A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in a while comp was going crazy, also I have finally yes the moment has come when I have finally gone over each chapter with spell check! =D So now here's that chapter of my fanfic you have been waiting so long for....
(Robin Point of view)
I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling, I couldn't believe it..how could she keep a secret from me like this..? I have had enough of these chaos. There was total silence in my room, no CD's were playing, no TV, nothing and plus I have sound proof walls for obvious reasons of course. The silence was almost unbearable by this point as I lay there not looking away for even a moment, my hands were tucked neatly under my head in stead of a pillow as my long legs were neatly layed across my navy colored bed. I couldn't recall the last time I felt like this. Holes were burning in my heart by this point, these memories were flooding up inside my head. Why wouldn't they just go away? Just forget about everything..? but no..It's funny how life never turns out the way you had planned it some might say..but it's only funny until that faithful moment when it happens to you. My crystal blue eyes saddened under my thin mask that I never took off.
The weight of my troubles were coming and catching up with me, forever running from them, an eternity it seemed like. Almost a never ending spell. These memories... When I was about only ten or two years old.. a mad man killed my beloved parents..but he didn't stop there. This left me homeless and I became an assassin out to kill the legendary 'Bruce Wayne' but to a cruel twist of faith I was captured, surving a couple years in 'juvi' as some might call it..until the kind man with a small smile plastered on his shadowed face took me in..I couldn't believe it..Bruce Wayne took me in as his own..taught me everything he knew..after what I had done.. Soon I became sidekick to this man until I was once again captured by the cruel villian...Slade..he had tried to kill me and my parents.
I soon escaped after an unknown girl did battle with the mad man.
I soon grew to know that girl as my now dearest friend "Neah" but today..something happened...changed everything between us.. I can't take this any longer..Neah....the only person that ever cared for me...the daughter of the mad man who's out to kill me..I don't know who I am anymore or what to do..or who to trust even anymore.
So here I am now..in the darkness of my dark dimension I called a room, I had come here to think this through..and find myself.. I wish now that I could have someone to take my pain away.. sometimes I don't think I truly belong here...as if all this was just a mistake, everyone makes mistakes sometimes right?
I'm not yet sure if I could look at Neah the same way as before anymore..and for that I'm sorry.. I'm suppose to be the emotionless Boy Wonder...but who am I kidding?
I'm just a young boy behind a mask with dreams stuck in his head..losing grip on reality. I just wanna be like the others sometimes you know..? I wanna be gifted with powers sometimes.. I've been training for all these years trying to be something that I'm not..I'll never be equal to those with powers...no matter how hard I try or train anymore. As training can only get you so far.
But..I'm the Boy Wonder... my gift is strength..agility..and brains..That's what makes me, well me. "And being you is as good as it's ever gonna get." I mutter to myself under a heavy sigh. Sure it might sound corny to some...but it was the truth... Being you is as good as it's gonna get.
(Neah Point of view)
I'm cursed forever with powers I never wanted in the first place..the element of flames.
I'm regretting life as I lay here on the rooftop of the 'T' shaped Tower..the only place I could call home anymore. I stare out at space as the wind whispers to the stars above me..each with their own little secret. The whispers of the winds runs wildly through my soft red mane.
I play with flickering flames on my fingertips as the world rotated around me. I'm regretting life as it is. I already know I belong somewhere..but this world is all new to me..so many places, so many new things to experience. I'm most importantly regretting my choice in life. My father brought pain to both me and Robin..and he won't get away with it...I somewhat find an uncanny resemblance in us sometimes but what is still unknown to me. My whole hand engulfed in flames before going out from the midnight breeze, my eyes softened by this.
A single tears runs down my face, burning my tender skin as it finds it's way down my cheek and lingers at my chin before escaping to the ground. I wish I had lead a normal life...just for maybe even a second..so I could just see through my own two eyes what I was put here for, but these powers are what makes me..well me...and that's as good as it's ever gonna get.
Being me is as good as it's gonna ever get...
(Robin Point Of View)
I now find myself asleep ontop of my bed in a rather uncomfortable position.
My memories once again haunting me at night as I run from it all but as everyone should know at some doesn't solve anything, it only leads to more chaos. It's not so much as I'm ashamed of myself..it's how I played the game of life..I had forgotten who I was on the way there..forgot who to trust...forgot my past....
