My Heart Belonged to You
Chapter 4
An Old Beginning
JAMES POV
The sun rose and the night turned to day. I'd spent the entire night tossing and turning, with one thing on my mind. Her. Her smile had come back into my life for a brief moment and life an idiot I'd let it go, twice! For the past week or so I'd been mentally kicking myself for not dropping by St. Mungo's to see how she was. I wonder if she even knew it had been me who'd pulled her away from the death eaters. That didn't matter though. This was my job and as much as my heart ached for her... I had a job to do. She had to be just like every other witch, wizard and muggle I'd ever helped. Unconnected. The only problem with that was that she wasn't the same. She was different.
I rolled out of my bed and walked over to the mirror. I attempted to gel my hair down, but as always it didn't help. I don't even know why I bothered. I changed into a clean shirt and pulled on a pair of jeans. Then I picked up a McDonalds bag off my dresser... it took me to Hogwarts. (portkey)
With a thud I landed in the east tower of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was familiar with this part of the castle, though many of the students here were not. During my school years Sirius and I had done some exploring around this area but we'd never found much. Now this was top headquarters for the order of the phoenix, and our weekly meeting was today. So carrying my McDonalds bag, I walked down the hallway. I was a bit early so I thought I'd drop in the kitchen and see if my good friend Dot could make up my usual. I tickled the pear and the portrait swung open. The tunnel was just as narrow as it always had been, and the elves were just as rushed and frantic as they were day after day, year after year.
"Ahs! Misters Potter! Welscome back!!! Is missed you!"
"Hello Dot" It'd been a few weeks since I dropped in the kitchen "Got anything left over for me?"
"Ofs course! Surely! Sits. Sit down at the table."
I turned to my left and moved toward the table in the back corner of the kitchen. I thought my eyes were deceiving me as I saw someone sitting in my usual spot.
EARLIER THAT MORNING
I crawled out of bed with a smile on my face. This morning I would not be serving cauldron cakes and butterbeer at Three Broomsticks, I would be starting my new job. I brushed my hair and pulled it up on the side. Then I slipped on a jean skirt and finished off my look with a peasant cut blouse. I pulled an empty m&m's bag off the kitchen table and with a whoosh I was thrown into the east tower of Hogwarts.
With all my years at Hogwarts, I'd never been to the east tower once. Aaron had mentioned that it had been rarely used up until a year or two ago. The furnishings and tapestries on the walls seemed almost ancient. The lighting was dim and even though it had been day when I left... it was night? Odd... Hogwarts must be on a different time schedule... either that or an enchantment.
My stomach growled. In all the excitement I'd forgotten to eat. I didn't think anyone would mind if I paid a quick visit to Dot? I mean... she'd always been happy to help out when James and I went on midnight snack trips 3 years ago... ugh. I really needed to stop doing that to myself. My stomach did a flip flop at the thought of Potter. I held back a few tears, I was not going to cry on my first day at work. Ugh... I wish that stupid git would just get out of my head!!!!
I walked a ways down the hallway until I came to a painting of a bowl of fruit. I reached up and tickled the pear. It giggle, and the portrait swung open. It had been a long time since I'd crawled down the tunnel, but I had done it so many times I knew exactly where I was going. As I came into the kitchen the elves swarmed me with delight!
"Miz Lili!" they chanted
"Tis beens so long. Sos very longs!" Dot said eagerly "What can I gets for miz lili?"
"Just a cup of coffee dear." I responded
"Alrights. Sit downs at de table."
Within a few minutes I was enjoying a cup of coffee while reading the daily prophet. The elves rushed to the door for one reason or another I paid no attention and instead read an article about how Cornelius Fudge was up for the job of Minister. Ha, that was a laugh. Cornelius had been a few years a head of me at Hogwarts, and from what I gathered he was a narrowminded twit. Dumbledore would make the ideal minister, but he'd never leave Hogwarts, everyone knew that.
As I glanced up from my paper, my eyes almost popped out of their sockets, and my heart fell way into the pit of my stomach. Standing a few feet away and staring directly at me was none other than James Potter.
