Disclaimer ~ I do not own Teen Titans or anything related to something that's not mine. But the plot is mine. NOTHING more.
A/N ~ I just wanted to thank anyone who helped me with suggestions for this chapter. \m/.\m/ You guys all rock. Just the details had to be filled in, so...THANK YOU! This should be an AWESOME chapter, if I do say so myself. Part of it is kind of slow, but still pretty good. ^.^ Hope you like it!
Oh, by the way. There will be two kinds of thoughts in this chapter:
Raven's thoughts - "blah"
Raven's sub-thoughts - 'blah'
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Chapter 10 - Debates
It's just one mental debate after another, isn't it? Once one ends, another arises to fill the void. Without it, the balance of my mind might actually be...balanced. Wouldn't that be something?
After the little episode with the sleeping too late by the tree, I had a couple of arguments about what I should say to them when I get there, and what exact movements I should make...Anything that won't get me kicked off of the team.
Despite the fact that I won't be a part of the Teen Titans, and that I don't have powers, and that I don't have anywhere else to go, there's one thing that stands above it all; the only people in the world that can tolerate me, won't be able to anymore. The only people that could have possibly been my friends, will be my enemies...or acquiantances. Whichever...There won't be anything else to live for after that. Nothing awaits me if there is no team.
With what I'm going to do, settled, I began another debate. Starting question: 'Are you blowing all of this out of proportion? You're probably the only person that is thinking about this right now.'
I clenched my hand in a fist. "I can't be the only person that's thinking about this! Everyone is being hurt some way or another. Starfire was pushed...Beast Boy slapped...," I whispered.
'Starfire's a forgiving person, and Beast Boy probably isn't smart enough to hold a grudge.'
"Beast Boy's a lot smarter than that!" A patch of ground nearby was blown upwards, and I hid behind the nearest tree, so not to be seen. After I looked around the tree, I could see that it was just some kids playing with fireworks.
I could feel a blush creeping to my cheeks as I ran to the next tree. "All right. So it wasn't me."
I paused to lean against a tree. "I can't believe that I was yelling at myself...That's as close to insanity as you can get." I stared into nothingness and put my hand to my forehead. "And now I'm talking to myself."
Trying to walk inconspicously, I looked around. Trying even more to relax, I let my arms swing to my sides, letting them flow with the pace of my step. I had just gotten used to that when I finally came upon the tower...Or the shore acrossed from the tower.
"Oh please..." I sat back on the cool grass and waited for any alternative to get over there. "I don't want to get wet right now...Well, maybe swimming to the tower wouldn't be so bad. I could clear my head a bit."
Bringing the bottm part of my cloak to the top, I tied them together tightly, so they wouldn't get in my way while I was swimming.
Diving in head first, I could feel the water rush through me, cleaning the stress, and dust, from my mind. I dove underwater as much as I could, moving my arms and legs in a dolphin-like motion towards the tower...I should swim more often if it feels this good.
Upon reaching the shore of the tower, I began walking silently to the door. With my eyes closed, I went in, dripping from head to toe, my head bowed down. To my surprise...No one was there...Or, at least, they weren't in the living room, or kitchen. I seriously doubt that they'd be anywhere else, though.
I searched the house for my team mates; the training room, the bathroom, the kitchen, living room, roof...everywhere. And I couldn't sense them anywhere near the tower.
I gave a sigh of relief. "Now...What were you worried about again, Raven? This is a dream come...You know, how about we just be thankful. I came home, as I promised, and they're gone, doing something else. Never to know I was gone...hopefully." That last thought was puzzling...Oh well. I'm just going to enjoy this.
Looking up to the ceiling, I remembered something...I was wet from swimming across to the tower. Maybe I'll go on the roof to sun-dry...Makes me sound like a tomato. So, untying my cloak from my hood, I grabbed a towel from the bathroom and strode to the roof.
Though I feel relieved, there's a bittersweetness there; I lied. I've been so happy because I didn't get caught...but isn't that wrong? They did nothing to deserve that kind of treatment, and yet their team mate treats them so, anyway.
'They might not have done anything to deserve it...but what did they do NOT to deserve it?'
"I'll leave the subject to rest."
'Whatever...I'd say that they expect you to do something like this.'
"No...well...You know, I'm just going to relax. Is that all right?"
Without waiting for an answer from myself, I laid my cloak beside me to dry while I dried, also.
I crossed my legs and began trying to regain my powers back, through meditation of course. It wasn't as hard as before, thankfully. Knowing that everyone was truly gone from the tower helped me relax...Until I turned one of my other possible solutions around. What if they were fighting someone right NOW? That's even worse than if they had done so previous.
Suddenly, my ears perked up to the sound of footsteps behind me. "Have a nice vacation?"
Beast Boy...
I turned to face him. His eyes were staring hard at me, filled with either sadness, disappointment, or anger. I can't really tell...
"We've been looking for you, dude. Where have you been?" Beast Boy's face softed a little bit.
"...Why does it matter?"
He looked at me blankly...the same blank look that I had given him when he came to my room. Beast Boy stared at me like I was a ghost...Like I had done something so unimaginable...It made me feel so small. Not just the fact that I was sitting down, but because he hadn't said anything for quite awhile now. His stare was so penetrating, too. His piercing teal eyes felt like they were ripping into my heart for the answer to my question.
I asked him again, feeling a bit uncomfortable. "Why?"
Standing up, I walked over to him, picking up my cape from the ground. Beast Boy's jaw lifted up from its previous position, and his gaze stopped.