And being forgotten is worse than death. It's the truth....maybe even a fact to some.
I awake to the sounds of alarms..my home's alarms...an almost earthshaking sound that could easily force one's ears to bleed. I spring to my feet, of course not litterally since springing would have joy put into it, somewhat jumping. And since there was nothing to be happy or joyful about neither I or Neah jumped to our feet. The door to my dark deminsion opens and closes with a swift 'whoosh' like sound as I run out of my room to the source of the eir piercing sound at a speed even the Flash himself would admire..ok maybe not.
I rush down a corridor and a flight of steps to see everything is fine..? I blink furiously under the thin layer of my mask..was I just imagining things..? But I see a shadowed figure somewhat staring back at me from beneath the shadows of the main room, a disc of some sort is thrown and just as the figure was about to show himself..something happened.
I woke up?!?!? again?!? It was all....a dream..?....but..but it seemed so real to me...was I the one who was losing grip on reality itself?
Was this dream a sign..? I shook my head and just disgarded it as a average dream, I could feel a slight pain in my head. I felt dizzy for a moment before rising to my feet, almost falling over onto the arm rest. Wait...this wasn't my room...the main room...but I don't sleep walk. If I slept walked surely the alarms would've sensed me at once and send the titans rushing.
I removed the hand that I had on my head from the pain rushing through. Just as I let go blood trickled down my pale cheek.
((Morning))
Morning left me restless.. I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened last night..maybe it was a sign...no...no..bad Robin! I can't think like that....maybe I'm just being a little overprotective. But in some situations it was a matter which was neccasary.
I found myself at the kitchen table drinking some coffee while my green and robotic meat loving fried fight over what to have for breakfast. It was somewhat annoying but after a long while with these roommates you get use to it very fast. But it still gets old even faster.
"I SAID WERE HAVING TOFU WAFFLES END OF STORY!!" The green one yelled over the loud music that was playing in the main room. "O AND I SUPPOSE WERE ALL GOING TO LIVE HAPPLIY EVER AFTER?!?.." --### "OOO I'M SHAKING IN MY LIL SPACE BOOTS ROBO MAN!" BB yelled back, in his usual meat verses Tofu fight..somehow they always found themselves both losing to something or someone but not today...not until they found Starfire already cooking away. BeastBoy turns even greener than he already was at the sight of Star's pudding. "On second thought i'll be eating out today" A chibi BeastBoy answered before giving Cyborg even one chance to reply to this. Starfire continued mixing away at her pudding and Cyborg immediatly caught on.."On second though i'll eat....something....else" A chibi Cyborg disapears in the blink of an eye. Raven raised a brow at this..."um..yay...?" She said sarcasticly of course in her rather monotone gothic voice.
Starfire's eyes sparkled all of a sudden. "YAY indeed Raven!" She said not yet catching onto Raven's sarcasam.
"For this Blorthog holiday I've taken the liberty of preparing my special Blorthog day pudding!" Starfire somewhat giggled at this point. Raven took a small sip of her herbal tea.."It depends it we have to wear those silly necklaces again" Raven gave the I'm-not-eating-that face. "Nonsense friend Raven!" Starfire got a grin that took up atleast half of her face, placing one of those annoying,scratchy Blorthog Day necklaces around Raven's neck. "Would you like a necklace this Blorthog Day Robin..?" Starfire gets one of those anime cat faces. "I um-" Before I could reply to this she had placed a necklace around my neck as well, which made me and Raven look like raindeers as they jingled every five seconds we took a step. Although neither of us had taken them off in fear of upsetting Star.
But it was then that Neah had decided to walk into the kitchen.
This morning she was still brushing through her red mane..which only made me stare more at her.
Even though her hair was roughly messy this morning she still looked as beautiful as ever in my eyes...my almost golden blue eyes... I took the chance to look away every five seconds when she would glance at me from across the table. I had felt myself falling even more in love with this girl everyday. Even I had to confess I only loved Starfire as a friend..she really wasn't my type at all...way to perky and bewildered for me.. but Neah seemed almost perfect in my eyes. but what Star didn't know under my shirt and under the reduculous necklace Starfire had put on me there beside my beating heart was the locket Neah had given me.. It's not so much as Neah gave it to me that I wore it this evening but it was the fact that someone was actually thinking of me..maybe even cared for me..
