My heart belonged to you

Prologue

With tears streaming down my cheeks I looked back at Hogwarts one last time. After 7 years my education was complete and I was being set loose into the real world. As I boarded the train I glanced down at the silver promise ring on my finger. James had given it to me two months before and I've treasured it ever since. He told me that after we were done here we'd both go back to our families for a few months and then eventually we'd get married. My heart leapt, Mrs. Lily Potter. Two years ago had anyone told me I would be "Mrs. Lily Potter" I would have cursed them. Now I have to sit back and wait for him to ask me. I wondered, how long would he take? 1 month? Maybe 2 or 3? A year?

I crawled into a compartment and sat down next to Ella. She'd been my best friend from day one. Her eyes were just as red and blotchy as mine. We sat and cried together for atleast 15min before we were interrupted.

"Why is it that girls always have to cry on happy occasions?"

I looked up and Sirius was standing in the doorway.

"Why is it that guys never show their emotions?" I asked

"We show them, we just don't go and get all sentimental. Didn't you see that marvelous work of art your boyfriend and I left as a parting gift?"

"I don't really think placing a giant portrait of yourselves in the girl's dormitory hall counts as art." I groaned as I wiped the last tear from my eye

"Really? I thought the idea was quite brilliant." He gloated

"You would."

Sirius definitely was not in my list of favorite people. He was just as arrogant and stubborn as he was 2 years ago. He took the seat next to me and my stomach twisted. He wasn't exactly the person I wanted to spend my last Hogwarts express ride sitting next to.

"Oh come on Ella cheer up, don't be such a baby" He said very insensitively

She sobbed harder.

"Black you could be a bit nicer." I growled

"I am nice. I want her to enjoy her last ride, not spend the whole time crying her eyes out."

"Sure."

"What you don't believe me?"

"Why should I?"

"Evans why are you so stubborn? What did I ever do to you?"

"I honestly don't think I could list them all before we get to kings cross!"

"ya you couldn't cause you'd spend the whole time trying to think of them, and then you'd realize as we pulled in the station that I was right. That I've never done anything to you."

"Well what about the time you made my hair fall out, put wart grower in my sheets, put pumpkin juice in my shampoo bottle, shrunk my cat..."

"You can't even prove that was me."

"Well what about the time a giant black dog found his way into my dorm, ate my homework and chased my cat out of the Gryffindor tower and up a tree? Who could have possibly let that dog into my dorm."

"Evans..."

"Black..."

We continued arguing and Ella just sat there and cried.

"...Or the time you let a filibuster firework..." I began but the compartment door opened and I was interrupted

"Are you two at it again?" James asked

"Prongs this girlfriend of yours is the most difficult human being on the planet."

I was waiting for James to yell at him for saying that but he just kinda stood there. I looked up at him but he wouldn't meet my gaze.

"Lily we need to talk." He said. There was no sign of happiness on his face and his eyes still would not meet mine.

"Alright." I said and I stood up and fallowed him out of the compartment. Something wasn't right and I nervously twisted the ring on my finger. He took my hand and led me down the hall into an empty compartment. We sat down. Something was obviously bothering him so I lend in and put my arms around him. I pressed my lips towards his and kissed him. His lips were soft and gentle, and they sent a warm feeling up my spine. Then James did something he had never done before. He pulled his lips away from mine then took his hands and pushed me away.

"Lily we need to talk." He was so serious and stiff. I'd never seen him like this before.

"Alright." I replied nervously

We sat in silence for a long time. For wanting to talk he sure didn't have anything to say, and then he did. He broke the silence with the last words I ever wanted or expected to hear from his lips. He turned his head, looked out the window and said "Lily, we've made a mistake. This isn't working."

I couldn't figure what he had just said it didn't make since. "What?" I asked.

He took a deep breath and responded quietly "I don't... love you."

He didn't mean that. He couldn't mean that. He promised me that we would always be together. This had to be some kind of a sick joke.

"You don't mean that do you? You can't possible mean that."

"I do... Lily, I'm sorry." He still wouldn't look at me.

"But we had plans! You told me we'd always be together! You told me you loved me and that you'd give the world for me."

"Things change, Evans." He said

He hadn't called me Evans since 5th year. I looked down at my ring. Some promise.

"Well what about this?" I said as I pulled it off my finger and held it up.

He took another deep breath and said "I lied."

By this time tears were streaming down my cheeks and my stomach hurt. This couldn't be true, it just couldn't. I threw the ring at him and he pocketed it. He stood up and headed to the door. For the first time since we got on the train he actually looked at me. He muttered "I'm sorry Lily" as he left the compartment.

I sat and cried in disbelief for the entire ride. He had used me just as he had all the other girls. Only out of all of them, I'd fallen the hardest for him.

END OF PROLOGUE
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