I know this doesn't really make sense but it will soon hopefully. This isn't from Abby's pov though you'll see that when you read it.
Chapter 11 - Unforgivable Sinner
Flashback
She picked up the white envelope lying on the table with the rest of the mail. It was addressed to him. The writing looked familiar but yet unfamiliar at the same time. She was curious, it was different to the others. She put it back down. She couldn't open it could she? Surely it wouldn't harm; he wouldn't get it for another couple of days, being away an all. He would never know, she could seal it back up, she just needed to know who it was from that's it.
She slipped her finger under the stuck down flap. Cheap glue stuck it down, it lifted up easily. She pulled out the letter from inside and laid the envelope back on the table. The letter was the same crisp white, glowing oddly in the poorly lit room. She unfolded it carefully like it would break if she didn't. She saw the name, it was her, Abby. She was even more intrigued now, what was she writing to him for? She read the first line and then the second and the next until she was reading all of it.
Dear John,
I don't really know why I'm writing this, well I do, but I don't know why I don't wait until you get back, if you get back. It's one of the hardest things I've had to do, I thought it would be easier writing than telling you to your face. I should have told you when you were here before but it didn't seem right, not when you were with Kem. At least if I tell you by letter you don't have to explain why you were spending time with me. I take it she knows we used to see each other. She didn't seem too pleased when we spoke. Anyway this isn't about her. It's about me. Thanks for the letter by the way, you know the whole ER read it. It was good of you to think of me while you were busy playing superman and happy families. Sorry, I didn't want this to be bitter, I think you have a right to know.
When you were last over here I avoided you as much as possible. I didn't want you to know, I wasn't ready to tell you. I am now, but you're not here. So I had to write instead. I hope you don't think I'm making this up just to get you back, I'm not, I wouldn't do that. I've got myself sorted now, you know I'm back in med. school, I'm doing what I want. Which is why I'm telling you this, it's what I want. I'm pregnant. There I've done it now, I've told you. I'm keeping it, it's yours. I found out the day after you left to find Luka, when you didn't come back. I should have known before, I guess I didn't think. I'm five months now. You probably wonder why I'm telling you this, when you're not coming back, now you've got your own family. But you have a right to know. I don't want anything from you; I just wanted you to know. Sorry I'm repeating myself now. I don't really have anything left to say that's it.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me, I know I let you down. But that's in the past, nothing can change that now. I hope Kem treats you better than I did. I hope she makes you happy. You deserve to be happy. Stay safe.
Abby
She finished reading and sat there in shock. He couldn't get it, it would ruin everything. If he got it would he go running back to her? He had a new life now, she wouldn't let this letter wreck that. She put it back in its envelope and tucked it into her pocket. She wasn't going to let her change everything. No, she wouldn't let it.
End flashback
She sighed and picked up the letter and put it in the box with the other things and taped it up. Abby could wreck his life now, it didn't matter to her anymore.
Chapter 11 - Unforgivable Sinner
Flashback
She picked up the white envelope lying on the table with the rest of the mail. It was addressed to him. The writing looked familiar but yet unfamiliar at the same time. She was curious, it was different to the others. She put it back down. She couldn't open it could she? Surely it wouldn't harm; he wouldn't get it for another couple of days, being away an all. He would never know, she could seal it back up, she just needed to know who it was from that's it.
She slipped her finger under the stuck down flap. Cheap glue stuck it down, it lifted up easily. She pulled out the letter from inside and laid the envelope back on the table. The letter was the same crisp white, glowing oddly in the poorly lit room. She unfolded it carefully like it would break if she didn't. She saw the name, it was her, Abby. She was even more intrigued now, what was she writing to him for? She read the first line and then the second and the next until she was reading all of it.
Dear John,
I don't really know why I'm writing this, well I do, but I don't know why I don't wait until you get back, if you get back. It's one of the hardest things I've had to do, I thought it would be easier writing than telling you to your face. I should have told you when you were here before but it didn't seem right, not when you were with Kem. At least if I tell you by letter you don't have to explain why you were spending time with me. I take it she knows we used to see each other. She didn't seem too pleased when we spoke. Anyway this isn't about her. It's about me. Thanks for the letter by the way, you know the whole ER read it. It was good of you to think of me while you were busy playing superman and happy families. Sorry, I didn't want this to be bitter, I think you have a right to know.
When you were last over here I avoided you as much as possible. I didn't want you to know, I wasn't ready to tell you. I am now, but you're not here. So I had to write instead. I hope you don't think I'm making this up just to get you back, I'm not, I wouldn't do that. I've got myself sorted now, you know I'm back in med. school, I'm doing what I want. Which is why I'm telling you this, it's what I want. I'm pregnant. There I've done it now, I've told you. I'm keeping it, it's yours. I found out the day after you left to find Luka, when you didn't come back. I should have known before, I guess I didn't think. I'm five months now. You probably wonder why I'm telling you this, when you're not coming back, now you've got your own family. But you have a right to know. I don't want anything from you; I just wanted you to know. Sorry I'm repeating myself now. I don't really have anything left to say that's it.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me, I know I let you down. But that's in the past, nothing can change that now. I hope Kem treats you better than I did. I hope she makes you happy. You deserve to be happy. Stay safe.
Abby
She finished reading and sat there in shock. He couldn't get it, it would ruin everything. If he got it would he go running back to her? He had a new life now, she wouldn't let this letter wreck that. She put it back in its envelope and tucked it into her pocket. She wasn't going to let her change everything. No, she wouldn't let it.
End flashback
She sighed and picked up the letter and put it in the box with the other things and taped it up. Abby could wreck his life now, it didn't matter to her anymore.