How Much Can A Person Take With Out Losing It?
HIIIIII!!! I'm back for another one so I hope you all are ready, cuz I sure am!! Smiles so wide that her jaws hurt Hey whispers I'm going to tell you all a secret! Do you know what it is, I bet you don't know! I GOT REVIEWS! Stands up and does the cabbage patch dance then does a flip and hits her head on her Computer Ouch!! Any ways thanks so much ukeral15 and lunatic miko for you reviews! Oh and I can't forget nicknack9 (the very first person to review me ) you will be mentioned in one of these every fic! Okay now I'm going to say that I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, not even Kurama (sadly v.v) and shut up so as to get on with the fic! (The first part of the fic might be confusing but just keep reading and you'll understand)
"Hiei you and I never belonged together get the hell out of my life!" Kurama screamed
"Fine Kurama I don't know why I wasted some much time with you any! That's all you were: a constant burden." Hiei yelled coldly.
"Good then at least I know we feel the same about each other!!"
Hiei not wanting to even look at such a baka onna look-a-like anymore turned around and walked away shouting a few curses. After in which Kurama felt really guilty and started to regret it. Hiei would never be with him ever again and so he went into his kitchen and craved 'I'm sorry Hiei' into his leg then slit his throat. A few days later Hiei came to his house to witness his death. When he entered he had a huge smile on his face.
"Hn. Serves you right baka kitsune." And without a second thought he ran back to his lover Mukuro's loving arms....
"Nooooooooo!!" Kurama screamed as he awoke with a start. (A/N I scared you didn't I. Bad authoress, Bad. But it was fun! ) "What a horrible dream! Good thing it was only a nightmare. Hey where's Hiei. Oh.... that's right." He said dropping his head and staring at the tiny black gem in his hands. Just to know that he caused enough pain for Hiei to cry was enough to let his guilt eat away at him.
He shook his head. No, he refused to do what was in his dreams. But if Hiei hated him after that, it just might result in that way.....
Hiei sadly walked the streets of the Ningenkai, not even knowing that he was walking at all because he was so deep in thought (A/N I do that A LOT when I think of Kurama. And I'm very serious) He just couldn't believe it. He could not believe that either Kurama or himself had spoken those cruel and hurtful words to each other. How, How could such a beautiful creature as Kurama bring me so much joy then just suddenly rip it away from me. Hiei thought. After all the passionate nights, those loving stares, and constant declarations of love how could he? He brushed away a single tear that found it's way down Hiei's cheek and continued to think, all those broken promises, those deceitful eyes, and those soft ensnaring hands of his! But even still I can't bring myself to truly hate him. He absent-mindedly turned around another corner and found that this was Kurama and his old house....
Kurama immediately sensed him and sent one of his thoughts through Hiei's mind before he dashed off...
Hiei I'm so sorry but I know that this wont make you be any less angry with me, but I must beg of you to come to our room so that we can talk. In his mental message he stressed the word "our" just to make Hiei realize that it was indeed still his and Kurama's.
When Hiei heard his kind and begging words and his mind began to have a debate in his head. Why should you go see that Baka Kitsune all he will do is bring you more pain. Then another part of his head argued, but you still love him and who knows he might say that he messed up a try to be with you again
"Highly unlikely" he said out loud to himself. I'll just go up to see what he wants, then I'll leave right away. There is no telling what I do if I stay there to long.
After another small hesitation he quickly jumped in through the open window and stared at the fox with absolutely no emotion. "What do you want?" he asked as coldly as he could muster. Even though he still couldn't find it in his heart to be THAT cold to him.
"I just wanted to ask something of you. Then if you agree to it.. then....." he trailed off and turned his gaze away from Hiei. He just couldn't do it; he couldn't bring himself to look Hiei straight in the eye. It was also very obvious that Hiei couldn't look Kurama in his eyes either.
"Just ask your question Yoko."
Kurama quickly nodded, turning his back to Hiei. "Okay, I'll make this short and simple," he took a deep breath and then let it go as he continued, "Hiei I miss you already when I laid down last night I couldn't go to sleep and so last night Hiei, I had to cry my self to sleep. I dreamed and in my dream we had just got done with an argument and you left me. In my dream I began to feel guilty and went into the kitchen and craved 'I'm sorry Hiei' into my leg and after that I killed myself." He paused to take a breath and he could have sworn he saw Hiei flinch when he said he killed himself. "No sooner you arrived again and laughed at my dead body and, after telling me that I deserved it, ran away with Mukuro." Kurama finally got the courage to look Hiei in the eye.