But just like the Blorthog necklace that was hiding my locket...the person who had given it to my was trying to block out my love for Neah. Of course Star didn't even know what love was...none the less kissing yet. I sometimes get tired of having to explain everything to her..but you can't blame her even though she's from outerspace. I have to smile,cause it hides the real me behind it. No one knows the true me yet...I'm not even sure if I do sometimes it seems. Was all this just a simple teenager crush though..? No...not to me...to me this was true love and the best part was someone loved me back.. and she wasn't just another fangirl out on the streets, she was special to me.
and always would be.
Still I refused to take the necklace off that Star had given me...I had stepped on my friends enough anyway with the whole Slade apprentice thing still stalking him. He would take it off later maybe tommorrow...hey..it was Blorthog Day after all.
It was then that Starfire noticed the looks me and Neah exchanged every once and a while from across the room. Starfire none the less kept her joyful attitude. "Robin.." She spoke to me in a calm almost graceful voice. By now Raven had left through one of her portals leading to her room...probly to go take off her necklace already.
"uh huh" Was all that I could reply with for now. "Could I speak to you privately..?" Starfire blinks nervously..."If that is...you do not mind" "Not at all" I still held my positive attitude for Starfire not wanting to put her down.
((In Starfire's room))
Starfire motioned for me to sit in her nearby chair. I did so without a word...feeling somewhat unconfortable being a boy around all these stuffed animals and pink stuff. The brightness of Starfire's room was almost unbearable to one's eyes. So now I patiently sat there on this dare I say it...? PURPLE! (xD) colored chair..purple wasn't soo bad,
better than pink I would have to admit. "Robin.." She finally spoke to me,breaking the odd silence. I looked directly at her. "I...I'm....I.Starfire...Teen Titan and..." Starfire seemed to be having trouble getting it out but still atleast my patience for my friends wasn't half as bad as my patients for villains. "I don't know how to say this but ....I....I've been waiting for a long time to tell you this...R....Robin...I've waited for the right moment and I think to time " At this point I thought Star was gonna have a mental break down.
A/N: and yes I am stopping it here and watch out for next chap..a real shocker maybe even.
also if you liked the Robin point of view maybe I'll do it again in further chaps. Well catcha later on the next epi of MY FANFIC! xD -Robin
(Robin Point of view)
I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling, I couldn't believe it..how could she keep a secret from me like this..? I have had enough of these chaos. There was total silence in my room, no CD's were playing, no TV, nothing and plus I have sound proof walls for obvious reasons of course. The silence was almost unbearable by this point as I lay there not looking away for even a moment, my hands were tucked neatly under my head in stead of a pillow as my long legs were neatly layed across my navy colored bed. I couldn't recall the last time I felt like this. Holes were burning in my heart by this point, these memories were flooding up inside my head. Why wouldn't they just go away? Just forget about everything..? but no..It's funny how life never turns out the way you had planned it some might say..but it's only funny until that faithful moment when it happens to you. My crystal blue eyes saddened under my thin mask that I never took off.
The weight of my troubles were coming and catching up with me, forever running from them, an eternity it seemed like. Almost a never ending spell. These memories... When I was about only ten or two years old.. a mad man killed my beloved parents..but he didn't stop there. This left me homeless and I became an assassin out to kill the legendary 'Bruce Wayne' but to a cruel twist of faith I was captured, surving a couple years in 'juvi' as some might call it..until the kind man with a small smile plastered on his shadowed face took me in..I couldn't believe it..Bruce Wayne took me in as his own..taught me everything he knew..after what I had done.. Soon I became sidekick to this man until I was once again captured by the cruel villian...Slade..he had tried to kill me and my parents.
I soon escaped after an unknown girl did battle with the mad man.
I soon grew to know that girl as my now dearest friend "Neah" but today..something happened...changed everything between us.. I can't take this any longer..Neah....the only person that ever cared for me...the daughter of the mad man who's out to kill me..I don't know who I am anymore or what to do..or who to trust even anymore.
So here I am now..in the darkness of my dark dimension I called a room, I had come here to think this through..and find myself.. I wish now that I could have someone to take my pain away.. sometimes I don't think I truly belong here...as if all this was just a mistake, everyone makes mistakes sometimes right?
I'm not yet sure if I could look at Neah the same way as before anymore..and for that I'm sorry.. I'm suppose to be the emotionless Boy Wonder...but who am I kidding?
