shows any emotion. I could never be an assassin, I'm much too temperamental. If I could just get closer to Togona, then she'll be more open. I'm going to kill her as soon as I have obtained the Shikon no Tama. Something still tells me that I don't want to kill her, but I have to. She killed Kagome therefore she must die herself.
//its easier to run//
//replacing this pain with something numb//
//it's so much easier to go//
//than face all this pain here all alone//
Togona had calmed down since the night before. Now she had a problem, memories that she had hidden deep inside were starting to come out.
//something has been taken from deep inside of me//
//a secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see//
// wounds so deep they never show//
//like moving pictures in my head for year and years they've played//
That hanyou would have to pay! Why was he doing this to her. Almost every victim's family that she killed hated her, that never affected her in any way and yet Inuyasha was as if someone had they key to her mind and unlocked the door. Surely she would have to get rid of him, just like he did to his girlfriend. She thought about when she scryed, he was standing over her covered in her blood, this meant that it was his life or her own. She couldn't let her senses weaken. She could not let her guard down or else he would kill her mentally as well as physically.
// it's easier to run//
//replacing this pain with something numb//
//its so much easier to go//
//than face all this pain here al alone//
(Inuyasha's POV)
Ever since that night that I and Togona entered each others mind, I've had this uneasy feeling. It's my instinct, I can tell, she's planning to kill me as soon as we get the shards. She wants to slaughter me as soon as possible. Just like Kagome. Feh, I'll get a one up on her and kill her. She's murdered enough in her life time. Who am I kidding; I could never kill someone that I've spent so much time with. I mean read her thoughts! I saw her memories. I could never do that, not while I know about what she has been through. I still can't believe that she put a spell on me. No wonder I didn't fight her and slice her head off.
//if I could change I would//
//take back the pain I would//
//trace every wrong move that I've made I would//
//if I could take all the shame to the grave I would//
(Togona's POV)
I can't believe it. Now that I reflect on my life, my past is so cold and dark, all the blood that lies on my hands from innocent victims. All this time I've believed the words of an evil man and lived by them. I do not deserve to live. The same voice in my head says the same thing over and over again *you do not deserve to live. You killed too any for that you must die. Die.* I can't take it anymore. Inuyasha please kill me!
//sometimes I remember the darkness of my past//
//Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have//
//sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back//
//and never moving forward so there never be a past//
(Normal POV)
Togona couldn't take it anymore she took out the dagger that she used on countless victims. "What are you doing?" asked Inuyasha. "I'm ending it now, with the same dagger that I've killed many with" said Togona as she put the dagger to her neck.
Inuyasha grabbed her by the wrists "oh no, you don't" "I have to Inuyasha, it she only way to repay for the lives I've taken" replied Togona, tears swelling up in her eyes. "Stop it right now, death is not the answer. Drop the dagger" said Inuyasha softly. "You may have seen my memories but you have no idea how it feels... every time I look at my hands I see the blood of my victims. No matter how many times I wash them, the blood still remains. I summoned the spirit of a woman that I killed. She cursed the spot of my house that I killed her in, and now the blood stain is still there. No matter how many times I try to clean it up, it won't go away," tears started rolling down Togona's cheeks, "she was a fellow Wiccan of mine! She cursed it so only I could see the blood stain, so only I can relive the day that I killed her over and over again. I put a piece of furniture on it, but I know it's still there"
Inuyasha tightened the grip on her wrists and hit the pressure point, causing her to drop the dagger. Togona let her head hang. Inuyasha watched her tears fall to the ground. Togona looked up at him "Why?' she asked "you hate and yet you stop me from killing myself."
Inuyasha took Togona in his arms and cradled her, just as he did the night they entered each others mind. "No one deserves to die, despite what they have done in the past. You can always repent for that later" said Inuyasha softly. "Please, don't cry"
He drew invisible circles on her back, calming her down.
//just washing it aside//
//all of the helplessness inside//
//pretending I don't fell this way//
//its so much simpler than change//
"I don't hate you, it's just, and you killing Kagome have come to a shock for me. Then you put the calming spell on me so I wouldn't rip your head off. I felt like I was being controlled, I felt as if- never mind" "You felt as if you where what?" "Nothing" "Its okay, you can tell me" "I felt as if I were falling for you"
Togona looked at Inuyasha. "We can summon Kagome's spirit tomorrow night and sort this out" she said.
"Okay" replied Inuyasha. He had just told her what he felt when he was under the spell, was that a good idea?
//its easier to run replacing this pain with something numb//
//its so much easier to go//
//then face all this pain here all alone//
'I felt as if I were falling for you' the words echoed in Togona's mind. That wasn't part of the spell...
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Togona: how was that, I felt as if the song fit with this chapter. Tell me what you think, and remember you people need to vote, I'm starting to need the votes right now so VOTE whether of not Togona should have feelings for Inuyasha. Think of it this way, she can love him or break his heart.
Anyway... I don't own Inuyasha.
