Tears and Pain
Chapter 4

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All I saw was a seal, and then my world went black. I didn't know where I was, but all I knew was that I felt so cold. My world was shaking from the shock of seeing something. I was scared about something that was going to happen in my future.

Before I knew it, I was staring into a bright sunrise and the doctor told me that I could leave St. Mongos.

So I was in St. Mongos. That would explain a lot of the things I saw around me. But one thing really that stuck out from waking up is that black flick of hair. I tried thinking back and I only remembered one thing that had that black of hair. Great. James visited me.

I can't remember what made me faint now. I'm looking back as far as I can, and all I can is darkness. It's bothering me, knowing that someone probably cast a spell on the thing that made me faint.

I'm not excited to see James or deal with him. I don't know if he'll act cold to me or try to beg for forgiveness. Either way, I will not bend to his will.

I woke up early before the sun was up and dragged myself out of bed. Hearing Remus's and Sirus's rants about how horrible I was wasn't really helping me get over the fact that Lily may never come back to our house again.

Taking a quick cold shower, I took out some nice robes and put them on. Then I went to the fireplace and threw in some Floo Powder. "Ministry of Magic: Auror Department" I yelled as I walked in. Brushing off the ash of my robes, I walked toward my office.

Peeking into Lily's office, I saw that she wasn't out of St. Mongo's yet. I made a mental note to myself to check up on her later in the day.

Entering my office, I dropped my mouth. Right on my desk was a pile of paperwork just yelling to be done. I sighed and began my long, long journey through the mountain of paperwork that surrounded my desk.

At about noon, I went to our magical coffee machine and got myself some coffee. Suddenly, I was knocked into someone and barely stopped the coffee from spilling all over them. Looking at the person, I gasped to find Lily sprawled on the floor wearing an extremely stressed out look that sent me a message: Don't mess with me right now.

Attempting to start some kind of conversation without a huge argument, I asked her, "So you got the mountain of paperwork too?" She nodded, giving me an angry look, and pulled herself from under me.

"Yeah I got the work, so just leave me alone! I'm not in the mood to have a talk from you right now!" she yelled. Getting herself from the coffee machine, she promptly walked out of the room.

"Well, that went well", I muttered to myself before leaving the now empty room.

God I hate that Potter! He always thinks he can still treat me like his old "girlfriends" in Hogwarts. He thinks that I'll just forgive him after cooling off, but now's different. I thought he'd changed in 7th year, but no, he still acts like an arrogant git!

I got back into my office and started signing everywhere as well as filling out what seemed like thousands of forms that seemed to regrow. Suddenly, I heard a knock and I snapped in my angry voice, "Go away!" hoping to scare them off. I heard a loud, "Lily, open this door this instant! Come on! Here's a new mission for you and James. God! Lily! Open up the door already!"

When I didn't respond, Amos Diggory grumbled, "Fine. I'm just going to slide the folder underneath your door. If I don't get a note from you accepting this mission by 9 PM, you're going to regret ever closing the door to Amos Diggory."

I flipped through the folder and yanked my door open just to see Amos almost turning the corner to his office when I yelled, "Remind me why I need to work with my ex-husband on this mission?" He said with a grin, "Well, you two are only the best Aurors in the field and also, you and James will be our entertainment. Thanks!"

"Well, then, I'm not going whether you need me or not. And don't use your puppy-dog face! I'M NOT GOING UNLESS POTTER ISN'T GOING!" I screamed, attracting looks from the hallway. Then Potter just had to open his door and add, "And I'm going only if Lily's going!" and shut his door after that delightful comment.

I slammed open his door and yelled in his face, "SHUT UP POTTER! THIS ISN'T ANY OF YOUR BUSINESS!" and slammed his door shut so hard that it made a crack. I noticed that many of the other Aurors were sticking their heads out of their offices.

"STOP LOOKING HERE AND GET BACK TO WORK, YOU FUCKING IDIOTS!" and with that said, I made such a loud noise with my door that the ground shook.

Fuming, I let off what many people say my red-headed temper. I screamed into my pillow for 5 minutes before cooling off enough to start working on destroying the mountain of papers.

Stunned, I just couldn't help but start laughing. It was so funny watching her get so worked up, but I knew I had to get started on my work. Amos opened the door and asked, "Is she always like that?" By then, I was laughing so hard that my ribs were aching.

Amos took this as a yes and closed my door. But first he handed some papers and told me to read it only at home. Starting on my pile of torture, I worked until I raised my head and saw it was 5.

Packing up my things, I walked out the door and what I saw ruined my day. Lily was laughing with another man, which I've forgotten his name, and many men were looking at her with lust in their eyes. Giving everyone a death glare, I made my way toward the fireplace and yelled, "24 Siren Street!"

I got into my cozy house and got some dinner ready. Eating it quickly, I thought about how I was going to fix this. Suddenly, I remembered that Amos had given me the mission papers. I snorted.

You will be invading the Malfoy Manor. Lily, who we understand knows Mrs. Malfoy well, will be a guest for a dance in a few weeks. DO NOT COME or they will find you!

After this, Lily will ask to stay at her house with your breakup as the excuse and with some persuasion, Mrs. Malfoy will say yes. We will keep her there for about 6 months and she will investigate the Malfoy Manor.

DO NOT TELL ANYONE OF THIS MISSION OTHER THAN AMOS DIGGORY, MAD-EYE MOODY, OR YOUR PARTNER. WE UNDERSTAND THAT THE NEW MINISTER OF MAGIC IS A GOOD FRIEND OF MR. MALFOY. He must not find out about this.

We are risking our safety on this mission so you must not fail. You must work with Lily for this mission or else you will fail. She has some special gifts that Voldemort wants and he may be after her.

You will watch over her secretly. No one must know that you are there. If she is in danger, you have our full permission to reveal yourself.

Again, THIS MISSION MUST NOT FAIL!

Snorting, I looked at the plans. They looked complicated but I knew that there were a lot of holes Lily and I had to fix. Maybe that was a time I could try to get Lily again during this time.

As I walked out of the room to go to sleep, I didn't notice a shadow by my door as my old friend Peter walked out of. Sneering he said, "Master will enjoy this news." He copied the plans onto some parchment and apparated.