"Is that it?" he asked.
"No. What I am trying to say is that I don't want that to ever come true. Also I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you hate me and so, I was wondering if we could just be what we started out as; friends."
"I don't hate you," he whispered, "I could never hate you." Hiei quickly shook his head. And cursed at his self for saying what he was thinking, not even realizing that he was doing it. He turned around quickly so that Kurama couldn't see all the emotions that were flowing through his eyes.
"I don't know just give me some time to think." Hiei said heading towards the window.
"Take as much time as you need." Kurama said so warmly that he froze where he was and turned around to look at Kurama. Kurama was smiling, but it wasn't truly happy. This smile looked... guiltful, longing, and apologetic. Damn that fox! That fake smile was tearing at his heart like Kurama's rose whip but with glass stuck in every thorn. When ever he saw Kurama like that... it pained him to think that it was he who had caused it and it was only him that could put a real one back on.
Hiei quickly jumped out the window and ran as fast and as far as he could. If he had stayed there for just one more second he would have done something stupid. Like beg Kurama to take him back or kiss Kurama so hard that his lips would bleed.
Hiei knew that he had to wait though. It had barley been one day and he was still really hurt and affected by what had happened. He knew if they got back together so soon then it would only cause more problems.
And as Kurama said he was going to take as much time as he needed...
Yayyyyyy! Another done!! Leans back in her uncomfortable computer chair Sorry for all the lovey-dovey stuff and this chapter being so short but I've been working on this since ten and its now exactly 5:30 in the morning and so I am really tired. Plus my mom said that I would die if I didn't get off the computer and you wouldn't want me to die would ya? Thanks for reading this fic and please Review! It makes me want to write some more! plus I feel all warm and gooey inside! Oh and the next chapter should be up in about one or two days sadly to say I have no life on summer vacations u.u Well thanks again. Until next time!
HIIIIII!!! I'm back for another one so I hope you all are ready, cuz I sure am!! Smiles so wide that her jaws hurt Hey whispers I'm going to tell you all a secret! Do you know what it is, I bet you don't know! I GOT REVIEWS! Stands up and does the cabbage patch dance then does a flip and hits her head on her Computer Ouch!! Any ways thanks so much ukeral15 and lunatic miko for you reviews! Oh and I can't forget nicknack9 (the very first person to review me ) you will be mentioned in one of these every fic! Okay now I'm going to say that I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, not even Kurama (sadly v.v) and shut up so as to get on with the fic! (The first part of the fic might be confusing but just keep reading and you'll understand)
"Hiei you and I never belonged together get the hell out of my life!" Kurama screamed
"Fine Kurama I don't know why I wasted some much time with you any! That's all you were: a constant burden." Hiei yelled coldly.
"Good then at least I know we feel the same about each other!!"
Hiei not wanting to even look at such a baka onna look-a-like anymore turned around and walked away shouting a few curses. After in which Kurama felt really guilty and started to regret it. Hiei would never be with him ever again and so he went into his kitchen and craved 'I'm sorry Hiei' into his leg then slit his throat. A few days later Hiei came to his house to witness his death. When he entered he had a huge smile on his face.
"Hn. Serves you right baka kitsune." And without a second thought he ran back to his lover Mukuro's loving arms....
"Nooooooooo!!" Kurama screamed as he awoke with a start. (A/N I scared you didn't I. Bad authoress, Bad. But it was fun! ) "What a horrible dream! Good thing it was only a nightmare. Hey where's Hiei. Oh.... that's right." He said dropping his head and staring at the tiny black gem in his hands. Just to know that he caused enough pain for Hiei to cry was enough to let his guilt eat away at him.
He shook his head. No, he refused to do what was in his dreams. But if Hiei hated him after that, it just might result in that way.....
