Title: You Chose to Forget
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket.
This story is for my friend Kate-Kate, because she loves Momiji, and I want to thank her with this story. So Katelyn, I know that you're reading, thanks. For everything.
~~~~~~~~~ (The Past, Momiji, four years old)
Four year old Momiji ran down the hall. Mama. He didn't want her to give up. He wanted to be someone's son, to be loved by a mom, but if she...if she...Momiji closed his eyes shut and shook his head. This wasn't true! Even though Mama wasn't that caring of him she wouldn't forget about her only son! She wouldn't! The young boy wouldn't let her give up this easily just because he changes into the rabbit of the Zodiac. It's not fair for her to just say she wants her memory erased. If that were to happen Momiji would feel so guilty for just being here. She wouldn't smile. Everytime he called her Mama she would scream at him for calling her that. Calling him all sorts of names he didn't understand. Except one, which she used a lot.
(You THING! Stay away from me! You aren't real! You aren't real! This is all just a bad dream!) She would scream at her son.
(Mama...I'm sorry! I'm sorry!) He would reply, but it was of no use. She would just run away if she could. Momiji would dearly love to follow but he couldn't.
It hurt her so much. And it hurt little Momiji to know that being like this, being a part of the Zodiac, would mean hurting his mother like this. This also hurt him in a way because he didn't want to be called a 'thing' or 'freak child'. Momiji wanted a mother that would love him no matter what or who he was, but, that was to much to ask for. To much to ask for...
A Mama that would say 'I love you'.
Even so, Momiji had to stop her. Even though the words saying that it was okay for her memory to be erased came from his mouth his heart was telling him to take it back. Momiji wanted to stop this. Or atleast tell her that he would love her no matter what. He really would. He would try his best to make her happy, make her smile, instead of causing her pain. There had to be an alternative. Please!
As he reached the open door where Hatori and Mama sat, she was shaking and crying hysterically. Momiji peeked around the corner to see, to scared to step in, because Mama would yell at him again.
"Is this was you want? Do you really want to forget about your only child? Are you sure you won't regret this?" Hatori asked even though he already knew her answer. It really wasn't his wish to do this because he knew that it would hurt Momiji, and she had to know this, but if she wanted to.
Momiji's voice cried the words he so much wanted to say (Mama! Say no! Please! I want a Mama, I just don't want a Papa, I want a Mama too!)
She said with a shaky voice "The only regret...I have...is that...that THING ever came out of...MY body.."
(Am I really that bad?) asked Momiji to himself. His eyes gazed at his mom with hurt. (Am I really? Am I really...)
~~~~~~~ (To the present, fifteen year old Momiji, at his house)
"No! Mama!" he shrieked, sitting up. Cold drops of sweat slid off of his face, he had that dream again. He had been having the same horrifying nightmare for the last three nights. What brought it up all of a sudden? "Mama..." he sobbed, clutching his sheets. "Why? I know that it hurt you...but what about me..?"
Tears fell onto his hand as he cried that lonely night.
~~~~~~~~ (That day at school)
Momiji really did separate himself from the others. He wouldn't talk much, not even to Tohru, his whole personality of being jumpy and happy was thrown out of the window ever since the nightmare started. The blond would just sit there in class, staring down at his desk, thinking about what happened eleven years ago. If Mama had only held on for that much longer he really would have tried harder to be the son that she had wanted. Even if he was a child of the Zodiac he could do things. Even though she couldn't hug him it still would have been okay. Wouldn't it?
Though, not being able to hold your own child, that must have gone through her head millions of times. Never being able to hold him if he started to cry because they would change into an animal. If you made one wrong move in public then it would change into a bunny. How embarrassing would that be for any mother? That's probably why, when someone cursed by the zodiac is born, they have to depend on the same gender parent for love if the other one would not show you any. That's why Papa said that he would make up for Mama's love. But Momiji wanted a mothers love. That's what he wished for more than anything else that he could be given.
More than anything. Though, Momiji did have a mom, sort of. Or saw her as a mom. She was always so kind to him and patient. That person was Tohru and he knew that she would never turn her back on anyone in the Sohma family. But Momiji still felt like there was something missing. It wasn't his true mother so he could never really have the love of his own Mama, but her memory would never come back, so it was useless to think that she might love him. But Tohru was like a mom to Momiji and Momiji would do anything for Tohru. When she had first learned of the Zodiac she wasn't scared at all. Tohru was one of those rare people that you just can't help but like. Even though Tohru didn't know it Momiji felt like she was his adopted mom because she wasn't afraid to be around him or hold his hand.
That's what he always wanted in Mama.
Meanwhile, while he sat on a bench because it was after school, the others were beginning to worry about Momiji. He wasn't himself. This wasn't like him to be sad.
"What's wrong with him?" asked Haru, more to himself as he, Kyo, Yuki, and Tohru stood pretty far away. But able to see him. "He's been like this for three days. He's the complete opposite of himself."
Yuki asked "Has something happened back at the main house?"
"Don't think so..." the ox replied. Maybe this was Akito's doing but Akito has been sick in bed for a whole week, so that was out of the window.