I'm just a young boy behind a mask with dreams stuck in his head..losing grip on reality. I just wanna be like the others sometimes you know..? I wanna be gifted with powers sometimes.. I've been training for all these years trying to be something that I'm not..I'll never be equal to those with powers...no matter how hard I try or train anymore. As training can only get you so far.
But..I'm the Boy Wonder... my gift is strength..agility..and brains..That's what makes me, well me. "And being you is as good as it's ever gonna get." I mutter to myself under a heavy sigh. Sure it might sound corny to some...but it was the truth... Being you is as good as it's gonna get.
(Neah Point of view)
I'm cursed forever with powers I never wanted in the first place..the element of flames.
I'm regretting life as I lay here on the rooftop of the 'T' shaped Tower..the only place I could call home anymore. I stare out at space as the wind whispers to the stars above me..each with their own little secret. The whispers of the winds runs wildly through my soft red mane.
I play with flickering flames on my fingertips as the world rotated around me. I'm regretting life as it is. I already know I belong somewhere..but this world is all new to me..so many places, so many new things to experience. I'm most importantly regretting my choice in life. My father brought pain to both me and Robin..and he won't get away with it...I somewhat find an uncanny resemblance in us sometimes but what is still unknown to me. My whole hand engulfed in flames before going out from the midnight breeze, my eyes softened by this.
A single tears runs down my face, burning my tender skin as it finds it's way down my cheek and lingers at my chin before escaping to the ground. I wish I had lead a normal life...just for maybe even a second..so I could just see through my own two eyes what I was put here for, but these powers are what makes me..well me...and that's as good as it's ever gonna get.
Being me is as good as it's gonna ever get...
(Robin Point Of View)
I now find myself asleep ontop of my bed in a rather uncomfortable position.
My memories once again haunting me at night as I run from it all but as everyone should know at some doesn't solve anything, it only leads to more chaos. It's not so much as I'm ashamed of myself..it's how I played the game of life..I had forgotten who I was on the way there..forgot who to trust...forgot my past....
And being forgotten is worse than death. It's the truth....maybe even a fact to some.
I awake to the sounds of alarms..my home's alarms...an almost earthshaking sound that could easily force one's ears to bleed. I spring to my feet, of course not litterally since springing would have joy put into it, somewhat jumping. And since there was nothing to be happy or joyful about neither I or Neah jumped to our feet. The door to my dark deminsion opens and closes with a swift 'whoosh' like sound as I run out of my room to the source of the eir piercing sound at a speed even the Flash himself would admire..ok maybe not.
I rush down a corridor and a flight of steps to see everything is fine..? I blink furiously under the thin layer of my mask..was I just imagining things..? But I see a shadowed figure somewhat staring back at me from beneath the shadows of the main room, a disc of some sort is thrown and just as the figure was about to show himself..something happened.
I woke up?!?!? again?!? It was all....a dream..?....but..but it seemed so real to me...was I the one who was losing grip on reality itself?
Was this dream a sign..? I shook my head and just disgarded it as a average dream, I could feel a slight pain in my head. I felt dizzy for a moment before rising to my feet, almost falling over onto the arm rest. Wait...this wasn't my room...the main room...but I don't sleep walk. If I slept walked surely the alarms would've sensed me at once and send the titans rushing.
I removed the hand that I had on my head from the pain rushing through. Just as I let go blood trickled down my pale cheek.
((Morning))
Morning left me restless.. I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened last night..maybe it was a sign...no...no..bad Robin! I can't think like that....maybe I'm just being a little overprotective. But in some situations it was a matter which was neccasary.
I found myself at the kitchen table drinking some coffee while my green and robotic meat loving fried fight over what to have for breakfast. It was somewhat annoying but after a long while with these roommates you get use to it very fast. But it still gets old even faster.
"I SAID WERE HAVING TOFU WAFFLES END OF STORY!!" The green one yelled over the loud music that was playing in the main room. "O AND I SUPPOSE WERE ALL GOING TO LIVE HAPPLIY EVER AFTER?!?.." --### "OOO I'M SHAKING IN MY LIL SPACE BOOTS ROBO MAN!" BB yelled back, in his usual meat verses Tofu fight..somehow they always found themselves both losing to something or someone but not today...not until they found Starfire already cooking away. BeastBoy turns even greener than he already was at the sight of Star's pudding. "On second thought i'll be eating out today" A chibi BeastBoy answered before giving Cyborg even one chance to reply to this. Starfire continued mixing away at her pudding and Cyborg immediatly caught on.."On second though i'll eat....something....else" A chibi Cyborg disapears in the blink of an eye. Raven raised a brow at this..."um..yay...?" She said sarcasticly of course in her rather monotone gothic voice.