"Because...You're you."
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A/N ~ I just wanted to thank anyone who helped me with suggestions for this chapter. \m/.\m/ You guys all rock. Just the details had to be filled in, so...THANK YOU! This should be an AWESOME chapter, if I do say so myself. Part of it is kind of slow, but still pretty good. ^.^ Hope you like it!
Oh, by the way. There will be two kinds of thoughts in this chapter:
Raven's thoughts - "blah"
Raven's sub-thoughts - 'blah'
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Chapter 10 - Debates
It's just one mental debate after another, isn't it? Once one ends, another arises to fill the void. Without it, the balance of my mind might actually be...balanced. Wouldn't that be something?
After the little episode with the sleeping too late by the tree, I had a couple of arguments about what I should say to them when I get there, and what exact movements I should make...Anything that won't get me kicked off of the team.
Despite the fact that I won't be a part of the Teen Titans, and that I don't have powers, and that I don't have anywhere else to go, there's one thing that stands above it all; the only people in the world that can tolerate me, won't be able to anymore. The only people that could have possibly been my friends, will be my enemies...or acquiantances. Whichever...There won't be anything else to live for after that. Nothing awaits me if there is no team.
With what I'm going to do, settled, I began another debate. Starting question: 'Are you blowing all of this out of proportion? You're probably the only person that is thinking about this right now.'
I clenched my hand in a fist. "I can't be the only person that's thinking about this! Everyone is being hurt some way or another. Starfire was pushed...Beast Boy slapped...," I whispered.
'Starfire's a forgiving person, and Beast Boy probably isn't smart enough to hold a grudge.'
"Beast Boy's a lot smarter than that!" A patch of ground nearby was blown upwards, and I hid behind the nearest tree, so not to be seen. After I looked around the tree, I could see that it was just some kids playing with fireworks.
I could feel a blush creeping to my cheeks as I ran to the next tree. "All right. So it wasn't me."
I paused to lean against a tree. "I can't believe that I was yelling at myself...That's as close to insanity as you can get." I stared into nothingness and put my hand to my forehead. "And now I'm talking to myself."
Trying to walk inconspicously, I looked around. Trying even more to relax, I let my arms swing to my sides, letting them flow with the pace of my step. I had just gotten used to that when I finally came upon the tower...Or the shore acrossed from the tower.
"Oh please..." I sat back on the cool grass and waited for any alternative to get over there. "I don't want to get wet right now...Well, maybe swimming to the tower wouldn't be so bad. I could clear my head a bit."
Bringing the bottm part of my cloak to the top, I tied them together tightly, so they wouldn't get in my way while I was swimming.
Diving in head first, I could feel the water rush through me, cleaning the stress, and dust, from my mind. I dove underwater as much as I could, moving my arms and legs in a dolphin-like motion towards the tower...I should swim more often if it feels this good.
Upon reaching the shore of the tower, I began walking silently to the door. With my eyes closed, I went in, dripping from head to toe, my head bowed down. To my surprise...No one was there...Or, at least, they weren't in the living room, or kitchen. I seriously doubt that they'd be anywhere else, though.
I searched the house for my team mates; the training room, the bathroom, the kitchen, living room, roof...everywhere. And I couldn't sense them anywhere near the tower.
I gave a sigh of relief. "Now...What were you worried about again, Raven? This is a dream come...You know, how about we just be thankful. I came home, as I promised, and they're gone, doing something else. Never to know I was gone...hopefully." That last thought was puzzling...Oh well. I'm just going to enjoy this.
Looking up to the ceiling, I remembered something...I was wet from swimming across to the tower. Maybe I'll go on the roof to sun-dry...Makes me sound like a tomato. So, untying my cloak from my hood, I grabbed a towel from the bathroom and strode to the roof.
Though I feel relieved, there's a bittersweetness there; I lied. I've been so happy because I didn't get caught...but isn't that wrong? They did nothing to deserve that kind of treatment, and yet their team mate treats them so, anyway.
'They might not have done anything to deserve it...but what did they do NOT to deserve it?'
"I'll leave the subject to rest."
'Whatever...I'd say that they expect you to do something like this.'
"No...well...You know, I'm just going to relax. Is that all right?"
Without waiting for an answer from myself, I laid my cloak beside me to dry while I dried, also.
I crossed my legs and began trying to regain my powers back, through meditation of course. It wasn't as hard as before, thankfully. Knowing that everyone was truly gone from the tower helped me relax...Until I turned one of my other possible solutions around. What if they were fighting someone right NOW? That's even worse than if they had done so previous.
Suddenly, my ears perked up to the sound of footsteps behind me. "Have a nice vacation?"
Beast Boy...
I turned to face him. His eyes were staring hard at me, filled with either sadness, disappointment, or anger. I can't really tell...
"We've been looking for you, dude. Where have you been?" Beast Boy's face softed a little bit.
"...Why does it matter?"
He looked at me blankly...the same blank look that I had given him when he came to my room. Beast Boy stared at me like I was a ghost...Like I had done something so unimaginable...It made me feel so small. Not just the fact that I was sitting down, but because he hadn't said anything for quite awhile now. His stare was so penetrating, too. His piercing teal eyes felt like they were ripping into my heart for the answer to my question.
I asked him again, feeling a bit uncomfortable. "Why?"
Standing up, I walked over to him, picking up my cape from the ground. Beast Boy's jaw lifted up from its previous position, and his gaze stopped.
"Because...You're you."
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