"Hell, everyone gets down once and a while, even for no reason. Just leave him alone for a little longer and he'll cheer up," Kyo suggested with a sigh. He watched Momiji stand up, his head sulked down, his hair over his eyes as he watched the ground instead of where he was going in front of him. "But, this is unusual, very unusual."
Tohru thought (Poor Momiji. I don't know what's happened but he needs to do something that he likes. He thinks that he's doing a good job hiding it, since every time we talk to him he automatically puts a smile, but I know that something is really bugging him. I don't want to be impolite and ask but...in this situation...)
The brunette ran to Momiji without any warning. She yelled on his way "Momiji! Hi!"
(Tohru?) he asked in his head. He looked to his right and there stood Tohru with a smile, so he returned it quickly with a smirk. "Hi Tohru! I was just about to go home, where are Yuki and Kyo? And Haru?"
"Umm...Momiji...." she started. She had to know as the others walked up to him. Momiji felt on that question he didn't want to know. "I know that it might not be any of my business...but...I'm worried about you. You haven't been your usual self lately. And I want you to, ummm, know that if there's something on your mind you can tell us."
Momiji lied right away. "No! Nothing's wrong! I've just been, well, having things on my mind. But everything's okay. Really!"
Even though they could see straight through his lie they didn't want to bring it up. He trudged off, that hurt look back on his face. The bounce was out of his step for sure.
"Something is wrong. For sure," Yuki pointed out the obvious. The other boys nodded. "If Akito did anything to Momiji I'll...."
"Don't worry. It couldn't have been Akito because he's been in bed sick for the last week. There's got to be something obvious that had happened that we know but just can't tell," said Haru in a worried tone. All of them were worried. "Or Kyo could be right, as much as I hate to admit it."
"Shutup. He'll be fine. He's a big boy!" Kyo said.
Yuki gave him a sharp look "Stupid cat."
"Damn rat," hissed Kyo, literally.
(Tohru....I'm sorry....I didn't want to lie to you) apologized Momiji in his mind as he started down to the House of Sohma. He felt so guilty. If there's one person he didn't want to hurt that would be Tohru. Tears streamed down his face. (Tohru! I'm so sorry.)
(Momiji. I hope that you can tell us soon) pleaded Tohru in her mind. (Please. I want to help and so does everyone else. But we can't help unless you let us)
"Don't worry, I'll keep an eye on him," said Haru.
"Thanks," all but Kyo said as they parted.
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Please review. There will be more coming up if you want. PLEASE BE GENTLE! FIRST FB FIC! Thank you.
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket.
This story is for my friend Kate-Kate, because she loves Momiji, and I want to thank her with this story. So Katelyn, I know that you're reading, thanks. For everything.
~~~~~~~~~ (The Past, Momiji, four years old)
Four year old Momiji ran down the hall. Mama. He didn't want her to give up. He wanted to be someone's son, to be loved by a mom, but if she...if she...Momiji closed his eyes shut and shook his head. This wasn't true! Even though Mama wasn't that caring of him she wouldn't forget about her only son! She wouldn't! The young boy wouldn't let her give up this easily just because he changes into the rabbit of the Zodiac. It's not fair for her to just say she wants her memory erased. If that were to happen Momiji would feel so guilty for just being here. She wouldn't smile. Everytime he called her Mama she would scream at him for calling her that. Calling him all sorts of names he didn't understand. Except one, which she used a lot.
(You THING! Stay away from me! You aren't real! You aren't real! This is all just a bad dream!) She would scream at her son.
(Mama...I'm sorry! I'm sorry!) He would reply, but it was of no use. She would just run away if she could. Momiji would dearly love to follow but he couldn't.
It hurt her so much. And it hurt little Momiji to know that being like this, being a part of the Zodiac, would mean hurting his mother like this. This also hurt him in a way because he didn't want to be called a 'thing' or 'freak child'. Momiji wanted a mother that would love him no matter what or who he was, but, that was to much to ask for. To much to ask for...
A Mama that would say 'I love you'.
Even so, Momiji had to stop her. Even though the words saying that it was okay for her memory to be erased came from his mouth his heart was telling him to take it back. Momiji wanted to stop this. Or atleast tell her that he would love her no matter what. He really would. He would try his best to make her happy, make her smile, instead of causing her pain. There had to be an alternative. Please!
As he reached the open door where Hatori and Mama sat, she was shaking and crying hysterically. Momiji peeked around the corner to see, to scared to step in, because Mama would yell at him again.
"Is this was you want? Do you really want to forget about your only child? Are you sure you won't regret this?" Hatori asked even though he already knew her answer. It really wasn't his wish to do this because he knew that it would hurt Momiji, and she had to know this, but if she wanted to.
Momiji's voice cried the words he so much wanted to say (Mama! Say no! Please! I want a Mama, I just don't want a Papa, I want a Mama too!)
She said with a shaky voice "The only regret...I have...is that...that THING ever came out of...MY body.."
(Am I really that bad?) asked Momiji to himself. His eyes gazed at his mom with hurt. (Am I really? Am I really...)
