Hit Me With Your Best Shot
I open the door and say, "I'm SCREWED."
"What? What's going on?" Sean says, coming in.
"Craig is on his way over! I don't know what to do, I have no idea if he's gonna try something, so i need you to hide in the dining room and watch and see if he tries anything."
"I'm missing Wrestlemania for THIS?"
"You can eat the ice cream in our freezer."
"Done." I lead him into the kitchen and he opens the freezer and gets out a pint of Ben and Jerry's and settles down in the dining room where he can't be seen from the living room.
"Sean?"
"Yea?"
"I've never done this before... but would you like to hear a song i wrote?"
"I'd love to." I pick up my guitar.
"I wrote it a couple of days ago and did the tabs yesterday... so it's not really practiced." I start to sing.
"you keep telling me i'm beautiful
but i feel a little less soul each time
your love is so colorful
it flashes like a neon sign
but i finally drove out where
the sky is dark enough to see stars
and i found i missed no one
just listening to the swishing of distant cars
i hope i never see
the ocean again
pushing and pulling at me
as i go deeper and deeper in
til i'm so far from my shore
so far from what i came here for
i let you surround me
i let you drown me
out with your din
and then i learned how to swim
i was floating above myself
watching her do just what you wanted
poor little friendly ghost
wondering why her whole house feels haunted
i told myself i was strong enuf
that i had plenty of blood to give
and each elbow cradled a needle
but listless and faint ain't no way to live
so i hope i never see
the ocean again
pushing and pulling at me
as i go deeper and deeper in
til i'm so far from my shore
so far from what i came here for
i let you surround me
i let you drown me
out with your din
and then i learned how to swim
and you keep telling me i'm beautiful
but i feel less and less so each time
your love is so colorful
it flashes like a neon sign
but i finally drove out where
the sky is dark enuf to see the stars
and i found i missed no one
just listening to the swishing of distant cars"
By the time i'm done, i'm nervous about what he's going to say, but Sean stands up andclaps and I blush.
"That was amazing... I saw you, not Delia McKenzie, the confident girl everyone sees at school, but i saw the other Delia, the shy, nervous, quiet, unconfident Delia."
"Right." The doorbell rings and Sean sits back down as I get up and touch my hair and open the door.
"Craig."
"Delia."
"Come in."I close the door and sit down on the couch.
"How are you?"
"Cut the crap. What do you want?"
"I saw J.T. today at the park." He pusts his hand on my leg and I try to push it off but he won't move it.
"So? I saw J.T. today also."
"He was with Manny."
"Psh. Probably telling her to go away and get over him AND you."
"They looked pretty cozy to me..."
"How would you know, Craig? Seems as if you've never been able to hold down a quality relationship!"
"Delia-"
"Really, Craig. I don't understand why you're pushing this. I'm a fucking basketcase, i am VERY suicidal, Craig, and yet you still like me. I don't understand you."
"I like you more than J.T. does, I always have, and I like you so much, and you don't like me! I have to have you, Delia." He pushes me down on the couch and kisses me as Sean runs in and pulls him off of me.
"Man, What do you think you're doing?" Sean yells and I run out of the room and into the garage.