I sat frozen stiff. Why? Of all the days I could be here, he was here to? For a moment it was if the elves didn't exist, their frantic movements were completely oblivious to me. My eyes were focused on James Potter, no one and nothing else. He too seemed frozen. In the past 3 years we'd only ran into each other once before, and I'd been unconscious for it. Whoever I'd been expecting to see today, I'd never thought it be him. Obviously he'd thought the same. Why was he here? I didn't know and as much as I didn't want to, I cared, but why should I care when he didn't about me? His hair was just as untidy as it had always been. His face showed no sign of happiness, but his chocolately brown eyes bore into my emerald ones. It was like I'd gone into a trance for a quick second, and then I was awakened by the sound of Dots voice.
"Misters James!!! Sits downs by Miz Lili! Sits!!!"
With my heart still in the pit of my stomach I tore my eyes away from him and went back to my paper. I wasn't going to acknowledge him quite yet, in fear I'd say something that my heart just couldn't take.
He moved closer and sat down at the table. I brushed a strand of hair out of my face and continued to focus on the story. He didn't speak until Dot arrived with his cup of coffee.
"Lily, is that you?" he asked
I set my paper aside "Well of course it is stupid." I said sounding a little more bitter than I wanted to.
He was taken back. I think I shocked him a bit, but did he honestly think that after 3 years of silence I was just going to become buddy buddy with him?
"How have you been?" he asked
"I'm just fine Potter." I said sounding slightly annoyed. It was amazing, all I've wanted for the past 3 year was to see him again. Talk over exactly what happened because to this day I still had no clue why he broke it off. Now that he was here. I was angry with him and didn't quite feel like going into details. I was very tempted to just stand up and leave, but I didn't.
"Potter? Lils we haven't been on a last name basis since 6th year." Ow, my heart bent and twisted inside of me, Lils. That had been his pet name for me.
"My name is Lily, not Lils."
"What's with you?" He seemed confused.
I picked up my coffee and stood up. "I'm sorry Potter, but I have somewhere I have to be. Professor McGonagall asked me to give a lecture to some first years and I don't want to be late." Aaron had told me to tell no one I ran into the real reason I was there. He said that there were even some Hogwarts Professors Dumbledore didn't quite trust.
"Lils, wait!" he said standing up.
I turned my head and without thinking I said "Potter Buzz off!"
END OF CHAPTER FOUR
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Chapter 4
An Old Beginning
JAMES POV
The sun rose and the night turned to day. I'd spent the entire night tossing and turning, with one thing on my mind. Her. Her smile had come back into my life for a brief moment and life an idiot I'd let it go, twice! For the past week or so I'd been mentally kicking myself for not dropping by St. Mungo's to see how she was. I wonder if she even knew it had been me who'd pulled her away from the death eaters. That didn't matter though. This was my job and as much as my heart ached for her... I had a job to do. She had to be just like every other witch, wizard and muggle I'd ever helped. Unconnected. The only problem with that was that she wasn't the same. She was different.
I rolled out of my bed and walked over to the mirror. I attempted to gel my hair down, but as always it didn't help. I don't even know why I bothered. I changed into a clean shirt and pulled on a pair of jeans. Then I picked up a McDonalds bag off my dresser... it took me to Hogwarts. (portkey)
With a thud I landed in the east tower of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was familiar with this part of the castle, though many of the students here were not. During my school years Sirius and I had done some exploring around this area but we'd never found much. Now this was top headquarters for the order of the phoenix, and our weekly meeting was today. So carrying my McDonalds bag, I walked down the hallway. I was a bit early so I thought I'd drop in the kitchen and see if my good friend Dot could make up my usual. I tickled the pear and the portrait swung open. The tunnel was just as narrow as it always had been, and the elves were just as rushed and frantic as they were day after day, year after year.
"Ahs! Misters Potter! Welscome back!!! Is missed you!"
"Hello Dot" It'd been a few weeks since I dropped in the kitchen "Got anything left over for me?"
"Ofs course! Surely! Sits. Sit down at the table."
I turned to my left and moved toward the table in the back corner of the kitchen. I thought my eyes were deceiving me as I saw someone sitting in my usual spot.
EARLIER THAT MORNING
I crawled out of bed with a smile on my face. This morning I would not be serving cauldron cakes and butterbeer at Three Broomsticks, I would be starting my new job. I brushed my hair and pulled it up on the side. Then I slipped on a jean skirt and finished off my look with a peasant cut blouse. I pulled an empty m&m's bag off the kitchen table and with a whoosh I was thrown into the east tower of Hogwarts.
With all my years at Hogwarts, I'd never been to the east tower once. Aaron had mentioned that it had been rarely used up until a year or two ago. The furnishings and tapestries on the walls seemed almost ancient. The lighting was dim and even though it had been day when I left... it was night? Odd... Hogwarts must be on a different time schedule... either that or an enchantment.