"..." = speech
'...' = thoughts
//...// = song lyrics
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~
I can't explain what happened last night. She started to cry and I just embraced her. I acted out of sympathy and yet it felt right. I saw all of her memories, all of them were sad and depressing, and it was just horrible. I never realized how hard it would be to be an assassin. Now I know why Sesshoumaru never shows any emotion. I could never be an assassin, I'm much too temperamental. If I could just get closer to Togona, then she'll be more open. I'm going to kill her as soon as I have obtained the Shikon no Tama. Something still tells me that I don't want to kill her, but I have to. She killed Kagome therefore she must die herself.
//its easier to run//
//replacing this pain with something numb//
//it's so much easier to go//
//than face all this pain here all alone//
Togona had calmed down since the night before. Now she had a problem, memories that she had hidden deep inside were starting to come out.
//something has been taken from deep inside of me//
//a secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see//
// wounds so deep they never show//
//like moving pictures in my head for year and years they've played//
That hanyou would have to pay! Why was he doing this to her. Almost every victim's family that she killed hated her, that never affected her in any way and yet Inuyasha was as if someone had they key to her mind and unlocked the door. Surely she would have to get rid of him, just like he did to his girlfriend. She thought about when she scryed, he was standing over her covered in her blood, this meant that it was his life or her own. She couldn't let her senses weaken. She could not let her guard down or else he would kill her mentally as well as physically.
// it's easier to run//
//replacing this pain with something numb//
//its so much easier to go//
//than face all this pain here al alone//
(Inuyasha's POV)
Ever since that night that I and Togona entered each others mind, I've had this uneasy feeling. It's my instinct, I can tell, she's planning to kill me as soon as we get the shards. She wants to slaughter me as soon as possible. Just like Kagome. Feh, I'll get a one up on her and kill her. She's murdered enough in her life time. Who am I kidding; I could never kill someone that I've spent so much time with. I mean read her thoughts! I saw her memories. I could never do that, not while I know about what she has been through. I still can't believe that she put a spell on me. No wonder I didn't fight her and slice her head off.
//if I could change I would//
//take back the pain I would//
//trace every wrong move that I've made I would//
//if I could take all the shame to the grave I would//
(Togona's POV)
I can't believe it. Now that I reflect on my life, my past is so cold and dark, all the blood that lies on my hands from innocent victims. All this time I've believed the words of an evil man and lived by them. I do not deserve to live. The same voice in my head says the same thing over and over again *you do not deserve to live. You killed too any for that you must die. Die.* I can't take it anymore. Inuyasha please kill me!
//sometimes I remember the darkness of my past//
//Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have//
//sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back//
//and never moving forward so there never be a past//
(Normal POV)
Togona couldn't take it anymore she took out the dagger that she used on countless victims. "What are you doing?" asked Inuyasha. "I'm ending it now, with the same dagger that I've killed many with" said Togona as she put the dagger to her neck.
Inuyasha grabbed her by the wrists "oh no, you don't" "I have to Inuyasha, it she only way to repay for the lives I've taken" replied Togona, tears swelling up in her eyes. "Stop it right now, death is not the answer. Drop the dagger" said Inuyasha softly. "You may have seen my memories but you have no idea how it feels... every time I look at my hands I see the blood of my victims. No matter how many times I wash them, the blood still remains. I summoned the spirit of a woman that I killed. She cursed the spot of my house that I killed her in, and now the blood stain is still there. No matter how many times I try to clean it up, it won't go away," tears started rolling down Togona's cheeks, "she was a fellow Wiccan of mine! She cursed it so only I could see the blood stain, so only I can relive the day that I killed her over and over again. I put a piece of furniture on it, but I know it's still there"
Inuyasha tightened the grip on her wrists and hit the pressure point, causing her to drop the dagger. Togona let her head hang. Inuyasha watched her tears fall to the ground. Togona looked up at him "Why?' she asked "you hate and yet you stop me from killing myself."
Inuyasha took Togona in his arms and cradled her, just as he did the night they entered each others mind. "No one deserves to die, despite what they have done in the past. You can always repent for that later" said Inuyasha softly. "Please, don't cry"
He drew invisible circles on her back, calming her down.
//just washing it aside//
//all of the helplessness inside//
//pretending I don't fell this way//
//its so much simpler than change//
"I don't hate you, it's just, and you killing Kagome have come to a shock for me. Then you put the calming spell on me so I wouldn't rip your head off. I felt like I was being controlled, I felt as if- never mind" "You felt as if you where what?" "Nothing" "Its okay, you can tell me" "I felt as if I were falling for you"
Togona looked at Inuyasha. "We can summon Kagome's spirit tomorrow night and sort this out" she said.
"Okay" replied Inuyasha. He had just told her what he felt when he was under the spell, was that a good idea?
//its easier to run replacing this pain with something numb//
//its so much easier to go//
//then face all this pain here all alone//
'I felt as if I were falling for you' the words echoed in Togona's mind. That wasn't part of the spell...
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Togona: how was that, I felt as if the song fit with this chapter. Tell me what you think, and remember you people need to vote, I'm starting to need the votes right now so VOTE whether of not Togona should have feelings for Inuyasha. Think of it this way, she can love him or break his heart.