So a lot of people were saying that Ephram was too perfect...for a first time/teenaged dad and everything and I totally agree. So i tried to give him some flaws in this chapter...i hope you like it.

Madison went to the kitchen and started grabbing stuff out of the fridge. All of a sudden she hear Julia screaming from the other room. She rushed in and saw Ephram bent over her on the changing table.

"What's wrong?" She asked worriedly as she rushed over to them.

Ephram took a step back and let her take over, "I-I-I don't know-I don't know what happened I-I mean I was changing her...and-and she looked you know-red so I uh found that uh diaper rash stuff and put some o-on and then she started crying..." He sat down on the bed, he had no idea what he did wrong. He couldn't bare the thought of hurting his daughter, even if it was unintentional. That was his greatest fear.

Madison shook her head as she cleaned off the diaper rash ointment, "Ephram it's ok...it should have thrown that stuff out...this happened a couple days ago when I used that stuff...the doctor said she was allergic to something in it so he gave me something else...I should have told you-"

"No I should have been there...I should have known, I should have asked-I-I should have-"

"No Ephram...stop blaming yourself, I should have thrown that stuff out-don't worry about it...she's fine" Madison saw how mad at himself he was.

Ephram stood up from the bed, "I-I think I'm gonna take a walk...uh, I'll be back in an hour" He walked out of the room and out the front door. He had never been this scared in his life. He kept telling himself that it wasn't a big deal but it didn't help. Even though he knew she would be fine, just the thought of hurting her killed him. So much for being the perfect father. But who could be perfect? He couldn't be perfect...everyone made mistakes. He kept walking, not exactly sure where he was going. He was too scared to be near his daughter right now...what if he held her the wrong way- or worse-dropped her? What if he didn't know something else? Something important...what if Madison had left something out-she left the whole diaper rash thing out, that's pretty important. Why didn't she tell him? No. He couldn't blame her. She had been through so much, how could it not slip her mind? He should have been there. If he were there for the whole thing he would have known and then none of this would have happened. He wouldn't be killing himself for doing something that he couldn't have known was wrong. He kept telling himself to stop worrying. Julia was fine. This has happened before. Madison said she would be fine. But how did she know? Cause she was there. He wasn't there. Now his mind shifted to his father. This was his father's fault. He didn't tell him about Julia. He didn't tell him about Madison. He is the reason that Ephram wasn't there. He is the reason that Julia was crying. It was all his fault.

He shook the thoughts out of his head and walked into a near-bye coffee shop.

Madison finally calmed Julia down and put her in her bassinet. She walked out into the living room and let out a sigh of relief when she saw that Ephram's things were still there. Half of her thought that he would take off. She didn't know why it had affected him so much. It wasn't that big of a deal. It wasn't his fault, it was hers...she should have told him.

She went back to the kitchen and finished making lunch.

She was sitting on the couch eating a sandwich when Ephram walked in. He looked at her then looked down, "I-Im sorry about that...earlier...I don't know why...I was just scared I guess..."

Madison stood up and walked over to him, "Scared...scared of what?"

Ephram shook his head, "I don't know...everything...hurting her...b-being a bad father...all that stuff" He sat down at the table.

Madison sat down next to him, "Ephram...you didn't do anything wrong...you didn't know, it's not your fault...I just forgot to throw that stuff away..."

"I know...I know that, but still...I mean, even though I know all of that I still blame myself..."

"You're not the only one that's scared you know?"

Ephram looked at her, surprised, "Y-you're scared?"

"Of course I'm scared...what you think that I've had kids before?! I have no idea what I'm doing..."

"B-but you're like-like some kind of expert...you know everything"

Madison smiled, "yeah everything according to the stats...everything from the books that I read when I was too fat to move...but none of that stuff really helps...none of that stuff can really prepare you for this"

"I know...but if I was there...I-I would have known, I wouldn't have screwed up..."

Madison shook her head, "Ephram...don't blame this on yourself...don't blame it on anyone, Julia is fine...she's ok...it's over, and now you know...so maybe it was a good thing..."

Ephram looked down and sighed, "I dunno...I still can't get over it for some reason...I mean I know that I should, but I can't...I just feel so bad...like I caused her pain"

"That's exactly how I felt when I did that the first time...even though there was no possible way I could have known...I just felt horrible...I guess it's normal..."

Ephram looked up at her, "yeah...I guess so"