My stomach growled. In all the excitement I'd forgotten to eat. I didn't think anyone would mind if I paid a quick visit to Dot? I mean... she'd always been happy to help out when James and I went on midnight snack trips 3 years ago... ugh. I really needed to stop doing that to myself. My stomach did a flip flop at the thought of Potter. I held back a few tears, I was not going to cry on my first day at work. Ugh... I wish that stupid git would just get out of my head!!!!
I walked a ways down the hallway until I came to a painting of a bowl of fruit. I reached up and tickled the pear. It giggle, and the portrait swung open. It had been a long time since I'd crawled down the tunnel, but I had done it so many times I knew exactly where I was going. As I came into the kitchen the elves swarmed me with delight!
"Miz Lili!" they chanted
"Tis beens so long. Sos very longs!" Dot said eagerly "What can I gets for miz lili?"
"Just a cup of coffee dear." I responded
"Alrights. Sit downs at de table."
Within a few minutes I was enjoying a cup of coffee while reading the daily prophet. The elves rushed to the door for one reason or another I paid no attention and instead read an article about how Cornelius Fudge was up for the job of Minister. Ha, that was a laugh. Cornelius had been a few years a head of me at Hogwarts, and from what I gathered he was a narrowminded twit. Dumbledore would make the ideal minister, but he'd never leave Hogwarts, everyone knew that.
As I glanced up from my paper, my eyes almost popped out of their sockets, and my heart fell way into the pit of my stomach. Standing a few feet away and staring directly at me was none other than James Potter.
I sat frozen stiff. Why? Of all the days I could be here, he was here to? For a moment it was if the elves didn't exist, their frantic movements were completely oblivious to me. My eyes were focused on James Potter, no one and nothing else. He too seemed frozen. In the past 3 years we'd only ran into each other once before, and I'd been unconscious for it. Whoever I'd been expecting to see today, I'd never thought it be him. Obviously he'd thought the same. Why was he here? I didn't know and as much as I didn't want to, I cared, but why should I care when he didn't about me? His hair was just as untidy as it had always been. His face showed no sign of happiness, but his chocolately brown eyes bore into my emerald ones. It was like I'd gone into a trance for a quick second, and then I was awakened by the sound of Dots voice.
"Misters James!!! Sits downs by Miz Lili! Sits!!!"
With my heart still in the pit of my stomach I tore my eyes away from him and went back to my paper. I wasn't going to acknowledge him quite yet, in fear I'd say something that my heart just couldn't take.
He moved closer and sat down at the table. I brushed a strand of hair out of my face and continued to focus on the story. He didn't speak until Dot arrived with his cup of coffee.
"Lily, is that you?" he asked
I set my paper aside "Well of course it is stupid." I said sounding a little more bitter than I wanted to.
He was taken back. I think I shocked him a bit, but did he honestly think that after 3 years of silence I was just going to become buddy buddy with him?
"How have you been?" he asked
"I'm just fine Potter." I said sounding slightly annoyed. It was amazing, all I've wanted for the past 3 year was to see him again. Talk over exactly what happened because to this day I still had no clue why he broke it off. Now that he was here. I was angry with him and didn't quite feel like going into details. I was very tempted to just stand up and leave, but I didn't.
"Potter? Lils we haven't been on a last name basis since 6th year." Ow, my heart bent and twisted inside of me, Lils. That had been his pet name for me.
"My name is Lily, not Lils."
"What's with you?" He seemed confused.
I picked up my coffee and stood up. "I'm sorry Potter, but I have somewhere I have to be. Professor McGonagall asked me to give a lecture to some first years and I don't want to be late." Aaron had told me to tell no one I ran into the real reason I was there. He said that there were even some Hogwarts Professors Dumbledore didn't quite trust.
"Lils, wait!" he said standing up.
I turned my head and without thinking I said "Potter Buzz off!"
END OF CHAPTER FOUR
hey ya'll! OMG I'VE BEEN GETTING AMAZING AMOUNTS OF REVIEWS THANK YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE KEEP REVIEWING!!! PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!! PLEASE!!!! The more u review the more motivated I am... as long as I'm motivated I won't get writers block, and if I get writers block then I'll get stuck! SO PLEASE KEEP REVIEWING!!! PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE!!!
much luv,
LJ