~~~~~~~ (To the present, fifteen year old Momiji, at his house)
"No! Mama!" he shrieked, sitting up. Cold drops of sweat slid off of his face, he had that dream again. He had been having the same horrifying nightmare for the last three nights. What brought it up all of a sudden? "Mama..." he sobbed, clutching his sheets. "Why? I know that it hurt you...but what about me..?"
Tears fell onto his hand as he cried that lonely night.
~~~~~~~~ (That day at school)
Momiji really did separate himself from the others. He wouldn't talk much, not even to Tohru, his whole personality of being jumpy and happy was thrown out of the window ever since the nightmare started. The blond would just sit there in class, staring down at his desk, thinking about what happened eleven years ago. If Mama had only held on for that much longer he really would have tried harder to be the son that she had wanted. Even if he was a child of the Zodiac he could do things. Even though she couldn't hug him it still would have been okay. Wouldn't it?
Though, not being able to hold your own child, that must have gone through her head millions of times. Never being able to hold him if he started to cry because they would change into an animal. If you made one wrong move in public then it would change into a bunny. How embarrassing would that be for any mother? That's probably why, when someone cursed by the zodiac is born, they have to depend on the same gender parent for love if the other one would not show you any. That's why Papa said that he would make up for Mama's love. But Momiji wanted a mothers love. That's what he wished for more than anything else that he could be given.
More than anything. Though, Momiji did have a mom, sort of. Or saw her as a mom. She was always so kind to him and patient. That person was Tohru and he knew that she would never turn her back on anyone in the Sohma family. But Momiji still felt like there was something missing. It wasn't his true mother so he could never really have the love of his own Mama, but her memory would never come back, so it was useless to think that she might love him. But Tohru was like a mom to Momiji and Momiji would do anything for Tohru. When she had first learned of the Zodiac she wasn't scared at all. Tohru was one of those rare people that you just can't help but like. Even though Tohru didn't know it Momiji felt like she was his adopted mom because she wasn't afraid to be around him or hold his hand.
That's what he always wanted in Mama.
Meanwhile, while he sat on a bench because it was after school, the others were beginning to worry about Momiji. He wasn't himself. This wasn't like him to be sad.
"What's wrong with him?" asked Haru, more to himself as he, Kyo, Yuki, and Tohru stood pretty far away. But able to see him. "He's been like this for three days. He's the complete opposite of himself."
Yuki asked "Has something happened back at the main house?"
"Don't think so..." the ox replied. Maybe this was Akito's doing but Akito has been sick in bed for a whole week, so that was out of the window.
"Hell, everyone gets down once and a while, even for no reason. Just leave him alone for a little longer and he'll cheer up," Kyo suggested with a sigh. He watched Momiji stand up, his head sulked down, his hair over his eyes as he watched the ground instead of where he was going in front of him. "But, this is unusual, very unusual."
Tohru thought (Poor Momiji. I don't know what's happened but he needs to do something that he likes. He thinks that he's doing a good job hiding it, since every time we talk to him he automatically puts a smile, but I know that something is really bugging him. I don't want to be impolite and ask but...in this situation...)
The brunette ran to Momiji without any warning. She yelled on his way "Momiji! Hi!"
(Tohru?) he asked in his head. He looked to his right and there stood Tohru with a smile, so he returned it quickly with a smirk. "Hi Tohru! I was just about to go home, where are Yuki and Kyo? And Haru?"
"Umm...Momiji...." she started. She had to know as the others walked up to him. Momiji felt on that question he didn't want to know. "I know that it might not be any of my business...but...I'm worried about you. You haven't been your usual self lately. And I want you to, ummm, know that if there's something on your mind you can tell us."
Momiji lied right away. "No! Nothing's wrong! I've just been, well, having things on my mind. But everything's okay. Really!"
Even though they could see straight through his lie they didn't want to bring it up. He trudged off, that hurt look back on his face. The bounce was out of his step for sure.
"Something is wrong. For sure," Yuki pointed out the obvious. The other boys nodded. "If Akito did anything to Momiji I'll...."
"Don't worry. It couldn't have been Akito because he's been in bed sick for the last week. There's got to be something obvious that had happened that we know but just can't tell," said Haru in a worried tone. All of them were worried. "Or Kyo could be right, as much as I hate to admit it."
"Shutup. He'll be fine. He's a big boy!" Kyo said.
Yuki gave him a sharp look "Stupid cat."
"Damn rat," hissed Kyo, literally.
(Tohru....I'm sorry....I didn't want to lie to you) apologized Momiji in his mind as he started down to the House of Sohma. He felt so guilty. If there's one person he didn't want to hurt that would be Tohru. Tears streamed down his face. (Tohru! I'm so sorry.)
(Momiji. I hope that you can tell us soon) pleaded Tohru in her mind. (Please. I want to help and so does everyone else. But we can't help unless you let us)
"Don't worry, I'll keep an eye on him," said Haru.
"Thanks," all but Kyo said as they parted.
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Please review. There will be more coming up if you want. PLEASE BE GENTLE! FIRST FB FIC! Thank you.