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Note: The song used in this chapter is by Selena, called 'Dreaming of You'.
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Chapter 13: A Lost Love
Chris paced back and forth in his room a couple nights later as Wyatt and Michael sat down on his bed.
"Chris, calm down. We'll find her," Wyatt said, staring sadly at his younger brother.
"Calm down?!" Chris yelled facing him. "Wyatt, I assure you that if Amanda had been missing for two fuckin days, you wouldn't be calm!" He covered his face with his hands as tears came to his eyes for the hundredth time since he found out the Bianca was missing.
"Oh, no. No more crying," Wyatt said, getting up and holding Chris close. "Shh. No more crying."
"I'm just so worried," Chris cried into Wyatt's shoulder.
"I know. I know, Chris. We all are," Wyatt said, rubbing his back. "That's why everyone's out looking for her. Everyone. Even Uncle Jason, the mortal in the family."
"I don't understand how this could happen," Chris cried. "I - I feel asleep after her, and then when I woke up, she was gone. I can't lose her. I just can't."
"I know, Chris. It'll be okay. I promise," Wyatt said, forcing back tears that Chris's pain was causing. Wyatt couldn't feel the pain that Chris was feeling, but knowing that his little brother was in so much pain caused him more pain than he could ever imagine.
Michael got up and hugged Chris from behind.
"You can't promise that," Chris cried.
"Yes I can. And I just did," Wyatt said, smiling slightly.
Chris pulled away from Wyatt and Michael and sat down on the bed, wiping his face. "I'm trying so hard not cry and to stay strong, but I can't do it." He looked up at his brothers, tears in his eyes. "I just can't. It's too hard."
"I know, Chris," Wyatt said, sitting down next to him. "I know it's hard. I wouldn't be able to stay as strong as you have been through all of this if it was Amanda who was missing."
Paige walked in slowly, Phoebe, Piper, Leo, Amanda and Rachel following her. "Chris, I found Bianca."
"So why don't you look happy?" Chris asked, standing up.
"Chris, I'm so sorry, but I found Bianca dead," Paige said, handing him Bianca's wedding ring. "I'm so sorry."
"No! You can't be sorry because it's not true!" Chris yelled as tears started to stream down his face.
"Chris -" Piper started.
"No!!!" Chris screamed, dropping to his knees, hugging himself as he sobbed.
"Oh god," Amanda said, leaning on Wyatt as tears slowly made their way down her face.
Leo knelt next to Chris and held him close.
"We think a demon got her," Phoebe said, wiping off her face as a few tears fell.
Chris looked up at her, still sobbing. "I'll get . . . who - whoever did this . . . to her," he said between sobs. "I swear . . . I will."
"Um, can I talk to everyone in the living room?" Piper asked, taking a few deep breaths. "Chris, honey, you stay here and try to get some rest."
Leo looked up at her. "Fill me in later. I'm gonna stay here."
Piper nodded as she followed the other six walked up the stairs and into the kitchen. She followed them into the living room and sat down between her sisters on the couch, putting her head in her hands. She looked up at everyone. "We have to be strong. For Chris. Yes, we all loved Bianca. And we miss her so much. But Chris was in love with Bianca. He was married to her. And everyone here knows that it would hurt a lot more to lose the person that you're in love with than someone like Bianca is to us. For Chris, he did lose the love of his life. And he's going to be hurting a lot, a lot, a lot worse than we are. So, no crying when Chris is around or when we think he's around or can hear us. Because we need to stay strong for him. We need to be there for him. But, we have to let him know that it's okay to cry," she said as tears came to her eyes. She took a few deep breaths then wiped her eyes. "It's okay for him to cry. But it won't always be okay for us to cry. Okay?"
Everyone nodded and looked at the doorway and Leo walked in.
"Is Chris okay?" Phoebe asked hopefully.
Leo shook his head. "No. He's the farthest from it that you could be. But, he asked me to leave him alone. So I did."
"Leo, he had depression once. And we all know that he's going to be forced back into it. I don't think that we should leave him alone just yet," Piper said, standing up.
"Well, we can't be around him everyone moment of everyone hour," Wyatt said, staring at her. "We just have to trust Chris not to do anything stupid."
"Look, Wyatt, I know how much it hurts to lose someone that you care about so much. I lost your aunt, and then I lost your father so he could be an elder, and then I lost Chris," Piper said, tears in her eyes. "It hurts, and I was almost driven to the point where I couldn't stand it anymore. But, the first time I had your father and you Aunt Phoebe there to help me, the second time I had you Aunt Phoebe and your Aunt Paige to help me, and the third time I had all three of them. So, as long as Chris has someone there to help me, he'll be okay. He'll get through this. We just have to be his positive thinkers."
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"Why, Bianca?! Why did you leave me?!" Chris sobbed on his bed. "Why?! What did I do that was so wrong that you had to leave me?! I loved you so much! Why?! Why did you leave me all alone?!"
He sobbed into his pillow more before getting up off the bed, still sobbing, and walking over to her CD collection. He picked out her favourite CD and started playing her favourite song, sobbing as he listened to it.
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Late at night when all the world is sleeping,
I stay up and think of you,
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are,
Thinking of me too.
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight,
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight,
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be,
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me.
Wonder if you ever see me,
And I wonder if you know I'm there,
If you looked in my eyes,
Would you see what's inside,
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close,
But so far all I have are dreams of you,
So I wait for the day,
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do.
I'll be dreaming of you tonight,
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight,
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be,
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me.
Corazon
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Como to necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, como te extrano.
Late at night when all the world is sleeping,
I stay up and think of you,
And I still can't believe,
That you came up to me and said "I love you",
I love you too.
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight,
Till tomorrow and for all of my life,
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be,
Then here in my room dreaming with you endlessly.
Dreaming of you tonight,
With you tonight,
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight,
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be,
Then here in my room,
I'll be dreaming of you tonight,
Endlessly,
And I'll be holding you tight,
Dreaming . . . With you . . . Tonight,
Endlessly.
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Chris sobbed, repeating the song over and over while he held Bianca's pillow to his chest, taking in her scent, crying on it, and staring at the picture of the two that were hanging on the wall across the room.
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"Do you hear that?" Piper asked, listening intently.
"Yeah. Chris's playing her song," Wyatt said, looking down at the ground. "God, he's not gonna come out of there for days."
"Would you?" Michael asked, looking over at him.
Wyatt shook his head. "No. No, I wouldn't."
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God, I'm still listening to this song. And, when I write, I like to feel what my characters feel. And, it's possible, because I'm an emotional person. And I only feel half of what Chris feels and listening to this song makes me want to cry. But, don't worry! He'll get over it soon! Anyway, review please! Ciao
Hannah