This Chapter is for all my Avril Lavigne fan reviewers out there! :) I really like her too. I forgot to thank Shadow Spade in the beginning for telling me the write way how to spell Abby's last name. I'm a dork! ENJOY!

Dru619

All lyrics go to Avril Lavigne!!!

Chapter 4

Thing's I'll Never Say

Abby's POV

I stood in front of the mirror trying to figure out what to do. I didn't know what to do with my hair or with my clothes but I knew I needed to do something. I really wanted to make a good first impression on John's family. It was 2:30 the next afternoon and we were getting ready to head to the reunion which started at 4. I ran my brush through my messy hair and sighed. I was extremely nervous. I glanced over at John who was on the bed watching the news. He was already dressed and ready to go.

"You look beautiful in anything Abby," he said as I went to the small closet the hotel provided and pulled out two outfits. I knew he saw right through me and even if I had tried to hide my emotions like I did on Friday in front of Susan it would've never worked.

I'm tugging at my hair

I'm pulling at my clothes

I'm trying to keep my cool

I know it shows

I finally decided on my dark blue dress that had spaghetti straps and stuck all my hair up in a clip on my head, dousing it with some hair spray for good measure. I came out of the bathroom and I had the urge to flop into bed next to John.

"You look great Abby," he said getting up from the bed. He was dressed properly in a tuxedo and he had even put gel in his hair.

"You've been spending too much time around Dave," I told him shaking my head.

"You don't think they'll like the gel?" he asked looking at himself in the mirror by the door.

"No, they'll love it. It's just that they won't have to run their fingers through your flaky hair later," I said. Men were better off buying a bottle of Elmer's glue at the dollar store.

"Ready?" he asked holding his arm out for me. I took it.

"As ready as I'll ever be."

It was a short drive to the entertainment hall Carter's mother had rented out for the reunion. Many cars were already lined out along the street. John smiled at me and reached a hand out to stroke my hair.

"Abby. You need to know that no matter what any of my family say or don't say about you I care very much about you. I love you Abby."

For some reason I felt like crying. It wasn't like it was the first time he had spoken loving words to me but this time seemed to sink in. When we cuddled under the covers together on cold nights he would whisper softly to me until I had fallen asleep.

"I love you too baby," I whispered back kissing his hand.

"Try not to feel so nervous," he said. I nodded and followed him out of the car.

The first person we ran into was John's mother. They embraced and said a few words I couldn't hear. I was so nervous and was too busy twiddling with my dress to notice them.

"And who is this lovely lady?" his mother asked. I looked up suddenly and panic gripped my heart. I knew my name a second ago.

"Mom this is Abby. Abby Lockhart," John answered for me. I smiled at him thankfully hoping his mom hadn't seen. I felt my face turn red.

I'm staring at my feet

My cheeks are turning red

I'm searching for the words inside my head

Cause I'm feeling nervous

Trying to be so perfect

Cause I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah

"Well we're going to go and see who all else is here," John said slipping his arm around my waist.

"Okay. I'll see you guys later," John's mom said. John kept me close the whole time we were walking.

"Are you okay Abs?" he asked giving me a kiss on the head. I nodded as someone came up to us. She was John's cousin and the words came better having John holding me next to him.

If I could say what I want to say

I'd say I want to blow you... away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight?

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down on one knee... Marry me today

Guess I'm wishing my life away...

With these things I'll never say

We went to a nice dinner ceremony where John got to catch up with family members he hadn't seen in a long time. I made quick friends with his cousin, Samantha, and I talked to her most of the night. After a final toast it was time to head back to the hotel.

"Did you have a nice time with Sam?" he asked when we got into the car.

I nodded. "Very much."

We were quiet for a while before John broke the silence.

"What's on your mind Abs?"

"I didn't mean to totally embarrass myself in front of your mom," I said truthfully.

"Aw it was no big deal. She loved you," he said.

"Thank you," I rested my hand on his leg. "Thank you for keeping with me today."

"I knew you were a little apprehensive," he said knowingly. "I wouldn't leave you alone."

"I'm glad I came," I said. He smiled.

"I am too."

With these things I'll never say