Hiei sadly walked the streets of the Ningenkai, not even knowing that he was walking at all because he was so deep in thought (A/N I do that A LOT when I think of Kurama. And I'm very serious) He just couldn't believe it. He could not believe that either Kurama or himself had spoken those cruel and hurtful words to each other. How, How could such a beautiful creature as Kurama bring me so much joy then just suddenly rip it away from me. Hiei thought. After all the passionate nights, those loving stares, and constant declarations of love how could he? He brushed away a single tear that found it's way down Hiei's cheek and continued to think, all those broken promises, those deceitful eyes, and those soft ensnaring hands of his! But even still I can't bring myself to truly hate him. He absent-mindedly turned around another corner and found that this was Kurama and his old house....
Kurama immediately sensed him and sent one of his thoughts through Hiei's mind before he dashed off...
Hiei I'm so sorry but I know that this wont make you be any less angry with me, but I must beg of you to come to our room so that we can talk. In his mental message he stressed the word "our" just to make Hiei realize that it was indeed still his and Kurama's.
When Hiei heard his kind and begging words and his mind began to have a debate in his head. Why should you go see that Baka Kitsune all he will do is bring you more pain. Then another part of his head argued, but you still love him and who knows he might say that he messed up a try to be with you again
"Highly unlikely" he said out loud to himself. I'll just go up to see what he wants, then I'll leave right away. There is no telling what I do if I stay there to long.
After another small hesitation he quickly jumped in through the open window and stared at the fox with absolutely no emotion. "What do you want?" he asked as coldly as he could muster. Even though he still couldn't find it in his heart to be THAT cold to him.
"I just wanted to ask something of you. Then if you agree to it.. then....." he trailed off and turned his gaze away from Hiei. He just couldn't do it; he couldn't bring himself to look Hiei straight in the eye. It was also very obvious that Hiei couldn't look Kurama in his eyes either.
"Just ask your question Yoko."
Kurama quickly nodded, turning his back to Hiei. "Okay, I'll make this short and simple," he took a deep breath and then let it go as he continued, "Hiei I miss you already when I laid down last night I couldn't go to sleep and so last night Hiei, I had to cry my self to sleep. I dreamed and in my dream we had just got done with an argument and you left me. In my dream I began to feel guilty and went into the kitchen and craved 'I'm sorry Hiei' into my leg and after that I killed myself." He paused to take a breath and he could have sworn he saw Hiei flinch when he said he killed himself. "No sooner you arrived again and laughed at my dead body and, after telling me that I deserved it, ran away with Mukuro." Kurama finally got the courage to look Hiei in the eye.
"Is that it?" he asked.
"No. What I am trying to say is that I don't want that to ever come true. Also I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you hate me and so, I was wondering if we could just be what we started out as; friends."
"I don't hate you," he whispered, "I could never hate you." Hiei quickly shook his head. And cursed at his self for saying what he was thinking, not even realizing that he was doing it. He turned around quickly so that Kurama couldn't see all the emotions that were flowing through his eyes.
"I don't know just give me some time to think." Hiei said heading towards the window.
"Take as much time as you need." Kurama said so warmly that he froze where he was and turned around to look at Kurama. Kurama was smiling, but it wasn't truly happy. This smile looked... guiltful, longing, and apologetic. Damn that fox! That fake smile was tearing at his heart like Kurama's rose whip but with glass stuck in every thorn. When ever he saw Kurama like that... it pained him to think that it was he who had caused it and it was only him that could put a real one back on.
Hiei quickly jumped out the window and ran as fast and as far as he could. If he had stayed there for just one more second he would have done something stupid. Like beg Kurama to take him back or kiss Kurama so hard that his lips would bleed.
Hiei knew that he had to wait though. It had barley been one day and he was still really hurt and affected by what had happened. He knew if they got back together so soon then it would only cause more problems.
And as Kurama said he was going to take as much time as he needed...
Yayyyyyy! Another done!! Leans back in her uncomfortable computer chair Sorry for all the lovey-dovey stuff and this chapter being so short but I've been working on this since ten and its now exactly 5:30 in the morning and so I am really tired. Plus my mom said that I would die if I didn't get off the computer and you wouldn't want me to die would ya? Thanks for reading this fic and please Review! It makes me want to write some more! plus I feel all warm and gooey inside! Oh and the next chapter should be up in about one or two days sadly to say I have no life on summer vacations u.u Well thanks again. Until next time!