Starfire's eyes sparkled all of a sudden. "YAY indeed Raven!" She said not yet catching onto Raven's sarcasam.
"For this Blorthog holiday I've taken the liberty of preparing my special Blorthog day pudding!" Starfire somewhat giggled at this point. Raven took a small sip of her herbal tea.."It depends it we have to wear those silly necklaces again" Raven gave the I'm-not-eating-that face. "Nonsense friend Raven!" Starfire got a grin that took up atleast half of her face, placing one of those annoying,scratchy Blorthog Day necklaces around Raven's neck. "Would you like a necklace this Blorthog Day Robin..?" Starfire gets one of those anime cat faces. "I um-" Before I could reply to this she had placed a necklace around my neck as well, which made me and Raven look like raindeers as they jingled every five seconds we took a step. Although neither of us had taken them off in fear of upsetting Star.
But it was then that Neah had decided to walk into the kitchen.
This morning she was still brushing through her red mane..which only made me stare more at her.
Even though her hair was roughly messy this morning she still looked as beautiful as ever in my eyes...my almost golden blue eyes... I took the chance to look away every five seconds when she would glance at me from across the table. I had felt myself falling even more in love with this girl everyday. Even I had to confess I only loved Starfire as a friend..she really wasn't my type at all...way to perky and bewildered for me.. but Neah seemed almost perfect in my eyes. but what Star didn't know under my shirt and under the reduculous necklace Starfire had put on me there beside my beating heart was the locket Neah had given me.. It's not so much as Neah gave it to me that I wore it this evening but it was the fact that someone was actually thinking of me..maybe even cared for me..
But just like the Blorthog necklace that was hiding my locket...the person who had given it to my was trying to block out my love for Neah. Of course Star didn't even know what love was...none the less kissing yet. I sometimes get tired of having to explain everything to her..but you can't blame her even though she's from outerspace. I have to smile,cause it hides the real me behind it. No one knows the true me yet...I'm not even sure if I do sometimes it seems. Was all this just a simple teenager crush though..? No...not to me...to me this was true love and the best part was someone loved me back.. and she wasn't just another fangirl out on the streets, she was special to me.
and always would be.
Still I refused to take the necklace off that Star had given me...I had stepped on my friends enough anyway with the whole Slade apprentice thing still stalking him. He would take it off later maybe tommorrow...hey..it was Blorthog Day after all.
It was then that Starfire noticed the looks me and Neah exchanged every once and a while from across the room. Starfire none the less kept her joyful attitude. "Robin.." She spoke to me in a calm almost graceful voice. By now Raven had left through one of her portals leading to her room...probly to go take off her necklace already.
"uh huh" Was all that I could reply with for now. "Could I speak to you privately..?" Starfire blinks nervously..."If that is...you do not mind" "Not at all" I still held my positive attitude for Starfire not wanting to put her down.
((In Starfire's room))
Starfire motioned for me to sit in her nearby chair. I did so without a word...feeling somewhat unconfortable being a boy around all these stuffed animals and pink stuff. The brightness of Starfire's room was almost unbearable to one's eyes. So now I patiently sat there on this dare I say it...? PURPLE! (xD) colored chair..purple wasn't soo bad,
better than pink I would have to admit. "Robin.." She finally spoke to me,breaking the odd silence. I looked directly at her. "I...I'm....I.Starfire...Teen Titan and..." Starfire seemed to be having trouble getting it out but still atleast my patience for my friends wasn't half as bad as my patients for villains. "I don't know how to say this but ....I....I've been waiting for a long time to tell you this...R....Robin...I've waited for the right moment and I think to time " At this point I thought Star was gonna have a mental break down.
A/N: and yes I am stopping it here and watch out for next chap..a real shocker maybe even.
also if you liked the Robin point of view maybe I'll do it again in further chaps. Well catcha later on the next epi of MY FANFIC! xD -Robin