A/N: I'm SO sorry for the late update!! Gomen, gomen... Forgive me please? This portion is more on Fuu though than later the people (like Umi, Eagle and drum roll Lantis) who will be affected most. Although the story is mainly on Hikaru, I think the reactions of her two best friends are rather important too, ne? Gomen again, for the people who wish to see H/L. This takes place over a span of time, starting from after Hikaru died.
Lost.
"Have your breakfast." Sonami Houoji addressed to her two daughters, while skillfully continued to fry eggs with her attention on them.
"Thanks okaa-san!" Kuu replied groggily while munching her toast and rubbing her eyes.
"Hai. Arigatou." Fuu mumbled. She sipped her milk slowly, staring into space. She looked straight ahead, as if to this invisible person, she never looked you straight in the eye.
Their father- Ohara Houoji, continued reading the papers while enjoying- no, finishing his coffee. The atmosphere was tense and full of pretence at a 'happy family scene'. It broke his heart seeing his youngest daughter the way she was, but they tried-. Tried so hard. So. Freaking. Hard. In the end this was all they achieved.
Fuu stopped speaking unless it was to be polite to anyone altogether. Even to her family. She was so polite she was almost on the brink of being rude.
"Sayonara. Watashi wa gakko e ikimas. (I'm going to school)"
Fuu Houoji was a regular student. She did her homework diligently, went to school, never played truant, and was 'Little Miss Perfect' to everyone. But if you peered deep into the depths of those emerald orbs, an unexplainable sadness washes over you, like tides pounding, waves crashing. Her eyes were oceans of grief.
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it every day
She devoted herself to her work more than ever. She slaved over each individual piece of assignment, making sure each was a piece of perfection. Her grades, which used to be near perfect, became perfect. 95s turned to 100s; 'Excellent' wasn't good enough, no, she needing 'Outstanding' on every damn sheet of homework. She buried herself in piles of textbooks and projects, each forming a impressive mountain around her, competing for space. Her files were flooded with notes, she made notes on notes, test out of tests, crazy assignments trying to gain that extra mark.
"Fuu, full marks!" her sensei announced happily handing her the exam script. 'Keep it up.' was written in a cursive scrawl next to the glowing '100'. Fuu nodded, emotionless. This was English, one of her weaker subjects, yet she felt nothing where the old Fuu would feel a surge of pride because her efforts were all worth it. All she felt was- nothing. She stared at her script impassive, wondering why. Why she was so numb from everything?
She was trapped within herself, ensnared within her web of memories.
It took its toll on her. She walked in a perpetual daze, seeing but not absorbing, hearing but not listening, speaking but not understanding, sensing but not feeling.
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
She used to smile gently as everyone laughed at a joke. Her eyes were filled with wisdom, of knowledge and cleverness and a deep understanding. She was always polite and considerate. That was Fuu then.
The Fuu now, looked at you blankly as you told a joke. Her eyes were dazed and haggard. Thankfully her specs had managed to hide most of her accumulating eye bags. She could hear what others were saying but she never listened, it sounded like some foreign tongue that she could not understand. When she replied, most of the time she had no idea what she was speaking. She could still sense when someone was sad, or angry but this time she was unable to feel, to sympathize or to comprehend.
What's wrong what's wrong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
The only one who was able to make her feel was Ferio. He breathed life into her.
Open your eyes
And look outside
"Lunch?" Fuu looked up from her desk notes underneath organized according to subject, in order they were being taught and alphabetized) to gaze into a pair of deep golden orbs. His smile was no longer as cocky, nor as bright as before.
"Hm. Let's go." She replied, her voice lacking in any emotions. She linked hands with him and felt a surge of warmth in that firm grip he had on her petite palm.
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
Now you can't find
What you've left behind
They ate lunch outside, under the blue sky, under the cherry blossom tree that held many memories. Fleeting memories, nothing more. A rose chiseled into the tree with two F-s weave together in a vine like stem.
Petals drifted gently, the wind caressing them just as a gentle lover's hand. The pinkness floated around them, swirling, like snow descending from the heavens above. It depicted a scene full of tranquility, serenity, hiding the inner turmoil that threatened to ruin this perfect moment.
Ferio sat leaning on the tree, legs bent on one side. Fuu slipped next to him and laid her head on his shoulder. "Ferio? Do you think-" she started, then stopped and sighed. Staring blankly at her lunch, she toyed with the rice and dishes, barely eating, nibbling on her food instead. She lowered her plate, unable to eat anymore. He noticed this but made no comment.
She didn't need that now. He stroked her long blonde hair instead, soothing her. This was not the first time it happened. It was becoming some strange sort of routine, but he would be there- as long as she needed him. His arms went around her into a sweet embrace. Ferio held her close, inhaling the light floral scent of her, grinned contentedly as she snuggled even closer to him.
Be strong be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
"Do you think Hikaru is happy?" she finally asked, breaking the silence, turning those mesmerizing emeralds on him.
He opened his eyes and looked at her solemnly. "Not if she sees you like this... But, yes tenshi, I believe she would be happy where ever she goes. It's Hikaru we're talking about." Ferio paused, "Unlike you..." he chided softly.
Anger flashed through her, it showed in the way she tensed. Fuu was numb now; she was weary. 'But Ferio is right.' her mind reflected, ' yet I can't help being the way I am now.'
Amber orbs spoke volumes of the frustration he felt. Ferio wished just for once that she would be motivated again, be so provoked by him that she would go back to being the old Fuu. The one he fell head over heels for, now he seemed to have lost her.
Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
"Can you hold me Ferio? Hold me tight so that I won't fall apart?" Fuu questioned aloud, tenderness and grief laced in her words. Tears sprung suddenly, and were already sliding down her cheeks before she could stop them.
Ferio saw his tear- streaked angel, and could only wish her agony would stop, he was helpless to heal her pain. His arms were tighter than before, but still cautious about hurting her. 'I'll never let go, Fuu.' his whisper giving her strength to carry on
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She falling from grace
She's all over the place yeah
She fell asleep in his arms. Her sobs ceased, her body relaxed, there was even a small smile on her lips. Ferio removed his jacket to cover it on her fragile frame. Fuu Hououji was a wilting flower, and Ferio Cephiro was going to be the key to reviving her.
She wanted to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
Ferio Cephiro used to be and still is one of the hottest guys around. His mischievous grin, the notorious twinkle in his eyes, the cool attitude. THE playboy of the school, famous for breaking numerous hearts. He never really loved, never really liked. Not until he met her.
He had no clue heartbreak could be so painful. staring at the figure in his arms made him feel so deeply sad, joyful and he admitted finally, in love.
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
He kissed away her tears, a gentle kiss on her cheeks, his mouth tasting lightly of Fuu's gentle sweetness. Fuu was beautiful, exquisitely so. Green strands intertwined with blond, firm hands with soft gentle ones, two bodies with one joined soul. He laid a even gentler kiss on her lips, careful not to wake her up, smiling as he did so. A faint pink appeared on her cheeks.
Ferio chuckled as he realized that she wasn't exactly asleep, Fuu's smile seemed truly happy.
She's lost inside lost inside
She's lost inside lost inside
He caught sight of the symbol of 'Ferio loves Fuu' on the tree.
He knew they would make it, together.
But meanwhile... his lips met hers again, deepening the kiss. His tongues lingering on her lips, making her blush turn an bright pink.
"That feels nice..." Fuu murmured, turning towards him. Ferio laughed silently, he thought his kisses were beyond 'nice'.
His eyes twinkled as he set out to prove his point.
A/N: I hope you like?? I'm having trouble with too much mushy scenes. Reviews are welcomed.